i still love you so much

I looked at him, and for some reason I remembered talking to Lu Feng on the balcony that day. He smiled slightly, pressed his hand on his chest, and said in a low voice, "He is my heart".That kind of expression made people feel soft-hearted, as if seeing a dragon, fighting to defend his treasure until it was covered with scars and dripping with blood, but it was able to lie down on the treasure and sleep peacefully after victory, with its soft belly undulating slightly. People mistakenly think it is the most docile big cat.

Impulsively, I didn't control my mouth and asked, "Do you really like me that much?"

Ke Luo grabbed the steering wheel tightly, "I've liked you so much since a long time ago", with a dejected look, "You won't believe me anymore, I know it."

Finally... Are you discouraged?

"I won't give up." In the gap between the traffic lights, Ke Luo said.

I seem to have seen Lu Feng back then.

I don't know if I was too tired, but I fell asleep in the car.

When I woke up the next day, Ke Luo's arm was around my waist, like every morning I woke up in this bedroom, even if I couldn't turn around, I guess the sun must be shining through the undrawn curtains now Come in, be reflected by the small ornaments on the coffee table by the bay window on the photo frame on the bedside table.That was the happiest time of my life.

I haven't slept so soundly for a long time, I can't wake up, I thought it was three years ago, nothing happened, and nothing needs to be changed.

It took me a while to wake up.

I took Ke Luo's hand away and walked into the bathroom, everything was exactly the same as before I left, there was no difference.

After I washed up, I couldn't find my clothes from yesterday.

Open the closet, if my tooth cups are there, then the clothes I didn't take should also be there.Although outdated, it can be worn barely.

My old clothes are all there, but they are packed in dust bags one by one, which takes up half of the space.

The other half is the new season of the brand I like, my taste, my size.

How could this person be like this.

Why is he so nice.

The devil in my heart is urging me to be more selfish, more selfish, as long as you look back, this excellent boy is yours.

I was almost bewitched by the idea.

Pick out a set and slip it on in pieces, where the soft fabric covers the body and fits like a hug.Looking in the full-length mirror, besides I still maintain a good figure and face, there are inevitable new wrinkles.

And the boy I love deeply is only 24 years old.

Even if I'm selfish, I still have the right to stay with him for a long time.

"Mo Yan? Mo Yan?" I heard Ke Luo looking for me around the house.

The sound is getting closer.

I look out the door.

The moment he saw me, his breath became gentle.

"Mo Yan."

Ke Luo called my name gently and softly, and walked towards me, like a boy in a love movie he watched when he was young, walking towards his lover, his voice and eyes were full of love, making people dazzled, like stepping on the void Among them, unreal, too unreal, this is probably another dream of mine.

So I responded with trembling hugs, and too-hard kisses.The clothes he just put on were taken off by the people who bought them and thrown aside, and his only trousers have gone to nowhere.The part of my body that I thought had been pure and ascetic for a long time was snuggling upright with its familiar playmate, being rubbed together by Ke Luo's hand, I felt my mind being washed over and over again, his breath filled me with hallucinations, and my hand was being touched Manipulated by his hands, the only thing that can chase him is my mouth, and he never stops kissing me, so the only thing I can take the initiative is to breathe hard in Ke Luo's overwhelming kisses, and finally he is taken to a place I have never been to highlands.He hugged me sideways in his arms, stroked my body with one hand, and persistently licked my fingers clean one by one. These stimulations and strong aftertaste made me tremble slightly in his arms.

I managed to regain my composure and was drawn into the next round.

"Mo Yan, I love you"

"Moyan"

His tears hit my face and we both had a salty taste in our mouths.

I love you too.

I pulled his head down and kissed him hard.

When I woke up again, I was on the bed, and Ke Luo leaned against me and looked at me.The body has been washed, and there is no real insertion, so it is not uncomfortable.

"you're awake."

I nodded.

The rationality that was swept away by the backlog of emotions and desires for too long, I don't regret this incident, but I still feel embarrassed, I don't know how to continue my plan to stay away from Ke Luo.

"Mo Yan, can you give me a chance? Allow me to appear by your side. Let's start our relationship again. Ten years. Give me ten years. If you still don't want me, I won't bother you, okay?"

No one has such a long trial period.

However, ten years later, Ke Luo will be 34 years old, which is the golden age of a man, and I am 52 years old. No matter how I take care of myself, I will be an old man.If he gets tired of me ahead of time, that's fine. If we last ten years and I leave him, he can find a better one, and I have nothing to regret.

Can I be a little more selfish?

I looked at Ke Luo.

He let me know that dating is not just about 419. You can also watch movies, play basketball, cook a delicious meal at each other's house, and play games together.Although I was just a substitute, it was the first time I believed in love. I felt that I could grab someone to accompany me until I grow old, and my happiness was unreal.

He once gave me a home, we decorated it together, perfected and enriched it together, although it was not long, but that was the first time I knew the feeling of someone waiting for you to come home, those things I thought I would never get in this life before going out He gave me the kisses and hugs after returning home, and I learned to give them to him.

The reversed photo in my wallet was the Polaroid that he insisted on taking, the stiff old man and the beautiful boy with a bright smile, he didn’t want it, he threw it in the drawer, but he followed me all the time, from LA to T City, From T City to S City, and then from S City to LA, it has become a treasure that I can't lose and dare not look at.

I love him so much that he makes a fool of himself, and I have made a lot of hardships for nothing, and I even feel inferior, and I went away to a foreign country just for a scene of confession.

I can't bear Ke Luo, I really can't bear it.

"Ok", I answered him.

Ke Luo hugged me excitedly.

Before, I knew that I behaved too badly when I pursued him, and after being together, I gradually refused to act weak in front of him.Not to mention these three years.

But at this moment, I was in Ke Luo's arms, and my memories were haunting me, and I suddenly felt sad and sad.

It’s not a good picture for an old man in his 40s to cry in other people’s arms, but I couldn’t control it at all, biting Ke Luo’s shoulder, the tears couldn’t stop falling, accompanied by tears, and there was a dilapidated bellows in my throat The sobbing, crying like a funeral scene, skillfully humiliating in front of Ke Luo.

Ke Luo panicked, I know I am ugly now, although he has probably seen my ugly appearance all over, I just don’t want him to look at me, I bite his shoulder and don’t let go, he can only comfort me once and for all Back, coaxing me in my ear, gently, tirelessly, he repeated "Mo Yan" and "I love you" over and over again until I calmed down.

Like a kid who has just fallen in love, Ke Luo has been staring at me, his hands and feet are not idle, making the air sticky, and I am getting more and more embarrassed and afraid to look at him.I don't think this can go on like this, so I decided to get up.

After washing up again, it was almost noon.

Ke Luo said that he had told Victor where I was, and agreed to take Victor to play in the afternoon, and invited me to stay for dinner.

Simple pasta, this is the first time Ke Luo cooked western food for me, it tastes very good.

"Mo Yan, is it delicious? This is the first time I've made it for others. If I don't like it, I'll try other ones." Ke Luo looked at me obediently.

"No, it's delicious."

Ke Luo looked very happy, "I will learn more about Western food," he said vowedly.

"Don't worry, the Chinese food is also very good."

"Then I'll cook both for you."

I lowered my head and rolled the noodles carefully.

Ke Luo tried to please me, but I have never been able to resist.

I took Victor out to play in the afternoon. Ke Luo and Victor got along well as always. Ke Luo was very careful and saved me a lot of energy.

On the way back, Victor was tired and fell asleep. Ke Luo hugged him and refused to let me take over.Passing by an alley, there was an old blind man with white hair sitting there, with a dilapidated fortune-telling banner propped aside, and a broken bowl in front of him with a few coins in it.I was so moved with compassion that I put all the coins on my body into the bowl.

The old blind man picked up the bowl and showed a satisfied smile, which seemed inscrutable. He clasped his fists, "Good-hearted man, your life is over, and all your sufferings will be rewarded. If you have a child under your knees, you will have even more blessings. Just let go of your heart." , don’t embarrass yourself.”

He can speak.

I also left Victor with half a bag of cookies that he didn't finish.

I didn't tell Mrs. Shu Nian about my reunion with Ke Luo. Seeing that I didn't announce it, Ke Luo also didn't say anything, and didn't ask me what to ask. I was relieved because I couldn't explain why.

After having fun, I took Victor back to LA.

Ke Luo retreated the house next door and officially moved in.

I told Victor that Uncle Ke Luo is daddy's boyfriend.

Victor said that he already knew, and that he liked Uncle Ke Luo very much, so I don't have to worry about it.

scared me.

Victor said it was because Uncle Keluo's eyes followed daddy all the time.

I blushed under the gaze of my son's clear eyes, gave a dry cough, and kissed Victor, "Thank you for your understanding, my dear Victor."

Victor kissed me too.

My son is simply the cutest and well-behaved kid in the world.

One day, after Victor fell asleep, Ke Luo said he wanted to talk to me.

I said yes, what to talk about.

Ke Luo sat down next to me and put a familiar medicine bottle on the table.

"This is in the clothes you changed in S City. I thought you just needed to beat the jet lag, but there are more than one bottle in your cupboard." Ke Luo looked at me seriously, "Mo Yan, why do you need sleeping pills?" ?”

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☆, sweet and greasy