Difficult to return

A bowl of the simplest clear noodle soup, but my husband also made the same light but rich taste as himself.

Her husband was sitting across from him quietly, with his head lowered, there was still a slight sadness between his brows, he must still be sad.

It's easy to feel whether a person loves or doesn't love someone. Even if he was born in a bureaucracy, Lu Mingchen already knew in his heart that his husband didn't love him.At the beginning, I just didn't believe it, and blindly deceived myself and others.A few years later, her husband took good care of him as always, and he had no other lover, which made Lu Mingchen feel that maybe her husband was cold by nature, so he couldn't have such a hot emotion as "love".

However, he personally proved that her husband is not indifferent, he can take the initiative, he can be enthusiastic, he can do some subtle and romantic things, and he can love others, but he just doesn't love him.

After Lu Mingchen finally proved this fact, he wasn't angry with his husband, he just felt sad. Both he and her husband were sad, as if the gears of fate suddenly staggered somewhere he didn't know, and then turned around by mistake. go down.

After eating the noodles and drinking the last mouthful of soup, he wiped his mouth.The husband immediately took the empty bowl and asked, "Is it enough? I'll make you something to eat if it's not enough."

"No, that's enough."

Now that the husband is still willing to treat him with such care, does it mean that there is still room for redemption, that he can correct this wrong gear?

Song Shuhua took the bowls into the kitchen and washed them.After tidying up everything, he sat at the dinner table again, sitting face to face with Lu Mingchen, he held his hands nervously, and when the end came, he still flinched, not knowing how to speak.

"Ah Hua, what do you want to tell me?"

Her husband seldom made excessive demands with him, even if the demands were not excessive, it would be difficult to say them out of his mouth.

Song Shuhua struggled for a while, but said, "You go ahead."

"Okay." Lu Mingchen picked up the hot water on the table and poured a cup for her husband, and also poured a cup for himself, with a serious look on business, "What I'm going to say may scare you a little, but trust me Never hurt you, okay."

"Yeah." Song Shuhua nodded hesitantly and took a sip of water.

"Ah Hua, I know you like to wear skirts..."

Lu Mingchen saw her husband put down the water glass suddenly. Because he didn't control the force, the glass collided with the table and made an excessive sound.He immediately reached out and held her husband's hand on the table, and said all in one breath: "I also know that you are doing a cross-dressing show in Queen..."

Song Shuhua withdrew his hand suddenly, and the movement was too big, knocking down the water glass next to him.He didn't even have time to lift the cup, his eyes were wide open, his face was full of panic, as if he wanted to explain something, he opened his mouth, but he didn't say a word, only breathing more and more quickly.

Lu Mingchen firmly held his trembling hand again: "I'm not blaming you, and I won't tell my parents, don't be afraid, calm down..."

"..."

"Don't worry, it's okay, you are my husband no matter what, and I have no reason to hurt you."

"..."

"Ah Hua, it's okay, I've already thought it through this time, if you really like it so much and can't let go, I won't force you to give up, so don't be so nervous, don't be afraid..."

With Lu Mingchen's comfort, Song Shuhua gradually calmed down.He took out the hand that was being held, lifted the water glass, put his hands under the table and repeatedly stirred his fingers, and buried his head deeply.

The poured water flows along the edge of the table to the ground, making a small sound of "tick" and "tick".

Of course Lu Mingchen knew that her husband was still in shock, so he didn't speak, but gave him time to digest all this.

After a while, Song Shuhua raised his head and asked softly, "When did you know?"

"It's been a while."

Seeing her husband's difficult appearance, Lu Mingchen said again: "I didn't say it immediately, because I need time to adjust myself... I don't want to have some meaningless quarrels."

Song Shuhua's mind was a little blank at this time, and her husband discovered his secret.He swallowed hard: "You, have you seen the performance?"

"Seen."

"Then, then you..."

"I don't like it, but I can accept it."

Song Shuhua's eyes widened again, staring blankly at her husband's face that was as calm as a mirror and without any waves.

He even said "acceptable".

How could someone like him accept a partner to do such a performance?

"Ah Hua..."

The dark thorn hidden in my heart for so long finally saw the light of day at this moment.When Lu Mingchen really said the words "acceptable" to her husband, he was not as embarrassed as he imagined, as if he had really accepted everything about her husband without any hindrance.

At this moment, he seemed to understand the essence and true meaning of "love". As her husband said, it lies in overcoming selfish nature, in giving and giving, and being willing and happy for it.

Even calling her husband's name became gentle.

The husband stopped him from continuing to say something: "You...give me some time..."

Lu Mingchen nodded.Thinking it took him so much time to digest all this, the husband should also take some time to accept that his secret was discovered.

The husband was sitting across from him, he didn't know how intense the psychological struggle was, and his expression was not very good.

He fully understood that it would take some time for her husband to reaccept him, and it would take more time to rekindle his relationship with him.But he will wait. After so many years, he has come here in a daze. Now that he has a glimmer of hope, he has no reason not to wait.

The husband has been sitting motionless for quite a while, and I don't know how long he will last in this state, Lu Mingchen suggested: "Ah Hua, why don't you rest first, you can tidy yourself up slowly, and I can leave today as well."

Song Shuhua shook his head.

Lu Mingchen didn't urge him any more, he was able to wait no matter how long he was asked to wait.

After a while, Song Shuhua was finally able to raise his head and look directly into his eyes.Still with the uneasy expression, the hands on the table were clasped together, holding each other tightly, as if this was the only support for each other.

Lu Mingchen once again reached out to hold her husband's nervous hands, trying to use the warmth and strength of his palms to calm his lover down: "It will be fine, nothing has changed."

The husband's tenderness and consideration at this time made Song Shuhua's throat filled with guilt, making him unable to say anything, and his determination was severely shaken.But he knew better that if this mistake continued, it would not only destroy himself, but also Lu Mingchen.

Because of the mistakes made by his cowardice back then, he hoped that he would not continue to be so cowardly.

"Mingchen..."

"Well, tell me, I'll listen."

"...Let's get a divorce."

"..."

Lu Mingchen held her husband's hand and took it back. He suddenly suspected that there was something wrong with his ears, or that her husband's voice was too low, because he only saw the shape of the other's mouth opening and closing, as if he didn't hear the sound.

He rubbed his face, pinched the center of his eyebrows again, and looked up at his husband again, as if he didn't know what kind of expression to use. Amidst all kinds of confused expressions, he pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled briefly.

"Ah Hua, you, I didn't catch what you just said."

Song Shuhua looked away and lowered his eyelashes.He couldn't look directly at her husband's face at all, but he still firmly said again: "Let's get a divorce, Mingchen. We have long ago..."

"No!" Lu Mingchen suddenly yelled, patted the table and stood up, "Who said we were going to get a divorce? Song Shuhua, don't mention these two words in front of me again."

Song Shuhua looked up at her husband, Lu Mingchen stood up and blocked the light on the top, his angry face was completely in the shadow, looking a little scary, and Song Shuhua was also in the shadow cast by her husband, swallowing saliva repeatedly.

But for many things, once you open your mouth, it will not be so difficult later.

"Mingchen, you actually understand in your heart that our marriage has always existed in name only, it's just an empty shell..."

Lu Mingchen strode over suddenly, squeezed Song Shuhua's shoulders with both hands, stared at him with bloodshot eyes from all kinds of violent emotions, viciously, as if he wanted to eat people.

He gritted his teeth and stopped her husband from continuing: "I told you to stop talking, can't you understand me?" He shook his husband's shoulders, "I've said it all, I can accept you wearing skirts, I can accept you to perform , I accept everything, what do you want from me?"

Tears suddenly filled Song Shuhua's eyes, he didn't know why he suddenly wanted to cry at this moment.

Lu Mingchen in front of him was furious, and it was also the first time he really faced her husband's anger.Song Shuhua was not afraid, he just felt sad looking at his angry husband, an emotion different from guilt, just sad.

His tears caught Lu Mingchen a little off guard.Song Shuhua seldom cried in front of him, so he didn't know that her husband's tears could hurt him so much.His anger was extinguished immediately, he let go of his grip on her husband's arm, and hugged her into his arms helplessly and distressed.

"I'm sorry..." He wrapped his arms around her husband's shoulders and rubbed his hair lightly with the other, the hair in his throat was choked, "Ah Hua, I know you are having a hard time... me and you, we are all having a hard time. I also know that we There's something wrong with my marriage, but it's going to be okay, it's going to work out, trust me, okay?"

These words made Song Shuhua cry even more, he didn't know what was wrong with him, but suddenly broke down, grabbed his husband's clothes, and just cried loudly.

Lu Mingchen didn't know how to make such a husband cry, and he didn't even know why he cried like this, so he could only hold him until his crying gradually subsided.

Song Shuhua finally let go, his eyes and nose were red from crying, looking so pitiful and helpless.How could such a person be divorced?After leaving the marriage, what else can protect him?

"Go and wash, and sleep well after washing. You are too tired, let's talk about what you have tomorrow." Lu Mingchen wiped the tears on his face.

Song Shuhua took the tissue, he could not say anything now, got up silently and went back to the room.