Difficult to return

【I am coming.Came late, in the back row. 】

Song Shuhua didn't see any suspicious person on the stage, and he didn't immediately receive the other party's message or invitation to treat him to dinner after stepping off the stage. He was impatient, so he directly sent a message to confirm.

After getting an affirmative answer, he felt a little shy again.When a person comes, has he seen his real appearance?Do you understand the tone of your own words?

He knows that this is very abrupt, but if he wants to get the other party's truth, he must first express his own truth.Song Shuhua was very apprehensive, he didn't know what kind of consequences this action would bring, but that impulse forced him to do it, even if he broke the boat and smashed his body to pieces.

【Oh. 】

After sending this word, Song Shuhua didn't know what to say.What he wanted to say most, the fire in his heart, had already been said on stage, and it was the other party's turn to say something next.However, the other party didn't seem to be burned by his flames, and remained silent for a while without replying.

This made Song Shuhua a little overwhelmed, did he not understand his already bold but still not direct enough expression?Or was it too sudden that the other party didn't know how to respond to him?

He repeatedly deletes and enters into the dialog box——

"Do you want to have supper together?"

Do you really want to ask him out?But today he is already very proactive. Will being too proactive put pressure on the other party?If you put your posture too low, will the other party despise you?

Hesitation, hesitation, Song Shuhua looked down on himself a little.

After a few minutes, no message from the other party came in.He thought desperately, it's all over, anyway, he has been preparing for today's performance for so long, and he must have courage and courage, even if it's just this time.

Just when he made up his mind to ask the other party to meet, the other party's message came——

[Tita, there is something I want to tell you. 】

Song Shuhua's breathing was a little fast, and he deleted the invitation in one breath, with fine sweat on his forehead.I have something to tell him, what is it?Could it be what he thought?Excitement and apprehension made the fingertips of his input tremble slightly.

【you say. 】

The top of the dialog box shows that the other party is typing, but the input time seems to be infinitely extended, like a blunt saw, repeatedly pulling and grinding in Song Shuhua's heart.Finally, the other party said——

[The conflict between my lover and I was recently resolved, and we reconciled. 】

Song Shuhua stared at this sentence, his face was hot with excitement just now, but now it feels like falling into an ice cave.

"We are reconciled" - these words instantly sharpened the blunt saw, and cut a bloody gash in his heart in one breath, the pain spread, and his mind went blank.

Only one person's last decency and reason are still manipulating him mechanically, making him knock out those polite words.

Song: [Really, that's great, congratulations. 】

Lu: [Thank you very much for enlightening me so much before.Also, today's performance is also perfect, and you look beautiful in formal attire. 】

Song: [Really, I thought everyone didn't like it. 】

Lu: [No, people who really like you will not change because of things like appearance. 】

Song: [I hope so. 】

Lu: [Don't be sad. 】

Song: [ sad?why should i be sad 】

Lu: [I mean the guests who left early today, don't feel sorry for losing them. 】

Song: [I see.In fact, it was still a bit hurt, after all, it was far from my expectation. 】

Lu: [It's okay, it's just a guest, bear with it, this hurt feeling will soon pass. 】

Lu: 【Look more at the people around you who truly love you, the people who have been waiting to be seen by you, they are the ones you should really give your affection to. 】

In just a few words, Song Shuhua had lost all his strength, and for the first time wanted to end the conversation with this person like never before.

Song: 【It's very late, don't you go home yet?Does your lover mind if you come home so late? 】

Lu: 【Yes, so this is the last time I come to QUEEN, and it should be the last time I talk to you. I'm really sorry. 】

Song: [It's okay, you originally added me because of conflicts with your lover, but now there are no conflicts, and we don't seem to need to chat anymore. 】

Tears blurred his eyes, and big drops fell on the phone screen. On his own tears, he typed the last line.

Song: [Let's delete each other, so as not to misunderstand your lover.I wish you happiness. 】

Lu: [ I wish you happiness too.goodbye! 】

After saying this, the other party's profile picture turned gray.

When Song Shuhua sent "goodbye", the software prompted that the other party was no longer his friend, and the sending of the message failed.

He literally deleted him.Song Shuhua threw the phone aside, and couldn't help crying on the makeup table.

It turned out that he was self-righteous and passionate about all of this. The other party had never liked him. From the beginning to the end, he was just a substitute for the other party's lover.

He is so stupid, so ridiculous, just because of other people's few meals, a few words of comfort and understanding, he has never even seen a real person, so he fell into it so deeply, fell in love with the other party without reservation, there is no one in this world more than him Stupid people.

Coming out of Queen in a daze, he no longer had the energy to disguise carefully, so Zhou Yao's driver directly sent him back to his home.

Surprisingly, the house was dark and the husband was not there.

My husband would call him when he came back late or didn't come home, but today he didn't.Song Shuhua has no intention of being entangled in this, he only has his own failure and the pain after this failure.He shut himself in the bathroom and sank into the tub, crying again.

It hurt so much, it felt like there was a void in my heart, and all the empty content and feelings turned into tears, pouring out continuously.

He thought it was already very painful to force himself to withdraw from his feelings for her husband back then, but that little pain was far less than the real pain of losing love.But his love can only start on his own, and then end on his own.

He regards himself as a firework, and releases it for a short time without hesitation. After a brief moment of splendor, there is only an endless night left.

Originally, I wanted to fall asleep as soon as possible, at least I could save this shock and sadness until the next day, but I couldn’t fall asleep in bed no matter what, only the tears flowed sideways and wet the pillow.

He couldn't stand it anymore, so he could only call Xiaofeng.

At two o'clock in the middle of the night, Xiaofeng received a crying call from Song Shuhua, put on his clothes and came out of the company dormitory, went to the balcony outside, and asked about the cause of the incident anxiously.

Xiaofeng gritted his teeth and cursed at the scumbag on the phone.

"TT, don't blame yourself, you are not wrong at all, nothing at all, really, no one will be so nice to others for no reason, it's not that you misunderstood him at all. You let everyone see, everyone will think These behaviors of his are definitely interested in you and want to pursue you. Now he says he is not interested in you but does those things, isn’t that just deliberately making you fall in love with him and playing with your feelings?

"Don't be sad, I've seen this kind of scumbag man who plays with people's hearts a lot, it's not worth it at all. It's just that I didn't expect him to be this kind of person at first.

"Give me his phone number, and I'll call him to scold him to death.

"TT, don't cry, you cry so much that I want to cry. Why are you so good, you have to suffer this kind of suffering, and you have to meet such a bastard? You should have a good life and have the happiest life Love is what it is.

"I know you are sad now, but you have to believe that you will come out, just like me, you will come out and stay away from scumbags."

……

It wasn't until the sky turned pale that Song Shuhua exhausted his last bit of energy, and fell asleep with tears all over his face.

The dream is complicated, and when I wake up, I don't know what year, month, or where I am.

In the haze, looking out the window into the orange glow, consciousness slowly returned, remembering that I was at home, and my husband seemed to have not come back, and then remembering the tragic night last night, my mood plummeted to freezing point.

I have a splitting headache and I don't want to cry anymore. I just woke up, but I just feel exhausted. I close my eyes again, but I don't feel sleepy anymore.

The rays of the sun faded little by little, and a new night fell again. Song Shuhua just lay on the bed with his face sideways, staring out motionlessly until the phone rang.

He didn't have the strength to pick up the phone, but the phone rang over and over again, and he finally picked it up, it was Xiaofeng.

"TT, why don't you answer the phone? I sent you a message at noon and didn't reply, and I didn't answer the call. Who are you scaring to death?"

"I'm fine. I'm sleeping. I just woke up." His voice was hoarse, and his swollen eyelids were heavy.

"I've been sleeping since morning? Haven't you eaten yet?"

"Not hungry." Song Shuhua raised his arms to cover his eyes.

"Eat even if you're not hungry. You haven't eaten all day, what can you do?" Xiaofeng was noisy, listening to the background sound, as if in a restaurant cafeteria or something, "Honey, listen I said, I know you're sad now, and you don't want to eat. But things are already like this, you have to cheer yourself up. It's okay to be so sad for this kind of scumbag, and it's not worth hurting your body for him. "

Song Shuhua didn't speak, because his friend's concern made him feel a little sore.

"Get up and get something to eat, or can I order you a takeaway?"

"No, there is food at home."

"Then get up and get yourself something to eat. I'm eating too, and the small restaurant is crowded to death during off-duty hours."

"Okay, I'll go get something to eat."

Song Shuhua got up and hung up the phone.Then Xiaofeng called the video and asked him to show him the live broadcast.

Knowing that Xiaofeng was worried about him, he put the phone in the kitchen as well.He cooked a bowl of noodles for himself, and ate face to face with Xiaofeng on the screen. The two chatted for a while, and Xiaofeng started yawning non-stop.

"Go to sleep if you're sleepy. You were disturbed by me last night. You've been working all day today and you're very tired."

"It's okay, I'm still young, so it's nothing to stay up late."

"I understand what you're saying. I'm really fine. Just get through this. Go to sleep."

"Then you should go to bed early."

"Ah."