Difficult to return

The new song, I don't know what kind of song it is, but judging by the posture, I must let him listen to it.Maybe it was to set up a surprise, even the title of the song did not appear on the program list, I only knew that the song was placed at the end of the program, and it was the finale performance.

Lu Mingchen came very late, and despite seeing so many performances, he still couldn't appreciate this "art".For those men who wear heavy makeup and thick false eyelashes, he still can't understand their "beauty".The only thing he can accept is her husband, not because he is QUEEN's most beautiful and popular drag queen, but because he is Song Shuhua.

As for the "slutty sounds" sung by her husband, he didn't like listening to them very much.Regarding those lyrics and music, Lu Mingchen recognized her husband's talent from the bottom of his heart.I have thought more than once that my husband must use such talent to write other songs, which must be more touching.

But now that the entanglement has dragged on, he can calmly accept that her husband likes to perform in disguise, and he can also treat the performance as a performance, and will not be sullen for many days after watching his performance.

Now his only wish is that her husband wear a little more clothes when he dances.As for this point, because I mentioned it for the first time, I was so ashamed of being "attacked" by my husband's words, and I haven't mentioned it again until now.

He checked in the QUEEN when he was about to arrive at the time of his husband's performance. As usual, he found an empty seat and sat down in the shadow of the lights in the back row.Staring at the big screen with disinterest, all she wanted was to wait for her husband to appear on stage.

After two songs and a dance, the lights on the stage finally went out, followed by the host's voice: "Next, I will invite Tita to bring us the finale, his new song "I Can Never Reach You"..."

There were applause and shouts from the audience, but the host's voice continued: "Tita will appear with a brand new look today, and he said he hopes this will be a surprise for everyone. Welcome Tita!"

The applause and shouts surged like fierce waves. It seems that everyone is looking forward to the new look of this stunner.

Lu Mingchen also slapped his hands slowly twice, but his mood suddenly became a little heavy.

The husband's new looks that make the audience more excited often bring him the greater shock.He quickly drank a sip of wine, comforting himself, according to his usual experience, her husband always wears a long skirt when singing, even if the long skirt is exposed, there will be more fabric than pole dancing.Besides, he has already seen "Silver Snake", no matter what, nakedness should not be allowed in such a commercial occasion.

A figure slowly came up on the dimly lit stage, but the outline did not look like Tita's graceful figure.At first I thought it was a staff member, but the man stood in the middle of the stage, but did not move.

After a while, two beams of elliptical light hit the figure in the middle from the left and right simultaneously.The stage was lit up, but there was a sudden restlessness in the audience, and questions such as "who is this" and "is that Tita" popped up from time to time.

Even Lu Mingchen himself was amazed. He had thought about all the situations, but he never thought that he could see his husband in men's clothes on this stage.

The man on the stage wore a three-piece formal suit with black background and dark blue stripes, and a pair of pointed-toed shiny leather shoes.

If Lu Mingchen remembered correctly, the husband's clothes were custom-made for their wedding dinner back then. At that time, the husband thought that this pure wool worsted fabric was shiny and looked a bit exaggerated, so he never wore it on weekdays.But wearing it on such a stage, standing under the lights, it does match his exquisite and precious stage temperament.

The well-fitting suit outlines his long legs and slender waist. His long hair is draped softly on his shoulders. The front hair is pulled up to half of his head and tied up, revealing his smooth and full forehead. The face with two drops of crystal tears.

Tita didn't sing directly as usual, her eyes turned around the audience and landed on a certain spot in the front seat.Then he coughed lightly, held the microphone, and spoke shyly.

"Good evening everyone, I'm Tita."

There were some voices from the audience, and someone asked him why he didn't wear a skirt or make-up today.

He didn't answer other people's questions, but said to himself: "I know that there are many guests in the audience who have been watching my performance, and some of them are friends. I just want to face everyone with my true face. That's all."

The doubts and dissatisfaction in the audience did not disappear because of his two short explanations, but boiled up even more.Originally, the guests came here to see his women's clothes, but when he suddenly changed his makeup, some guests who failed to expect were naturally dissatisfied, and even left the table angrily and walked away.

Lu Mingchen was very puzzled, when did my husband treat the guests as friends and face them with his true face?

He still remembered that her husband said that the relationship between him and the guests is only on and off the stage, each takes what he needs, and there will be no more.At that time, those words also dispelled his worries to a certain extent.

For the dissatisfaction of the guests, the performers on the stage were consistently unmoved.

The music sounded, and after the prelude, there was the gloomy and melodious voice of the beauty.He parted his pink lips lightly, and every line of libretto was like a deep sigh——

we all have regrets

my regret is

never reach you

we are all responsible

my responsibility is

belongs to only one person

i can never reach you

i already have a name

fixed surname before name

i can never reach you

people put the impossible

call it love

i can never reach you

But I don't want to just get close to you

Along with his singing, from the huge screen, Lu Mingchen truly saw the deep sadness permeating her husband's light and beautiful face.

It's just that he doesn't understand, what do these words mean?

"My responsibility belongs to only one person" "There is a fixed surname before my name" "People call what cannot be realized love"...

Lu Mingchen became anxious like never before.The bolder lyrics than the ones he had heard before, about "virginity" "guest" "balls"... made him more restless.

This is a completely different feeling of irritability, as if it has fallen to the ground and has a definite reference; it seems that there is a root deeply rooted in the soil of reality, and once it is pulled up, the whole reality must be messed up.

The music is still going on, these sentences full of regret and pain are still repeating.The dissatisfied people in the audience were also brought into a certain emotion by the song and listened very quietly.

The eyes of the people on the stage were starry, and they continued to sing, weeping like complaining——

people put the impossible

call it love

i can never reach you

But I don't want to just get close to you

After biting off the last word, the singer's slender eyelashes blinked lightly, and a teardrop slid down her cheek, replacing the false crystal teardrop, which dripped from her chin and shattered on the stage.

Then he bowed his thanks, and the curtain of the stage was slowly drawn down.

Lu Mingchen sat in the shadows and couldn't move, he was suffocated even with his breath, when he breathed in again, it seemed that the air was extremely heavy, and he had to exhale hastily.

That real tear from her husband also opened up a certain reality in Lu Mingchen.

Suddenly he understood, he understood completely.The husband's "true face" today is not for any friends, let alone guests, but for him. To be precise, it is the "he" in the phone.

"Unattainable love" refers to "him".

"Unwilling to come near" also refers to "he".

The husband uses this romantic and implicit way to express his true and hopeless emotions to a person he has never met, so he insists on letting "him" choose a free day and let "he" come to see today's show.

Because this is a performance for "him".

Lu Mingchen recalled the previous conversation with her husband, the discussion about love and self-sacrifice.He asked her husband if he would give up women's clothes to love someone, and the husband's answer was-he would.

Today my husband proved to him that he really will.

He tried his best to hide the last bit of happiness from his lover and family, but he was willing to give up for a stranger. What a passionate love, what a touching emotion.

Lu Mingchen couldn't help but grinned grinningly.

Words cannot describe the feeling in his heart at this time, as if he is being slowly nibbled by ten thousand ants.While laughing, he got out of QUEEN in a daze and got into the car, but he couldn't start the car because of his weakness.

He held his head and pulled his hair in pain, how could this be?why?

The husband would rather love an imaginary object on the phone than take a look at himself in reality. He has made so many efforts, but still can't get even a little bit of love.

The heartache felt like wildfire, spreading through all internal organs in an instant, and Lu Mingchen didn't know who to blame and whom to hate. Could it be that he didn't cause all this by himself?But when they chatted, there was never such affection, and there was never any ambiguous topic. He also told her husband that he had a "lover".

How could a man whom he didn't know at all, who even had a "lover", make Song Shuhua betray his real-life husband, his family, and his eight-year marriage so unhesitatingly?

If it is said that knowing her husband's women's clothing show opened an irreparable gap in Lu Mingchen's world, the husband's emotional betrayal undoubtedly caused his world to completely collapse.

What is he going to do?What else can he do?

Why did God play such a nasty joke on him?Is it necessary to let his marriage end?

……

The phone beeped, and a message came in.

[Did you come to the show today?I don't see anyone in your seat. 】

Lu Mingchen stared at this sentence, the look of his husband who had made so many preparations, was full of expectations, but couldn't find anyone, and carefully confirmed it, appeared in front of his eyes.

Lu Mingchen picked up his phone and replied——

【I am coming.Came late, in the back row. 】

No, no, it was too early to despair and give up, he was by no means such an easily defeated person.

Since the husband can love him on the Internet, he can also fall in love with him in reality. In essence, they are one person, aren't they?

As long as the husband can open his eyes and look at him, right?