Difficult to return

It was less than the usual sleep time, so within two hours, Song Shuhua woke up, but her husband was not by his side.

The hotel's floor-to-ceiling windows were wide open, and the faint smell of the sea rushed to his face with the cool wind, blowing away his drowsiness.The light gauze inner curtain also danced slowly with the sea breeze, repeatedly caressing the man sitting on the ground with his back against the floor-to-ceiling windows.The man held his wine glass and looked out the window motionlessly——

The nearby street lights and the dark sea in the distance.

Looking at her husband's lonely figure, Song Shuhua felt an indescribable feeling in his heart.

He knew that he had made a mistake from the very beginning, but life is a road that cannot be turned back. After taking the first step, he can only go on without hesitation, even if it is torture, pain, or injury.

And his feelings for Lu Mingchen are more like a love that ended without a problem before it even started.

Knowing the name "Lu Mingchen" came from his father earlier than when he first went to the factory to report that summer.

At that time, he had just been admitted as a graduate student in the Chinese Department.His father never allowed him to study abroad, so he also studied in city A as a graduate student.His mother rented a house near the school to take care of him in his studies, saying it was taking care of him, but in fact it was just to keep an eye on him at close range.

Every weekend, my father would come to the rental house for the family of three to stay for two days.Song Guoqiang didn't bother to talk about the factory with his wife, but kept talking to his only son.He still remembered that Lu Mingchen finally agreed to join the job, and his father said with a little pride that his company had also hired a top student in the country.

Later, my father's topics always revolved around Lu Mingchen, how capable he was, what valuable suggestions he made, how much he improved the company's efficiency, how many orders he signed, and who were the big companies... Finally, It's always the same sentence - if you are so capable, I won't have to worry so much in my life.

At that time, he never dreamed that such a talented and talented student would eventually become his husband, because at that time he was full of antipathy towards this person.

This kind of antipathy has been superimposed intermittently for three years, until he also joined his father's company, until the name "Lu Mingchen" fell in front of him and became a real person.Then, that emotion disappeared in an instant.

He didn't expect that person to be so good-looking, with decent demeanor and words, talking with clients, and being very rigorous and serious when it comes to professional issues.In a place like a factory workshop, everyone wears uniform light blue work clothes, and only Lu Mingchen can wear this ugly work clothes straight and straight, as elegant and handsome as a spruce.

As long as he likes men, Lu Mingchen is the type that will make everyone's heart skip a beat at a glance.Not to mention Song Shuhua's difficulties in integrating later, and the various help given to him by the other party.

At first, he thought that the other party was only out of kindness, seeing that he was out of place, and took the initiative to be friends with him, or maybe he got instructions from his father to help him.In any case, Song Shuhua was very grateful for his kindness and responded enthusiastically.

Until later, the longer they get along, the more he can feel Lu Mingchen's extra enthusiasm and care for him.He had guessed, but he was even more afraid of the disappointment of wishful thinking, and kept dispelling this guess.He wants to like such a person, but feels that the other person is too good to be promoted, and he always suppresses this emotion.

Until Lu Mingchen took his hand and kissed his mouth.That night he was so excited that he stayed up all night, imagining the deep meaning of his "responsibility", and getting ready for a sweet confession.

However, the pink bubble of love was punctured by his father's cold instructions——

It's not that you just like men, because they think highly of you, so spend some time with them and watch them.

The father left after leaving such a sentence, and the mother immediately came up to persuade: "I heard from your father that the boy is very good, reliable and capable, and I can rest assured that he will take care of you."

Song Shuhua lowered his head: "So you are planning to arrange a marriage for me, right?"

"Didn't I tell you to look around first?" The mother hugged him, speaking earnestly and reasoningly, "Ah Hua, it's not like you don't know how much your father rejects you being with men. Finally, there is someone he can barely accept. You You have to seize this opportunity. I saw the boy. He is tall and good-looking. I heard that you have a good relationship with him in the factory. If you can succeed, everyone will be happy.

"Your father is also doing it for your own good. In the end, it's only because you are different from others..." Mother Song sighed, and murmured, as if she was talking to herself, "The same child was born and raised by the mother. That's why..."

Again.

Why he is like this, he doesn't know.In the past, his parents blamed him for being like this, and he would still blame his parents for being like this, but not now.Blaming is meaningless, it will only increase the pain, and only by being as numb as possible can we live a good life.

The first official date between him and Lu Mingchen was brought by his father.

Song Guoqiang pushed him to the private room and urged him to go in.He pushed open the door, and people were already waiting there.

The man changed from his work clothes in the factory to a formal suit and leather shoes.

After Song's father finished speaking, he asked the two of them to have a good chat and left. Lu Mingchen got up and bowed to watch him off.

After Father Song left, he sat beside Song Shuhua and held his hand.

Being grasped by that warm hand, but there is no feeling of heartbeat anymore, only feeling full of grievances, so wronged that he almost hated this person.

The other party took his hand, held it in the palm of his hand, and apologized sincerely: "Shuhua, I'm sorry.

"I don't mean to ask Mr. Song to put pressure on you, and I know you will definitely dislike this method..."

He withdrew his hand: "Then why do you still do this? Are you not afraid that I hate you?"

"I'm afraid, so I apologize to you, and hope you can forgive me."

Song Shuhua pursed his lips tightly and did not speak.

"I know Mr. Song has a strong desire to control, and he has high expectations and demands on you. I'm not sure if he knows you are gay, let alone if he will accept you with a man. I'm worried that the two of us secretly Well, if he disagrees, you will not be able to bear the pressure from your family.

"I don't want you to suffer because of me, let alone harm you, so I'll ask your father for permission first."

"..." Hearing these remarks, Song Shuhua was dumbfounded, "What if my father disagrees?"

"I'll try to get his approval."

"..." Song Shuhua looked at him wronged and resentful, "I disagree."

"At least give me a chance to pursue you."

Lu Mingchen looked directly and deeply into Song Shuhua's eyes, no longer hiding his emotions.

Song Shuhua rolled his eyes and took the menu: "You order."

He didn't ask what Lu Mingchen would do if his father disagreed anyway.

They are very different people.

Lu Mingchen is smart and capable of executing things. Those words he said have already predicted his position to death.The father is not only the biggest obstacle, but also the biggest support. It is indeed the decisive factor for whether they can be together in the end.

If this factor is not resolved, they will never be able to be together with peace of mind, so this is probably the key consideration for Lu Mingchen whether to start this relationship.If Father Song didn't agree in the end, he would definitely give up, as he said - he didn't want to harm Song Shuhua.

This kind of cold rational analysis and consideration is very useful at work, but it makes people uncomfortable when used emotionally.But when he said he was responsible, he ultimately assumed all the responsibilities and did not let Song Shuhua bear any pressure.

A person who makes people do not know how to face it.

When Lu Mingchen said that he was pursuing him, he really was pursuing him, and it didn't take long for the story of the two of them to spread throughout the factory.Surprisingly, no one said anything bad about them.No matter in the office or in the workshop, colleagues showed a lot of enthusiasm towards Song Shuhua, and he gradually became familiar with everyone.

With the help of Lu Mingchen, he made his first order.He had never praised his father in his life, but it was the first time he praised him as "well done".

Once after get off work, Lu Mingchen invited him to dinner, and the two left the office together, forgetting something.Lu Mingchen said that he would go back to get it, but no one could come after a long time, so Song Shuhua also turned back.

Standing outside the door, he heard Manager Zhang provocatively provocative: "Manager Lu, you are not really chasing that one, are you? So you like that kind of second chair. You are also that person, so you should look at his property It's none other than you, really willing to let go..."

He saw through the glass window that Lu Mingchen turned around and grabbed the person surnamed Zhang without saying a word, and gave him a fist.

"Keep your mouth clean."

The one surnamed Zhang pressed his tongue against the beaten face, spat out a spit, and squeezed his knuckles: "You two perverts, I've been fucking sick of you for a long time..."

Song Shuhua hurriedly opened the door and went in, trying to separate the two who were fighting together.

The person surnamed Zhang blushed, waved his fists indiscriminately, and came straight towards him.In the nick of time, Lu Mingchen stood in front of him and landed his fist on the socket of the opponent's eye.

It wasn't until Song Guoqiang arrived that the two fighting each other were separated.Manager Zhang resigned immediately, and yelled at a bunch of perverts, which made him sick.

Song Guoqiang dispersed the onlookers, pointed at Lu Mingchen and Song Shuhua sternly, and told them to keep a low profile and leave without saying anything.

Song Shuhua was also angry, but seeing Lu Mingchen's bloodshot and swollen eyes from being punched, he told him to go back and take the medicine first.

Back in the dormitory, the same dormitory surnamed Zhang had already left.There were only the two of them in the small room, dizzy under the sun, Song Shuhua silently gave him eye drops and rubbed medicinal wine on his back, feeling uncomfortable and a little pained.

He has been ridiculed and bullied a lot since he was a child. Even if he puts on a good-looking face, because of his timid and silent personality, he will only attract more jealous malice.Later, when he grew up, the bullying by his peers became less superficial, and he even received love letters from some boys and girls, but due to the supervision of his parents, he never dared to go one step further.

Lu Mingchen's closeness and protection made him unable to remain indifferent, even if this was someone "arranged" by his parents.

When he was thinking about this without thinking, the person lying on the bed laughed muffled and his shoulders trembled.

"……why are you laughing?"

"Laugh at myself." The man relaxed, sighed, and said, "When I was in school, I saw men fighting for girls and thought they were stupid. Today I did the same thing. Maybe this is a necessary experience in life, 16 If you didn’t do it at the age of 26, you still have to do it.”

"Fighting is inherently stupid."

"I agree, but I'm willing to do such a stupid thing for you." Lu Mingchen tilted his head, squinted his red and swollen eyes, and looked at Song Shuhua.

He always knows how to confuse people, how to make people move, Song Shuhua thinks, the meaning of a high-achieving student is that he is equally good at any field.

"Lu Mingchen, I don't know why you like me. I'm not outstanding, and I still have many shortcomings. We are also completely different people. You are so smart, you know that we are not suitable."

They were not suitable, he knew it from the fact that Lu Mingchen went to find his father first without confessing to him.Now is the time when he has to face it. He looked at the other party, hoping that he would reconsider.

Lu Mingchen also looked at him, frowning slightly, as if he was considering his words.

After a while, his brows loosened, as if he had a result.

"Song Shuhua, I took a punch for you, can you give me a kiss?"