Blind, in love with you

"I was thinking, you might only be more disappointed when you see me." An Yu said in a low voice.

"What about disappointment? Before I met you, my life had no hope at all." Ye Qinghe's tone was very lonely.

The night outside the window was already deep, and there was an earthy smell of wind and rain in the air, and there seemed to be muffled thunder on the mountains in the distance.This kind of night made An Yu irritable and made him flustered.He sat silently, thinking of the failed relationship he had once had.He had also known what it was like to be left behind and lose all hope.

An Yu was indeed resentful when she first heard about Ye Qinghe's evil deeds.Ye Qinghe talked about the absurdity of the past, saying that he never loved anyone but changed his boyfriends one by one.An Yu is not good at judging how many of those people are playing like Ye Qinghe, and is there anyone who is sincere for him like a fool?

An Yu used to be such a fool, he used to curse love liars to die day and night.But the pain of Ye Qinghe in front of him made An Yu understand that even if he saw such a bad person suffering, he would not be happy.

The suffering of the perpetrator does not offset the harm suffered by the victim in the first place.

Maybe he felt relieved for a while, but the pain deep in his heart has not been relieved. His sadness, his doubts, and his hundred thousand whys are still eager to be comforted and cleared up.

When An Yu was taken by Director Zhong to see Ye Qinghe in the ward, she had no idea that this Ye Dong, who was content with blindness, was hiding these sad things in his heart.He didn't want to comfort the scumbag, and the scumbag was not worthy of forgiveness.But at this very moment, An Yu wanted to tell him a story about herself.

"I, I'm not as good as you imagined, and I can't bring you any hope." An Yu's voice was low, hoarse and astringent: "I said before that I was an ugly monster, and it was true. This is me, My ex-boyfriend said..." His voice was so low that it was almost inaudible.

Ex-boyfriend?It was the first time Teacher An Yu mentioned his private affairs, Ye Qinghe couldn't help raising his spirits, and listened carefully.

"That person is my senior. We met at...an event. He came to strike up a conversation with me and asked if I could sing a song for him."

"Can you sing?" Ye Qinghe interrupted him: "Didn't you say that you are tone deaf and can't sing?"

"No." An Yu said helplessly: "Anyway, he started chasing me and said he likes me not long after we met." An Yu spoke slowly, as if carefully dismantling a bomb buried in flesh and blood .

It may be that the mood tonight is too special and too chaotic.Obviously want to celebrate happily, but talk about the most painful past; obviously should resist each other's feelings, but can't help opening up.An Yu has the desire to confide in her: "I was young at that time, and I was a fool. I didn't know anything except reading, and I never thought why such a humorous and popular senior would like me, a nerd," An Yu smiled wryly. : "Maybe it's also my vanity. Someone confessed in public, and there were so many people clamoring around, so I agreed in a daze. I didn't even think about whether I like men or not, so I was led to bend."

"Let's bend it. I don't know if I like men or not, but I really liked him at the time. Just hearing his voice made me very happy. In fact, I was not used to being touched by men at first, senior He always touches and kisses me, saying that this is what he likes. After a long time, I actually got used to it. Later we had a relationship, and he clings to me even more. Every time we meet, he takes me to his house and pesters me for sex. At that time, I thought having sex was a sign that he loved me. I thought, he really likes me and loves me very much."

"It was only later that I realized that the key point in making love is 'doing', and has nothing to do with love at all." An Yu laughed softly, with a suppressed tremor in her voice.

Ye Qinghe was stung by An Yu's obviously painful laughter, and even his breathing seemed to be suffocated.An Yu has always been indifferent, restrained to the point of abstinence, but now he is sitting here, tearing open his wounds naked, and bloody telling people about the sex he had with his ex-boyfriend.

Two flashes of white light flashed outside the window, and then there was a low and heavy thunder. An Yu shivered a bit, and heard the sudden torrential rain outside the window, and thousands of horses were galloping.He was absent for a moment before continuing his story.

"That person disappeared suddenly one day, and he never appeared again. I just realized that I have no other way of contacting him except a phone number. I was very scared, afraid that something might happen to him, I kept looking for him everywhere. He, but I can't even find his friend."

"Isn't he your senior? Why can't you find it? So many students can ask." Ye Qinghe interjected and asked, he felt incredible.

"He had already graduated then." An Yu said in a low voice.

"Maybe, maybe something happened to him, and he disappeared suddenly. Don't think badly, you are so good, your senior won't, won't hurt you on purpose." It's obviously a mind-boggling ex-boyfriend , but Ye Qinghe didn't want to say bad things about that person at the moment, he couldn't bear that An Yu was really hurt badly by others.

He knew how bad it was, how malicious it was.

Unfortunately it backfired.

An Yu snorted lightly, but her tone was still calm: "God bless you, the senior is fine and nothing happened. His departure is just the end of the game."

"At that time, I was looking for him like crazy. That night, there was a heavy thunderstorm like now. The thunder was so loud and the wind and rain were so loud. I was afraid and unwilling to give up. I ran around on the road and finally found the house he used to The store I went to, and later... there, I heard the voice of the senior." An Yu said indifferently, but the message he uttered was so terrifying: "I heard the laughter of many people, and myself The voice. Although it is very vague, but I can hear it, it was my voice at that time." An Yu's voice was hoarse and quiet, with aggrieved anger: "I didn't know he was recording secretly. He even released it to his friends, and everyone was laughing at me." Ye Qinghe opened his mouth slightly in shock, listening to An Yu's story immobile.

"I heard the senior say, he said, he said I'm an ugly monster, if it wasn't for the bet, he wouldn't be able to do it at all. He recorded that voice to prove that he completed the task." An Yu said this, hanging down Holding his head on his knees: "Look, if it wasn't for him... if he lost Truth or Dare, he still wouldn't play with me! You say I'm so ugly, do you still want to see me?"

Ye Qing felt chills down his spine.Why is An Yu's story so familiar?The details are different, but...

"An Yu," Ye Qing and his face were ashen, their throats seemed to be choked, and they could hardly make a sound: "You... who is there in your family?"

"Huh?" Ye Qinghe suddenly asked about his family members, An Yu was a little confused: "My father, my mother, my brother and I." 2九7764793⒉

call!Fortunately, not him.That little bastard has no father or brother.Ye Qinghe secretly scolded himself as an idiot, An Yu is a discerning person, how could he have such outrageous suspicions.Besides, he remembered that it didn't rain on the night they "celebrated".He was slightly drunk at the time, and he staggered to the hotel next door to open a room and rest.

Ye Qinghe breathed a sigh of relief just now, but his heart ached again immediately.Almost exactly the same tricks, even the recordings used to prove that his mission was completed, all happened to An Yu. Could it be that God's punishment for him is not over yet, that he wants to hurt everyone around him severely?

"An Yu...he will regret it." Ye Qinghe was about to split into two people at this time, one was the perpetrator who hurt the little earth egg, he was very remorseful for the shitty things he had committed, full of apology and eager to be punished. Forgive, but don't even have the courage to find someone to apologize.And standing in the identity of An Yu's suitor, he was so angry that he wanted to kill someone. He knew that such a bastard was unforgivable.Ye Qinghe was in a complicated mood, guilty and very angry, he said viciously: "If he sees you again, he will definitely regret it."

An Yu sat on the ground and watched Ye Qinghe hold the grievances for him. He maintained his posture and his indifferent voice, relying on Ye Qinghe's invisibility, he let the tears slide down his cheeks silently one by one. Lost: "After a few years of breaking up, I once met him, that person has completely forgotten about me."

An extremely ordinary joke that people have long forgotten, and I am the only one who hates it unforgettable.It's kind of ridiculous.

"You guys met later?"

"Yeah." An Yu replied sullenly.

Ye Qinghe said angrily, "Didn't you go over and beat him up?"

"It's unnecessary. He doesn't even remember me, so why should I humiliate myself." An Yu said too much tonight, her voice was already too hoarse.To Ye Qinghe's ears, it was as if after that thunderstorm night, he heard An Yu's heart-piercing collapse.

Ye Qinghe's heart was throbbing with pain.

No one spoke in the quiet living room, only the sound of An Yu gulping down beer.After a series of thunderbolts and thunderbolts that were as bright as daylight, An Yu pressed his painful chest and asked softly through the alcohol: "You said, you used to change male partners one by one. Among those people , Didn’t you like it? You have done it too, you have to like it a little bit before you do it.” An Yu’s tone was a little hesitant, with a slight trembling: “Isn’t there? ?”

He really wanted to know, in the process of toying with each other, such scumbags, did they ever have a slight liking for them.

I really want to know if they have any guilt or apology for those who have hurt them in the past.

Isn't it?Could it be that everything that has passed without a trace has been forgotten?

Ye Qinghe could hear that An Yu was still a little unwilling, or looking forward to it.He was trying to find someone to verify that what happened back then was not just a joke, there might be a one-in-a-million chance, even a little bit of love, or very little liking.

As Ye Qinghe, who is as scumbag as his senior, he understands such people very well.Even if he repents now, when he thinks of Little Tudan, what he has in his heart is only guilt, not love.Even if he wanted to comfort An Yu, he was unwilling to deceive him.

What's more, he wants to pursue An Yu now, and it's even more impossible to leave any room for An Yu to be nostalgic for the senior.

"No." Ye Qinghe shook his head: "Everyone is just playing around, no one takes it seriously."

An Yu's heart sank as if she had stepped on a ladder by mistake: Is it true that no one takes it seriously?

"Where is the person who drew the heart?" An Yu's voice became softer, and he said slowly: "I hope you are safe, and I even drew a heart for you. That person must not be playing for fun? He is your former friend." Your lover?" An Yu really hoped that there was still a little love in this room.Don't be so miserable.

When Ye Qinghe heard what An Yu said, he fell silent.

He has never been in love with the little Tudan.

An Yu once had a chance to meet his scumbag senior, but the little Tudan has completely disappeared.

He listened to An Yu's hope, imagining that if one day the little Tudan really came to him to seek justice, what would he say?What else can he say other than sorry.

No matter what to say, this is Ye Qinghe's biggest secret.How could he let An Yu know that the person in front of him who said he wanted to pursue him was actually no different from that scumbag senior?

Ye Qinghe was silent for a long time, until An Yu questioned "Hmm" suspiciously, and he said, "No, not a lover. There is no such person."

"Oh." Seemingly sure of something, An Yu exhaled lightly, like a sigh, and like a loosening of her obsession.

It's ridiculous to say that Ye Qinghe said that he had never liked anyone, but he made a mistake the first time he liked someone.Of these two people, I don't know who is more miserable.But that's fine too. The 30-year-old Ye Qinghe has no love experience at all, which is not a bad thing.It's better than foolishly thinking that you have loved, and then being hurt all over your body.

He can still want happiness and have a desire for love, which is better than being stagnant.

(to be continued……)

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?Moonlight broken thoughts?

This is An Yu's sad past!

You said, is it possible for him to believe in love again? ??

See you tomorrow morning at ten o'clock~~~~