Blind, in love with you

"Alas..." I don't know how many times this is An Yu's first sigh, the tone is soft and full of helplessness.Ye Qinghe, who was sitting in the living room, couldn't help laughing: "What's the matter with you, you've been sighing since the morning, didn't you say you'd take me back to the clinic in the afternoon, and you don't want to go out?"

"It seems to be raining soon. The weather forecast says it will rain heavily this week." An Yu looked at the dark sky outside the window: "I hope there will be no thunder." He murmured softly.

"Well, the rain is a good thing. It didn't rain a while ago, and I heard that the water level of the reservoir has dropped." Ye Qinghe said.

"I hate rain." An Yu's rare willful complaint: "I hate thunder even more."

Ye Qinghe laughed again, although he couldn't see it, he could just imagine An Yu sitting on the bay window, puffing up his cheeks and complaining, it was really cute.

"Are you afraid? Otherwise, don't go out for the next few days, and go back to the clinic when the weather clears up. It's not bad for a few days." Ye Qinghe thought that An Yu was afraid of thunder, or didn't like driving in the rain. After all, An Yu The teacher is a novice driver, and he already doesn't like driving very much. In addition, the road conditions are not good in rainy days, and the driving may be even more frightening.

Ye Qinghe thought about it again, if it was raining heavily outside, it would appear that the two of them in the room were dependent on each other, and there was an illusion of being independent and dependent on each other, and it was a good idea to stay at home.He said enthusiastically, "Aunt Chen has filled the refrigerator with food, enough for us to eat, so I won't go out for a few days."

"How can I do that?" An Yu immediately vetoed Ye Qinghe's proposal: "What should be done must be done. Don't be lazy, go and change clothes, you have to go out."

Ye Qinghe's mind was ruthlessly emptied, and his well-intentioned proposal was regarded as lazy, he was also helpless.I had no choice but to get up and change into my clothes, and let An Yu take her to the outpatient clinic.

Ye Qinghe made a series of inspections under the coordination and arrangement of Director Zhong and Director Yang, and finally got good news: Ye Qinghe sensed the light that day was not accidental, his eyes did start to respond to the light, it may be the brain. The blood clot is slowly being absorbed and the compressed optic nerve is repairing.

In fact, optic nerve damage is almost irreversible damage.When they first learned that the blood clot was pressing on the visual area, the doctors were not sure of the extent of the damage, so they could only keep observing, hoping to restore vision after the blood clot was absorbed.Now Ye Qinghe can sense the light, which means that the optic nerve still retains its function. This news is really great.

An Yu was very happy for Ye Qinghe.He has been in the ophthalmology department for a long time and has seen many cases of blindness. Only a few people are lucky enough to recover their eyesight. An Yu can empathize with the joy of regaining sight after losing it.Even though it was drizzling on the way back, it didn't affect An Yu's good mood.He even took a detour to buy braised meat from a well-known old store, and bought a hand of beer from a nearby store to celebrate at home.

Back home, An Yu asked Ye Qinghe to take a bath first, and he hummed a song and put the roast duck lo mei he just bought on a plate and put it on the coffee table in the living room.After Ye Qinghe took a shower and sat on the sofa, An Yu also poured some beer for him: "You can only drink half a glass, you can drink soda later."

"So happy? You want to drink to celebrate." Ye Qinghe sat on the sofa and took a sip of beer, while An Yu threw a pillow on the ground and sat on the other side of the coffee table.

"I'm glad, your eyes are getting better soon." An Yu stuffed Ye Qinghe with a chicken glove: "I'll toast," he picked up the wine glass and touched the glass in Ye Qinghe's hand: "You can do whatever you want .”

Obviously, he just felt a slight change in the light, and it wasn't true recovery of vision. Ye Qinghe felt quite comforted by An Yu's solemn celebration.He smiled and took another sip of wine, and said, "Director Zhong has already said that the recovery process may be very slow. You celebrate like this as if I can see it tomorrow." He put on his gloves and simply stopped using chopsticks , Grab it on the plate with your hands, and eat whatever you catch.

"This is just the beginning, and it will get better and better." An Yu handed Ye Qinghe a roasted duck leg: "Don't be so negative all the time, be happy!" He picked up a piece of duck liver and ate it.

"I'm happy. I used to think it's okay if I can't see it, but now I want to see it." Ye Qinghe said holding up the duck leg.

"That's right! The world is still very beautiful, and it's worth your while to take a closer look." An Yu finished eating the duck liver and gnawed on the duck wings.

"Well, then I will definitely look at you more." Ye Qinghe looked in An Yu's direction: "I really want to see you."

The corners of An Yu's mouth twitched: "Hehe, I also hope that you can see me soon, and you will grow up by then."

"Growth? I'm already thirty, what else do I need to grow?" Ye Qinghe asked suspiciously.

"Disillusionment is the beginning of growth." An Yu laughed at himself while eating indifferently: "When you see me, you will grow as tall as a big tree."

"No, I think I will only like you more." Ye Qinghe retorted happily.

An Yu didn't answer his words, and changed the subject: "Why didn't you want to 'see' before?" Seeing Ye Qinghe's movements of gnawing duck legs stiffened, he quickly said: "It's okay if it's inconvenient to say, I just casually Ask."

"It's nothing inconvenient to say." Ye Qinghe smiled: "I said, I can tell you everything you want to know about my past."

After eating the duck leg, Ye Qinghe took off his gloves, drank the remaining beer in the glass in one gulp, and then began to speak: "That day, I said that I was ridiculous in the past, and it was true." He leaned on the chair, slowly Thinking about the past, he said slowly: "I am the youngest child in the family, and I have an older brother who is six years older than me. My brother loves me very much. He has been excellent since he was a child, and he has been in the best high school all the way. The best university. After graduating from a master’s degree, I learned to manage the company with my dad. He has always been the pride of our family. On the other hand, I am not as good as my brother in everything, and even my sexuality does not meet their expectations.” Ye Qinghe said Bitterly: "Actually, I tried very hard to be like my brother at first, but later I realized that I was really not as good as him. No matter how hard I tried, he was still overwhelming me, so I gave up. Anyway, he is the one who carries on the family line and inherits the throne. I don't have to be so tired."

"I started to hang around here and there, eating, drinking and having fun with a group of brothers, looking for excitement everywhere." When Ye Qinghe said this, he seemed a little strange and confused, as if he was telling a story from a long time ago: "I didn't think so at that time. Many, everyone plays like this, female companions and male companions have changed one by one, I think as long as I am careful not to get sick." Ye Qinghe said: "My mother was very sad at that time, and she was forced to accept it by me. My sexual orientation has changed, I just hope that I can find someone to settle down and stop fooling around. Unfortunately, I was not obedient at that time."

"Later, something happened to my family." When Ye Qinghe said this, he finally couldn't hold back, and a look of pain began to appear on his face: "My parents originally made an appointment with me to go to the south to inspect the factory, but I was in a nightclub with me. I was beaten so hard that I couldn’t get out of bed. My dad was so angry that he didn’t want to care about me anymore. He took my mother and brother away after I was discharged from the hospital. They got out of bed two weeks later than originally planned. South, but the return plane crashed, and none of the three of them came back."

Ye Qinghe took several deep breaths before he could continue: "It's all because of me. If it wasn't for me, my brother wouldn't go, and he would stay in the head office. My parents wouldn't be hospitalized because of me, We left half a month late. We will come back according to the original schedule." Ye Qinghe's voice was trembling all the time: "They will get on that flight because of me."

"..." Hearing this, An Yu was so surprised that he couldn't speak. Seeing Ye Qinghe's pain, he felt very uncomfortable.

"In the past few years, I have repented. I live a good life according to the expectations of my parents at that time, and I no longer fool around. I work hard and keep the company running well. But I am in pain. I have been thinking, is it because I did There are too many immoral things, so there is retribution. But why did God punish me by causing accidents in my family?" He tried to calm down: "Later, I got into a car accident and went blind. I think my retribution finally came. gone."

"Since it's retribution, you should suffer it well, and you shouldn't expect to be healed." Ye Qinghe smiled bitterly: "At least that's what I thought before."

"It wasn't until I met you that I had a little hope for life again." Ye Qinghe said to An Yu: "I want to see the world again, and I want to see you. I want to learn to love, and really love someone .if I get the chance."

An Yu stared blankly at the person in front of him. Ye Qinghe lost all his family members. Not only was he hopeless, but he also blamed himself and felt guilty.An Yu has also experienced the pain of separation, but compared with Ye Qinghe's pain, one is the life and separation of being betrayed by her lover, and the other is the death of a loved one.Both kinds of pain, though both go deep into the bone marrow and hurt the heart.But at this moment An Yu had to admit that Ye Qinghe's pain was even greater than his.

"...I'm sorry, I don't know your family...I'm sorry for bringing up your sadness." An Yu couldn't say any comforting words for a while, and could only say sorry weakly.

"Am I too greedy? A rotten person like me killed my whole family, and now I still want happiness and pursue you," Ye Qinghe said with a bitter smile, "Do you also feel now that Am I blind?"

"No." An Yu recovered, and said, "I didn't think so."

An Yu was silent for a few seconds. He didn't know how to comfort Ye Qinghe with such a heavy past, so he had to help him pour another glass of soda, and then changed the subject: "I was thinking, you might only be more disappointed when you see me."

"Why disappointment?" Ye Qinghe held the cup and said desolately: "Before I met you, my life had no hope at all."

An Yu's heart throbbed with pain.

(to be continued……)

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?Moonlight broken thoughts?

The two began to share their thoughts!

Will An Yu tell his sad past?

See you tomorrow morning at ten o'clock~~~~