he is afraid, he pretends

Wu Luming had a severe fever this time, and stayed in the small ward of the orphanage for three consecutive days before finally moving back to the collective dormitory.

The cold wind in winter is like poison to him. Once the snow falls in the mountains, he can no longer go to the dining hall by himself, so he can only ask Wu Lupalm to bring him food back like last winter.

But probably the cold water hurt his stomach that day, and his appetite was obviously much worse than last winter.

Wu Luming didn't want Wu Lupal to find out, usually he would finish his meal, and when he couldn't bear it anymore, he would find a place to vomit.

One time when he spit out, Wenwen happened to see him.

Wenwen stopped to look at him for a long time, then suddenly said, "I see."

Wu Luming rinsed his mouth and wiped his mouth clean, ignoring him.

But Wenwen obviously doesn't need human attention when he talks about something he's interested in. He followed Wu Luming and said in a firm tone: "Before you drank milk that day, you must have eaten or drank something in advance." The thing that induces vomiting, let me guess, just your weak constitution that can collapse at any time... ice water?"

"I really don't want my life." Wen Wen himself affirmed his answer, "Killing one thousand enemies will hurt eight hundred."

The next day, when Wu Luming hid to vomit, he heard footsteps again.

He didn't even raise his head, and after spitting out, rinsing his mouth and wiping his mouth, suddenly there was a thermos in front of him.

"Drink some of this. The aunt in the cafeteria helped to cook it. She said that drinking this will improve your appetite."

An unfamiliar voice, with a little naivety.

Wu Luming raised his head and saw "a mountain".

There weren't too many children in the orphanage, Wu Luming didn't deliberately remember anyone, but he still had some impression of this person in front of him.

He doesn't know exactly how old this person is, but he is considered relatively old in the orphanage, and because of his large size, people around him usually call him a big man.

Wu Luming withdrew his gaze, shook his head and said, "No, thank you."

The big man didn't give up because of his refusal, but directly stuffed the thermos cup into his hand.

"Just take it. Actually, I'm quite embarrassed. I've been in this hospital for the longest time, and I usually take care of the little ones, but you've been sick since you came here, and I... haven't been with you for a long time. Familiar, so when you were wronged for stealing, I couldn't help you."

There was genuine embarrassment in his tone, and he kept scratching his head as he spoke.

Hearing this, Wu Luming looked at him again with some doubts.

The big guy continued: "I'm big, and I don't usually have enough to eat, so I often help the aunts in the cafeteria to wash and chop vegetables, so that I can ask for more food from them, so I know them very well. If you drink this Okay, I'll ask them to help cook next time."

The doubt in Wu Luming's eyes was even worse.

Because of his illness, he had little contact with people, but subconsciously felt that this behavior of the big man was strange.

He can understand Wenwen's straightforward dislike of others, but he can't understand that a big man is nice to a person for no reason.

The big man didn't seem to be able to see his doubts at all, and even seemed to feel that the two of them had shortened the distance after a few words, so he said a little more.

"Wenwen has been here for a long time. In fact... the older ones of us all know that he likes to play tricks on people. Xiaofei guessed that you might have been tricked, but we are not sure. After all, we haven't talked to you, just in case... Hey, it's a good thing you can't drink milk, this matter has been clarified. "

Wu Luming finally accepted the warm soup given by the big guy because his stomach was really burning.

He didn't use the big man's glass, went back and poured it into his water glass, and gave the big man a carton of milk in exchange.

The big man was a little embarrassed to receive the milk, but he didn't refuse.

The warm soup cooked by the auntie in the cafeteria was unexpectedly useful. After Wu Luming drank it, his stomach finally stopped burning the next day.

But he didn't ask the big man to ask for it for him again.

Wu Luming began to observe consciously for a while, and found that the big guy did take care of the children younger than him in the orphanage.

For example, when getting up in the morning, the life teacher is too busy, he will help the life teacher take care of some younger children to dress and pants.

Every time he finished helping and the teacher praised him as a sensible big brother, he would pat his head honestly, as if he recognized that he was the brother of dozens of children in the orphanage.

He takes care of children in the same way, so Wu Luming occasionally receives his care. If it happens to be needed, Wu Luming will not refuse, but will return something of equal weight after accepting the kindness.

But there is one exception among these children—Wenwen.

Wenwen is two years older than Wu Luming, and he is also a child to the big man, but the big man has almost no contact with Wenwen, because Wenwen always expresses a very straightforward dislike for the big man.

But this is not surprising, because Wenwen treats everyone like this.

He treats people well and badly according to his mood. When he is in a good mood, he gives milk and cakes, and when he is in a bad mood, he doesn't even give him a look.

Once the big man brought back some cakes from outside, and he gave one to Wu Luming.

Wu Luming wasn't very interested in the cake, but Wu Lupal liked it, so he replaced the cake with the big guy.

Wenwen came across Wenwen when he went back with the cake, Wenwen leaned over directly: "You don't think the big guy is a good person, do you?"

Wu Luming didn't answer this meaningless question, because Wen Wen didn't think anyone was a good person.

"Hypocritical." Sure enough, he heard Wenwen scold, "What he is willing to give must be given to someone who has no effect on him. Let him share all the food with others and starve for three days and three nights to see if he will be willing." It's not really selfless, it's funny to have to pretend to be selfless."

Wu Luming did not refute nor agree with Wen Wen's words.

He put the cake beside Wu Lupalm's bed, lay back on his own bed and took a nap by himself.

Wen Wen snorted and taunted him twice, and left.

This winter, I finished all the medicines that the two brought to the orphanage.

Fortunately, the spring bloomed early this year and the temperature rose quickly.

After recovering from the heat, Wu Luming's complexion began to improve visibly with the naked eye, but Wu Lupalm was still very sad.

Wu Lupalm has gained a lot of stature this year, but because of insufficient nutrition, the baby fat on his face has disappeared.

"The doctor sister said that the medicine you took cost a lot of money. We don't have a lot of money. If we come back this winter, what should we do?"

The medicine Wu Luming took for the past two years was prepared by the doctors of the welfare home with the medicines brought by the two of them. When they came, there were many medical certificates of Wu Luming's early years in their bags.

The doctor at the orphanage sighed a long time after reading it, probably thinking that the child would not understand, so he just told Wu Lupal that some of the medicines they brought in their bag were very useful and Wu Luming had to take them.

But those kinds of medicines are very expensive, once they run out, the orphanage will never be able to afford such expensive medical expenses to buy them for Wu Luming.

Wu Lupal was emotional for two days, and said seriously to Wu Luming with a puffy face: "Brother, let's work hard and find uncles and aunts who are willing to take us home before winter, okay?"

Wu Luming nodded and said, "Okay."

But the reality is not so simple.

Wu Lupalm is very likable, and Wu Luming can also act like adults like, but Wu Luming's illness will always be a beast that scares away countless people.

The weather was warm and cold, and Wu Lu Palm was so worried that he ate less food than in previous years.

Before it was completely winter, there was frost in the mountains.

The wind carried a cold air, and Wu Luming started to have a fever intermittently.

Wu Lupal's face was suffering for half a month, and suddenly one night, he happily lay on Wu Luming's bedside and said to Wu Luming: "Brother, the teacher told me that the uncles and aunts who will come tomorrow know us and like us very much. The teacher said they There are great, great, great possibilities who are willing to take us home! My sister will pick out beautiful clothes for you, and we must behave very well tomorrow!"

It's a pity that the sky didn't come true, and Wu Luming had a fever again the next morning.

Before leaving, Wu Lupal lay beside his bed, patted his chest and assured him: "Your brother, don't worry, sister will make them like us a lot today!"

Wu Luming ate breakfast and medicine with the help of his life teacher.

After taking the medicine, he fell into a drowsy sleep for an unknown amount of time, and when he opened his eyes again, he found Wenwen sitting beside his bed.

Seeing him wake up, Wenwen showed that mocking smile again: "Can I get up? Can I get up and take you to a good show."

Wu Luming felt that the fever had receded somewhat, but he didn't have the strength to speak, so he didn't respond.

"Among the children the adoptive family met today, there is a big guy. The couple seem to be rich and good-natured. They don't mind that the adopted child is old or you are sick like this."

Wenwen showed an expression of watching a play: "The big guy will go to junior high school next year. I heard from the teacher that he has good grades. He is from our small place. No matter how good his grades are, he can't go to any good junior high school. Guess what he will do today Performance?"

"You seem to think he is a good person," Wenwen stood up and yawned, "Will you go? Let me learn how to be a good person."

·

The welcoming room has a window facing the corridor, which is transparent and can be seen in both directions.

When Wu Luming passed by, he found that the only children in the room were Wu Lupalm and the big guy.

Opposite them is a pair of elegant couple, the woman is looking at them with a smile.

A gentle voice came from the room: "Can you introduce yourself to your uncles and aunts? You can talk about your advantages and disadvantages."

Wu Lupalm was very active, and immediately praised himself and Wu Luming eloquently.

But after boasting, she still blushed and said something about the lack of people between the two.

The woman smiled after listening, and gently stroked Wu Lupalm's hair.

It was the big man's turn to speak, but the big man looked a little distracted.

He didn't know what he was thinking, and his face was not particularly good-looking.

However, soon after being reminded by the teacher, he still opened his mouth: "I endure hardships and stand hard work. The teacher often praises that I am smart because I am good at reading..."

After he said a lot slowly, he suddenly paused, and then a look of pain appeared on his face.

But after the pain, he still finished his last words: "My body is very healthy, and... I will not steal anything."

The moment those words fell, Wu Luming heard Wenwen beside him laughing: "Wow, a good man speaks really well! I must have misunderstood him viciously, isn't he connoting that you are poor in health and can steal things? "

At the same time Wen Wen was ridiculing, Wu Luming and the big guy in the room met their eyes.

The already pale face of the big man was hard to see the extreme the moment he saw Wu Luming.

He opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but he saw Wu Luming step back from the window expressionlessly.

Wu Luming had no expression on his face, and his heart was very calm.

He backed away just because he was afraid that Wu Lu Palm would follow the big man's line of sight and see him.

He is not sad, but Wu Lu Palm will be very sad to see him.

For a moment, he was a little thankful for having a fever this morning, otherwise Wu Lupal would have cried for him again.

After Wu Lu Palm came here, she didn't cry many times for herself, but she always cried for him.

After he backed away from the window, he didn't stay in the corridor for long, and turned around and walked downstairs.

Wenwen followed him, as if disappointed because he didn't see his violent reaction: "Is there nothing you want to say?"

Wu Luming did not.

He couldn't explain the reason, it seemed that he had realized that people should be so selfish a long time ago.

This seemed to be an idea engraved in his mind from birth, so it was not surprising.

How can there be emotions when things are expected.

·

After Wu Luming left, he didn't go back to the lounge, but went straight to the ward of the orphanage.

He asked Wen Wen to go back and tell Wu Lu Palm that he was in the ward.

Wenwen probably had seen enough dramas today, it was rare that he didn't turn against Wu Luming, and went back humming.

Wu Luming stayed in the ward until dark before leaving.

He knew that Wu Lupal didn't know how to face him and how to explain to him. He guessed that Wu Lupal wanted to show him a smiling face, but he would definitely not be able to help crying.

That was too embarrassing for Wu Lupalm, so it's better to take a day off.

It was quiet on the way back.

Wu Luming was buried in a large airtight padded jacket, and just as he walked to the door of the dormitory, he suddenly heard Wen Wen's voice: "I've thought of a way for you to vent your anger."

Wu Luming stopped, and vaguely saw a black figure leaning against the door of the dormitory area.

"I asked him to go to the small pond behind the orphanage, and I just saw him leave through the gate."

After he finished speaking, he waited for Wu Luming's answer, but before he heard anything, he said again: "If you think this is too bad, you can call him back now before it's too late, you know how slippery the pond is, it's so dark , you might fall into it if you're not careful."

"But, as long as you want, you can save him, and only you can save him. Do you want to save him?"

Wu Luming stood silently for a moment, the wind made his head ache, he said, "You asked him out, what's none of my business?"

After speaking, he continued to walk towards the dormitory building.

Wen Wen's voice came from behind: "But he thought you asked him to go, who do you not know about me? I will never save him!"

Wu Luming kept walking.

He walked into the dormitory building, and the radiator warmed his forehead, which was swollen by the wind.

On the first step of the stairs, he stopped.

He didn't go forward or back, he just stood like this for a while, until the voice of the life teacher came upstairs: "Xiao Ming? Why are you standing here? Has the fever subsided? It's cold here, go up quickly."

The life teacher continued to walk down, and when she walked past Wu Luming, Wu Luming suddenly said: "Teacher."

The life teacher stopped and looked at him suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

Wu Luming lowered his eyes: "Do you think the big guy is a good boy?"

"Of course," the life teacher said without hesitation, "the big guy usually helps the teacher take care of the younger siblings in the orphanage. He is also simple and honest, and he is a very rare good boy. Why do you suddenly ask this?"

Wu Luming opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't ask another word. He raised his head to look at the life teacher again and said, "I just met him, and he said he was going to the small pond in the back. Would it be dangerous to go there so late?"

When the life teacher heard this, he immediately said nervously: "Why did this child go there so late, you can go upstairs quickly, and the teacher will go and have a look."

Wu Luming nodded, and after seeing the life teacher running out in a hurry, he started to walk upstairs again.

Back in the lounge, Wu Lupalm's bed was empty.

Wu Luming waited for 10 minutes, but there was still no one. He frowned slightly, and found a girl who often walked with Wu Luming.

The girl tilted her head and thought for a while: "She walked towards the classroom after dinner today, maybe she is still in the classroom now?"

Wu Luming thought for a while, didn't wait any longer, left the dormitory building and walked towards the building where the classrooms are located.

He didn't search for too long, and soon found Wu Lupalm with the faint sobbing sound.

Wu Lupal stood in a dark classroom on the second floor, looking up at the blackboard newspaper behind the classroom with shaking shoulders.

The blackboard newspaper was drawn not long ago. The theme of this issue is family affection. There is a picture of a tall boy holding two children on the blackboard newspaper.

Wu Luming didn't deliberately walk lightly when he entered the door, so Wu Lupal quickly spotted him.

Seeing Wu Luming, Wu Lupal hurriedly wiped away the tears on his face, and called out in a low voice: "Brother."

She is someone who can't hide her words at all. After much deliberation, she finally said honestly: "The big guy said he saw you in the morning, and you heard everything he said?"

Wu Luming was silent for a moment, and finally replied truthfully: "I heard it."

Wu Lupal stared at Wu Luming for a while, it looked like she was about to cry again, she turned her head before crying, suddenly pointed to the tall boy on the blackboard and said: "Brother, if this big brother can transform into our brother alright."

She sniffled: "Let him beat the big man, and he will never dare to speak ill of you after beating the big man."

As he talked, he probably felt sad and angry again, couldn't hold back his tears, and groaned: "How can this be, obviously he would help you when others said bad things about you in the past, and he knew those were Fake, how could he still...can still say that!"

Wu Luming walked up to Wu Lupalm and said, "I'll beat him up."

Wu Lu Palm was crying sadly at first, but when he heard this, he couldn't hold back his tears and laughed: "Forget it, you will be beaten..."

She pursed her lips as she spoke, then turned her head and looked at the blackboard newspaper expectantly.

After watching it for a while, she said again: "Brother, let's not ask uncles and aunts to take us home."

She said and pulled out the longevity lock in the collar: "I asked the teacher today, and the teacher said that this can be sold for a lot of money. I asked the teacher to help me sell mine. Can I buy medicine for you?"

Wu Luming stood there, unable to respond for a long time.

It wasn't until Wu Lu Palm looked at him suspiciously that he opened his dry mouth, leaned side by side with Wu Lu Palm, and said, "Okay, sell mine too, and I'll give you more money in return." Buy a piece of cake."

Wu Lupal swallowed: "Ah, what if you bought me a cake and don't have enough money to buy medicine?"

"will not."

Wu Lu Palm nodded in agreement, as if she was slightly cured by the cake, she finally stopped sobbing, and looked up at the tall boy on the blackboard.

Wu Luming followed her line of sight and also stared at the tall boy above, thinking quietly, there would be no such a person.

Even if there is, it is Wu Lupalm who should be protected, not him.

He knows better than anyone else that as long as he doesn't tie Wu Lupal, Wu Lupal can live a thousand times easier than now.

He had countless ways to appease Wu Lupal and leave him behind, but in the end he chose to silently pull Wu Lupal to accompany him into the cold deep sea.

Among the evils of human nature that he seems to know from birth, he is the worst.

So he is not qualified to accuse anyone of being miserable, nor can he enjoy anyone's protection with peace of mind.

The author has something to say:

friends!Be confident!Impossible to still remember after years!After all, I am so inspiring! (cross out)