I'm chasing this doctor

Yuanchen Apartment is close to the center of Jiang City, next to the middle school with the highest enrollment rate and the most famous private school in Jiang City. It can be regarded as a very sought-after school district housing.

Taking a taxi from a villa area where rich and powerful people gather, the destination is an apartment in a school district with an astonishingly high price per square meter. The taxi driver couldn't help but look curiously at the young man in the back seat who didn't look at him from the rearview mirror.

Ruan Yu has been silently looking out of the window since she got on the bus and reported her address.

Jiang City's geographical location is a little further north than Beijing City, and the temperature is slightly lower by two degrees. The coldness of the spring night is different from that of winter, not biting but more painful.

Ruan Yu stroked his icy arms twice through his coat, and pressed his forehead against the cooler glass. The splendor and prosperity outside the car window was reflected in his eyes. There was no excitement, but those eyes were more fragile and sad .

Jiang City is a second-tier city next to Beijing City and Hai City. It has developed rapidly in recent years. Every time Ruan Yu returns to this city, he feels more and more unfamiliar.

The brightly lit streets and the splendid night view of the city brought Ruan Yu a colder loneliness.

At the destination, Ruan Yu silently scanned the QR code to pay, opened the door and got off.

The cool wind couldn't wait to sneak in through the gap between the cuffs and neckline, the ice-cold Ruan Yu shivered unconsciously, and walked into the community with a quicker pace, carrying her bag.

Ruan Yu mechanically entered the elevator, mechanically pressed the floor, mechanically stood in front of her door to enter the password, and finally stood at the porch looking at the dark room, without a trace of fresh air.

He closed the door with his hand back, and the dim light from the corridor also disappeared.

"Boom."

The bag in his hand fell to the floor.

Ruan Yu let go of all the strength in her body, squatted directly on the spot, hugged herself tightly, and buried her face in the curved arms.

It's too depressing, why did he come back.

I don't know how long he squatted until this posture made his back ache from the incomplete healing, and then he slowly let go of his hand. A row of deep crescent moon marks had already been pinched out on the palm of his hand by his nails.

After a long breath of relief, Ruan Yu rubbed his face, stood up, and fumbled to turn on the light after recovering from dizziness for a while.

Ruan Yu squinted his eyes at the sudden change of light. After adapting, he bent down to pick up the bag and walked into the living room slowly.

The furniture was still covered with cloth, just like when he left last year.

It was only for one night, Ruan Yu didn't plan to clean up, he went straight through the living room, pushed open the bedroom door and walked in.

Ruan Yu always felt a bit smelly after no one lived there for a long time. He turned on the fresh air system and simply cleaned up a sleeping environment for himself with a vacuum cleaner.

After taking a hot bath, Ruan Yu felt that most of the soaked chill had dissipated.

After lying down for a long time, he still didn't feel sleepy at all. He turned off the light, wrapped himself in a thick blanket and sat in front of the French window with the curtains not closed, in a daze.

The air conditioner and fresh air system in the bedroom were working together, and the small mechanical hum made Ruan Yu feel that at least the room was not so empty.

How many sleepless nights in this house are spent sitting in front of this floor-to-ceiling window?

Ruan Yu couldn't remember.

When did you start living in this house?

11 years old, or 12 years old?

Ruan Yu couldn't remember either.

I just remember that when his father brought him here for the first time, he told him indifferently that it would be convenient for him to go to school, and he would not have to go home for the time being, and this house would become his property on his 18th birthday .

At that time, what did little Ruanyu ask innocently?

It seemed to be asking if his father would live here with him.

Thinking of this, Ruan Yu gripped the blanket's hand and tightened it tightly.

The man who was the father stared at him for a long time with a mocking, idiot-like look, and asked him, what do you think?

Before that, Ruan Yu was even lucky enough to hold a sliver of expectation, hoping to be forced to live here, just because his younger brother hated him, not his father's original intention.

And after that time, he clearly realized that the person who hated him the most was not others, but his father.

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The muted phone screen lit up in the dark bedroom, Ruan Yu turned his head and glanced at the notification on the lock screen, it was Yu Nan.

After getting off the high-speed rail, Ruan Yu reported to Yu Nan and Zhao Shen that they were safe, and immediately turned the phone on silent. He touched the phone and clicked on the message interface.

The peerless giant fish: "Ruan Bao, are you asleep?"

Peerless big fierce fish: "You idiot | Forced brother not to go crazy and find trouble for you?"

Yu Nanping didn't know all the inexplicable things about Ruan Yu's family, but he still knew the general situation, especially the matter of Gu Shi always finding fault with Ruan Yu.

Kojima: "Going to sleep. It's okay, don't worry."

Ruan Yu didn't intend to let his friend worry about insomnia with him, so naturally he couldn't say that he didn't live in Gu's house tonight.

The peerless giant fish: "Well, don't be angry, if it's a big deal, just walk away, we are not used to that idiot."

Kojima: "Okay, I understand. Don't worry."

Ruan Yu glanced at the words "hands off and leave", and then remembered what Yu Nan asked him that day, so he couldn't help but come back?

He put the phone aside casually, and answered silently in his heart, no.

It's not that she hasn't tried it. A few years ago, when she was younger and had a rebellious temper, Ruan Yu really didn't go home on her birthday for a year.

Ruan Yu thought that it wasn't his birthday every year anyway, as long as he could remember, his birthday was the most depressing day.

In the few years before Gu Yan remarried, every time on Ruan Yu's birthday, he would drink a lot of wine, then stare at Ruan Yu fiercely with scarlet eyes, questioning why he was born, and accusing Ruan Muqing of not being born without him. How could he pass away so early.

Ruan Yu even felt that Gu Yan would pounce on him and beat him every time.

Because once, Gu Yan was so drunk that he yelled at Ruan Yu, why didn't he strangle him directly that year.

Later, Gu Yan chose to remarry.

After the remarriage, Gu Yan's temperament gradually became a little more normal. On Ruan Yu's birthday, he no longer had to face his father's drunken scolding alone, but every day, his father would take him to his mother's grave to kneel for a long time .

In her freshman year, Ruan Yu finally mustered up the courage for the first time, and chose to escape on this day.

But Gu Yan was unwilling to let him go, phone calls, WeChat, text messages, all contact methods were attacking Ruan Yu with the most vicious words, even threats.

From then on, Ruan Yu gave up escaping, and just went to see his mother, and he should go back to Jiang City every year. Anyway, he never had a normal birthday, and he didn't have any thoughts.

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When Fu Yuxi came home from get off work, he stood in the porch for a long time in a daze before realizing that Ruan Yu was not here today.

No wonder the room was so deserted.

With no children at home, Fu Yuxi felt that everything was not quite right.

When cooking, I almost burned the pot.

When exercising, I stood on the elliptical machine for a long time before I remembered that the power was not turned on.

I forgot to turn on the hot water in the shower, and forgot to save the file when I turned off the computer...

Anyway, nothing goes right.

Even lying on the big bed, I feel that today's mattress seems a bit tight, and I feel uncomfortable in any position.

Fu Yuxi frantically fished out the phone, opened WeChat for the umpteenth time, and looked at the chat box on the top, but there was still no red "1" appearing.

I don't know if this little heartless person fell asleep.

Thinking of his behavior of slamming out the door in the morning, and his attitude of not being honest with Ruan Yu, Fu Yuxi pressed the screen hard, deleted the words just typed in the dialog box, and angrily threw the lock screen of the phone on the aside.

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Ruan Yu was woken up by the sound of rain. When she opened her eyes, she found that she was sitting in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, and fell asleep at some point.

He rubbed his sore neck, touched his phone and checked the time, it was only past seven o'clock.

I should have slept less than four hours.

The sky was very gloomy, Ruan Yu tightened the blanket wrapped around her body, tilted her head against the floor-to-ceiling windows, and watched the rain falling harder and harder outside the window.

Lack of sleep made Ruan Yu's senses a little sluggish, and he belatedly realized that he seemed to have hypoglycemia half an hour later.

With trembling fingers, he took out the toffee from his coat pocket, peeled off two pieces and stuffed them into his mouth together.

Ruan Yu held the candy wrapper in his palm, remembering that Fu Yuxi had put these candies in his pocket a few days ago.

He has lived in Fu Yuxi's house for more than half a year, and he has been fed so well. It seems that he hasn't suffered from hypoglycemia for a long time, but Fu Yuxi can always find out in time that he has run out of candy, and carefully prepares new toffee for him.

I don't know if it's because of thinking of Fu Yuxi, or the sweetness of the toffee melting on the tip of the tongue, Ruan Yu's heart that has been shrouded in haze suddenly seems to have a ray of sunshine, soft and warm.

After Ruan Yu got over the discomfort, she went into the bathroom with bare feet to tidy herself up, covered the bed again, turned off the water and electricity, and left the house that could not be called home with her bags.

After having breakfast at the gate of the community, Ruan Yu hailed a taxi and gave Gu's address.

After a whole night, Ruan Yu thought that she could face Gu Yan's family calmly.

But when he stepped into the gate of the Gu family's villa and met Gu Yan's cold and sarcastic eyes and the impatient eyes of his grandparents, deep in his heart that he thought was calm, he still felt a pain.

"What are you doing here!" Gu Shi stood at the stairs and yelled at him in disgust.

Xia Wan smiled awkwardly at Ruan Yu, stretched out her hand and pulled Gu Shi away forcefully.

"Dad." Ruan Yu lowered her eyes and stopped looking at them.

After saying hello, he stretched out the tip of his tongue to lick the scabbed crack on his lower lip, and the slight tingling sensation actually made him feel a little happy.

Gu Yan seemed to be quite satisfied with Ruan Yu's attitude today, so he snorted softly from his nasal cavity, stood up and walked out.

Ruan Yu knew that this meant going to visit her mother in the cemetery, turned around without saying a word and followed Gu Yan out the door.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, Ruan Yu sat silently in the co-pilot and looked out the window.

The weather forecast clearly said that this weekend would be sunny, why did he insist on making his already cold mood worse.

On the way, Gu Yan went to the flower shop to buy a bouquet of white platycodon flowers. Every year, he brought this kind of flower. Ruan Yu had checked it before, and the white platycodon flowers represented hopeless and hopeless love.

Maybe Gu Yan really loves Ruan Muqing so much, that's why he hates himself so much.

Ruan Yu has been comforting herself in this way all these years.

Ruan Yu wanted to bite the wound on her lip again.

The cemetery that Gu Yan chose for Ruan Muqing was on the outskirts of Jiang City, with a good environment and strict management.

The rain was still heavy, Gu Yan only took an umbrella, obviously Ruan Yu was not in his consideration.

Ruan Yu looked at Gu Yan's back, clenched his fists, and silently followed beside him.

Fortunately, Gu Yan seemed to be in a good mood today, and he even took the initiative to move the umbrella in the direction of Ruan Yu.

The father and son stood side by side in front of Ruan Muqing's tombstone. Ruan Yu felt choked up when he saw the smiling man in the photo.

Gu Yan squatted in front of the tombstone, gently stroked the photo with his thumb, and gently put down the bunch of white bellflowers.

When he got up again, the tenderness in his eyes had disappeared without a trace, and he said two words to Ruan Yu in a cold voice, "Kneel down."

Ruan Yu glanced at the slippery ground, as if it was no surprise that Gu Yan would say that.

He straightened his back and knelt straight on the cold and hard marble, his thin figure looked full of sadness.

The rain soaked Ruan Yu's pants, and the coldness spread from the knees along with the pain.

Ruan Yu blinked, trying to blink away the drops of rain or tears stained on her eyelashes, and said silently in her heart.

"Mom, I'm 24 years old."

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