migratory birds return to the forest

Xu Fei got on the plane with red eyes.

He had never felt so bad before, it just seemed like it was becoming difficult to breathe.

He comforted himself: Roses will always fade.

He has already seen the best side of love. In the past few years, he and Lin Min had spent the best time. It's not bad to end like this.

They haven't brought too much pain to each other. So far, when recalling this relationship, all they can think of is the happy time when the two were together.

Even though he was thinking this way, Xu Fei still felt very uncomfortable, and felt as if his heart had been twisted into a ball.

It turns out that breaking up will make people uncomfortable.

He never knew this before.

He remembered that he had broken up with people casually in the past, and realized for the first time that he owed everyone in the past an apology.

I don't know how long it took before Lin Min walked out of the terminal as if regaining consciousness.

However, the moment he saw the car, his emotions lost control again.

This is the car Xu Fei bought for him, and they have driven it out countless times in the past few years.

The decorations on the car were pasted by Xu Fei himself.

Not just cars.

There are also mobile phone cases, key chains, bracelets...

So many things that testify to their relationship are still there, and he still has hickeys left by Xu Fei, how could they just break up like this?

Obviously he was mentally prepared at the beginning, knowing that he and Xu Fei could only accompany each other for a while, so he never asked Xu Fei for anything, he just wanted to experience this feeling.

It was Xu Fei who pampered him step by step, gave him too much, told him his love too many times, and made him come to this point.

Having reached this point, Xu Fei can't just take it back.

He didn't want to let go, he couldn't live without Xu Fei.

As soon as Xu Fei got off the plane and turned it on, he saw the message from Lin Min.

[Sorry, it's my first time falling in love, maybe I didn't do well in some places. 】

[In the past few years, if I have done anything wrong, I apologize to you. 】

[You promised me that you would not give up this relationship easily, please give me another chance, don't break up so easily. 】

[If you are tired of anything, you can tell me, I am willing to try to change. 】

【I will wait here for your return. 】

【Xu Fei, I love you. 】

Xu Fei's eyes turned red again. He watched Lin Min's message for a long time, but he didn't reply after all.

In the evening, Lin Min sent another message, this time Xu Fei didn't even dare to read it.

He was afraid that after reading it, he would never be able to say the word breakup again.

He really tried his best, he tried everything possible, he tried his best to stay by his side, but he really couldn't do it, he couldn't overcome his own nature.

He couldn't change himself, and he didn't want Lin Min to wait for him in such an endless time.

Breaking up is the only solution he can think of.

The next day Lin Min called three times.

Xu Fei watched the phone turn from on to off, but he didn't answer the three calls.

Another week passed like this, and a week later, Xu Fei received the last message from Lin Min.

This time Lin Min only sent one sentence, [I'm sorry, I won't do this again in the future. 】

Xu Fei seemed illiterate. He read this short sentence many times, but he couldn't seem to understand it.

It won't be like this again, what is this like?

Won't message him again?

Won't call him again?

Won't try to salvage the relationship again?

Won't you wait for him to go back?

Xu Fei hugged his phone and curled up on the bed, feeling pain all over his body.

This is what he wanted, isn't it?But why is it so painful?

He thought it would be fine after breaking up, but why was he so sad?

He silently recited Lin Min's name over and over again, feeling as if his heart had been torn apart.

The pain penetrates the bone marrow.

Lin Min really did what he said, and in the next month, Lin Min never sent Xu Fei a message or made a phone call.

On the contrary, Xu Fei started to check his mobile phone every now and then.

I always feel empty in my heart.

This day, Han Yuan asked Xu Fei to drink with him again.

Xu Fei was halfway through his drink, flipping through his phone boredly, and suddenly saw Lin Min posting a photo in Moments.

The one on the photo is a mahogany bracelet.

Because the bracelet has been worn for a long time, it has been covered with paste, the color is very beautiful, and even faintly exudes a jade-like luster from the inside to the outside.

Lin Min has never left this bracelet for so many years.

But at this moment, Lin Min took the bracelet off his wrist and put it back in the box.

There is only this photo in Moments, without a word.

Xu Fei didn't know what Lin Min meant, but he subconsciously felt that Lin Min had let go.

Lin Min put down the bracelet, and he also let go.

Xu Fei's eyes turned red again.

He poured himself a drink violently.

Han Yuan had never seen Xu Fei like this before, so he couldn't help asking: "What's the matter? Tell me when something happens, don't let yourself drink too much..."

Xu Fei was already drunk, his eyes couldn't focus, and he looked very distracted.

He looked at Han Yuan and said, "Let me tell you a joke."

Han Yuan was surprised that he would say that, but he still cooperated: "Okay, you say."

"Once upon a time there was a bird that lost his wood."

After Xu Fei said this, instead of laughing, he burst into tears.

Han Yuan had never seen Xu Fei cry like this before, and he was stunned.

"No, what's the matter with you?"

"I miss him so much."

Han Yuan didn't quite understand, "Didn't you take the initiative to break up?"

"Ah."

"Then what's your situation?" Han Yuan sighed, "If you still like it, chase him back..."

"I just want him to let go and live his own life. Some people are not worth waiting, so don't wait."

Xu Fei's words were high-sounding, but his crying was not small at all. He not only cried, but also kept calling his brother.

Han Yuan couldn't help but let out a 'tsk', "Look at you, you're so useless..."

In the end, Han Yuan had no choice but to send Xu Fei, who was in a mess, back home.

After this time, Xu Fei seemed much calmer.

He didn't get drunk anymore, and he didn't mention Lin Min again.

The people around him thought that this matter was over, but Xu Fei knew that he would never forget Lin Min.

But it doesn't matter, Lin Min just let it go.

Originally, the split was for the betterment of the two of them, but now that he is not doing well, there must be a good one, right?

Lin Min is good enough.

Xu Fei rested at home for another half a month, and then embarked on a trip.

Before leaving, he bought a new mobile phone.

He pulled out the calling card of the mobile phone he used before, and he inserted the calling card into the new mobile phone, and turned off the network of this mobile phone.

This phone contains all the messages he and Lin Min have sent since they met, and there are various photos that the two of them have taken together.

It's all about their past memories.

After that, Xu Fei imported all the videos and photos he took of Lin Min from the computer and camera into the phone.

When he flipped through the previous videos, he found a video of him and Lin Min having sex.

He touched Lin Min's cheek through the video, watched Lin Min indulge him, looked at him with a smile, and let him mess around.

He also imported this video into his phone.

This phone is not connected to the Internet and will not be used for communication anymore. Xu Fei took it with him just to keep it as a thought.

However, when Xu Fei made all preparations and embarked on the trip again, he realized that the habits of the past few years were not so easy to change. He still wanted to send Lin Min a message after going to every place.

I want to tell Lin Min anything.

He took out the mobile phone and looked through the chat records of the two of them. The whole person smiled and became jealous for a while, and Xu Fei felt that he was going crazy.

Looking at Lin Min's profile picture and name, he couldn't imagine that if one day Lin Min changed his profile picture and name...

Thinking of this, he suddenly realized that he would not.

If this phone is not connected to the Internet, it will stay at this time forever.

Even if Lin Min really changed his name and profile picture, he would still look the same on this phone.

He will always be what he is now and will never change.

When Xu Fei was emotionally agitated, he accidentally sent a symbol out, and saw that the message had been in a circle, and WeChat prompted that the network connection had been interrupted.

That's right, the network connection has been cut off. It is impossible for him to send this message, and Lin Min will never see it.

He looked at the chat box for a while, then suddenly typed in what he wanted to say, and clicked send again.

Seeing that the message was still in the state of being sent, it went in circles.

Xu Fei just sent Lin Min messages one by one that would never reach him, and his heart calmed down bit by bit.

In the past, he also sent messages one by one to Lin Min in the same way. It seemed that there was no difference, except that the person on the other end of the phone would never reply to him again.

Gradually, this mobile phone became Xu Fei's sustenance, and Xu Fei used it more than the mobile phone that was actually used for communication.

At night, Xu Fei felt that his side was empty, and he couldn't help but took out the phone again.

Meanwhile, the barbershop.

After Xu Fei's book was published, Lin Min bought a copy.

On the title page of the book is Xu Fei's profile and photo.

This photo of Xu Fei was taken two years ago. Although Xu Fei is a photographer, he seldom takes selfies or keeps photos of himself.

It took a long time for this photo to come out of the studio.

In the photo, Xu Fei shaved his head and looked very energetic.

Lin Min's hand caressed Xu Fei's face in the photo.

During this period of time, he didn't try to contact Xu Fei, nor did he do any other unnecessary things.

He has calmed down, he can't give up this relationship, and it's impossible for him to give up Xu Fei.

But he couldn't do without Yang Lin, and he couldn't do anything to Xu Fei. It was useless for him to contact Xu Fei in such a short distance.

And now is not the best time.

He had thought about whether Xu Fei was tired of talking about him, or whether he was tired of this kind of life.

He thought carefully about Xu Fei's various behaviors in the past eight months, and quickly came to the conclusion that Xu Fei was not tired of him.

Before Xu Fei left, he told him that he was reluctant to part with him, and his physical reaction could not deceive anyone, so it could only be that Xu Fei was tired of this kind of life.

In the past few years, except for work, Xu Fei has spent little time with his family every year, let alone with his friends.

Now thinking about Xu Fei accompanying him like this, it is tantamount to abandoning his relatives and friends. Apart from him, Yang Lin has nothing else that can attract Xu Fei, but Xu Fei has never said anything about it in the past few years.

Lin Min has seen Xu Fei's circle of friends and knows how reckless his life was before, and he has also seen him drinking and having fun with his friends in the video.

Lin Min heard Xu Fei talk about his life when he was on vacation before, that was the most free and easy time for him every year, and after they got together, Xu Fei spent all his vacations with him in the barber shop and at home in the past few years. Only when we go out together for a day or two.

This is very different from Xu Fei's previous life style.

Xu Fei is free, and the current life is undoubtedly a bondage for him. After a few years, it is normal for him to get tired of such a life.

It's time to set him free for a while.

Lin Min put away the bracelet, and also put away everything about Xu Fei. He sealed everything up, and only waited for the right time to open the box.

But sometimes, he still thinks of Xu Fei unconsciously.

Xu Fei left, but Xu Fei's shadow is always there.

The entire barber shop is full of traces of Xu Fei's existence.

The scissors he used were given by Xu Fei, the works hanging on the wall were taken by Xu Fei, and there are traces left by Xu Fei in the cubicle.

Whether in the barber shop or at home these years, Xu Fei has left too many traces.

When customers came to the store, Lin Min continued to cut hair for customers, and life didn't seem to have any major changes.

Except, after Xu Fei left this time, it was not like before. He would send messages from time to time, telling him where he was now, what interesting things he had encountered, and sharing the scenery along the way with him. .

Five months later, Xu Fei finished his trip and returned home.

The villa was empty.

Xu Fei piled his luggage in the living room, and when he turned around, he saw a love letter written by Lin Min on the wall.

He suddenly missed Lin Min very much, very much.

He just looked at the love letter quietly like this, recalling Lin Min's appearance when he wrote this love letter.

He didn't look away until his stomach throbbed with hunger.

He remembered that he hadn't eaten for seven or eight hours all the way back.

He went to look in the refrigerator. The nanny got the news of his return and had already filled the refrigerator for him in advance.

He opened the refrigerator and saw the vegetables inside, and suddenly remembered that Lin Min taught him how to make buns.

When Lin Min taught Xu Fei how to make steamed buns, Xu Fei didn't take it to heart at all, and most of the time he was just playing around with Lin Min.

However, Lin Min's patience seemed to have paid off. After so long, he still remembered what Lin Min said to him when he was teaching him.

Xu Fei went to the kitchen to have a look. Sometimes the nanny would come over to cook for him, so some commonly used condiments and utensils were available at home.

Xu Fei opened the cupboard and looked, and found that there were also rice noodles at home.

He recalled what Lin Min said when he taught him, and made himself a steamed stuffed bun.

Without Lin Min's help, the buns this time were not delicious, but he accidentally tasted Lin Min's taste from them.

Xu Fei didn't stop until he felt like throwing up.

Except for Lin Min, no one would teach him to do these things so patiently.

Xu Fei got drunk at another party.

Someone came to tease him, but he didn't refuse.

However, when it was time to go to bed, he looked at that person's face and suddenly thought of Lin Min.

Although the two had broken up, he still felt sorry for Lin Min for doing so.

He couldn't do it, so he just left.

He has no interest in dating others, and he doesn't want anyone other than Lin Min to fuck.

Xu Fei thought indiscriminately, that's it, I've been blind a few times by myself.

He stopped fooling around, stopped going to bars, and rejected everyone who posted up around him.

Under everyone's inconceivable eyes, he started a life of abstinence.

Some people thought that he was just fresh for a while, but they didn't expect that such a life would last for three years.

Xu Fei also quit smoking during the period.

It wasn't that he thought of quitting smoking, but the lighter that Lin Min gave him had run out of gas.

In the past, this lighter was refilled several times, and it was all done by Lin Min. When Lin Min was away, he didn't want to use it, and he didn't want to change to another lighter.

Thinking of Lin Min's repeated words to tell him to quit smoking, he didn't pay much attention to it before, but this time he insisted on it.

It's a pity that no one will reward him for quitting smoking this time.

In the past three years, Xu Fei sent many messages to 'Lin Min', and also sent many photos taken by him.

The phone already looks very old, and the phone case on it has faded to the point where it doesn't look like it used to.

The chat records of the two people, the photos of the two people, and the videos of the two people are all in this phone.

Xu Fei relies on these to make a living.

The first year of breaking up with Lin Min.

Rumors from the outside world: Xu Fei may have changed his mind, but he didn't make waves anymore.

The second year after breaking up with Lin Min.

Rumors from the outside world: Xu Fei may have become a monk and is not lustful anymore.

The third year after breaking up with Lin Min.

Rumors from the outside world: Xu Fei may not be lifting, the monk is not as calm as he is.

Some people said that he was afraid that he would die too much, but more people said that he was a prodigal son.

It's a pity that the person who turned his prodigal son back is no longer around.

Xu Fei held a photography exhibition during the period, and the title of the photography exhibition was 'Nostalgia'.

There were many people there that day, and he seemed to see Lin Min's shadow in the crowd.

However, when he chased it out, he realized that it was just his own illusion.

As winter approached, Xu Fei started a new itinerary, this time the destination was Snow Mountain.

Two months later, a group of people stood on the mountainside of the snow-capped mountain. They were wearing jackets, hats, glasses, and hiking boots, looking into the distance.

From their position, they can see the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on the peak of the snow-capped mountain, coating the snow-capped mountain with a layer of golden light. Sands all over the sky.

Xu Fei raised his camera and took a picture of the scene in front of him.

However, at this moment, there was a sudden vibration under their feet.

One of them shouted: "No, it's an avalanche, hide!"

Following his gaze, everyone saw a large snow wave suddenly falling halfway up the mountain, and everyone fled in a hurry.

Xu Fei was the closest to that place, unable to escape in time, his whole body was covered by heavy snow.

The moment he fell, the jade pendant hanging around his neck hit the rock and shattered instantly.

One second before losing consciousness, Xu Fei thought of what Lin Min had said to him.

"Pay attention to safety outside, take care of yourself, don't get hurt, deal with it in time after you get hurt, don't overwork, get more rest..."

"Xu Fei, I love you."

That was the first time Lin Min said he loved him.

After Xu Fei was rescued, he fell into a coma for two months due to traumatic injuries. When he woke up and saw the scene in the hospital, he felt at a loss as to what was going on.

After the doctor knew that he had woken up, he came over to check Xu Fei's condition, and said that the problem would not be serious when he woke up.

Xu Fei was pushed through a series of examinations, and he didn't see the calls and messages on his phone until he was completely conscious.

He had been in a coma for the past two months, knowing that something happened to him, many people called and sent messages.

He flipped through the news and thanked everyone for their concern one by one. Among the news, he accidentally found a news about Lin Min.

【Didn't you ask me to help you find a nanny in Yanglin?Then the money came from your side, and just got the news that the old man had passed away, and after finishing the funeral today, the nanny was dismissed there. 】

[The money you put here before is not spent, there is still some left, I will call you? 】

Later, he may have learned that something happened to Xu Fei, and he sent a message after that to express his concern.

Xu Fei looked at the time when he sent the message, it was already a month ago.

Lin Zhengze passed away.

Lin Zheng is Lin Min's only relative. No one knows the relationship between the two of them better than Xu Fei. If Lin Zheng is gone, what will Lin Min do?

For the first time, he felt like going crazy, wanting to rush back to see Lin Min.

Xu Fei booked the air ticket for the day, and boarded the plane to Yanglin despite the doctor's dissuasion.

Xu Fei had been to the barber shop many times, but it was the first time he felt that this barber shop was so strange.

It was no longer Zhou Yuan standing at the front desk, but a strange girl.

Naturally, she didn't know Xu Fei. After seeing Xu Fei, she asked, "Should you cut your hair?"

Xu Fei didn't see Li Ze either, and the person who came to take him to wash his hair was also a stranger.

Xu Fei took a look in the barber shop, and when he glanced over, he found that all the photos he had taken on the wall had been removed.

Those photos had been hung for a long time, and after they were taken off suddenly, empty squares were formed on the wall because of inconsistent colors, and the reddish-brown color was like scars one by one.

Xu Fei didn't know the barber who was cutting hair for customers either.

Xu Fei felt unprecedented panic at this moment.

He suddenly realized that every time he came back in the past, Lin Min was here.

It never occurred to him that Lin Min might leave this barbershop, or even Yanglin.

If Lin Min is not here anymore...

If Lin Min changes his contact information...

How could he find someone in this vast sea of ​​people?

Xu Fei's mind went blank, and a great sense of panic gripped his heart.