migratory birds return to the forest

That night, Lin Min helped Lin Zhengze back to the room and lay down. Instead of leaving as usual, he sat by his bed and said in a low voice, "Grandpa, I'm sorry, there is something I kept from you. Year."

As soon as Lin Zhengze heard Lin Min's words, he realized what he was going to say next, and he heard Lin Min say: "I fell in love with someone three years ago. Fortunately, he loves me too. He has been with me all these years. By my side."

"Because he's a man, I don't know how to tell you about this."

"I was afraid that you would be angry if you found out, and I was afraid that your health would be unbearable. I thought it was the best choice to hide it from you. I also thought that when he said he didn't care, he really didn't care about these things... I didn't know until today , I was completely wrong."

"It's not filial for me to keep you in the dark. I shouldn't have made you worry about my emotional affairs all these years. It's disloyal to my feelings to meet others in front of him. I wronged him, It also ruined the relationship between us."

"Over the years, I have wronged him and failed to give him everything he should have. Now I want to pay him back all that I owe him."

"I know it may be difficult for you to accept this matter. If you are angry, don't hold it in your heart. You can beat me and scold me... This matter is my fault from the beginning to the end. I fell in love with him first, yes I'm after him, I want him to be with me."

"I know this matter should not have been done from the beginning to the end." Lin Minhong looked at Lin Zhengze with eyes wide open, "But Grandpa, I have loved such a person in my life, and I really can't do without him. You beat me and scolded me I'm fine, I just hope you can treat him like me..."

Lin Zhengze lowered his head, sighed after a long time, and finally did not insist.

In the afternoon of the next day, Lin Zhengze was basking in the sun in the yard. When he saw Xu Fei, he called him to the front.

Xu Fei thought that Lin Zhengze might want to tell him something to tell him to leave Lin Min again, but he didn't want Lin Zhengze to apologize to him.

I apologize to him for what he did before.

Xu Fei looked at Lin Zhengze and thought of the afternoon when he and Lin Zhengze sat in the yard chatting for the first time.

Lin Zhengze gave him the same impression that he was decent, thoughtful, and measured.

Thinking about it now, Lin Zhengze's reaction after knowing about his relationship with Lin Min was restrained enough. He only talked to him once in the past few months, asked Lin Min to go on a blind date, and nothing else.

He didn't really make trouble to the point of tearing his face, and he didn't embarrass him too much.

This is not easy.

Xu Fei showed Lin Zhengze a truly relaxed smile for the first time in months, "I used to think that if you found out about this, you might break my leg. You are already very restrained if you can do this .”

Lin Zhengze smiled, "Even if I wanted to hit him, I would hit Lin Min. I wouldn't hit you anyway. But that child Lin Min has never been easy since he was a child, and I can't bear it..."

"Xiao Xu, I don't really want to break up with you, but you really can't stay and live a good life with him?"

Xu Fei smiled, "I'm working hard, Grandpa."

Lin Zhengze patted his hand and said nothing else.

In the next few months, the relationship between the three of them returned to normal, and the undercurrent between Xu Fei and Lin Zhengze dissipated silently.

Soon another five months passed, and Xu Fei finished the book with the help of Lin Min and the editor.

There is no need for him to take care of the subsequent publication and distribution.

So far, he has stayed here with Lin Min for more than eight months, which is the longest time in history.

Lin Min originally thought that Xu Fei had finished the book and was about to leave, but he didn't want to, he still didn't leave.

On this day, Lin Min was getting a haircut at the barber shop, and Xu Fei went out to buy cigarettes.

He was walking on the street alone, looking at the rows of shops on the street, he suddenly thought, why not open a restaurant next to the barber shop.

There are a lot of people here, even if he is not very good at business, he should not be able to lose much money. Even if he loses, it will not hurt his muscles and bones. At least, it can make him look like a serious man. Doing things instead of doing nothing every day.

That night, he browsed Yanglin's shop information on the Internet, and then looked at the decoration.

Looking at those photos, he suddenly felt that his hands were a little empty, and he realized belatedly that he hadn't touched a camera for several months.

He used to eat with his hands every day, but he hasn't touched it for so long.

He thought again of those days out there, and of the cause he wanted to fight his whole life for.

Is it really just like this to open a restaurant in Yanglin and spend the rest of my life?

He asked himself in his heart.

The idea of ​​opening a restaurant suddenly faded away, and everything became dull.

Lin Min sensed Xu Fei's emotions, and also felt that Xu Fei stayed there for an unusually long time.

That night, Lin Min hugged Xu Fei and said, "The writing is finished, and it's time for you to get busy. Go, come back after work is over, I'll wait for you here."

Xu Fei buried his head in Lin Min's arms, "I can't bear you."

Lin Min smiled, "I'll send you messages every day, okay?"

"not good."

"If you have time, I'll make a video call to you."

"not good."

Lin Min kissed Xu Fei's lips, "Then you can do whatever you want, okay?"

Xu Fei struggled and didn't speak.

He felt like a stray migratory bird, who stubbornly wanted to stay by someone's side, but couldn't overcome his own nature, so he was always out of place.

On this day, Xu Fei saw Chen Nan again in the barber shop.

After Chen Nan said those words in the hospital that time, Lin Min arranged for Chen Nan to go to other provinces and cities for further study the next day. After that, he never saw Chen Nan again.

Xu Fei knew that Lin Min was defending him, and felt that Chen Nan shouldn't have said those words, and he didn't want the two of them to argue again.

Xu Fei didn't say anything to Lin Min's decision. Now that he saw someone again, he suddenly wanted to ask why Chen Nan had such an attitude towards him.

He walked up to Chen Nan and asked, "Go out and have a chat?"

Chen Nan and Xu Fei looked at each other, and after a while they left the barber shop with him.

The two stood against the wall together on the street, Xu Fei asked: "I heard what you said in the hospital before, I just want to ask, why do you have such a big opinion on me?"

After hearing what he said, Chen Nan asked back: "Why do I have a problem with you, don't you know?"

Xu Fei feels that Chen Nan has changed a lot in the past few years after falling in love, especially in terms of speaking, which is much more agile than before.

Chen Nan didn't wait for Xu Fei's answer, and continued to ask, "Do you really like Brother Lin?"

"Ah."

"Then where were you when Brother Lin was hospitalized with acute gastritis the year before last?"

"Brother Lin's parents' memorial day, he showered in the rain to pay his respects, where were you when he came back feeling sick and having a fever?"

"There was an accident in the barber shop before, and the shop was closed. Where were you when Brother Lin was in a hurry to get angry?"

The first time Xu Fei heard about this, he was stunned, "I don't know..."

He had never heard Lin Min say this.

Chen Nan mocked: "Yes, you don't know, you don't know anything, you are not there every time he needs you! If he doesn't tell you, you won't notice anything!"

"When Grandpa Lin was sick and hospitalized, he was like that. Are you blind? Can't you see that he has lost so much weight? Can't you see the dark circles under his eyes? Can't you see the blood in his eyes? At that time, you still spoke yellow accents to him, are you still a person?!"

Xu Fei saw it, but he didn't think about it at that time. He only thought that Lin Min was worried about him because he suddenly lost contact for two days.

"You have used this place as a hotel for several years, have you considered Brother Lin's feelings?"

"I'm not……"

"What isn't it? You can't imagine how disappointed Brother Lin will be every time you leave, or you can't imagine that you get together so little and leave more, and leaving as soon as you say it will hurt people?"

"You will be your landscape photographer honestly. Wouldn't it be good to get your name out? What are you provoking Brother Lin for?"

"Can't you see that what Lin Ge lacks is someone who lives at home?"

Chen Nan pointed to the location of the barber shop, "Every time after you leave, Brother Lin often sits on the sofa in a daze without thinking about food or tea, and sometimes he is lost in thought for hours."

"He always wipes the photos you left in the barbershop by himself. When you're not around, he wipes them several times a day."

"Sometimes in the store, if he doesn't pay attention, he will call the wrong name and call someone else you."

"He fulfilled your desire to wander around, have you fulfilled him?"

"Let me ask you, when you first met Brother Lin, was he like this?"

After finishing speaking, Chen Nan's eyes turned red, and he turned away without waiting for Xu Fei's answer.

Xu Fei's eyes were red.

He didn't know, he really didn't know, Lin Min never said this.

He never knew that so many things had happened during his absence.

Never knew that he wasn't there when Lin Min needed him.

Lin Min always just opened his arms to him time and time again, welcoming him back.

Lin Min never said how hard it was for him during those days when he left.

For the first time, Xu Fei hated himself for provoking Lin Min and letting Lin Min live like this.

After a long time, Xu Fei's tears dried up. He picked up his mobile phone and called Min Yun.

Min Yun was busy in the office, did not expect Xu Fei to call at this time, but still answered.

"What's the matter? I've finally had enough wildness, are you planning to go home?"

Xu Fei asked: "Mom, is there really that kind of emotion that only makes people laugh and doesn't make people suffer?"

Min Yun signed the document and listened to the phone at the same time, obviously preoccupied with two things, "Yes, didn't you do it before?"

Xu Fei recalled the heartless days before he met Lin Min. At that time, the people around him often changed. If he liked it, he would stay together, and if he didn't like it, he would separate. He really didn't feel bad for anyone.

Min Yun asked, "You broke up with him?"

"No."

"You don't have to think too much before breaking up. You see, people are mortal, but even so, we try to live in the present and enjoy every moment of the present, don't we?"

"Everyone knows that life will pass away one day, but they don't always take it to heart, so when facing a relationship, why do you have to think about the final result? Isn't it good to enjoy the moment?"

"But I feel bad."

Xu Fei felt his heart ache. He couldn't imagine how Lin Min got here all these years. Just thinking about him made his heart ache.

"Then let's separate. If a relationship doesn't give you a positive feeling, it may be better to separate."

After Min Yun finished speaking, she thought for a while and said: "Of course, everything I said is just my experience. What I said is not the truth, and it doesn't mean it must be correct. There are many things that you can only explore and discover by yourself."

Xu Fei hung up the phone, feeling for the first time that loving someone is so difficult.

Xu Fei suddenly missed the heartless days before, the time when he ran around the world, and Lin Min's peaceful and gentle smile when they first met.

Wouldn't it be better if it never started?

Without him, would Lin Min return to his previous appearance?

Will separation be the best ending for them?

That way he could go back to the old days.

In this way, Lin Min doesn't have to endure and suffer in the long waits.

Lin Min was just getting a haircut, so he didn't notice when Chen Nan and Xu Fei went out. By the time he finished the haircut, Chen Nan had already come back to give them a haircut, so he looked around and asked, "Xu Fei went upstairs Is it gone?"

Li Ze said: "It seems to have gone out."

Lin Min didn't think much of it, just thought he was out to buy cigarettes.

After a while Xu Fei came back, his expression had regained his composure, it was hard to see anything from his face now.

For the next few days, Xu Fei pestered Lin Min every night.

Lin Min noticed something strange and asked, "Are you going to leave?"

Xu Fei buried his face in Lin Min's neck, not letting him see his expression, "Well, I'm leaving in two days."

Lin Min smiled and said, "Okay, where are you going this time?"

"Just go home and stay for a while."

Lin Min responded, Xu Fei has indeed been here for too long this time, it's time to go home and spend time with his family.

The next day, Xu Fei sat beside Lin Zhengze, basking in the sun with him. After a long time, he said, "Grandpa, you are right, Lin Min and I are not suitable after all."

Lin Zhengze looked at him.

Xu Fei smiled at Lin Zhengze: "Grandpa, I'm leaving, I won't be coming back this time, take care of yourself."

Lin Zhengze sighed, and patted Xu Fei on the shoulder, "You should be fine too."

Two days later, Lin Min drove Xu Fei to the airport.

The two stood face to face.

"You treat this place as a hotel, have you considered Lin Ge's feelings?"

"If one day he can only be with men, then I also hope that he can find someone with whom he can live a stable life."

"Why didn't you tell me about such a big thing?"

"I just don't want you to worry."

"He fulfilled your desire to wander around, have you fulfilled him?"

……

A sentence resounded in Xu Fei's mind, and too many emotions hit his chest, Xu Fei finally said: "Brother, let's break up."

Lin Min didn't seem to understand what Xu Fei was saying, he asked in a daze, "What?"

"let's break up."

"Why? If there's something I didn't do well..."

Xu Fei interrupted Lin Min, "Brother, it's not your problem, you are fine."

"It's my fault. I'm tired. I don't want to do this anymore. In the future, you... find someone who can live a stable life..."

Lin Min tried his best to calm down and asked, "The truth?"

"Ah."

When the sound of boarding came, Xu Fei said, "Brother, I'm leaving."

Xu Fei just turned around and left, just like every time he was preparing to go out to take pictures, except that this time he would not come back.

Lin Min stood there for a long time, and the past conversation rang in his mind again.

"Why did you break up before?"

"Most of the time there is no reason, I feel tired, or I leave that place and I break up."

"When two people are together, they want to be relaxed and happy. If I get tired and hurt, I might let go."

Lin Min's heart throbbed in pain.

After all, he couldn't keep him.

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Don't be afraid, in the next chapter, at 21:[-] tonight, Xu Fei will be back...