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Monday morning.

Lin Bai trotted into the teaching building, and there were a few people around the bulletin board in the lobby on the first floor. He glanced curiously, and saw that the results of the two-model joint exam had been ranked not long ago.

He never cared about his ranking, anyway, it was like that every time, and it was strange to hang at the end.

But recently, the learning atmosphere in the class has become stronger for the naked eye. Many friends who had learned little before began to work hard, and he was curious about the results.

Lin Bai found his own ranking first, and the results were as expected, neither falling nor rising, no surprises.

I looked up the ranking positions of several brothers again.

This look surprised him. Sun Qi improved a bit in the bottom trio that he had agreed to make before, and Ruan Jing actually reached the middle and upper reaches of the grade ranking, and ranked No. 18 in the class...

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This exam is the first large-scale unified exam this semester. In the second month after Ruan Jing returned to school, this kid not only did not regress, but also rushed forward like crazy.

It turned out that when I continued to have fun and salt fish leisurely, others were always climbing up.

However, thinking back on Ruan Jing's desperate study, Lin Bai couldn't help shivering.

If it was him, it would be fatal.

He didn't bother to read it, so he turned his head and ran upstairs, impatient to share this good news with his brothers.

Entering the classroom, the students in the class came sparsely.

Recently, we bid farewell to the winter, and the early spring morning is twilight. The cold air in the morning and evening makes the temptation of the bed undiminished. Most of the students dragged their feet into the classroom with the morning self-study bell ringing.

If it weren't for Lin Bai being on duty today, he would also be one of the troops who stepped into the door.

Lin Bai returned to his seat, and was surprised to find that Qin Xijue in the back row had arrived and was packing up, as if he was about to move somewhere.

He scratched his head in doubt, and just about to ask, he suddenly noticed that the big man's complexion was terrible, and the indifference and aloofness around him seemed to be real, separating all movements.

This boss is usually a bit cold, but he has never shown such a terrifying aura.Lin Bai shrank his neck involuntarily, and immediately closed his mouth.

Anyway, when Ruan Jing wasn't around, he didn't dare to talk to the boss.

So Lin Bai cleaned up, peeking at Qin Xijue out of the corner of his eye, seeing him tidying up all his things, he moved to the spot vacated by Shen Wei after he left, and sat down there.

Lin Bai was dumbfounded, what's going on?

The young lovers are awkward playing such a big game?Lin Bai was so surprised that he scanned the place he had scanned again, planning to wait for Ruan Jing to come and ask again.

Unexpectedly, one morning passed, and Ruan Jing didn't come to school.I went to ask the new squad leader, only to find out that I have asked for sick leave.

Sending messages and making phone calls to Ruan Jing came to nothing, but Lin Bai's unusually keen sense of gossip finally noticed something was wrong.

As soon as school was over at noon, he glanced at the schedule. Most of the afternoon was for self-study classes, so he skipped decisively and took a taxi to Ruan Jing's home.

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Turning over with difficulty in the quilt, Ruan Jing had a splitting headache and a sore throat, and he woke up a little after the sharp buzzing in his ears passed away.

He touched the vibrating mobile phone next to the bed, and opened Lin Bai's news first, and a series of swiping screens made his temples start to throb again.

The curtains are too blackout, and when they are tightly blocked, the room is almost dark.Looking at the time, it was already noon.

Turning on the bedside lamp, he felt the mild light hurt his eyes on weekdays, he squinted and slowly got used to it.

He slowly scrolled through Lin Bai's message, and when he saw Qin Xijue changing positions, his thumb paused for two seconds before closing the message box.

I didn't look at my phone all morning, and a row of red dots accumulated on the message notification bar.

Still no news from that person.

He glanced at Lin Bai's message again, and many questions jumped into his eyes, but his rusty head couldn't function, so he had to give up replying as if evading. Just as he put down the phone, the door was suddenly pushed open.

Lin Bai walked over to his bedside, lay down on his stomach and lowered his voice as if facing an enemy: "Brother Jing, your boyfriend has escaped!"

Ruan Jing: "..."

Half an hour later.

In the park near Ruan Jing's home, the two sat on stone chairs by the lake.

"What—?!" Lin Bai screamed into the sky, looked around nervously, and approached Ruan Jing who was painting, "I'd rather believe that coal balls are black than you can tell the difference between the two." ah……"

After all, they are not the kind of people who just play around and try to find something new and exciting.

Ruan Jing thought how ignorant this is, how could the briquettes be white?

He wanted to respond, but he really didn't have the strength to do so. He simply continued to paint with no expression on his face, as if only those familiar lines could calm down the depression in his heart.

What happened last night is still like a dream when I think about it now.

After Qin Xijue left, he stood there for a long time as if he didn't realize it, until it started to rain lightly, and the cold penetrated into his bones, making him wake up suddenly.Immediately chased Qin Xijue to the door of Qin Xijue's house, afraid of disturbing the neighbors by shouting, he stood in front of the courtyard and repeatedly called Qin Xijue and sent messages...

From wanting to wake up the other party out of control, to calmly asking for a good talk, and finally begging powerlessly...

The other party has not responded.

After an unknown amount of time, the restlessness and discomfort slowly subsided in the freezing rain, and he turned and left.

On the way home, he blocked and deleted Qin Xijue.

Drenched in the rain all the way, I tossed and turned in the chills all night. Finally, it was almost morning, and I found that I had a fever again.

There was no end in his mind last night, and countless versions continued in his half-asleep dream—Qin Xijue came back and told him that he was joking, Qin Xijue said he regretted it, Qin Xijue said he lied to him of……

But when I wake up, the reality is clearly and ironically in front of me.

The stroke under his hand seemed to be gently pushed by a demon, pressing down on the drawing paper with force through the back of the paper, and just a crooked line ruined the look of the entire painting.

Ruan Jing looked at it for a few seconds, then slowly wiped it off.

Lin Bai was at a loss, he seldom...or almost never saw Ruan Jing like this.

My brother who I have known since junior high school seems to be naturally optimistic, smart and transparent, even if the sky is about to fall, he can still make a few jokes.

But now it's different.

Ruan Jing has been busy studying recently, and has lost a lot of weight. The dark circles under his eyes that appeared after he didn't sleep well yesterday, his bloodshot eyes due to a cold, and the beautiful but pale fingers on the drawing paper... make the whole person feel gloomy and depressed .

He Zhiqu didn't speak any more, and sat by the side to accompany the other party to draw in silence.

Ruan Jing sat by the lake like this, letting go of all thoughts, and painted to the west of the sun.

It wasn't until Lin Bai asked him carefully if he wanted to eat something that he returned to his fascination.

Ruan Jing shook his head, he really had no appetite, and started to pack his painting tools: "I'm going back."

Lin Bai hesitated to speak beside him: "Then what are you going to do? You two are so frozen?"

Ruan Jing hung his eyes down and was silent for a few seconds, but did not answer directly: "Study hard, the college entrance examination will be soon."

Lin Bai stared blankly at Ruan Jing's side face, the thin outline made his brows and eyes a little haggard, he didn't know how to answer the words for no reason, so he just patted his head.

Ruan Jing rested for a day, the fever subsided, and the cold was still not healed.

The next day, he returned to school. He came to the seat where he was alone, and sat down with his usual expression.

Listen to lectures, brush up questions, and do test papers.

Days seem to be the same as before.

Only he himself knows that seeing that familiar figure intentionally or unintentionally, hearing the voice of the other party answering questions in class, and having to look at the blackboard when the math class representative is giving a lecture...all made him uncomfortable to face reality.

Time waits for no one, and the three-model entrance examination came as scheduled, cruelly breaking the false peace that Ruan Jing was trying to maintain on top of the ruins.

Ruan Jing stood in front of the bulletin board, looking at his seriously declining grades with a calm expression. In his ears, other students were discussing the outrageous news that "the top student in the grade fell to the second". Judging by the momentum, The degree of widespread circulation is comparable to that of the dean getting married.

Ruan Jing lowered his gaze calmly, and passed by Qin Xijue who stopped casually to watch like a stranger.

These days, all Ruan Jing's thoughts are still unable to get out of this matter. He can't figure it out, and he can't understand it, so he simply indulges in it indulgently.

Thinking over and over again, and repeatedly assuming that the south wall is smashed, you can always get a glimpse of some details from the broken wall.

Gradually calming down, it was not difficult for him to understand Qin Xijue's intention and choice.

The other party simply felt that he couldn't bear it anymore.

Looking back on those days before, he also admitted that he didn't know how long he could last, and even had a desperate mentality to ignore it... As for how it would end, he didn't know.

Qin Xijue resolutely and directly made the choice for him.

It is indeed in line with this person's view of pros and cons.

Although Ruan Jing could sort out Qin Xijue's behavior and thinking, he still couldn't understand it, and he wouldn't thank him either.

Let himself strip out the life he planned in the future - he can't pass this hurdle, and he can't accept this ending calmly.

However, it's not that this person doesn't love him anymore, nor is it that the relationship between the two of them is in crisis, he knows all of this.

No matter how unwilling to suffer, what else can I do?No one can change Qin Xijue's decision.

The days of constant countdown are still moving forward.

Ruan Jing could only force himself to let go of these things that had become a foregone conclusion, and immediately returned to study.

Without someone who can claim some power just by looking back, the concept of time immediately became clear.

Sometimes I feel that time passes quickly, and a week disappears in the blink of an eye, and sometimes I feel that it passes slowly. In the hot night, in the white light of incandescent lamps, the grinding silence spreads in the sound of flipping books and writing in the classroom. Come.

A sense of confusion often arises in time stagnation, as well as the torment of destroying the mind and being forced to reshape it.

After breaking up, Ruan Jing had no direction to fight for. He worked so hard at the beginning, but only wanted to go to the same place as Qin Xijue, or to be closer to him.

It's not necessary now, his rhythm has slowed down, he no longer pushes himself, and his study and mental state are slowly recovering instead.

Thinking about it, Qin Xijue also knew that he would not be devastated because of this, so he dared to break up at this time.

It's strange to know yourself.

Thinking of this, he laughed at himself. Seeing that his thoughts were going down the road, he was going to be dazed again, so he forced himself to stop.

The state of study has returned to the right track, but the cold has been procrastinating and not getting better.

Until the [-]-day countdown to the college entrance examination, the cough became more serious.

The school organized a [-]-day swearing-in meeting in due course, hoping to improve morale and remind students that the sprint is coming soon.

Ruan Jing fell ill that day, and under Lin Bai's persuasion, he had no choice but to take the dictionary to the school infirmary for infusion.

By the time he walked out of the infirmary, the meeting was halfway through.

He didn't want to go down to join in the fun, holding hot water in the empty classroom, leaning against the window and looking at the dark playground.

When the swearing-in meeting progressed to the stage where they voluntarily took the oath, most people joined in the fun and yelled about their ideal colleges, as if making an oath.

Unexpectedly, it just happened to catch up with Sun Qi's live broadcast.

Sun Qi trotted onto the stage under the instigation of his friends, he picked up the microphone and cleared his throat.

Sun Qi said loudly: "Brothers who have been beaten by me! I'm sorry! I'm here today, what I want to say in this position! If I have the chance to do it again! I will still beat you! Little bunny..."

The teacher beside him hurriedly muted the loudspeaker, and dragged Sun Qi down amidst the roar of laughter.

Fortunately, at the swearing-in meeting, the school and the student representatives' speeches are the key points. The next student swearing-in is just to enliven the atmosphere and let everyone relax. Afterwards, there are already a lot of tricks, and it's not bad for Sun Qiqi's one. .

Ruan Jing watched from afar, finally showing a little smile after so many days.

The meeting ended, and the students returned to the classroom one after another chatting about the interesting things just now. It was much better than the dead scene in the past. It seems that the swearing-in meeting was quite effective.

Ruan Jing sat on the seat, looking indifferent as if he didn't hear anything outside the window, and was lowering his head to make up his homework.

until a bag was placed on his desk.

Ruan Jing glanced sideways at the bag, which was full of medicines.

He looked up at Lin Bai who was smiling, and asked bluntly, "Who bought it?"

Lin Bai was taken aback, with a weird expression as if he had been caught: "Can't I buy it?"

Just as Ruan Jing was about to say something, he coughed violently again, thinking that among the pile of medicines, there are medicines for colds, cough relief, and even tea bags for throat... Lin Bai would not be single now if he had such thoughts.

As for who was going around in such a circle to buy a medicine, he didn't bother to think about it in his sickly dazed head.

Could it be possible to throw the medicine back, that would be too naive, he doesn't have so much anger to vent, and the daily study and illness have exhausted him.

After Ruan Jing finished coughing, he said hoarsely without mentioning anything, "Thank you."

Lin Bai breathed a sigh of relief when he heard the words, and turned around happily.

The countdown to the college entrance examination entered fifty days.The whole high school atmosphere can only be described as pre-war preparations.

Fortunately, Ruan Jing's illness is finally cured.

Another mock exam was held not long ago, and his grades returned to the original level.

So did Qin Xijue.

He breathed a sigh of relief.

The thrilling fall of the two of them before happened to be in poor condition, but now everything is back on track and they are going their separate ways.

At this time, the senior high school students are immersed in studying hard, and their mentality is more or less broken.After the [-]-day swearing-in meeting, the dean held a parent-teacher meeting, intending to work together to put the students' minds in order.

Since Ruan Jing came back from Qin Xijue's house for the last time, the family members noticed obvious changes in him, especially Lin Rong.

Usually, every time she questioned the past, Ruan Jing's eyes were full of helplessness and stubbornness.

Until facing him one time, the other party just looked back quietly, there was nothing but peace in those eyes.

Lin Rong froze in place, and never asked those words again.

Ruan Jing's relationship with his family has also become delicate. He leaves early and returns late to go to school, and meets each other at night or on weekends. He still communicates and cares about Lin Rong's condition as usual, but he no longer has the energy to express other emotions.

It was as quiet as a different person.

Ruan Jing was a little hesitant after the announcement of the parents' meeting this time, Lin Rong was sick and couldn't go out, and it was embarrassing to call Zhao Bin hastily, so he had to ask Xiao Sheng for leave.

Unexpectedly, Xiao Sheng was a little strange: "I called the parents here, and your family members said that they can come to participate."

Ruan Jing was stunned for a moment, maybe Lin Rong decided to come when the situation was good, and he didn't care too much.

Parents' meeting that night.

After dinner, Ruan Jing and Lin Bai squatted by the flower bed in front of the school, looking at the teaching building not far away with their own thoughts.

Lin Bai drooped his head: "My mother will kill me when she comes out..."

Ruan Jing opened the report card in his hand, looked at Lin Bai's grades, and sighed earnestly: "Student Xiaolin...you should take the exam."

Lin Bai: "... If I had your grades, my parents would be relieved."

Ruan Jing looked at the lights in the distance, smiled inexplicably, and didn't answer.

The parents' meeting ended, and the students passed by the parents who had left the classroom, and went back to the classroom one after another, planning to study by themselves in the evening.

Unexpectedly, Ruan Jing was taken aback when he saw Zhao Bin approaching him.

He and Zhao Bin are not familiar even now, but during the unilateral scolding by Lin Rong, Zhao Bin has been protecting himself consciously or unconsciously.

Ruan Jing was grateful in his heart.

Zhao Bin came to him and talked a few words about what the teacher said about him. It was nothing more than that his grades had improved a lot and he worked hard, but he was unstable. He needed to maintain his mentality and not work too hard.

Ruan Jing nodded in agreement.

In the end, the two were silent for a moment, as if they were still not used to the atmosphere of being face to face, Zhao Bin suddenly coughed.

"Ruan Jing, you can't say that reading is the only way out..."

Ruan Jing raised his head silently, the person in front of him frowned, his standing posture seemed to be a little stiff due to nervousness, but he could see that he was very worried about his recent state.

Zhao Bin continued: "But only by studying can you have the right to choose more...the right to choose anything."

Zhao Bin seemed to mean something, Ruan Jing was taken aback, and smiled faintly: "I see, thank you uncle."

The first time Zhao Bin heard Ruan Jing call him, he was also taken aback. He hurriedly responded vaguely at a loss, and said again: "...Have you eaten yet, how about I take you out to eat?"

Ruan Jing shook his head: "I've eaten, I have to go back to self-study."

The brief exchange between the two ended quickly, and they bid farewell on the playground.

Ruan Jing watched Zhao Bin's back, and the smile on his face gradually faded.

What Zhao Bin said was correct, but he also knew that among his thousands of choices, that option would no longer appear in his future.