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Ruan Jing went back to school and spent more than a month immersing himself in culture classes. The last short vacation of the third year of high school came one after another.

The winter vacation included a Spring Festival, but this lively festival did not bring any joy to Ruan Jing, and made the already gloomy atmosphere at home even worse.

Zhao Bin accompanied Lin Rong between the hospital and home, while Ruan Jing watched Zhao Jie at home and cooked three meals a day by the way, most of the time only he and Zhao Jie ate.

Facing him alone, the little boy immediately turned into a master of things, picking and choosing the food-"too salty", "too bland", "the color is not good-looking"...

The emperor's mouth was fed the same food at home, and Ruan Jing didn't even bother to raise his eyelids: "I like it or not."

Zhao Jie ate a few mouthfuls with inconsistency: "It's okay to eat, how can you still be hungry."

Ruan Jing: "..." How sloppily did the homework during the winter vacation have to raise this five-backed and six-beast-like animal.

The little bastard was irritating, but he helped him finish the rough cleaning of the house, and he didn't bother to care about those nonsense.

After the winter vacation, as soon as Lin Rong saw that he was not at home, she immediately became suspicious and became a sign of a quarrel.

He had no choice but to stay at home as much as possible, spending most of his time brushing up questions.I kept in touch with Qin Xijue through messages and phone calls, but I haven't seen him for a long time.

Not only Ruan Jing was helplessly trapped, but Qin Xijue was also in difficulty.

In fact, Qin Xijue has been thinking of countermeasures since he guessed that Lin Rong discovered and objected to this matter.

He analyzed it calmly and made a lot of assumptions. The reason why Ruan Jing's parents objected was nothing more than these——

It is against common sense to like the same sex, and most people will look at it with strange eyes.I am also afraid that they are acting impulsively, and it will be too late to regret it later.Even if they influence learning together now, they are not responsible for their respective futures.

He can use data as an example to describe the tolerance of society in this area, and he can also list his detailed plans for the future, proving that he can give Ruan Jing a good environment and support their future better—he and Ruan Jing are not On a whim, the determination to be together is not hasty and random.

He has prepared many ways to deal with it, and he also understands that these are just empty words that have not yet been realized.

Except that he and Ruan Jing didn't waste their studies and improved a lot, the others were not convincing.

But he wanted to go for it.

However, now that Lin Rong is ill, she is emotionally sensitive and irritable, and any bargaining will aggravate her condition.

He couldn't even walk in front of the other party, and all these countermeasures were meaningless.

Ruan Jing said that the two worked hard together and were actually on the front line. It was Ruan Jing who suffered the most pressure.

And he can't do anything.

In Qin Xijue's life, everything can be obtained through hard work, as long as he thinks about it, he can do everything to the best of his ability.

This is the only thing that doesn't work.

He pushed himself into the boundless sea day and night, like a traveler who has forgotten the years and years in the desert, the wind and sand are boundless, and he does not know his way back.Only after Ruan Jing spoke a few words with him did he break away from the boredom and take a few breaths of the freshness of the short-lived oasis.

Every time Ruan Jing chatted, his tone remained the same, except for the sudden disappearance, as if they were still in a state of carelessness, and none of those things happened.

It went on like this for half a month.

Until one night, Ruan Jing lay down and chatted with him, and suddenly fell asleep in a daze. After a while of vague words, he heard half-asleep and half-awake talking in sleep.

"Xijue, I miss you..."

Qin Xijue knows the relaxed atmosphere that Ruan Jing deliberately created, and also understands that under the fragile mirror, there are undercurrents surging...

He couldn't see through the other party's painstaking efforts.

He slowly opened his eyes in these words, and all his defenses were shattered.

Although the two agreed to get over it slowly, he could no longer do nothing.

He thought about it all night and planned to talk to Zhao Bin first. If Lin Rong was in a stable mood, he should go see her.

At least let Ruan Jing not bear all the scolding alone, after all, this is a matter between two people.

It's just that he didn't mention this to Ruan Jing.

The other party desperately protected him behind him, and would not agree to anything.

This Spring Festival, Ruan Jing lived like a year, and the degree of carefulness was more than walking on thin ice. The ice slag had been crushed by him long ago, and the cold ice pierced him hard. It was sharp and difficult to move forward and backward.

If Zhao Jie hadn't exchanged words with him every now and then, he would have developed psychological problems in the oppressive atmosphere.

Every time Lin Rong went home for a short time, she kept asking Ruan Jing if he had broken up with her. It seemed that as long as he didn't say yes, the scolding and entanglement would last forever.

Ruan Jing was teetering on the verge of being driven crazy, and every time Zhao Bin rushed to pull him away, he could only return to the room.

The smiling and gentle mother in the past disappeared, and under the stimulation of pathology and this incident, she became harsh in her words and looked harsh... When Ruan Jing saw her, distress and fear welled up in her heart, and she was extremely uncomfortable.

Well the holidays are almost over.

As the start of school was approaching, Zhao Bin discussed with him privately that the period before the college entrance examination was particularly important, and continuing to live at home would be affected. He asked him whether he would consider living in a school dormitory, and that he should pass the college entrance examination first before dealing with other matters.

Ruan Jing also thought it was a good idea, and he really should get through this period of time first.

So one day when Lin Rong was staying in the hospital, Ruan Jing started to pack his luggage, and Zhao Bin also received a text message from Qin Xijue, asking him to come and talk at home.

Unexpectedly, by coincidence, Lin Rong's test report came out, and she was going to go home.

Ruan Jing was carrying the suitcase, and collided head-on with Lin Rong who opened the door. Before the door could be closed, Lin Rong's expression darkened, and she immediately stopped him—she knew that Qin Xijue also lived in the school dormitory.

Recently, Ruan Jing retreated again and again, struggling to get along with his mother... He has already made this step of retreat, but now it is about the college entrance examination, and he is still being pressed step by step.

A deep sense of powerlessness swept over him, and all patience was exhausted.

Lin Rong was still angrily asking "Are you my son?"

The temperature in Ruan Jing's eyes finally cooled down. He looked at Lin Rong exhausted, "If it makes you happy, you can pretend that I don't have this son."

The living room fell into dead silence for a moment.

Lin Rong looked at him in disbelief, and the light in her red eyes went out little by little.

Zhao Bin also whispered his name.

Ruan Jing immediately came back to his senses and realized that he had said something stupid. Just as he was about to apologize, Lin Rong tremblingly took out a piece of paper from his bag and smashed it on his chest.

Gritting his teeth and trembling, he said, "Okay... as you wish, are you happy..."

Ruan Jing's pupils shrank at this sentence, as if he had realized something, he hurried to pick up the paper, his fingertips trembling uncontrollably.

It's a test sheet.

The word "stomach cancer" on it made him feel like falling into an ice cellar, draining all his strength in an instant.

Tears finally slipped down silently.

The precarious pain on his shoulders finally collapsed at this moment.

Before closing the door in time, Qin Xijue stood silently for a long time, then turned and left silently.

It was so muddled until the start of school, Ruan Jing didn't go to live in the school dormitory after all.

I don’t want to recall the situation in the living room that night—his consciousness was blank, and he only vaguely remembered that Zhao Bin was so busy that he coaxed Lin Rong to sleep, and then came to the bedroom to talk to him, repeatedly explaining that although he had “cancer”, it was a good thing. It's an early stage, and there is great hope for a cure, so don't be too sad.In the end, he took Zhao Jie, who slipped in while Ruan Jing was in a daze, to bed...

The quarrel seemed to consume everyone's energy, and the night was quiet, but no one fell asleep.

On the evening self-study the day before school started, Ruan Jing made an appointment with Qin Xijue in advance to meet him at his house and then go to school together.

He entered the courtyard gate, and the flowers and plants on the way he passed had withered and withered.The dilapidated color is desolate and cold in the cold winter wind, making the whole yard look particularly bleak.

Pushing open the door and entering, Qin Xijue was heating him a cup of milk, and turned to look at him.

I haven't seen him for almost a holiday, Ruan Jing missed Qin Xijue so much, he hurried over to hug him tightly, took a breath of the air in his arms, and then raised his head.

Qin Xijue's eyes were inexplicably shocked.

Ruan Jing just remembered that Qin Xijue looked at him a little strangely when he just came in - the joy of reunion was only for a moment, and then it seemed to be waiting for the death sentence, with a tinge of anxious anticipation, and even deeper hopelessness.

Ruan Jing was taken aback for a moment, although the two of them had lost contact with each other a lot in the few days before the start of school... But Qin Xijue didn't have to think about any worries.

Could it be that you have become sensitive after seeing each other for too long?

Can not help but some funny.

Ruan Jing sighed pretendingly, and looked into the other's eyes worriedly: "It seems that my teacher Qin doesn't miss me very much."

Qin Xijue looked down at him, his eyelashes fluttered, and the inexplicable complex emotions in his eyes did not dissipate. He couldn't help but say: "You..." Noticing that his voice was hoarse, he hurriedly cleared his throat again, his hesitant tone was full of temptation, "Is there nothing you want to tell me?"

Ruan Jing really thought about it: "Lend me to copy the homework...huh?"

Before he could finish speaking, he was blocked by an urgent breath.

Qin Xijue seemed to be ruthless, Ruan Jing almost couldn't catch his breath, and hurriedly stroked the other's back comfortingly, the kiss gradually became slow and deep.

Ruan Jing understood that this person also missed him very much.

After a while, the two breathed erratically, Qin Xijue stared at him, seemed to have a thousand words to say, and didn't know where to start, and finally just brushed his eye sockets lightly with his thumb: "Your eye sockets are red. .”

Ruan Jing remembered something and rubbed it quickly: "Oh, it's all because I played games last night and went to bed late..."

Qin Xijue's Adam's apple moved slightly, and the red mark was obviously left by crying at night, but if the other party didn't say anything, it became a tacit agreement between them not to mention it.

He slowly stroked the red mark, the drooping eyelashes covered the darkness in his eyes, and remained silent.