Rebirth this time I love you

In the past two years, Su Teng read all Freud's books introduced by Cheng Xi, and became interested in psychology out of control.He chose the school's psychology major as a minor, and got a certificate of completion at the end of his sophomore year.

Seeing that he was interested in this, Cheng Xi also encouraged him to think about it in graduate school, and to study it in depth.This proposal made Su Teng very tempted, and he also seriously considered the feasibility of this idea.However, shortly after the credit platform came out, something happened that changed his mind.

Cheng Xi rented a small single room next to the school and turned it into an office, where everyone had discussions on weekdays.In the evening, Su Teng studies in the library. When the library closes at ten o'clock, Cheng Xi will come to pick him up on time.If Cheng Xi hadn't finished his work, he would send Su Teng home first and then go back.

The reason why Cheng Xi insisted on sending Su Teng by himself was because one night when Su Teng was walking home alone, his wallet was robbed.At that time, it was so dark that he could not see his face clearly, Su Teng only felt that a person was running over quickly, and ran away as soon as he took out his schoolbag.Fortunately, that person only wanted a small amount of money, and did not further threaten Su Teng's personal safety.But just like this, Cheng Xi was scared enough, and Su Teng would not be allowed to walk alone at night again.

Normally, Cheng Xi would try his best to finish the matter before ten o'clock, and then he could accompany Su Teng home directly, but it cannot be ruled out that when he is particularly busy, Cheng Xi can only send Su Teng back first, and then return to the office to continue working.

At that time, because none of the orders had been confiscated, the mood of the whole team was relatively low, and Qian Fan was too angry.Several times he saw Cheng Xi put down the things at hand and went out for a while before coming back. After asking, he knew it was to take Su Teng home, and he felt a little uncomfortable.He felt that Su Teng was too ignorant of the importance of such an urgent moment.

So when he was at school, he found an opportunity to stop Su Teng who was alone.She spoke rather domineeringly: "Su Teng, I have something to tell you."

Su Teng was quite surprised, followed him to the side, and offered to hand over a box of milk: "Drink?"

The milk was still the brand that Su Teng was used to drinking, which reminded Qian Fan how much Cheng Xi cared for Su Teng.He said angrily: "Keep it for yourself. I want to remind you today that Cheng Xi is a person who is going to do great things, and the standards of the people around him will only get higher and higher. To be honest, people like you ..."

Qian Fan looked Su Teng up and down for a while, seeing that he was uncomfortable, and then continued: "Tsk tsk, really, I don't know what Cheng Xi likes about you. Anyway, I don't care about the two of you. , I hope you can distinguish the priority of things in the future, and don't keep annoying Cheng Xi with your crap."

Qian Fan knew that Su Teng had an unspeakable temperament, and he had been waiting for Su Teng to be told to cry, or to look aggrieved.Then he can have more excuses to teach Su Teng a lesson.He is a person with firm goals, and Cheng Xi is the leader he recognizes. Of course, he is obliged to clean up the obstacles that the leader encounters on his way forward.

But Su Teng just pursed his lips and said, "Got it, thank you for reminding me."

As a result, Qian Fan's talk was blocked by him instead.Qian Fan had no choice but to say, "You just need to know."

Yes, Su Teng has known for a long time that if he wants to keep up with Cheng Xi, he must work very hard.He doesn't have enough strength now, but he will continue to improve so that he will not be left too far behind by Cheng Xi.

After this conversation, he gave up the idea of ​​majoring in psychology. He felt that majoring in economics should be more useful to Cheng Xi.He stopped studying in the library at night, borrowed all the books he wanted to read, and reviewed them in the study.

Their professional tutors are basically master tutors, and only one is a doctoral tutor, so they are naturally very sought-after.And Su Teng deliberately put more pressure on himself, insisting on applying for the graduate student of Professor Liu, the doctoral supervisor.In the days before the interview, sometimes when Cheng Xi came back from outside very late, he could still see Su Teng reading at night under the lamp.

Seeing Su Teng like this, Cheng Xi was having a hard time.He originally hoped to rely on his own strength to let his brother live comfortably, but after all he went to college, Su Teng continued to be his ascetic monk, Cheng Xi felt distressed when he saw it.

Originally, Cheng Xi felt that this matter should not be rushed, and planned to persuade Su Teng slowly.But until that night, he had a lot of things to do, and he didn't come home until after one o'clock in the evening.He planned to go to sleep quietly and not disturb Su Teng, but the moonlight was too bright that night, and the moonlight coming in from the window illuminated the room clearly.Cheng Xi saw that Su Teng, his family, was lying on the bed quietly, but his eyes were not closed.

It was only then that Cheng Xi realized that something was wrong, Su Teng was clearly a sign of insomnia!He secretly blamed himself for being busy with work recently, so he didn't notice anything wrong with Su Teng.He took off his clothes, got on the bed and lay on his side, hugged Su Teng in his arms from behind, and said in a low and soft voice: "Baby."

Normally, Cheng Xi would occasionally call Su Teng that way, but it was only when Su Teng felt wronged and Cheng Xi coaxed him patiently.Hearing Cheng Xi calling him, Su Teng turned over, buried his face in Cheng Xi's arms, and replied muffledly: "Yes."

"Tell me what's going on?" Cheng Xi absolutely exhausted all his thoughts towards Su Teng, and now coaxing him to say something, he caressed his back and leaned over to kiss him on the cheek.

It has to be said that Cheng Xi taught Su Teng very well.Cheng Xi had consciously instilled in Su Teng thoughts such as "I will not betray you" and "We are the closest" to Su Teng since he was a child.He does not directly express it in spoken language, but integrates such thoughts into his every move.Every thoughtfulness and concern strengthened his reliable impression in Su Teng's mind.

Now, more than ten years later, Su Teng has long been used to not needing to hide anything from Cheng Xi, and can safely give everything to Cheng Xi.So although Su Teng's insomnia has a lot to do with Cheng Xi, Su Teng still confessed: "It's time for an interview, I'm nervous."

Cheng Xi still has a rough idea of ​​Su Teng's grades. The scholarship has not been cut off in the past two years, and it must be more than enough to guarantee the research of the school.It was also because of this that Cheng Xi didn't take his further studies too seriously.Hearing what he said now, I knew that he must have other thoughts, so I was not in a hurry and asked slowly: "What else? Tell me what you think."

Su Teng's temperament is simple, without any twists and turns in his intestines, and he wiped out his little thoughts in two or three times: "I want to choose Professor Liu as my tutor, otherwise...you are so good, I am even more so." I can't catch up with you."

"You fool." Su Teng'ai was serious, and Cheng Xi knew that he had to tell him clearly about this, otherwise he would have to dig into the horns in the future, "Do you know what weight you are in my heart?"

Su Teng looked over in confusion and nervous anticipation, making Cheng Xi's heart soften.He couldn't help sighing, took Su Teng's hand, and put it on his chest: "There must be pursuit in life, you know. My current job is my pursuit. I decided to give it a go regardless of the consequences." , that’s all I can give my job.”

"However, above the pursuit, everyone must have their own beliefs. Faith is the proof that this person is rooted in the world. For the pursuit, one can give up a lot, but for the belief, one can give up everything." Cheng Xi's eyes were deep. Like a starry sky, he stared at Su Teng closely, "You are my belief. It has nothing to do with whether you are good or not, even if you can't graduate from college? As long as you are there, I will feel hopeful." Sigh again Taking a breath, Cheng Xi murmured, "Su Teng, I love you so much that I'm going crazy."

It was rare to hear Cheng Xi's heartfelt confession, Su Teng felt his heart beating fast, flustered, and his cheeks began to feel hot.Seeing that Su Teng didn't speak for a long time, Cheng Xi simply turned over and pressed on him: "Why do you have the idea of ​​catching up with me? I've already belonged to you, here..." Cheng Xi grabbed Su Teng's hand again, and tapped His nose, "And here..." nodded his mouth, "Every part of your body is yours. You don't need to chase after me, I'm always here."

After rubbing his ears and temples together, Cheng Xi's eyes darkened a little, his hands became irregular, and he said while taking off Su Teng's clothes: "Let me guess, why do you think so much recently? It must be because I didn't satisfy you, huh? I thought you were a little uncomfortable last time, so let me let you go for two days, but I didn't expect... It seems that I have to work harder to make you forget these messy thoughts..."

Cheng Xi's voice gradually lowered, and at the same time, accompanied by Su Teng's shy moan, the room was charming...

***

I don't know if Cheng Xi's "exercise theory" played a role, anyway, Su Teng figured it out, the more comfortable he is and the better he takes care of himself, the greater satisfaction Cheng Xi can get.With his mentality straightened and insomnia no longer there, Su Teng felt that even if he met someone like Qian Fan again, he would be able to deal with it calmly.Outsiders don't know about him and Cheng Xi at all, why should they care so much about their opinions?It is Cheng Xi who wants to accompany him to live this life well.

In the final analysis, Su Teng was able to walk out of the obsession of "you have to be as good as you to be worthy of you" so quickly because Cheng Xi gave him enough confidence.Cheng Xi's kindness to Su Teng is enough for Su Teng to believe in the future that should be illusory.Let him believe that even if he is not good enough, the positions of the people around Cheng Xi have already been certified. No matter how good other people are, they will be rejected only because of one sentence: You are not Su Teng.

It can be said that Cheng Xi successfully convinced Su Teng that no matter how dazzling he is, Su Teng is the one who can stand by his side safely.But what Su Teng needs is just to be himself.

To sum up, Su Teng's thoughts on Cheng Xi have gone through three stages: "I am not worthy of you" to "I will try my best to catch up with you", and finally to this complete trust and entrustment.In the last stage, the change of ideas seemed to happen overnight, but it started from the first stage, accumulated bit by bit, and finally felt a sense of success.

Su Teng's mentality was put in order, but he was favored by Professor Liu during the interview, and he was successfully admitted to the graduate school.Professor Liu is notoriously serious.Su Teng's temperament is quiet and not noisy, and he is meticulous in his work, which is very popular with old scholars like Professor Liu.Compared with his brothers and sisters, he is considered the most favored. He started working with Professor Liu on projects before he graduated from undergraduate.

The author has something to say: Thank you for the heart-warming two landmines, huh, moved~ go to type energetically~

By the way, humming, what a charming room, it's really annoying!Please make up your own mind about what kind of charming method...