i may be a bug

I live to hang up.

——Tanikawa Kakutani

A person with superpowers like me can live a good life even in the garbage dump.

So it is impossible to completely simulate it.

But I always need to fill it with some memories, no matter how tragic these two years have been in this world, I can turn it into a fairy tale on the if line.

Anyway, the memory is fuzzy.

Why not remember something good?

Be firm about the fact that I am actually loved, and also be firm about the judgment of the Supernatural Agents Division on my danger factor.I'm really a salted fish, even if it's strange occasionally, I'm still a salted fish, don't blame me for destroying the world.

The real memory doesn't really matter, as long as I believe it's true.

This is the reason why I have no mental imbalance in this world and other worlds, and I can see it a lot.Like that seaweed rice ball, like that Mafia's Ranpo, like Dazai Osamu.

Seaweed Rice Ball is committed to destroying my system, making my mentality inclined to his ideals, and becoming his help, not resistance.

However, my mentality directly pressured him to a rare psychological breakdown.I was already a mature adult at that time, looking at Tuo Si was like looking at a child, full of the love and hatred of the elders.

"Isn't it good to have this time to learn knowledge? If you spend an extra hour studying, I won't have a teacher to teach me to write topology problems!"

Tosi pulled his hat, and his eyes became a fan-shaped picture for a moment, one point was powerless, two points were helpless, three points were angry, and four points continued to fight.

Great, it really is the seaweed rice ball that is making trouble.

Really good at math.

"You haven't learned Russian literature today either."

"Oh, what can I do, even if you are doing topology now, don't you still have to stay up late with me?"

What is the secret to staying up all year round to stay refreshed and not to lose hair, and to still be the prettiest boy on the street?

"Refreshing" + "thick hair" double buff package, Tuosi said it was good after using it.

Many times, I feel that the friendship between us can be maintained because of these two buffs.

Tosi also wanted me to use "mental quickness" and a series of buffs that can be unlocked during the topology learning process, but I firmly rejected it.

"I want to see you as miserable as I am."

I have been banned from these buffs that are too ruthless in learning, why should I use them for Tuo Si?Are the two miserable together?

That day, Tosi crazily washed my hair with "Sin and Punishment". I drank black tea and wrote the title. Tosi kept touching my head, just like he was rubbing the head of a dog angrily.

But it doesn't matter, anyway, he won't lose his hair or lose his hair, and he won't be killed by his supernatural power.

"Why don't you think that I really want you dead?"

That's what he said, and with the expression on his face, I dare to let him out as a big villain boss.

I was drinking his black tea, more like a villain boss than him, cold and ruthless: "The only reason why you were not killed by me in front of me is that you are still important now."

"Fei Jia, do you think I'm really a savior with overflowing sympathy?"

I will not be the one who destroys the world, and of course I cannot be the savior.People don't need someone like me to be a savior, nor do they need someone to stand up and give the world a crisis that subverts the human order.We do things because of our own ideas, not by the will of others.

It's just that our brains and our strength allow us to have extremely destructive possibilities.

Other than that, we are no different from ordinary people.Before I didn't have supernatural powers, I wanted to live, and I lived on. Now that I have supernatural powers, my ideal is still to live, and to live on.

Their minds are all theirs, and my IQ is really far behind theirs.So I won't see something I shouldn't know because of my overly delicate and sensitive nerves, and I won't do anything because I want to change those things.

What I can do is to keep a stable mind, not to look at the deep sea, not to explore, and to maintain the maximum freedom in a system.

Stupid people will always live more comfortably.

"I'm curious, who made you look like this."

"you."

I am not lying.

From the very beginning, those I met, such as Osamu Dazai, Ogai Mori, and Tosi, all left their traces in my thoughts.

I was their projection before breaking free and becoming myself.

Getting along with this group of high-risk people was the period when my thoughts were the most confused. I still received a lot of malice, but the blows were enough.I will sew and mend it myself, and the most important bottom line is still the same as before, not even a hole is broken.

"Can you do anything to survive?"

"Do not."

I also need to thank them, without them, my current life may be worse.

I would confuse the if line with the world.

Then I will have the same expectations for all people, and feel that we are not strangers, but familiar people.However this is not true.

The person who became my friend and experienced a lot of things is not him in this world. I have no reason to transfer my preference for him to a person whose life trajectory has subtle differences.

They are not the same.

It's just different individuals who like and think alike.

Expectations will lead to greater disappointment.

Speaking of which, the reason why this world is this world is that I once confessed to Mafia's Ranbu: "Because that world is where my memory begins."

Ranpo was sitting with me on a park bench at that time, and he threw the cadre's coat to me.

He's eating ice cream and doesn't look like the guy who just asked "What the hell do you think of your world?"

"Isn't this kind of thing obvious at a glance? You are from a parallel time and space."

There must be some people who could see it, but he was the only one who said it outright.

I accepted it without any surprise.

I have met more than one Edogawa Ranpo, and I have enough understanding of Edogawa Ranpo's IQ, and I don't feel guilty when I'm told.

This is something he will know.

Just

"How many Edogawa Ranpo have you met?"

I raised a hand under his gaze, "Like, dozens of them."

Ranbu angrily asked me to buy a strawberry parfait, asking for the most expensive one by name.

He said that if I met him for the first time and looked at him with the eyes of an acquaintance, he would definitely make me poor and unlucky.

I questioned my soul: "But am I not poor now?"

"Your poverty is caused by the law of causality, what can Master Ranpo do?"

"Random steps..."

"Shut up, I won't eat less!"

Ok, skipping the topic of being poor.

To me, this world doesn't have much special features. Compared with the world of IF, it is only the place of my first memories.

Then I fully experienced the process of awakening supernatural powers in this world, and I also made friends by relying on my ordinary self, so it became special.

That's it, for the simple reason.

The simpler the reason, the stronger it is.

Those who tried to sway me died on this simple reason in the first place.As for some people telling me it might not be where I first came from, that's okay too.

I thought it was original, so it is.

In this respect, my stubbornness is not much weaker than Ryunosuke Akutagawa's stubbornness in wanting to be recognized by Osamu Dazai.

Ego, stubborn, set on going his own way.

Self-logic is firm and makes people want to kick.

But these are far away from the three-year-old me.

I was in the slums, thinking about how to spend the past two years, and finally decided to return to the instinct of salted fish, find a place to stay, and use supernatural powers to meet my life needs.

Anyway, for a three-year-old child, it is better to hide in one place for two years than to wander around. Salted fish has nothing to do with the world and does not like to fight and kill. They only like to do molecular reconstruction problems.

Then the molecular reconstruction problem is finished, and I have everything.

But there is one thing that is not good. When I was salting fish, I was too obsessed with the questions. By the time I realized it, I was already famous in the slums.

I became a wishing machine with no emotions.

Since none of them could beat me, I became a bartering wish-making machine.

The so-called basic atoms that make up substances are almost on the list of chemical elements. I only need to change the structure and arrangement of atoms to turn water into oil.

Is my superpower a big guy?

It is obviously a supernatural ability that can only be used by learning the principles, but the way of using it is insulated from science.

This may be the end of believing in science in a fantasy world.If you believe in science, your moves are always the most unscientific.

Under such circumstances, it was only natural for me to meet the Akutagawa brothers and sisters.

First came Akutagawa Silver.

She put a grain of sugar in an offering place set up by my side, and then carefully wanted to change it for a piece of bread, a harder bread that would satisfy my stomach.

It should be difficult to find something like sugar here.

Everyone wants a sweet taste, but compared with the food that can fill the stomach, this sweetness is not enough to resist death.

She gives me candy, maybe makes a wish, then I give her something.In the past, some ignorant people wanted to continue monopolizing the enshrinement place I set up after discovering that there were Erdao dealers, and used it to blackmail others and collect fees.

When I was applauding their heads, I slapped each of them soberly.

In their mouth, I am an evil god with the skin of a child.No compassion, no pity, staring with dark eyes makes people feel hairy.

Apart from bartering for equivalent value, I have never had any communication with them. The worst thing is that they can't beat me.Otherwise, I should be their property by now.

After the equivalent exchange is established, what I give will not be taken away in front of me.Akutagawa Silver knew this, so she came at night and took advantage of her small stature to carry out this exchange.

Her older brother Akutagawa Ryunosuke was supposed to be waiting for her at a nearby corner.

This is the first scene.

The second time I saw the Akutagawa brothers and sisters, two people.

Silver promised me a wish to leave here.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke also hugged his sister and served food on rainy nights, hoping for sporadic miracles on my side.

When no one could save his sister, not even himself, he would come here for a little chance of surviving.

When they have the ability to protect themselves, I haven't seen them.They believe in themselves more than I do.

I have lived like this for the past two years.