i may be a bug

I thought I was an output, but it turned out to be a face T now.

——Tanikawa Kakutani

The thing is like this, I thought that in order to keep my emotions stable and not cry, I asked the gunner to rewrite a light novel for me and publish it, creating the illusion that I am really popular, result--

I'm so hot.

I:……

No, I think there is something wrong with that editor's description. It's gloomy and creepy. The idiot's daily life I wrote doesn't have any depth and horror at all.

After receiving a reminder call from the editor, I sat in Ango Sakaguchi's office and doubted life.I opened the light novel that looked like a large rainbow fart scene from the girdle. After reading the first page, I was sure that this was the editor's problem.

The light novel is really written by me, but the gap between me and the editor is like a reading comprehension problem.I am the author, and he is the teacher who sets the questions. I answered the question about the idea of ​​the novel I wrote, and got zero points.

Therefore, whether it is studying literature or academic theory, there is actually no difference in difficulty level. As long as you learn the depth, it will always be difficult for me.

In short, since he started his light novel writing career, Ango Sakaguchi has never run out of blades in his office.One of his two laundering friends had a soft spot for the blades.

As soon as Ango Sakaguchi came back, he saw me hammering Osamu Dazai.

He used to show a weary smile: "M, is the novel finished?"

While planting Dazai in the ground, I calmly said, "No, Ango, I want to eat wagashi, and I don't want to write a word without eating wagashi!"

As for Dazai, forget it, the social animals are exhausted physically and mentally, and I can't control my friend who I put on the sunflower headgear seriously.Ango Sakaguchi's current workload is really heavy. He has to memorize legal provisions, be my manager, be my male mother, and resolutely reject all other people's intentions to follow me, "Teacher Baishui" meet request.

Determined.

Even my readers' letters must be answered by him.

Except for writing light novels, I left everything else to him.Forget it, now, two of my roommates have also started writing novels.

Ango Sakaguchi was already lying flat.

For Yokohama, a mere letter from a reader...

He trembled, and said in a desperate tone, "Why are there so many!"

I also really want to know this, because there are not so many letters from readers, I can also pretend to be blind, as a pigeon spirit who is writing light novels intermittently because of my lack of fame.

But when the man Osamu Dazai met me for the second time, he held up a copy of "Cauchy's Inequality" - the second light novel I wrote. What kind of suffering in the world is a meddling Ome with over-the-top military strength"——Greet me with a smile, and said in a scary tone, "Mr. Baishui, can you give me an autograph? I like the teacher very much!"

Ango Sakaguchi, who was next to me, complained on the spot that his attributes were online: "Dazai, did you just eat something you shouldn't eat?!"

Osamu Dazai was pleasantly surprised, shyly, "I just finished watching the teacher's "Lopida and Lagrange", and joy overflowed from my throat!"

The second time we met, he wasn't the ruthless boy who destroyed my living doll city, he looked very lively.This is also the first time I have penetrated him directly into the ground, and I looked aggrieved at Ango Sakaguchi, whose glasses slipped off and his outstretched hands were shaking, "Ango, it's so disgusting, it's as disgusting as ice cream that melts in summer! "

I used to think that no one would read the rubbish I wrote, let alone be seen by the master, and then... even Ayatsuji reluctantly said "You can write well".

I had a serious discussion on this issue with Ango's friend Sakunosuke Oda, who was newly hired, who was going to write a novel, and was also doing file cleansing in the Supernatural Secret Service Division.

——"Are they stupid? Can you read what I wrote?"

——"Dazai likes it very much. Ango likes it very much. I like it too."

……

The honest man Sakunosuke Oda may have a filter that adds bonuses when reading novelists.He is a person who gave up killing in order to become a novelist. He thinks that writing about other people's lives is not suitable for a killer.

But people like me, who write light novels because of willfulness, sometimes give up writing because of bears, and people who just want to exchange money for food, treat their precious things too contemptuously.

Although I know that Oda Sakunosuke is not a person who expresses dissatisfaction with other people's lifestyles because of his own ideas.

As for Osamu Dazai, the hero prototype of "Cauchy's Inequality", the evaluation of this book makes people get goosebumps——

"The teacher's words are really too gentle."

Seeing that he invited me to eat, and a large pile of desserts and small cakes filled the table, I reluctantly found words to perfuse him from the gap between eating.

"Editor Yamashita said that my article is terrifying, and an ordinary sentence has the power to send chills down the spine."

"But for the hero in the novel, who only has a nickname and surname, it's a little too gentle."

"The ending is that the heroine died. It is indeed a HE for the hero."

I thought he was talking about the ending, which was similar to "L'Hopida and Lagrange", in that the heroine died.However, the method of death is a little different, and the form of expression is also different.

In the documentary literature I wrote, I faithfully wrote down my eight thousand ways to die.

He Tuosi——Excessive use of supernatural powers, his vitality was consumed, and He Xie Ye could not be rescued.My organs failed at a young age, and at the last moment I was so weak that Tosi could easily kill me.

The only place where I feel that Tosi still regards me as a friend is here.In the light novel, I also wrote it very straightforwardly.It doesn't feel creepy at all, because I don't know how to write creepy things.

"I was lying on the bed, and he was standing there. The surrounding environment was pitch black. After my vision deteriorated, I couldn't tell whether it was day or night, but I could see the brilliance of his eyes.

'Can you survive, Marina? '

'I can still hear your voice. 'I thought about it, and tried to speak, but I didn't know whether to say it or not.At that time, I had a strange intuition that he seemed to be very close to me, but my five senses were severely weakened, and only a little vision and hearing were still working. Even if he twisted my neck now, I would not feel anything.

I think he'll do it, because he's so passionate about freeing people from their sins.

But he can see my pain now, but he doesn't give me relief.

A vengeful cheapskate.

'It's okay, Marina, it'll be fine. '

"

Is there anything scary about it?

I don't think so.

Isn't it common?

But with Dazai, it's too simple. After greeting people in a normal way, I go to work step by step, even on the way to work, because of some things I can't go back.

"There is no inequality that yields an answer."

"It's just one step away from the inequality that can get the answer."

That's what it means.

Dazai Osamu may be dumbfounded when he said to me that the heroine will be HE when the heroine dies. His expression is very strange anyway.

"Tender, brutal, downright tragic."

He said, "It's Ms. Matsushita's HE, and the hero's BE2 and TE."

Readers and writers have completely different worlds.

I can also deeply understand this point from some readers' letters.

I remember quite clearly a few lines from one letter:

"Mr. Baishui, from the moment you wrote the first word on the paper, it was doomed to their tragedy."

"Neither Ms. Matsushita nor Marina has ever faced up to the emotions of the people around them. Negative and positive have no effect. They are as calm as the cold Venus, the ice-free port of Siberia."

"The Russians' brainwashing of Marina was a crime after understanding the essence. But after Marina chose to leave him, no, when Marina broke down and shed tears, this crime finally became a butcher knife that cut off his head .”

"Does he love Marina? Marina doesn't know, so neither do I. But what can he do for Marina?"

"In the two works of Mr. Baishui, there is always a prop that can realize wishes. In a world where Marina does not exist, the world will not be bound by Russians. I always have a guess, whether it is Russians or that Aoi-kun will choose to find that prop in the end."

"Pray for the world here."

"Mr. Baishui, L'Hopida, Lagrange and Cauchy's inequality all exist to solve problems. If the world is a huge puzzle, Ms. Matsushita and Marina should be the only answers for Mr. Aoi and the Russians .”

"However, before they could untie, they were lost."

……

I think, this reader, the romance novel you wrote may be pretty good.However, she analyzed it normally from the perspective of love, and didn't say that what I wrote was actually a horror love story.

It is a rare normal person.

For other readers, I understand why my editors say that what I write is horrific, and what they analyze is horrific.

After my "Mobius Loop" came out, they vowed that they understood that the world in the novel was a huge Möbius Loop.Whether it's Aoi-kun, the Russian, or Mr. Mudo of the real Mobius ring, they are all desperately trying to catch a person who is destined to die.

"When the light of the stars reaches me, it is already the light of the past."

"What I see will always be you in the past."

"Thousands of times I have seen you in the past, I still long to be bound by you."

My expression is the same as seeing barley instead of red beans in the red bean bread. The bread may be in the wrong pocket, or I may have misread the label. When it comes to my hands, I feel that the world is in chaos.

I suspect that I am a teacher who does not have a standard answer to the reading comprehension questions, and the reader's imagination is too rich, abruptly turning the daily life without nutrition into the lament of the world, a confused and incomprehensible life.

I'm just a face now.

With the face of "Come and over-interpret" written all over their faces, they also came up and over-interpreted one by one.

I am so difficult.

The most difficult thing is that Ango Sakaguchi expressed understanding of what happened to me, but there was nothing he could do to help.That's not something a dessert can fix.

He comforted me: "Look out."

Only Ango Sakaguchi believed that I didn't think about anything, I was just writing a story, that is, the hero of those stories...the sense of sight is really strong.

He endured the complaints.

They didn't tell me that because of my book, the Five Decays of Heaven and Man had already caused them a lot of trouble. After "Mobius Ring" came out, the Supernatural Secret Service Division saw Mafia's leader Mori Ogai, and they were not confident enough.

I'm such a face T.