Younger brother can't be bothered

Shan Mo fell asleep on the sofa.

The quality of his sleep these days is not high, he would dream every time, sometimes he would forget everything when he woke up, and sometimes he would remember everything that happened when he woke up.

Maybe it was because he could see Fu Siyan every day, so he was Fu Siyan in his dreams.

Time went back to the past, he was sitting in the back row, pretending to be looking at the podium, but the only person in his eyes was the person not far in front, Fu Siyan was lowering his head, what was he doing?

In summer, the fan squeaked, and there were occasional cicadas outside the window. The scorching sun seemed to be melting the earth. Shan Mo raised his head, took a sip of water, and then looked at the front row, Fu Siyan Has raised his head.

At that time, Shan Mo thought, the person sitting in front of Fu Siyan was really nice, even if it was just out of the corner of his eye, at least he could be seen by Fu Siyan.

Shan Mo has a lot of friends, he is neither the best nor the worst in the class, sitting next to him is a girl, who usually has a carefree personality, and is trying to trick the girls in the class to vote for the best class in the class. Grass.

Shan Mo sneaked a glance to the side, the girl was counting the results of the vote.

"It's useless for you to read it. It's definitely not you. Look, the eyes of the public are basically the same." The girl smiled and showed the half-written data to Shan Mo. The person with the highest votes was undoubtedly Fu Siyan, Dozens of votes exceeded No.2.

"I didn't say it was me."

"Why don't you boys play with him? I think he is often alone, as if he is very lonely."

"..." Is Fu Siyan lonely?

"It shouldn't be called loneliness, it can be called cold, alas...you don't know, a few days ago Xihua confessed to Bingshan in our class, and guess what happened?"

"What's wrong?" Shan Mo asked curiously, he really wanted to know what kind of girl could catch Fu Siyan's eyes.

"Bingshan didn't even look at him, and walked over directly, with that expression on her face, if I were a man, I would want to hold her in my arms."

"..." As expected, it would be strange if Fu Siyan could care for others.

The girls in the class gave Fu Siyan a nickname, Bingshan, which no one could melt.

In fact, Fu Siyan shouldn't be so indifferent... Shan Mo felt that the girl's description might be too exaggerated. He remembered that when he and Fu Siyan looked at each other occasionally, the other party was not so indifferent. Look at him.

That alone is enough for Shan Mo.

Corridors, libraries, cafeterias, playgrounds, these are all the places I used to go to when I was a student. Sometimes Shan Mo would play basketball with his friends on the playground. This is the favorite sport of boys. Take a break on the sidelines and get on with it, life is plain and fun.

A group of people were talking and laughing, chatting enthusiastically, Shan Mo saw Fu Siyan in the distance.

The back view is a bit lonely, is Fu Siyan really lonely?

Maybe it was his own imagination, but Shan Mo firmly remembered it in his mind. He was no longer satisfied with looking at Fu Siyan in the crowd, no longer satisfied with hearing the name from other people, no longer satisfied with the fact that the two of them were just the same A school of one class, no conversation.

After he met him a few times, the feeling in his heart gradually deteriorated. He was just curious about this person, but he didn't expect to like him. Even Shan Mo himself wasn't sure if he liked him.

Counting the words in the book when bored, "I like him, I don't like him, I like him, I don't like him, I like him, I don't like him...I like him."

How is it possible that if a man likes another man, even Lianhua will be ruthlessly ignored, then he will be treated more cruelly, just thinking about this scene in his mind makes Shan Mo panic.

Fu Siyan must not be allowed to discover this kind of feeling, otherwise it will be miserable, and he will not even have to be friends, and then he will feel even worse and be disgusted by Fu Siyan.

It was hard to maintain the current relationship. Others envied him, and some girls even wanted to approach Fu Siyan through him. Shan Mo had never agreed to such a request. He had selfish intentions, and he knew that Fu Siyan would now How indifferent, he will get married sooner or later, and have a family sooner or later. At that time, he will give up. These states can last for a few years.

But Shan Mo couldn't help it, as soon as he saw Fu Siyan, he wanted to get in touch with him. This became the most important habit in his life. How could he be willing to deliberately alienate someone who had been peeping at him for several years.

Last month, I found a relatively easy part-time job and paid my salary. Shan Mo wanted to treat Fu Siyan to dinner. If I have money, I can invite friends to dinner. It shouldn't be a big deal...

But Shan Mo only invited Fu Siyan, and didn't tell anyone. Several people in the same dormitory clamored that there was no living expenses at the end of the month, no money for food, and that his girlfriend was too prodigal, and they had to eat instant noodles these days Eating steamed buns, Shan Mo felt a little guilty when he heard it, and didn't make a sound.

Different friends, different treatment...

Shan Mo was afraid that Fu Siyan would be disgusted, so he found a fairly high-end restaurant. The two of them sat in the box, their hands shaking while holding the menu.

"Well... you order..." Shan Mo handed the menu to Fu Siyan, stammering, this was the first time he was alone with Fu Siyan, he was very nervous, he was timid, but he was actually very satisfied In this state, I just touched the fingertips of the other party, and I am content.

The person who has a crush intercepts what he thinks is a sweet picture to comfort himself, but it is just an ordinary behavior in the eyes of others.

When you like this person, every frown and smile will tug at your heartstrings. Although Fu Siyan didn't smile, the way he looks down at the menu can be interpreted by Shan Mo in many ways.

In Fu Siyan's eyes, I am different from others...

Shan Mo's family conditions are mediocre, and he is usually considered frugal when spending money, but now he feels that no matter how much money is spent on this meal, it is worth it. This is probably why those boys have saved money for several months, just to give to the girls they love The only difference in the reason for buying a gift is that Shan Mo dared not let Fu Siyan know what he was thinking.

"What do you want to eat?" Fu Siyan asked in a deep voice.

"... Whatever, whatever."

Fu Siyan frowned lightly, raised his head and said, "There is nothing called casual here."

"Ah? Hahaha... I'm not picky eaters, I like everything you like." Because I like you.

I like you so much.

Hearing these words, Fu Siyan slightly bent his lips, making Shan Mo hold his breath, not daring to breathe.

Is this smiling at him?Shan Mo didn't look away for a second, Fu Siyan smiled at him, it was true, he didn't get dazzled, he looked so pretty when he smiled.

If only it could go on like this for the rest of my life.