I was on the clouds

That box of things was carried upstairs by Ye Desheng.

"Don't return the credit card?" Ye Xi asked him.

Ye Desheng glanced at Ye Xi, and dragged the suitcase into Ye Xi's bedroom without saying a word.

"Sooner or later, it will be yours. It's useless to go back. If you don't save some money for you, you will be poor at the rate you spend money."

Ye Xi was surprised: "When did you become so talkative, I thought you would at least scold me".

Ye Desheng laughed angrily at Ye Xi this time: "I don't dare, just scold you and wait for me. I want to live a few more years. I'm going on a business trip tomorrow, so save your card. If the quota is overdrawn , don’t think about asking me to send you money again.”

"Oh, I see", Ye Xili said dryly as he was going on a business trip again, watching him go downstairs.

Ye Xi woke up again at four o'clock the next day. She turned on her mobile phone and looked at the sleep record. The total sleep time was three hours and 10 minutes, and the deep sleep time was twelve minutes.

Really bad sleep quality.

Her brain was muddled, and her thinking became sluggish. She sat on the bed blankly, unable to think of what to do, and didn't know what to do. She couldn't arouse desire for anything, she just wanted to maintain a constant posture or something Don't do it.

The alarm clock sounded to wake up the walking dead Ye Xie.

She mechanically dragged her steps into the bathroom, Ye Xi felt that she should wash her hair, so she half-closed her eyes and slowly applied the shampoo to her head.

It was poured a little too much, and a lot of dense foam formed after just a few kneadings. Ye Xi turned on the faucet and washed it down on her head. Her hair came down along with the foam.

a lot of.

My hair is falling out a little fast, so I’m going to be bald. I don’t know if the bald head will look ugly. It shouldn’t be. After all, the skull is fairly well-growth, and the back of the head is round. Even if it’s bald, it’s still a handsome bald head. .

I don’t know what Wu Zetian was like when she was bald. There was no hair growth ointment in that era. I don’t know if her hair will grow slowly. Liuwu hair growth liquid is said to be very useful. Could it be a symbol of beauty? Don’t you think that Bai Suzhen’s beauty tip looks a lot like the monkey brother in the cartoon Journey to the West, monkey brother monkey brother, why are there so many rough and rough...

The foam was washed away by the water, Ye Xi's long wet hair was on her head, and her unrestrained thoughts finally stopped for a moment. She wiped her head with a towel, and the white towel had a cheese cat printed on it.

Animals like cats have toxoplasma gondii, and the parasites are really scary. In the future, don’t eat bullfrogs and salmon sashimi, and don’t eat [-]-star Michelin stars. Do you want to buy a box of Abenda or something? I can’t remember. I have always had a good memory, why can’t I remember it? I can’t remember where to put the sun umbrella that Ah Qing gave me. Remember to apply sunscreen today, and also remember to apply sunscreen indoors. The sun’s rays are the killer of the skin, so I can’t remember it I just can’t remember, now I’m taking sertraline, who knows if there will be a fatal chemical reaction with the anthelmintic, hydrogen helium lithium beryllium boron carbon nitrogen oxygen fluorine neon...

It's time to take medicine.

Ye Xi took the medicine.

Pause button is pressed.

The brain quiets down.

Ye Xi started to yawn, feeling that he couldn't keep his eyes open, his thinking speed became very slow, everything in his mind was stretched infinitely, dragging his long and heavy tail and spinning slowly.

The vocabulary book was turned to page 321, and Ye Xi began to feel drowsy when he recited the second word. The constant fatigue and sleepiness prevented Ye Xi's study plan from proceeding smoothly.

If it was in the past, Ye Xi would definitely be shaking all over, yelling like crazy, throwing things hysterically, breaking down and crying, and then staying up all night to catch up with the progress of study.

But she was calm now, a false calm.

After taking sertraline, the serotonin level cannot be lowered, so there is no pain and no laughter.

She is a pile of paralyzed carrion, she is a body without a soul, she is nothingness beyond the noise of the world.

Why born, why born.

No laughter, no relief.

Ye Xi didn't want the real pain, nor the fake joy after taking the medicine.

But this was impossible, she stared at the paper knife on a desk, and thought of a solution once and for all.

An unstoppable thought just popped up.

But she was so sleepy that she could barely open her eyes, her limbs became a mass of paste, and she couldn't lift a bit of strength. She bowed her waist and slowly fell on the bed, sluggish and chaotic as if wrapped in a In a thick cocoon, Ye Xi quickly fell asleep in this cocoon.

It's getting foggy.

She walked through a long corridor, the red bricks paved with the damp atmosphere of the night.

The blue-painted window frames had peeled off, revealing the gray wood, and the small pane on the upper left had a broken corner, where a tiny spider had made a tiny web.

The grass and trees outside the window were in full bloom, and a woman in a navy blue headscarf was wearing whitishly washed blue trousers, holding a copper basin and looking for roses on the ground, picking up roses that had been blown to the ground by the wind.

A fine layer of dew hung on the cobweb, through which Ye Xi could see the pale and thin side face of the woman, standing beside her was a young girl with a straggly ponytail, the girl's The color of her eyes is very strange, one eye is light and bright amber, and the other eye is gray. At this moment, both of her eyes are shining, and she is struggling to pick roses from the tree on tiptoe.

The dew on the flower tree sprinkled the little girl all over her body. Her clothes were wet with the dew, but she still happily stood on tiptoe and picked the branch to pick the extraordinarily delicate flower on the branch.

The spider on the web crawled onto the window frame, and the fine dew on the web shook off little by little, and the little spider stretched its legs lazily.

Beyond the spider's web, the little girl picked the most beautiful rose with satisfaction, holding it in her hands happily and reluctant to let it go. The thin and pale mother hugged the copper basin full of fallen flowers, with a slight smile on her lips.

This is when Ye Xi was seven years old and clamored to eat candied roses. The roses planted in the school were in full bloom that year. Her mother held a copper basin and led her to pick roses. Ye Xi's hand was scratched by the thorns. There were many wounds, but she still hugged the rose tightly, and happily returned home with her mother under the moonlight.

Beautiful things never last.

The most beautiful rose withered and rotted within a few days, Ye Xi watched it decay a little bit, but there was nothing he could do.

They went to Shanghai the next year, and Ye Xi ate candied roses from the dessert shop, which were packed in beautiful glass bottles. It was so sweet that Ye Xi developed a tooth decay, and the tooth decay hurt her to death, and she never wanted to Eat candied roses.

Ye Xi walked through the long corridor in a sense of loss, following the mother and daughter who had gone away, they walked more and more on the path covered with moonlight until they disappeared in the silvery white light.

That was a time that Ye Xi would never go back to, and it was also a rare and tender moment in memory, and at this time, he was actually reliving it in the moonlight in his dream.

There was a person standing at the end of the corridor, staring at the direction in which the mother and daughter disappeared. Her whole body was shrouded in a hazy halo. Through the light, Ye Xi saw that this figure was wearing a white dress, with a still She was wearing a beige sun hat with a large brim, which covered the upper half of her face, exposing her gracefully curved chin.

Ye Xi stood beside her quietly, staring at her for a long time.

"Why did you come to my dream again, why can't you just look at me and talk to me."

The figure stood there quietly, and the cold white halo trembled slightly. At this moment, the light and shadow seemed to have life, and Ye Xi's heart that had been silent for a long time suddenly became warm.

Ye Xi said to her: "Actually, that little girl was me. I had forgotten it, and I couldn't even remember who I was. Sometimes it is very unpleasant to remember everything."

In my memory, there was no such beautiful moonlight at that night. The moonlight was very dim at that time. They searched for roses on the ground with flashlights, and picked them from the trees if they could not find them. The light of the flashlight attracted many mosquitoes. Bag.

When he got home, Ye Xi's brother was crying at home. He kept crying and crying. Ye Xi's mother and aunt couldn't coax him well. The saliva flowed out of his mouth, which he couldn't close all the time. His mother wiped the saliva for him. , He kicked his legs and only screamed.

Ye Xi's elder brother is called Ye Zhen, which means colorful clouds and auspicious clouds. Ye Xi's parents searched through the whole book to find such a word of satisfaction. What a beautiful artistic conception of the name.

Unfortunately, he suffered a cerebral hemorrhage one month after his birth, and has since become a child with cerebral palsy.

The roses in the pot were not made into candied roses either. Her brother kicked over the copper pot and trampled all the roses to pieces with dancing and dancing. The rose red juice flowed all over the ground. The rose survived, but it also left her later.

It was self-concerned about its own decline, regardless of how she hoped for it to survive intact.

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