I was on the clouds

After Ye Desheng left.

Chi Xiangnuan had a look of being struck by lightning.

Ye Xi casually threw the box to the corner, just in time to see the unspeakable expression on Chi Xiangnuan's face.

Ye Xi was surprised: "What's wrong with you, why are you looking at me?".

Chi Xiangnuan swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and asked weakly, "You were recommended as a freshman?".

Ye Xi nodded.

Chi Xiangnuan covered his face: "I see that you don't go to class very much every day, and always thought you were a student at the bottom of the attached middle school."

Before Ye Xi could answer, Chi Xiangnuan quickly shook his head again: "I'm sorry, I was wrong, I was really wrong, I have eyes but don't know a true scholar, oh no, no, you are a god of learning, I have eyes To know the truth and to learn from God".

Ye Xi was very speechless. She looked up at the ceiling and said quietly: "The students at the end of the crane are really an experience I have never had since I was a child, but I am not that outstanding. I have never learned English well."

Chi Xiangnuan asked cautiously: "Your poor study means...?".

Ye Xi was a little melancholy: "I have never scored full marks."

Chi Xiangnuan: "I lost!".

Chi Xiangnuan's expression was very dazed throughout the night, and Ye Xi was drawing on the side with a digital tablet. When Chi Xiangnuan saw it, he was surprised again: "Sure enough, all the gods of learning are talents with all-round development of morality, intelligence, physique and beauty?" , I can’t even draw a square well.”

Ye Xi found her startled look very interesting, so she simply said: "Not only can I draw, but I can also play Guzheng, Go, and a little violin, um, I also have a black belt in Taekwondo and some other messy things. If you are surprised once when you see everything, I don’t think you will be surprised in your life.”

Chi Xiangnuan leaned forward, worshiping, "What are the other messy things?".

Ye Xi thought for a while and said: "I was a hacker and hacked my dad's computer."

Chi Xiangnuan was dumbfounded, and asked in a daze, "Why did you use your father's computer to practice, and what did you do afterwards?".

"Of course I fixed it, the maintenance staff couldn't figure it out at all."

Chi Xiangnuan immediately fell in admiration, feeling that he was living like a waste.

Comparing the two, she suddenly became dejected and depressed: "You are only 16 years old, you know so many things, I didn't know anything when I was 16, and I don't know anything now, I always mess everything up It's a mess, compared to you, I feel like a waste that just waits to live and die."

The huge difference hurt Chi Xiangnuan's too dull self-esteem. Ye Xi stopped writing and put down the digital tablet, and began to comfort others for the first time. She made up a few chicken soup in her mind and said against her will: "You can't do this either. I think, I am born with talents to be useful, people always have strengths and weaknesses, finding the right direction and working hard instead of complaining about ourselves is the most important thing.”

Ye Xinuan looked sleepy: "Thank you for saying that, but I have heard this set of rhetoric [-] times. From the beginning when I believed it to be true, to now I am disheartened. God knows what I have gone through."

Just as soon as she comforted someone, she got a bad nose, and Ye Xi was not discouraged. She searched for the few positive energy words left, and racked her brains to make chicken soup with little nutrition: "You can't say that, every time Everyone will have unsatisfactory times, but after getting through it, everything will be clear."

Chi Xiangnuan said lazily: "I know you are trying to comfort me, but what you are saying now is like a person who grew up in a honeypot telling me what coptis chinensis tastes like through a glass bottle."

Ye Xi paused.

Chi Xiangnuan continued: "Look at you, you have a good family background, good looks, you have a car and a house in Shanghai, and the pocket money given to you by an elder on your birthday is worth a year's salary of an ordinary person. You don't have to work so hard to cross the single-plank bridge of the college entrance examination, you don't know how much I envy you."

Is this yourself in the eyes of others?It turned out to be enviable, Ye Xi had mixed feelings in his heart, and an unspeakable sourness rolled in his heart.

The world is suffering, and all living beings are suffering.

She tried her best to restrain the negative emotions that kept growing in her heart, and said slowly: "What you see is only the surface, you don't need to envy me, so far, I can't have what I want."

"Then what do you most want to have?" Chi Xiangnuan asked her.

Ye Xi rubbed his forehead, a little helpless: "I want too much, it will always be frustrating to talk about it, we will not discuss this topic today, I have to go to class tomorrow, do I need to buy some vegetables, fennel and ?".

Chi Xiangnuan nodded: "There is fennel, you don't need to buy vegetables, I have a lot of free time after get off work."

"All right".

The next morning Ye Xi and Chi Xiangnuan went out together. Ye Xi was wearing a school uniform and didn't even carry a schoolbag. He looked quite sloppy.

With two dark circles under his eyes, Chi Xiangnuan kept covering his mouth and yawning.

"Did you not sleep well last night?".

Chi Xiangnuan wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes and shook his head sleepily: "I typed until one o'clock last night, and I was really sleepy."

"Is it dealing with company affairs?".

"No, it's a novel I wrote." Chi Xiangnuan smiled sheepishly, "It's the Lantern Literature Network, the website that is especially popular with female videos."

Ye Xi snorted, and looked at the bus approaching in the distance without much interest.

After not going to class for several days, the desk was full of Feng Yuqing's reference books and photocopied materials. Ye Xi piled them up and took out a foreign novel from the desk to read.

When Feng Yuqing came back from fetching water, her eyes lit up when she saw Ye Xi on the seat. She put down the thermos and quickly hugged Ye Xi's neck tightly.

Ye Xi quickly covered her mouth with his eyes and hands, and in the next second there was an orange-red lipstick mark on his palm, which was very sticky and uncomfortable.

She rubbed the mark on Feng Yuqing's school uniform with a dark face, and Feng Yuqing laughed and wanted to pounce on her again, Ye Xi grabbed her wrist and squeezed it hard, Feng Yuqing let out a groan, and her whole arm went numb.

"Ye Xi, you pinched my tendons again."

Ye Xi turned a deaf ear to her yelling and continued flipping through the book "Tess".

Feng Yuqing felt bored and had to do math problems on the sidelines. During recess, the chemistry teacher asked Ye Xi with a smile if he wanted to join the training team, but Ye Xi firmly refused.

The day passed without much to say, and it happened to be He Manman and her friend when she was going down the stairs after school at night.

He Manman looked indifferent, Feng Yuqing hesitated for a while but gave up the idea of ​​going up to say hello.

Ye Xi and He Manman passed each other, neither of them glanced at the other.

The voice-activated lights in the corridor lighted up one after another following the sound of footsteps, and the dim light hit the reddish-brown door, which actually gave Ye Xi an inexplicable sense of belonging in his heart.

She took out the key and opened the door, and the smell of the food wafted out again. Ye Xi went to the kitchen and saw Chi Xiangnuan busy in front of the pot with a shovel in an apron.

It's cola chicken wings and seaweed soup again, this is really a wonderful combination, Ye Xi has never been able to understand the recipe in Chi Xiangnuan's mind, and she still has a fresh memory of the fact that she once stir-fried tomatoes and red peppers together.

Ye Xi walked into the kitchen, turned on the faucet and washed two yellow peaches. Turning her head, she happened to notice Chi Xiangnuan's red and swollen eyes and the faint traces of tears on her face. It seemed that she had been crying for a long time.

The coke chicken wings in the pot smelled fragrant, Chi Xiangnuan forced a smile at Ye Xi, Ye Xi frowned: "What's wrong, what happened, your eyes are swollen like this?".

Just after asking, Chi Xiangnuan's tears flowed down again. She put down the spatula and wiped her eyes, sniffed her nose to try not to look too embarrassed, and Ye Xi's frown deepened.

It took Chi Xiangnuan a while to stop her tears. She said hoarsely, "I was fired by the company."

Ye Xi stepped forward and turned off the electric frying pan, she said helplessly: "Then it would be good to find another job, Shanghai is such a big place, so many companies, so many opportunities, don't you Think about the countermeasures and work hard, what's the use of crying and swollen eyes here."

Chi Xiangnuan burst into tears: "But I can't do it well."

Ye Xi was speechless: "How do you know you can't do well if you don't do it."

Chi Xiangnuan cried and said: "I don't want to go out to work, I don't want to deal with customers, every time I get along with strangers will make me exhausted, I can't do anything well, and I have to face countless people's accusations every day. Sorry countless lives, it’s the same no matter where I go, I’m useless at all.”

Ye Xi had a look of resentment: "What does it mean to be useless? How can you deny your own value just because of other people's accusations? You are too naive."

Chi Xiangnuan wiped away tears: "I didn't have much self-confidence in the first place, and it basically disappeared after work. If you are surrounded by accusations all the time, your will will also be crushed."

Ye Xi let out a breath, and retorted decisively and simply: "I don't know, I know my strengths and weaknesses, the reason why you are in the midst of accusations is entirely your own fault, think about your job, insurance salesman! I really doubt why you would find such a job, in fact, I doubt whether you have a correct understanding of yourself."

Chi Xiangnuan curled up on the chair, shaking his head in frustration.

Ye Xi clutched his forehead, and for the first time realized what it was like to be overwhelmed.

She felt that she should struggle a little more, so she asked again: "I remember you said that you wrote novels on Ran Deng Online."

Chi Xiangnuan nodded, and looked at Ye Xi with red eyes: "That's just a hobby of mine."

"Did you sign the contract?"

"Just signed last month."

Ye Xi nodded, and said seriously: "Then you don't do anything, don't think about anything, and write your novel well."

"But the rent...".

It was this topic that was about to be brought up by her again, Ye Xi said with a cold face: "How many times have I said it, why do I still bring it up?"

Chi Xiangnuan smiled through tears: "Okay, I'll listen to you."

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