I was on the clouds

"My mother didn't show her stomach when she was pregnant with me, and she didn't react too much during pregnancy. She could often go to the fields to do some farm work. The day when I was born happened to be Ghost Festival. Many shops asked my second uncle for goods. It was too busy that day and there were not enough people. I Mom followed to move the goods."

"It was fine in the morning, and the weather was fine. In the afternoon, the sky suddenly turned cloudy, and the sky was full of dark clouds. A very dark cloud suddenly appeared above the warehouse. My third uncle said that the cloud was very dark. Horror, like a gloomy grinning grimace, covered with dense fish scales, the yellow paper in the warehouse is the coin burned for the dead, which is not auspicious, everyone was very scared at that time, my second uncle three Uncle and the others went home and burned incense and knelt down to worship the Bodhisattva."

When Ye Xi said this, she glanced at the warehouse behind her. Her expression was very indifferent, as if she was telling a story that had nothing to do with her. She retracted her gaze and continued: "Everyone was so scared that day. My second uncle gave all the orders. They rejected it, saying that they would no longer accept business. Everyone started to clean up the warehouse and planned to call it a day. It was very cloudy at the time. They were afraid that the yellow paper would get wet, so they specially took some foam boards under the yellow paper. At this time, my mother suddenly felt that Stomach pain. At that time, no one thought that he was about to give birth, because there was still a month before the date the doctor said. After a while, my mother was so painful that she couldn’t move. On the foam board, my second uncle drove to call the midwife."

"A group of women guarded my mother in the warehouse. Before the midwife came, I was born. At that time, my whole body was blue and my face was black, and I was thin and small. Similarly, not long after I was born, the grimaces and dark clouds on the warehouse began to dissipate. The women around me were too scared to hug me. It was my second uncle who rushed in and hugged me and drove to the hospital in the town. The doctor said goodbye If I'm an hour late, I won't be able to save him."

"At that time, everyone thought I was unlucky. A bunch of people took my birthday horoscope to the fortune teller to tell fortunes. They said that ghosts were reincarnated and came back to claim their lives. So everyone thought I was unlucky. No one dared to approach me. My mother The small north room where the sundries are stored was specially vacated for me to live in, since I can remember, I have lived in that room alone."

Ye Xi leaned against the wall of the warehouse with a relaxed expression on his face.

Chi Xiangnuan was stunned when she heard this, the ups and downs of her birth could be written into fantasy novels, but she really couldn't figure out Ye Xi's mother's attitude towards her, the child was so young and put her in a dark hut, How ignoring her must be, she couldn't help asking the doubts in her heart: "Your mother should love you very much, after all, you are her only child, even if she believes in these messy things, she will not be like other people. Treat you like a human being."

There was a trace of disdain on Ye Xi's face, her eyes turned to a certain place in the void, and she said, "I'm not my mother's only child."

Chi Xiangnuan was very surprised: "At that time, family planning was implemented, how much fine did you have to pay?"

Ye Xi withdrew her gaze, and the expression on her face became complicated. She slowly lowered her head and glanced at her palm, her tone was a little bitter: "I have a brother named Ye Zhen, who is two years older than me. At that time, the family planning was so strict that under normal circumstances, I would not have the chance to be born, but my brother had a cerebral hemorrhage at the end of the month, and he was unable to see a doctor in time, resulting in cerebral palsy for life, so my mother had to have another child, because the child with cerebral palsy did not live long. ".

Chi Xiangnuan was stunned again, she stared blankly at Ye Xi, not knowing what to say for a while.

The complicated expression on Ye Xi's face faded away, and turned into that indifferent expression again. She raised her head and continued: "Everyone says mother is the greatest person in the world, and there are many articles praising mother's love in elementary school Chinese textbooks. , I learn everything very quickly, and I can understand all kinds of knowledge, but when I encounter articles related to maternal love, I will be at a loss what to do. I don’t understand what it is at all. A idiot who can drool, she hugs and coaxes Ye Zhen every day, cries and laughs for him, but she refuses to look at me at all."

Chi Xiangnuan pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, and said hesitantly: "You also said that children with cerebral palsy don't live long, so your mother may care more about your brother and cherish the time with him more. After all, time is cruel and merciless. What is gone can never come back."

Ye Xi gave her a gouged look, and said with a sneer, "It's such a high-sounding reason, you're a fucking novelist, right? If my mother had told me that, I would have believed her."

Chi Xiangnuan's face turned red all of a sudden, she looked at Ye Xi cautiously and said in a murmur, "I...I really write novels".

Ye Xi: "...".

Chi Xiangnuan felt that Ye Xi must be angry, because Ye Xi said in a drawn-out tone: "Oh...".

The low air pressure in it also made people feel so stressed in the dream, I was afraid that she would show a knife in the next second and stab her right through.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, these are all things in your dreams. When you wrote novels, you also wrote about such anti-social protagonists. Now the virtual images in those books are materialized in dreams. Although they are also virtual, but All of a sudden, it becomes more three-dimensional."

Chi Xiangnuan was so excited that he had the courage to go to Ye Xi's side again.

They are now sitting on the same big rock, the stone is hot from the sun, their backs are leaning against the cold and damp wall of the warehouse, and their heads are facing the clear sky. If there is no sun in the sky, Chi Xiangnuan will feel that this is a real world .

In the dream, Ye Xi's dark aura was fully on, his whole body was full of evil spirits, his beautiful face turned into a black-faced door god, and the knives shot out of his eyes could poke several holes in a person's body.

From childhood to big cats and dogs, they all detoured when they saw her. Even the big mosquitoes in the country didn't dare to think about her. The bastard who appeared in the movie actually came to her side again and again with a look of curiosity.

Ye Xi lowered her head and glanced at the boulder below her. Her butt had already touched the edge of the boulder, and she had nowhere to move. The bastards around her were still leaning towards her, and the glasses frame almost hit her face off.

Ye Xi sighed helplessly, although it was a bit annoying, but the impact of the past that made her feel stuck in her throat became less intense.

Chi Xiangnuan brushed away his long hair, and said like a chicken blood: "So you started to hate this place, vowed to burn it clean, forget everything and start a new journey in life, Open up a new world of life?"

Ye Xi was disgusted enough by her thick chicken soup accent.

She looked at Chi Xiangnuan contemptuously: "Have you read too many inspirational chicken soup essays and embarked on a new journey? Open up a new world of life? I was too embarrassed to write those positive Chinese essays in middle and high school. How can you do that?" Don't just write about driving the crane west to become a flying fairy and step through the void."

Chi Xiangnuan closed his mouth.

Ye Xi flicked the hair on the back of his head, adjusted his sitting posture and answered her: "I'm not like you imagined. Although I hated everything here when I was young, I liked this place quite a lot. Maybe because I was born here, I always felt This place is very friendly, this warehouse is very large, and there are many hidden corners, I often read books here, and I can see it all day long, except for the second uncle and the third uncle who call me to eat from time to time, no one else pays attention to where I am.”

Chi Xiangnuan was confused by what she said, and asked blankly, "Then why did you set the fire?"

Ye Xi said lightly: "To kill people".

"No, no, no way," Chi Xiangnuan stammered.

Ye Xi's eyelashes drooped down to cover her eyes, and her voice was light and fluttering, like catkins blown by the wind: "Why not, I can do anything."