Stupid, you are the substitute!

Except for the computer that was still on, there was no light source in the room. At first, the light coming in through the curtains could be seen softening, but now there is only darkness.

The light from the computer screen enveloped Chi Qiu's whole body, it was as cold as a cold blade, trying to cut him open at any time.

The symptoms of tinnitus became more and more obvious. At the beginning, he could hear a slight drumbeat, but now there is only a buzzing that makes him restless.

When it was saved for the last time, the tune had been changed beyond recognition. It is enough to imagine how bad the melody of the whole tune is without listening to it.

He closed his eyes, feeling the soreness from overusing his eyes. After taking a deep breath, he exited the page, repeated the action hundreds of times, clicked on the mailbox, and refreshed.

[We have noticed your email and are processing it...]

Chi Qiu tightened his fingers, and his nails sank into the palm of his hand.

He felt that he must have fallen into a never-ending nightmare, otherwise... otherwise how could he not hear at all?How come it doesn't hurt at all?

How could there be no news at all.

The phone screen kept lighting up, and someone kept sending him messages, as if he didn't know he was tired.

He was finally willing to pay attention to it, and there was only one source of news.

The densely packed words were more than all the messages he and Qin Yan had sent together. He calmly slid through those messages, as indifferent as an outsider.

Until the notification bar popped up again, Qin Yan sent the latest message.

: Chi Qiu, long before I found out, I already liked you.

Chi Qiu felt a little funny.

He doesn't even like himself, why does Qin Yan like him.

Chi Qiu began to physically loathe the word 'like', his heart was throbbing with cramps, and he slowly typed out a line of words with trembling fingers.

:I do not like you.

The phone finally quieted down, Chi Qiu licked his lips, his lips were cracked, and the smell of blood filled his mouth.

He took a deep breath, forced himself to calm down, faced the computer again, tried to ignore the buzzing sound, and tapped the beat with his hands while identifying the tiny drumbeat.

Finally, finding the rhythm, he found the thread in the mess.

Chi Qiu calmed down his uneasy mood and tried his best to keep his heartbeat steady.

As soon as the mouse was clicked, the screen of the computer suddenly went black, Chi Qiu's heart skipped a beat, and he immediately got up to get the charger, but he couldn't see anything clearly in the darkness, instead he staggered, hit his head on the corner of the table, and made a muffled sound.

Chi Qiu subconsciously covered the wound, and felt a warm liquid in his palm. He had no time to think about it, and stood up tremblingly. After adapting to the darkness, he squatted down and found the charger in the cabinet, plugged it in, and turned it on again.

The computer interface was on the most original desktop, all the originally opened software were forcibly exited, and the half-modified song returned to the original point.

The heartbeat is getting more and more chaotic, and the tinnitus is also intensifying.

The hand holding the mouse was already shaking, and he entered the historical version without thinking, but none of them were the latest version.

what is this?Found the key to clear the level, but confiscated his game qualification?

Resentment, gloom, helplessness, and the negative emotions that never show others collapsed and were infinitely magnified in this confined space. Every cell was suffering the same pain, and my whole body was in pain.

Chi Qiu stood up straight away, and threw the computer viciously towards the wall. The screen instantly shattered, and several pieces of the keyboard popped out, jumping onto his trouser legs and forearms, making him extremely embarrassed.

The sound must be terrible.

It doesn't matter, you can't hear it anyway.

Awful.

Suddenly there was a light beside him, he turned his head to look dully, the door of the dormitory was opened, Qin Yan stood at the door against the light, Le Run was still holding the key in his hand, and was blocked behind Qin Yan.

Chi Qiu quickly turned around, hiding all her emotions in the darkness, like a stubborn cat, in front of others, even if her body is covered with bruises, she still has to pretend to be the calmest.

Qin Yan had never seen Chi Qiu like this before, he was full of hostility, gloomy and irritable, and he only felt that his heart had been violently hammered.

He turned around and grabbed the key from Lerun's hand, and pushed him out to close the door.

Then without thinking, he strode towards Chi Qiu and hugged him into his arms.

Chi Qiu was startled, his whole body was shaking, he subconsciously wanted to escape, and sealed himself up, but instead he was hugged even tighter.

Qin Yan gently stroked Chi Qiu's back, full of protection and love, "It's okay, Chi Qiu, I'm here."

Chi Qiu didn't hear his words, and only felt himself in a strong and safe embrace, his back being gently caressed, and the familiar scent of pine wood.

Very clear and light, like a lingling mountain spring, soothing all his restless emotions little by little.

He couldn't feel anything, he only knew that on the way of falling, when he was about to fall to a bloody mess, he was firmly caught by someone.

This sense of security is indescribable.

It was like a person was walking at night and was about to give up when he saw a street light.

So at this moment, all reason suddenly collapsed.

He stopped resisting, and began to tighten his fingers and grip the other person's clothes, nervous and flustered.

Qin Yan keenly felt the emotional changes of the person in his arms, and reached out to caress the other's soft hair.

He took a deep breath, and his words almost overflowed with distress, "Why didn't you tell me?"

The moment he saw the report card, his mind was almost blank.

For a music creator, there is nothing more frustrating than that.

Qin Yan didn't dare to think about what kind of helplessness Chi Qiu experienced inside during the dozen hours he had been waiting outside the door.

It would be nice if... it would be nice if something was wrong sooner.

At least Chi Qiu won't be alone.

When the person in his arms stabilized, Qin Yan slightly separated them, not just bumping into something, Chi Qiu hissed.

Qin Yan touched the wall, wanting to turn on the light, but was stopped by Chi Qiu, who asked in a low voice, "No?"

Chi Qiu nodded.

Qin Yan took a deep breath, and he had already adapted to the darkness. Coupled with the sunlight coming in through the curtains, he could barely see that the end of Chi Qiu's eyebrows near the eyes was a little swollen, and it seemed that the skin was a little torn.

Close to the eyes, and unable to see the specific situation clearly, Qin Yan felt a little uneasy, he said softly: "Come out with me, okay?"

Chi Qiu's eyelashes moved slightly, watching his mouth shape, carefully identifying it.

Qin Yan quickly saw what he meant and patiently repeated it several times.

Within a few seconds, Chi Qiu seemed to have guessed what he said, and frowned.

"Be obedient." Qin Yan rubbed his frowning eyebrows.

This room is too depressing, it will only make Chi Qiu's emotions get out of control even more.

By coincidence, Chi Qiu lowered his eyelashes, and didn't say yes or no.

Qin Yan didn't give him a chance to refuse, and directly led the people downstairs to the car.

In the bright place, Qin Yan could clearly see how serious the wound on Chi Qiu's eyebrows was. A piece of skin was torn off, surrounded by bloodstains, and the split was only a few millimeters away from touching the eyes.

He was not in a hurry to get into the car, he went to the trunk to get a household medical kit, and found iodophor and medical cotton from it.

Sitting in the back seat, Chi Qiu watched him get into the car with his things, his eyes were lowered, his lips were pursed, and he didn't speak.

"Come here." Qin Yan dipped cotton in iodophor and said in a low voice.

Immediately he remembered that Chi Qiu couldn't hear his voice, so his heart twitched for no reason, his eyes darkened, and he stretched out his hand to gently pinch Chi Qiu's chin.

Chi Qiu was taken aback, his eyes widened slightly, but he didn't break free, and obediently did not move, allowing Qin Yan to wipe his wound.

With hearing loss, the other five senses became extremely sensitive. He could clearly feel the wound gradually burning, iodophor and the faint scent of pine wood approaching.

And Qin Yan's cool fingertips.

Being watched so seriously by Chi Qiu, Qin Yan was actually a little nervous.

The eyes of the person who was close at hand were pure, delicate and fragile, and the breaths of the two intersected in this narrow and cramped space. Only at this moment did he deeply understand how much he missed Chi Qiu.

Qin Yan slipped his Adam's apple, looked away, let go of Chi Qiu, packed up the used cotton and iodophor, and went back to the driver's seat without even saying a word.

Chi Qiu didn't want to go to the hospital, so Qin Yan took him back to the apartment, and then called Bai Jie.

Chi Qiu's mood was unstable. Although he tried his best to restrain himself, he could still see the clue from the tense back.

Probably because he was in front of others, so he was forbearing.

As soon as Bai Jie entered the door and saw Chi Qiu's appearance, she was startled, she didn't even dare to amplify her voice, she pulled Qin Yan aside, "What's the matter?"

Qin Yan didn't speak, and handed Chi Qiu's diagnosis sheet to the other party.

Bai Jie became more and more silent as she watched, and finally said, "Has he suffered any serious blow recently?"

Qin Yan's first reaction was the missed interview, he frowned slightly, and briefly described it to Bai Jie.

Bai Jie shook her head, "It's not that simple. You just said that he cheered up to prepare for the exam, which means that he has come out of the shadow of that time. There should be deeper factors."

"for example?"

"Obsession," Bai Jie paused, "for example, regrets that you can't forget but can't be fulfilled, opportunities that are within reach but fleeting, and happiness that you already have but suddenly lose."

Qin Yan licked his lips, his eyes were cold.

Bai Jie stopped when enough was enough, and proposed a feasible solution, "There is an easier way, to find the answer in the original family. Most people with psychological trauma had an unfortunate childhood."

Qin Yan turned his head to look at Chi Qiu, the other party was still silent, with a dull expression, he said slowly: "Got it."

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When Chi Qiu was still in a daze, he saw a piece of blue clothes come into view, and when he looked up, Bai Jie sat beside him with a smile.

The other party took out a needle and a bottle of medicine from the medical box, and explained to him, Chi Qiu looked at her mouth shape, and could only recognize the words "sedative" and "close your eyes".

Chi Qiu nodded and readily accepted the arrangement.

Qin Yan came over and covered his eyes, he squinted his eyes, and his eyelashes brushed against his warm palm.

The arm was pinched, and then a sense of dizziness struck. When Qin Yan let go, Bai Jie had already packed her things and was about to leave.

What Qin Yan said, he didn't understand, his eyes were full of doubts.

The other party was a little helpless, so he stopped explaining and leaned over to hug him horizontally. He subconsciously wanted to break free, but was hugged even tighter. This time, he recognized what Qin Yan said.

"do not move."

Qin Yan carried him back to the bedroom, put him firmly on the bed, covered him with a quilt, then turned off the light and went out.

It was another confined space where he was alone, and the feeling of oppression was overwhelming.

Chi Qiu clenched the bed sheet tightly, his heart was beating wildly, and the sedative also lost its effect.

After an unknown period of time, he felt a sinking beside him.

The familiar pine fragrance enveloped his whole body.

The feeling of suffocation that could not be escaped stopped for a while.

He leaned over there subconsciously.

Chi Qiu finally fell asleep.

For a long time, really fell asleep.

It wasn't until he was sure that Chi Qiu's breathing was gradually steady that Qin Yan slowly moved his right hand and took out the phone. He first covered Chi Qiu's eyes with his hand, and then the other side turned on the screen.

He sent Wen Yao a message.

: Look up Chi Qiu's family background in detail.

He knew very little about Chi Qiu's past, he didn't care about it before, but now he respects it.Rather than going through the same background check as him, he hoped that Chi Qiu would take the initiative to mention it to him in the way of an ordinary couple.

But looking at it today, he had a faint feeling.

Chi Qiu was trapped in those pasts.

Like being in a dark room without a key, unable to hear or see, recurring nightmares, waiting to drown.

He thought, if Chi Qiu couldn't get out, then he would come in.

The author has something to say: This should be the most depressing chapter, and everything will be fine in the future~

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!