The villain master dressed as a sick and charming male protagonist

My name is Li Xuyang.

I was born to be the descendant of Peach Blossom Valley, I know my mission, and I also understand that one day I will shoulder the responsibilities on my shoulders.

Chuning is my fiancée, and in my inherent impression, she has been my wife for the rest of her life.

I have never denied this fact.

When did I fall in love with him?

Perhaps, after seeing his wisdom, calmness and composure in slaying demons again and again, he gradually became fascinated by it, even went crazy.

I am very chic, rampant, and decisive.

I have a cold temper and I never stop for anyone.

When I realized that I fell in love with Ji Ruxue, I let my love grow wildly, maybe it was because of curiosity, or maybe I was really fascinated by his character, appearance and even body.

But no matter what the reason is, in the end, he and I will eventually develop into a situation that is out of control.

I really like him, and I understand that he always treats me as a good friend.

The only time I was kind was when I let my love grow wildly, but I held back my desire to touch him.

I know that Xiang Ji Ruxue is such a hot and bright person.

Once he falls in love with me, then he will be beyond redemption.

I never felt that I would change the trajectory of my life because of him.

He was poisoned that time, and I developed an antidote.

That was the most frightening time in my ordinary 20 years of life.

I take medicine for him with my mouth.

But who knows, the emotion in the eyes is clearly seen.

I said I didn't force it, but in my heart I was clamoring to brand this person severely.

I really love him and it's getting more and more uncontrollable.

I don't want to be a peeping puppet anymore, I took the initiative and finally got the person I've been longing for.

Those few years together were the happiest and happiest days in my short decades of life.

As a man in his 20s, there's no way I haven't touched a woman.

Before Ji Ruxue, I never knew that even a man could haunt my dreams till now.

With Ruxue, I am much more secure.During the years I was with him, I never touched anyone else.

I know that he is arrogant, if he knew that I already had a fiancée, he would definitely not have any contact with me again.

I lied to him...

When we were together, there was a lot of love talk, and I made countless promises.

To be honest, I don't even remember what was said.

What I remember most is that after many times, I smiled and said: "Ruxue, it will be your doom if you meet me, do you believe it or not?"

He was exhausted and curled up in my arms, his voice was so soft that he said, "Even if it's robbery, I'll admit it."

I often laugh from ear to ear.

I said: "Li Xuyang will never disappoint Ji Ruxue in this life."

But I broke my promise.

I have been guilty, confused, and struggling.

In the end I decided to return to Peach Blossom Valley.

I know that Ruxue wants to take me back to Emperor Jue Xianzong, and wants everyone to know about our relationship.

But we, one is the great elder of the first sect in the world of cultivating immortals, and the other is the future owner of Peach Blossom Valley.

Once made public, not only he will be controlled by others.Even I will become a street mouse that everyone shouts and scolds.

I can't let go of the poor self-esteem in my heart.

I went back to Peach Blossom Valley without telling him, and I got married with Chuning.

I desperately shook Ruxue out of my mind.

But I know that what I have done is useless.

Not long after they got married, Chuning became pregnant.

This is something I didn't expect, I may not be very happy, but because the Zongmen Conference is coming soon, I have insomnia all night.

No matter how scared I am, this day will still come.

I inherited the position of the owner of the Peach Blossom Valley, and took Meijiao Niang to the sect meeting.

I saw with my own eyes that Ruxue's face turned pale instantly when she saw me.

That was my first time, and it hurt like a knife.

Regret took root in my heart for the first time.

After the Zongmen Conference was over, I went to see him.

I don't know what to say, I know any of my words are weak.

I was so ashamed that I couldn't speak.

I can't argue because what I've done is the truth.

I got married and had kids.

Even before being with Ruxue, I was dirty.

I can't say it, I can only apologize again and again, begging for forgiveness.

Later, Ruxue lost all her cultivation due to the rush of fire, and for the first time, I was in chaos.

I didn't know... I would bring him such serious consequences.

Regret began to grow slowly.

I know in my heart that this kind of regret may be with me for the rest of my life.

I should be punished.

I asked Chuning to take people back to Peach Blossom Valley, and stayed by myself.If anyone hits me or scolds me, I won't fight back.

I know, I deserve it.

But Ruxue still protects me, but she no longer wants to get close to me.

The days are so stalemate, I almost used up the panacea of ​​Peach Blossom Valley to nurse Ruxue's body, my eyes are red from the heat.

Ultimately, I had to go.

There is no way, my wife is about to give birth, I have already felt sorry for Ji Ruxue, and I cannot feel sorry for another woman.

I went back to Peach Blossom Valley, and I knew it myself.

Ruxue and I really have no chance.

But in the end, day after day and year after year, I miss it.

At first I just sent someone to deliver the elixir, and then I started writing letters, I began to recall the bits and pieces of our togetherness, and outlined our days together stroke by stroke.

Missing almost swallowed me.

But just when I was about to secretly meet him, my wife had a second child.

I stopped, exhausted, but I didn't insist on seeing him anymore.

I know, I don't deserve it.

It's another Zongmen meeting, and it seems like half a lifetime has passed since we met last time.

I didn't expect that the original Zongmen Conference would become a big wedding scene.

I never thought that the majestic Xunli Immortal Venerable would marry a demon, and he was... a man...

This kind of shock cannot be described in words.

For so many years, this is the first time I am thinking.If...if I wasn't such a jerk back then, wouldn't...wasn't...

That thought nearly popped out of the ground.

I want to tell him that I still love him, that kind of love goes deep into the bone marrow.

Can……

When I looked up, it was his appearance of going to die without hesitation, with such determination.

My heart ached, my eyes were about to split, and I ran towards Ji Ruxue crazily.

But I didn't run a few steps, and the red rain all over the sky fell on my face.

I was amazed.

At that moment, my world came crashing down.

In those few seconds, the appearance of not looking back when I was young quickly passed through my mind.

My memory has never been so clear.

My heart has never been so painful.

I finally understood what it was like to "regret for a lifetime".

Under the huge blow, I fainted from the pain.

When I woke up again, I still couldn't accept this fact.

I tried to find the fact that he was still there. I was no longer afraid of being found out. I told everyone I loved him.

Chuning smiled, but the smile was so ugly: "I know you have always had someone in your heart, but I never thought that...that is...a man..."

"Li Xuyang, you're really not a fucking man!"

Chuning took my children back to Peach Blossom Valley angrily.

I fell to my knees, weeping uncontrollably.

That was the first time I lost my composure in front of people.

I was heartbroken, and holding Ruxue's clothes, I repeated over and over again: "I was wrong... I was wrong... Ruxue..."

I know in my heart that in this life...no, in the next life...the next life, it is impossible for me to get his forgiveness again.

But I am stubborn and want to find his soul.

want to tell him...

From beginning to end, he is the only person I have loved.

Bai Nuo came and threw me into Ruxue's room.

"Li Xuyang, you deserve to spend your whole life in regret!"

"Li Xuyang, you are not worthy of senior brother."

"Don't say that in this life, in the next life, in the next life, you are not worthy to appear in front of him again."

"Li Xuyang, just stand here and take a good look at how he has lived these past few decades."

"Li Xuyang, you have to live well, don't go down and dirty his reincarnation circuit!!"

It is undeniable that Bai Nuo's mouth is really powerful. Just a few words made my life worse than death, living like a dog.

Later, Bai Nuo threw me out of the Emperor Jue Xianzong, and I embarked on the road to find him.

But I am not as lucky as Yan Cangming.

Ruxue...has never entered my dream once.

And the places I have been to have already changed.

The gates of hell were closed tightly, and I couldn't get in even with my head bleeding.

I smiled sadly.

Gradually, I lost my sanity.

But I can't die.

I have to live well, living a life that is worse than death, in order to atone for my sins.

It's just... Can I meet Ruxue in my next life?

I will use my whole life to make up for it.

Later, many years later.

There is one less Li Xuyang in the world, and one more gibberish lunatic in the deep alleys of the people.