On the New Posture of Being Captive

Mo Ya has been away for five days, and there is no news. Xu Xingxing dreams of Mo Ya every day, even when he is doing other things in his hands, but he will unconsciously lose his mind, or stare at his watch in a daze, like It's like being stunned.

Xu's mother was very worried, for fear that her son would not tell the family what happened, but Xu's father said indifferently: "Your own son, don't you understand? If he wants to talk, he will always tell us. If he doesn't want to talk Asking him made it difficult for him to do it."

Xu Xingxing would go to Mo Ya's house every other day, to look at the flowers in the room, to open the window to get some air, and then lie alone on the bay window in a daze, doing nothing, just looking at the sky outside.

Either he draws on the bay window, all of which are Mo Ya's appearance. He has thousands of Mo Ya's appearances in his heart, and he wants to draw them all. Sometimes one painting lasts an afternoon until the sky gets darker. When dusk comes, the hands are sore, the painting is full, but the heart is empty.

Xu Xingxing sometimes held the guitar and didn't know what he was going to play. A few notes popped out in his hand, and his mind was empty, so he had to put down the guitar again.

Xu Xingxing lies on the big bed where they used to sleep at night, and the past together will play in his mind unconsciously like a movie. It is obviously such a happy and laughing day, but Xu Xingxing always cries Curl up.

As if everything was a dream, Mo Ya broke into his life suddenly, and then disappeared inexplicably.

Every time Xu Xingxing thinks of this, his heart aches, but he tells himself desperately to believe in Mo Ya, Mo Ya will definitely come back, this is not a dream, it is real, Xu Xingxing holds the watch to his heart, and the pointer The beating and the beating of the heart are telling him that all this is not a dream.

Xu Xingxing thinks of Mo Ya, and his heart aches when he thinks about it. He never knew that missing him can make a person so unbearable and humble. Xu Xingxing sleeps with Mo Ya's clothes at night, and looks forward to opening his eyes again before going to bed every day. You will see Moya.

The strong, bone-destroying longing made Xu Xingxing's heart suffer from sorrow and devastation, and he lost a lot of weight. Xu's mother was very worried when she saw it, and she didn't dare to ask easily. Xu's father only sighed when he saw it. , but as a parent, he has traveled so many roads, and he knows that some roads can only be walked alone, and some sufferings can only be borne by one person.

Those sufferings that cannot completely knock people down will eventually make people stronger.

Xu’s mother cooks porridge for Xu Xingxing every day. She cooks different dishes every day so that her son can eat more. She knows that her son will go out every other day and come back after a night. Sometimes he will stay at home in a daze for the whole day God, sometimes I would keep painting for an entire afternoon, shutting myself in the bedroom without eating or drinking, and painting all the time. Mother Xu felt very distressed when she saw her son who had lost weight in the past week.

Finally, school was about to start, Xu Xingxing went to Moya's house once after registering, took back his clothes, took a look at the room, and then left with a dull expression on his face.

Han Yang knew that Xu Xingxing was surprised and surprised when he decided to live in the school, but he went over to help when he moved the dormitory, and when he saw Xu Xingxing's appearance, he was taken aback and almost swears, "What are you doing? gone?"

"Ah?" Xu Xingxing said blankly, "What's wrong?"

After Han Yang quickly helped Xu Xingxing make up the dormitory bedding, he carried him away and went to the place where he lived.

"What happened to you?" Han Yang handed Xie a cup of tea.

"Nothing." Xu Xingxing said.

"Don't give me a sloppy eye, tell me, what's the matter." Han Yang asked forcefully, with a firm attitude.

"No..." Xu Xingxing lowered his eyes as Han Yang stared at him.

Han Yang pulled Xu Xingxing to the bathroom mirror.

"Look at yourself, what have you become now? What about the person who loved to laugh before? Don't put me off, are you okay? Why are you treating me like a three-year-old child?" Han Yang said angrily.

Xu Xingxing slowly raised his head and glanced at the mirror, then couldn't bear to look at it any longer, he couldn't lie to himself, he didn't dare to let others know that he was so fragile, he was actually very scared...

Xu Xingxing's eyes were red, and he squatted on the ground covering his face, crying slowly, feeling aggrieved like a child who hasn't grown up, as if he was abandoned by others.

Han Yang hugged Xu Xingxing and put him on the bed, looked at the tired Xu Xingxing and said, "Do you want to talk now? Or do you want to sleep? I can see the bloodshot eyes in your eyes. You haven't slept well for a long time... ..."

Han Yang's gentle voice was very soothing, Xu Xingxing slowly removed his camouflage armor, "Yes."

"Then go to sleep, we'll talk when you wake up." Han Yang said.

Xu Xingxing shook his head, "I can't sleep."

"Then tell me, what's the matter?" Han Yang took a cup of hot milk for Xu Xingxing to drink.

Xu Xingxing drank the milk slowly, after a while Xu Xingxing said softly: "Mo Ya hasn't come back yet."

Han Yang looked at Xu Xingxing, "So, you can't get in touch?"

Xu Xingxing nodded.

"Then he disappeared suddenly or something?" Han Yang said, "He hasn't contacted you all this time?"

"Well," Xu Xingxing said, "Before he left, he said it would take about ten days, and he would definitely come back. It's been eleven days today, and he hasn't come back yet." Xu Xingxing's voice was very low.

Han Yang looked at Xu Xingxing, and sighed helplessly, "You, you are completely trapped," Han Yang rubbed Xu Xingxing's hair, "Are you stupid, aren't you just a man? No Is it just a very good-looking man? At worst, you can find it again, and you say you made yourself into this because of this..."

But Han Yang said that on his lips, but he fully understood Xu Xingxing's feelings in his heart. He was reluctant to let go when he really fell in love with someone, and no one could replace him, no matter how ordinary or unbearable he was in the eyes of others , how bad.

But there is no way, if you like it, you like it.

In the eyes of others, a thousand things are not good, and 1 things are not worth it. In my own eyes, they are all good things for him, and all of them are worth it.

So, because of this person, you will become less like yourself, because he took great pains and didn't think about food and drink. From then on, your every move, sorrow and joy are all because of this person that you can never forget.

Xu Xingxing's eyes were red, and his voice was choked up: "I wonder every day whether he will never come back again, and don't want me..."

Han Yang held him in his arms and comforted him softly, "No, no..."

"But he never showed up, never showed up, I think of him every day, except for him, he is still him," Xu Xingxing cried aggrievedly, "I can't control myself from not thinking about him, as soon as I open my eyes, my mind is full of He, I think he can't fall asleep because of his thoughts, and he will wake up from a dream when he falls asleep..."

"He said he would come back, he said, but he still hasn't come back, doesn't he want me..."

Han Yang wiped away Xu Xingxing's tears, "Stop crying, you are so nice, how could he not want you, it's not like you don't know how much he likes you."

Han Yang has really experienced this point personally. As long as Xu Xingxing is present, Mo Ya will only see Xu Xingxing in his eyes, and all eyes are on Xu Xingxing, with undisguised affection and pampering in his eyes If you say that such a person doesn't like Xu Xingxing, Han Yang himself doesn't believe it.

"Could it be that he was delayed because of something unexpected?" Han Yang said.

But Xu Xingxing cried even more when he heard it. If Mo Ya had an unexpected accident or change, Xu Xingxing couldn't imagine what the result would be. With Mo Ya's identity, Xu Xingxing had always been afraid of any accident. Or something happened. In the current situation, Xu Xingxing became even more flustered, and tears flowed down uncontrollably.

Seeing that Xu Xingxing was crying harder, Han Yang realized that what he said would only make Xu Xingxing more worried, so he hurriedly said: "He may be on his way back, don't worry too much, think about what he said to you , you should believe him, shouldn't you?"

"Mo Ya, why don't you come back, come back soon, I... I can't hold on anymore..."

Xu Xingxing seemed to want to cry out all the miss, panic, and worry these days. The tears flowed out violently. Han Yang has been beside Xu Xingxing and gently patted Xu Xingxing's back, comforting Xu Xingxing, watching Xingxing Crying like a tearful person, I can't help but think of myself in the past. At that time, I believed in someone without reservation, but was betrayed and deceived in the end. As a result, all my blood turned into tears. tears.

Xu Xingxing was so weak from crying at the end that he finally closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep. Han Yang also carefully put a towel on Xu Xingxing's eyes, otherwise his eyes would be swollen into walnuts the next day.

Han Yang was afraid that something would happen to Xu Xingxing at night, so he simply slept next to Xu Xingxing. Xu Xingxing murmured in his sleep at night: "Mo Ya, Mo Ya..."

Han Yang couldn't help but smile, this child is really infatuated, alas... I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing.

Back then, I was as infatuated as he was, and I put my complete trust in his hands. Originally, the two of us were very happy and beautiful, but who would have thought that...

Han Yang looked at Xu Xingxing, and silently hoped that Xu Xingxing would be sincere and not pay by mistake. He didn't know where Mo Ya had gone, and why he hadn't contacted Xu Xingxing for so long, but Mo Ya gave people the impression that he should be That kind of person who is very calm and reliable in doing things doesn't know what happened.

At this moment, the person whom the two of them repeatedly talked about is far away from them at this moment, and Mo Ya is also experiencing pain at this time, not only physically, but also psychologically.

Chi Chi looked at Mo Ya beside him, very worried, but there was nothing he could do, he had to rely on himself, and no one could replace it.

Xu Xingxing dreamed of Mo Ya in his dream without any accident. In the dream, Mo Ya was very gentle, walking towards him slowly, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, and his deep eyes were full of love and love for him , Xu Xingxing rushed over.

Drenched in the sun, stepping on the wind, crushing the time all over the place.

He rushed towards him full of joy, as if towards his world.