The cold goddess always wants to bend me

The sea of ​​clouds outside the window was stagnant, clear and blue, and the city on the ground could not be seen for a long time. Yu Xinxin sat leaning against the window, the sun lingered on her cheeks, showing whiteness, she looked back, and when the flight attendant passed by, she smiled and asked for a bottle of water. She looks cute, and the smile on her face is more sincere. She reached out to offer water, she took it, took a sip, and the anxious feeling in her throat eased.

On the first night of her arrival in Beishi, she had a fever, just like the previous one, it was so intense that she was confused for a long time, and there were always intermittent human voices in her ears, and some kind of burning things from time to time. Sliding on her cheeks, she wanted to open her eyes, but her eyelids were so heavy, it dragged her into the depths of her dream, various fragments flashed before her eyes, she felt more and more tired, and the voice in her ears pulled her nerves, Like a broken crystal, piercing the meninges and stinging, she became weaker and weaker.

Early the next morning, she saw a pair of red and swollen eyes. She was startled and moved her eyes away. They didn't say a word the whole day. Looking at her, it seemed like she suddenly didn't recognize her, and also seemed afraid of losing something.

On the third day, her mood was much calmer, and she began to try to communicate with Wei Zhi. She was going back to school. When she said the words, Wei Zhi stopped cleaning the ingredients and only said, "I don't agree." Then, No matter how much she tried to persuade, Wei Zhi ignored it, and in the end she was tired of persuasion, and she simply didn't speak, and the atmosphere froze like this.

Until night, Wei Zhi looked at her with deep eyes. The light from the living room fell on her cheeks, illuminating her fair and tender skin with some shadows. After a long time, he said, "If you want to go back, you can."

Yu Xinxin thought she had figured it out, and looked up at her with light in her eyes, "Really?"

Wei Zhi pursed her lips, her eyes pierced her heart, her complexion was slightly pale, and her dark eyes stared at her. After a few seconds, she said again: "Take back what you said before."

Yu Xinxin blinked her eyes and realized that Wei Zhi was talking about breaking up. She said, "Why?"

It was pitch black outside the window, and vague tree shadows could be seen vaguely. The wind came in through the cracks of the window, carrying the unique breath of spring, green and soft. Yu Xinxin's heart rate was a little faster, and she was staring at her, very focused.

"Just as..." Wei Zhi lowered her eyes, her thick eyelashes trembling slightly, covering the falling light and leaving a small shadow, she looked at the air in front of the coffee table, her pupils were dark and out of focus, and said in a low voice: "Poor I."

Yu Xinxin was stunned for a moment, the pain was densely entangled in her heart, and she couldn't get it out. She gritted her teeth, and the coating of her tongue was pressed against the palate until her throat was sore. She heard herself answering stiffly: "Okay."

The bottle in her hand was pinched and deformed, water splashed out and dripped on her skin, she wiped it with a paper towel, then raised her head, and drank the remaining water, the cool liquid flowed down her throat, relieving a bit of astringent pain, she slowly He took a breath, his chest was swollen and painful.

She couldn't refuse Wei Zhi like that, she was so low in the dust.She even felt that she had done something wrong, she shouldn't have broken up so recklessly, even though Wei Zhi just transferred his feelings for others to her.

Wei Zhi can't accept Shu Yixin, so he needs her, a person who looks like Shu Yixin but is not Shu Yixin, just like she said, "You are the medicine to save my life, why don't I love you."

She is nothing more than a drug, someone who can send "love" without guilt.

But even so, no one can be sure that Wei Zhi will not really fall in love with her, right?

Maybe as time goes by, does this love really belong to her?

An hour ago, there was a lot of voices in the waiting room, Wei Zhi said to her: "You are still mine, right?" There was a hint of stubbornness on his pale cheeks, and he stared at her closely, but his eyes were dull , more than a godless, already nothingness.

Yu Xinxin's heart ached, she got into her arms, hugged her tightly, and said tremblingly, "Yes, I belong to you."

"Then..." Do you still like me?

Wei Zhi hugged her lightly, cut off what he was about to say, and then heard a soft voice in his ear, saying: "I'll wait for you to get better."

— get well, accept me again, accept me as me.

Wei Zhimo was silent for two seconds, and his throat slid twice, "Okay."

— At least you are still mine.

—At least you still have pity on me.

——At least I haven't recovered yet, and you won't leave yet.

It has been two months since Yu Xinxin came back. In these two months, she put all her thoughts on her studies. At first, it was because she missed a lot of homework. Later, she didn't want to let the time be free. She would find a lot of things for herself every day. , reading, drawing, and various other activities. If I couldn’t find anything to do, I went to the playground for a run. Anyway, I couldn’t be idle.

She still lives in the house they rented, and sometimes she wonders why the landlord never shows up?Later, she didn't worry about it anymore, because she found the hidden house purchase contract and house ownership certificate during a certain cleaning, and her name was written in the house book.

She shed tears once again, and cried for a long time. When she wanted to call Wei Zhi with her dizzy head, she stopped. In the past two months, they didn't have a phone call. Greeting each other good morning and evening every day seems to be a kind of tacit understanding. She is afraid of hearing Wei Zhi's voice, and afraid of thinking that she will recognize her as someone else. As for Wei Zhi, she is probably afraid that she will break up. It's okay to not see and not reply, but she can't ignore the voice, and she can't do it either.

They just maintained a delicate state, staying in each other's address book as girlfriends, separated by the distance between Jiangcheng and Beishi.

The summer solstice is approaching, the air is roiling with fiery temperature, the air conditioner is turned on in the room, and gusts of cool air blow out from the exhaust vent, taking away the heat in the room.

Wei Zhi turned his head to stare at the bright sunshine on the window sill, his eyes were dark, he didn't speak, he didn't speak, his thin skin stuck to the skeleton, like a lifeless doll.

After the doctor's examination, he tried to communicate with her, but after receiving her silence, he shook his head helplessly, and withdrew, and Gu Mingxi, who was waiting at the door, walked up, had a few words with the doctor, and sent him away.

A voice came from the stairs, and the housekeeper led people upstairs. Behind Uncle Zhou was a thin figure with long black hair covering half of his face. His skin was very fair, with a touch of sickness. His expression was light, and his eyes were bright and transparent.

Gu Mingxi took a look at her and felt that she was a little different from before.

Shu Yixin walked up to her, raised her eyes, "What do you want from me? She..." paused, and said, "What's wrong?"

Gu Mingxi looked at her carefully, and saw that there was nothing unusual about her except that her skin was slightly pale. She thought for a moment and said, "Wei Zhi is very bad, even worse than when I sent you abroad."

Shu Yixin raised her head, her clear eyes were full of disbelief, her face was very white, without a trace of blood, "How could that be?"

"Two months ago, she went to see you, did you say something to her?" Gu Mingxi frowned, his eyes were sharp like blades.

two months ago?

Thinking about it, she did do something very low-level, but shouldn't Wei Zhi have chased her back?After all, her determination was so firm at the time, or did she not chase it back?

Shu Yixin frowned, could it be... because of those words?

"I want to see her." She whispered, her eyelashes drooping, her face pale and lonely.

Gu Mingxi sized her up, the wrinkles between his brows and eyes never loosened.

She has indeed changed, she has lost her hostility and madness, and her fair face is not as ferocious as it used to be, except for being sickly pale. From previous experience, when they met, Wei Zhi would only get worse.

"You don't have to worry." As if seeing through the mind of the person opposite, Shu Yixin raised the corner of her mouth and smiled lightly, "I won't irritate her."

"It's just that there is something I want to tell her."

Maybe Shu Yixin has really changed, maybe Wei Zhi's situation is too bad, she subconsciously feels that it won't get worse, so after meeting Shu Yixin's bright and clear eyes, she was moved for a moment and nodded lightly, "Go .”

Shu Yixin turned around and walked to the room behind her. The door was opened, and a gap flashed through. The summer light shone through, bright and clean. The person on the bed didn't notice it, and her gray eyes stared at the window sill, unable to get in. bright.

The hand holding the doorknob trembled, and Shu Yixin's nose was sour. After the resentment dissipated, she realized that she was also the one holding the knife. It wasn't just her, but her who had been driven crazy all these years.

She pushed the door in again, and was about to go in. Gu Mingxi followed from behind and closed the door again. There was hesitation in her eyes, as if she was thinking. Shu Yixin thought she was still worried, and said: "Don't worry, I figured it out. It won't irritate her."

Gu Mingxi lowered his head and looked at her deeply, until he could no longer find a trace of hostility on her face, then said: "Although Wei Zhi won't let you say something, I still think it's necessary to tell you."

Shu Yixin frowned, puzzled, "What do you want to say?"

"Didn't you always wonder why Wei Zhi couldn't accept you?" She stopped, observed Shu Yixin's expression, and saw her say: "It's because of her mother, she can't accept that she likes girls."

"Then why can she accept Yu Xinxin? Don't you also feel unwilling because of this?"

Shu Yixin bit her lip, her face became even paler, she lowered her head slightly, and said in a low voice, "I'm really not reconciled, but I can't help it."

Gu Mingxi glanced at the people inside along the crack of the door, Wei Zhi's eyes were still ashamed, like many years ago, or even worse, she said: "Because of your letter, sister-in-law died."

Shu Yixin raised her head, her eye sockets widened and her pupils shrank slightly, "What did you say?"

"Back then, sister-in-law's situation had actually stabilized quite a bit. For the sake of the little life in her stomach, and for Wei Zhi, she wanted to start over. It's just that she saw the letter you sent to Wei Zhi, and she broke down emotionally. Unable to face her husband, daughter and the child in her womb, she felt that such feelings were wrong and disgusting, and even felt that the unborn child was also a mistake, so she couldn't think about it and jumped off the building." She turned her face and said to Looking at Shu Yixin's extremely pale face, she continued: "Before she died, she said to Wei Zhi and her father, 'I hate you'."

"That's why, being with you is equivalent to admitting that she killed her own mother, so she can't accept it."

"Maybe she is very timid with such a mentality, but in the days to come, she did exhaust all her tenderness towards you, and even almost lost her life. She was afraid that you would feel guilty, so she didn't say anything. I don't owe you anything anymore."

Shu Yixin took two steps back, her eyes were red, tears fell drop by drop, and Wei Zhi's words from that night many years ago echoed in her ears.

"If it weren't for your letter, how could my mother not think about it? If it weren't for you, my mother would still be alive now. How could I like you? I hate you too late."

That's right, she should have thought of it a long time ago, it turned out to be her, she is the fuse of everything.It was only later that she became blind and filled her heart with hatred, so she ignored everything, her pain, and her caution. If she had noticed earlier, they would not have come to this day.

"sorry."

It turns out that the three words "I'm sorry" are not only painful for those who hear them, but even more painful for those who say them.

Gu Mingxi raised his head slightly, swallowed the lump in his throat, and said coldly: "Don't tell me I'm sorry, she has suffered enough in her heart, can you let her go?"

Tears rolled down her cheeks, and she touched her left eye, which was pierced by a scar.

"I just want her to be happy." Just like she wants me to be happy.

She opened the door, walked in again, and came to her.

The light in front of Wei Zhi was blocked, and the sunlight on the window sill could not be seen. She raised her head, her gray eyes hesitated for a moment, and the corners of her mouth curled up. It was very difficult, "You are here."

"Yeah." Shu Yixin had tears in her eyes, her side face was covered with a layer of light, and her eyes shone in the sunlight, "I'm here."

"Wei Zhi, you said you liked me when you were 15, right?"

"Yeah, I liked you back then." Her eyes traveled across time, and fixed on that innocent and clear smiling face that summer.

Shu Yixin took her hand, put her thin knuckles on her cheeks, and said softly: "I accept your liking."

"But now I don't want to like you, and I don't love you anymore." She choked up, her voice was difficult, her eyes were red.

"We, forgive each other, can you?" It took a lot of courage to say this, but luckily she said it.

Wei Zhi was stunned for a moment, a weak smile appeared on his pale cheeks, his gray eyes were stained with moisture, he choked his throat, and said, "Okay, let's forgive each other."

Perhaps the encounter between them was a mistake, a ruthless tease of fate, but no one can deny that the beauty of those youthful years really existed, and their hearts throbbed because of each other, and that was enough .

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