The cold goddess always wants to bend me

"Let's break up."

The spoon in Wei Zhi's hand fell on the table, splashing a few soft rotten rice grains, "What did you say?"

"Let's break up." Yu Xinxin repeated, "Actually, I have thought a lot during this time. After you left the hospital, I was very sad and a little angry..."

"I was wrong, I will never leave you again, don't be angry, okay?" Wei Zhi interrupted her, grabbed her hand tightly, his eyes flustered.

"Listen to me first, okay?" Yu Xinxin looked at her with slightly condensed eyes, but her voice was soft.

Looking at each other for a moment, Yu Xinxin gently withdrew his hand. Wei Zhi looked at the empty palm, choked his throat, and forced back the moisture from the corner of his eyes, "Okay, tell me."

"After you left, I was very unhappy for a while, and I began to think about our relationship. I also tested my parents' attitude intentionally or unintentionally. They seemed to be very disgusted with homosexuality. Later, we lost contact. I I realized that I didn’t seem to be so inseparable from you. When you said that you were going to separate, although I cried a lot, I felt a sense of relief for no reason. After that, you told me a lot about you. Experience, I feel sorry for you. I originally planned to wait for your condition to improve, and then find time to sit down and talk about our affairs, but now, I don’t think it is necessary to wait any longer. After all, there are always needs around you. The caretaker, it's not appropriate for us to be together like this."

"If you agree, should we try breaking up first?"

When she said this, her expression was very stable, her eyes were black and bright, her black hair was soft under the light, falling on her shoulders, slightly bent, and her whole body became softer and softer.

Wei Zhi didn't speak, and looked at her carefully with reddish eyes, as if trying to see something.

Seeing that she had been in a daze, Yu Xinxin smiled again, and said softly, "What do you think?"

"I don't agree." Wei Zhi said, with a tone that could not be refused, and his fingers under the table tightened, clasping the chair and stool.

"Shu Yixin and I have made it clear that she doesn't need me to take care of her in the future."

Yu Xinxin frowned, seemingly distressed, "If you want to be responsible to me, you don't have to. After all, I agreed to be with you voluntarily, and no matter who you are with, there will always be a first time for that kind of thing. , I still hope to find a boyfriend in the future, we are really not suitable."

that kind of thing?No matter who?

Did she really think so?

Meaning...it has nothing to do with anyone?

Still looking for a boyfriend?Can't you be a man?

"I, can't I?" She asked tremblingly, her lips pursed, and she stared straight at her.

"Wei Zhi, we are all girls, you know, I still hope to have a child of my own." Yu Xinxin wondered, her face was a little displeased, and she looked at her with a hint of impatience, "And , my parents will not agree, and about your mother, can you really think about it?"

"I, we can adopt children in the future, or test tubes are also available. If your parents don't agree, I'll go to them, not once, but twice, until they agree. As for my mother, she, she..."

"Look, you still haven't let go of your mother's affairs, have you? Shu Yixin has spent two years and still hasn't dispelled your worries. Why do you think I can do it? As for the child, it's not me who adopts it after all. Yes, there will be a gap in my heart, as for the test tube, we can't even have a marriage certificate, which hospital is willing to help? And it needs to use other people's sperm, which I can't accept."

"Wei Zhi, let's face the reality, okay? It's really not suitable for us to be together, and Shu Yixin also needs you, doesn't she?" A little white, a small pimple was gathered between the eyebrows, and the bright eyes were slightly moist, as if it had just rained, damp and dull.

"Is it okay to break up?"

Wei Zhi clasped the chair and stool with force, her fingertips hurt, and her heart hurt badly, her lips were trembling, "Is it because of... Qin Rui?"

Yu Xinxin was stunned for two seconds, raised her eyes to look at the boy not far away, her delicate and three-dimensional facial features were no longer as green as she remembered, she was in a daze for two seconds, Qin Rui smiled softly at her, Yu Xinxin blinked lightly, her eyes were clear, and she replied Smile.

Wei Zhi had a panoramic view of her expression, his face was ashamed, and seeing Yu Xinxin turn his gaze, he said, "No."

The ashes faded from her face, and the light in her eyes gathered, "Give me one more chance, okay?" Her tone was very careful, as if she was afraid of disturbing something?

"Not good." Without hesitation, she spoke clearly.

"That, that..." Wei Zhi lowered her head, the light in her eyes faded, the tip of her nose was sour, something seemed to overflow from the corner of her eyes, blurring her vision, her heart ached more and more, and she suffocated, "I... think about it."

Yu Xinxin didn't respond for a long time, as if she was thinking about her words. I don't know how long it took, maybe a few seconds, maybe ten minutes. Just when Wei Zhi was about to be unable to hold on, Yu Xinxin spoke, her voice was very loud. Low, a little depressed, "Okay, then you give me the answer as soon as possible."

Wei Zhi heaved a sigh of relief, but was soon filled with a bulging and sour emotion, like a sharp boulder pressing on his heart, bleeding out from the hole, suffocating pain until he became numb.

If, if she was a boy, would everything be different?

After dinner, Yu Xinxin originally planned to find a nearby hotel to stay, but was pulled into the car by Wei Zhi. She tried to break free, but was stunned when she saw Wei Zhi's red eyes, so she had to compromise and went back to the apartment with her .

It was dark and thick outside the window, and the stars could not be seen.

Yu Xinxin was in trouble standing in the living room. The last time she came here, Wei Zhi said that there was only one bedding here, so the two slept together. She didn't know if Wei Zhi had bought new bedding this time, but she wanted to come to this place. She lives alone, so there should be no purchases.

Wei Zhi came out of the bathroom, watched her staring at the sofa in a daze, guessed her concerns, and said, "You still want to sleep with me tonight, there are no extra bedding here." After she finished speaking, she turned her eyes away and looked away , lowering her eyes slightly, she was actually lying, Shu Yixin lived here for a while before, and there was a newly purchased bedding in the second bedroom, and she could find it when she opened the door.

Yu Xinxin choked for breath, her heart ached, she pursed her lips, and said, "I'm going to take a bath first."

The warm water flowed down against the skin and flowed into the water outlet along the cracks of the tiles. Yu Xinxin washed her face. The bathroom was filled with mist, and the water filled her eyes, mixed with something falling from the corner of her eyes. She squatted down and curled her fingers in the water. The lips were clenched tightly, and there was a low sobbing sound to push through the fog, and was blocked in the closed space.

The night is thick, with water vapor squeezed in through the window cracks, mixed with the sound of rain, dripping, the rain in spring always brings a little gentleness, forbearance and depression.

Yu Xinxin was lying on the bed with her eyes closed, breathing steadily. Wei Zhi was lying sideways beside her, her eyes dim. She gradually got closer, put his arms around her slender waist, and buried his head between her neck, Yu Xinxin The body froze for a moment, the hands beside her clenched and then loosened, and finally let her exceed the norm.

"Is it okay not to break up?" Wei Zhi said, his voice was muffled, and the warm breath sprinkled on his delicate skin, bringing a crimson color in the darkness. Yu Xinxin's body trembled, and the tingling itchiness spread, she Biting her lip, "I thought I made it very clear."

"Xinxin." Yu Xinxin raised her eyelids halfway, her heart ached, and the hand hanging by her side tightened again. Wei Zhi continued, "I don't want to." Her voice was hoarse and nasal, and Yu Xinxin felt the pain on her neck. Wetness slips everywhere.

She was silent for a moment, turned around, put her arms around her shoulders, and said softly: "It's normal to not get used to it at first, and it will be fine after a while."

"I love you." Wei knew: "I can't do without you."

Yu Xinxin buried her face in her hair, sniffed her nose lightly, smelling the fragrance of shampoo, "I won't leave you." Wei Zhi opened his eyes, the eyes glowed, and there was joy growing rapidly. Xinxin continued: "It's the same when we get along in a different way. How about we be friends?"

The joy in Wei Zhi's heart stopped, and the light in her eyes quickly went out, dim like a deep well, and then a thin flame floated out of the deep well, and she said again: "Are you still angry about Shu Yixin's matter?" ? That's why you broke up with me in a fit of anger? I have nothing to do with her, and she won't bother us in the future, do you trust me?"

Really?

When Yu Xinxin heard her heartbeat, she jumped for joy. It was a reaction only when she was too happy, but soon the joy was suppressed again. She bit her lips tightly. The pain made her thoughts clearer, and there was a voice in her ear reverberate.

——If you really like her, don't make things difficult for her.

She didn't speak, but touched her slender neck with her fingertips, the neckline was open, and the cool and soft touch made people nostalgic, just like her person.

Looking down slightly, hooking the material of the clothes, thoughtfully, "Does your injury still hurt?"

Wei Zhi's cheeks were flushed, and her skin trembled slightly in the cool air. After a moment of silence, she realized, "It doesn't hurt anymore."

——Then do you still like her?

She withdrew her fingers and hugged her gently, "I'm tired, go to sleep."

Wei Zhi's arms around her waist tightened slightly, holding her in his arms, and said stubbornly, "I won't let you go, you are mine."

The flesh on her waist hurt slightly from the hoop, she struggled lightly, did not break free, and sighed: "I will go back to school tomorrow."

"Don't go, stay with me." Her eyes were dim, and her voice was a little cold, with a firmness that could not be resisted.

After finishing speaking, she propped up half of her body, lowered her head and approached slowly, Yu Xinxin was startled, her waist was fixed, so she had to turn her head to avoid it, her soft and cool lips brushed across her cheeks, causing her to feel numb. Shen, a little annoyed, his voice cooled down, "Don't do this."

"You don't love me anymore?" Her voice seemed to be crying, and the broken voice was mixed with the low sound of rain outside the window, which made people feel distressed.

For a moment, Yu Xinxin's heart softened, she couldn't bear Wei Zhi's tears, if she could stay by her side, even as a substitute, so what?But soon this thought was drowned out by another voice.

—Let her be free.

"Set me free, will you?"

Wei Zhi's tears fell, and she suppressed crying in a low voice. She gritted her teeth, "I won't let it go, I won't let it go."

Yu Xinxin was very conflicted. Wei Zhi's answer was very different from what she expected. Why did she disagree?Is it because of love?But when Shu Yixin hugged her, she didn't resist. Only lovers can have such an intimate gesture. The scene of the two kissing under the light is so stinging and well-matched.

She raised her head, warm breath sprayed from her neck, and a secret hope slowly surged up in the darkness.

Could it be that she misunderstood?

"Why was Shu Yixin sent abroad before?" She asked, her heart beating faster at this moment.

Wei Zhi hesitated, touched the skin on his heart with his fingertips, his eyes changed several times, and said, "It's nothing, she's just going abroad for recuperation."

"Then how did your heart hurt come from?" She asked again, with panic and hope in her voice that she didn't realize.

Wei Wei didn't know why she suddenly asked this, and habitually concealed it: "It's just an accidental scratch."

"you……"

Yu Xinxin was silent, the hope in his eyes was submerged in the darkness, the fingertips on his side were pinched into the flesh, pain after burst of pain, hard and suffocating pain in his chest.

She let go of Wei Zhi, trying to break free from her arms, but Wei Zhi didn't let go, tightly bound, during the struggle, the two bodies became closer and closer, the tip of the nose faintly smelled the cold fragrance, and the soft touch stimulated her Yu Xinxin's tears shed silently, and an unspeakable sadness welled up in her chest, she said coldly: "Let me go."

Wei Zhi was stunned, Yu Xinxin had never spoken to her in such a tone before, she seemed to be indignant, disgusted, the strength in her hands disappeared, and she looked at her turning back in a daze, her thin shoulders trembled slightly, She seemed to be crying, surrounded by deep powerlessness, she couldn't tell what it felt like, but felt that her heart was hollowed out, bleeding, empty, and numb.

She... was hated.

She fumbled again, pressed it against her ear, and said with difficulty: "Don't leave me, please."

The rain outside the window was still falling, the thin curtain was lifted by the wind, and the cool water vapor filled the air, but no one spoke in the darkness.