The cold goddess always wants to bend me

"What I want is not your guilt." Shu Yixin cried out hoarsely, her expression became more and more painful, like a person stuck in a swamp, the harder she tried to swim out, the more she could only be pulled in. In deeper darkness.

"I like someone else now, you know that, don't you?"

"Hahaha..." Shu Yixin seemed to think of something suddenly, and started laughing wildly. The tears in her smile became more and more raging. The contradictory expression made her even more insane, "So what if you like someone else? It's too late. "

"What do you mean?" She had a bad premonition in her heart, and the flashing figure downstairs just now flashed before her eyes.

"Yu Xinxin was also downstairs just now, hiding behind the bushes at the corner. She saw everything. Since she saw it, why didn't you say she didn't show up? Could it be that she has broken her heart and wants to give up on you? ?” She seemed to be talking about a secret, but the expression on her face was filled with ice blades, which made people shiver.

Wei Zhi couldn't sit still any longer, stood up, and walked quickly towards the door, the panic in his eyes seemed to be an imminent flood, he didn't know what to do.

When Shu Yixin saw this, the unwillingness on her face became even worse. Seeing that Wei Zhi was about to go out, she shouted: "You think it through before you chase after it. Don't forget that your illness will never get better, even if you rely on that little pity today Your love is alive, but are you sure that your emotions have always been stable? You should know better than anyone how her leg was hurt. Are you sure she can accept a lover who is always restless and anxious? Are you sure she Will you always love you in the long darkness? Are you sure she won't be tired? I, like her, were pulled into such a special relationship by you. We could have had a normal life. It was you who put everything together Ruined, you gave up on me because of your mother back then, are you sure you won't give up on her for this reason in the future? Are you sure your mother can rest in peace when she sees this?"

The repeated questioning, although cruel, pulled her into reality. Shu Yixin knew something about the cause of her mother's death. As for the specific details, although she revealed some, she didn't make it very clear, so she didn't know. What does her mother's death mean to her? She will never be forgiven in her life, and she will carry on with a heavy burden in her life. But because of these pains, she has made a decision to regret her life. This time, she does not want to do it again. lost.

"I have lived for so many years, and the one thing I regret the most is that I gave up on you back then. Your appearance filled my bleak life with sunshine, but at that time, I didn't understand how precious all this was. I did I made a wrong decision, and I made mistakes again and again, pulling me and you into a whirlpool of pain." The hand holding the doorknob was gently lowered, and the slender eyelashes trembled slightly, as if they couldn't hold back the tears.

"I thought we would always sink in such mistakes, but Yu Xinxin's appearance made me see hope again, I want to face everything again, I want to end everything, neither you nor I should live in pain, You said you love me more than anyone else, but I want you to be happy more than anyone else, but this happiness is not what I can give." She turned around, walked in front of Shu Yixin, looked at her, and hugged She, feeling her trembling body from crying, hugged her a little tighter pitifully.

"Although I'm sorry, it's useless, but I owe you a formal apology. In the past, I have been avoiding, and I didn't even dare to admit that I like girls. I thought staying with you would make you happy, but I was wrong. What do you need? I never understood, nor tried to understand you, I didn't hold you tight when I should hug you, I didn't leave you when I should stay away from you, I didn't formally confess to you when I should say I like you, it's me You are such a beautiful person, you should not suffer such suffering because of my mistakes, you have to believe, I hope you can be happy more than anyone else."

She supported Shu Yixin's shoulders, let her get out of her arms, wiped away the tears on her face, let her look at her, and showed her a sincere and gentle smile.

"Yixin, thank you for appearing in my life. I didn't tell you how happy I was when I met you when I was 15, and I didn't tell you how much I liked you at that time. Stupid, I don't know how to hold on to you, which is why you have suffered so much, I owe you a formal confession."

As she said, a brighter smile appeared on her face, and her eyes glowed with tears, just like the beautiful and heart-pounding girl 5 years ago, "Shu Yixin, I like you at the age of 15, really, really I like you very much."

Shu Yixin's tears couldn't stop shedding. She has waited for so long to like her, so long that she forgot how to treat the person she likes, so long that she forgot that liking is actually a beautiful thing, so long that she Lost the once proud self, but she waited for it after all, although this love came too late, even though this kind of love no longer belonged to her, but it was enough to comfort her beautiful green years , It is enough to prove that her sincerity has never been discarded, and her love is not unresponsive.

"Yixin, I'm sorry for the harm I caused you, whether it's your eyes, or my avoidance in the past 5 years, I was completely wrong about all of this, although the apology is useless, but I owe you an explanation. "

"Shu Yixin, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry for you."

"You don't need to forgive me, but you have to let yourself go, you have to give up on me, only in this way can you regain yourself."

"From now on, I will leave you, but this does not mean that I hate you, because this is the last thing I can do for you, you must not forgive me easily, you must get better, you are a clean A pure person, gloomy and morbid should not be what you look like. I'm sorry that I can't accompany you in the rest of my life, but you have to know that I liked you at your most beautiful age. Your liking is not meaningless. You Your liking is very important to me, I hope you can meet another person you like in your future life."

"In the future, I will support you silently where you can't see it. You will definitely meet someone who deserves your love with all your heart."

"You, forget about me."

Shu Yixin cried out of breath in her arms, the tears in her eyes seemed endless, the clothes on Wei Zhi's shoulders were soaked quickly, but she just hugged her, stroking her back over and over again, Just like every time she lost her temper, she gently comforted her, but she knew that this was the last time, and after meeting Yu Xinxin, she knew that it was impossible for her to go back to the past.

"I'm leaving," she said softly.

Shu Yixin hugged her tightly, bit her lip unwillingly, tears came out of her eyes even more violently, "No, I won't let you go."

"I really should go." After she said this, ignoring her increasingly violent tears, she broke away her hand, helped her to the dining chair, wiped her tears for the last time, and looked at her The red and swollen eyes said: "There are ice cubes in the refrigerator, remember to put on your eyes later, and learn to take care of yourself in the future."

She turned and walked towards the door, tears welling up in her eyes.

Shu Yixin grabbed the corner of her clothes, "You really don't want me?"

"I didn't want you, but the person next to you shouldn't be me." She raised her head slightly, forced back the tears in her eyes, and walked towards the door.

Behind him, Shu Yixin's hand fell to the ground and dropped powerlessly.

With a click, the door was opened, and Wei Zhi stood at the door, eager to find her girl, her heart would be safe only by her side.

"Wei Zhi." Shu Yixin called her, her voice trembling and hoarse after crying.

Wei Zhi turned around and looked at her quietly.

"I love you, I mean I love you very much, in the past, now, I still love you." Her eyes were still weeping, and her eyes were fixed on her.

Wei Zhi's heart clenched together, choked up and said, "I know, but I'm sorry, I already have someone I love, so I can't love you."

"But I still love you very much, but I don't want to forgive you, and I won't forgive you." Her face was full of unwillingness and regret, and she showed a jerky smile wrapped in tears, like a child who just learned to laugh, clumsy It's distressing.

Wei Zhi's heart was touched a bit, she was still the innocent and lovely girl before, without her ferocity and hostility.

"Then don't forgive. In the future, you remember to be happy."

"You have to remember that you were not abandoned, it was me...not worthy of you."

She went out and ran into the night to find the girl she liked.

Like it, confess it, accept it.

If you don't like it, you have to reject it, and you have to bless it.

If you do something wrong, you have to apologize and correct it.

Say goodbye to the past, cherish the present, and extend your hands to the future.

She only understands such a simple truth now, I just hope it's not too late, I just hope she can find her lover back, hug and protect her.