The cold goddess always wants to bend me

After Shu Yixin followed Wei Zhi into the apartment, she followed her all the time, watching her wash the ingredients, watching her put the washed rice into the rice cooker, watching her stir-fry the chopped vegetables in the pot, watching her Her pretty face is still beautiful and refined in the oily smoke, and she couldn't stop her heartbeat.

Looking at her like this has often happened for a long time in the past. She was happy when she first looked at her clear eyebrows, but she was sad when she found that the other person's eyes did not have the emotion she wanted. , and then she noticed her tiredness and pain again, she couldn't believe it at that moment.She tried her best to treat her twice as well, but the more gentle she was, the more painful she was. She didn't understand why her love made her suffer so much. In the endless pain, she collapsed and even wanted to However, let's just take her and destroy it together.But now, she gave everything she wanted to another person without reservation, how could she accept that the person she loved with her life took her love as pain, and then devoted herself to it without looking back into another's arms.

The food was served on the table, but no one sat down. Shu Yixin stood in front of the French window, looking at the lush branches and leaves outside the window, wondering what was she thinking?

The silence of the night coated her face with a layer of tranquility, and the face without hostility reappeared the unique purity of a girl, with moist and clear eyes, a round nose of jade, and soft lips of cherry pink, white and flawless. She still seems to be the innocent girl in memory who loves to laugh. Carefree should be her happiness, and innocence should be her nature.

Wei Zhi lost his mind looking at it, and after a long time, he opened his lips: "It's time to eat." She sat down at the dining table with a gentle voice.

She was always so gentle with her, never lost her temper, never impatient, and yet never loved her.She had indulged in the tenderness she gave countless times, but now she only felt suffocated and powerless.

"Sometimes, I'm thinking, since you don't like me, why do you treat me so well?" Shu Yixin turned around, took a few steps forward, pulled out the chair, sat down opposite Wei Zhi, and stared at her blankly, She is still so beautiful, perfect without a single flaw.

"When we first met, although we were very young, at that time, I could clearly feel that you liked me, but you pushed me away so resolutely, I love you so much, love you so hard, this No one in the world will love you more than me, but why don't you want me? If everything is my illusion, why do you stay by my side? No matter how I lose my temper, you refuse to leave, you You have been with me for so long, so long that I thought you would always be with me, but why...you just don't love me? "

What answered her was a long silence. Under the bright light, there was nowhere to hide all the subtle expressions. She saw Wei Zhi's lips move, but she remained silent as she had done countless times in the past. If there is little pain.

With such an expression again, she felt that a fire was ignited in her heart, and she was very irritable. She took a few sips of water from the cup and tried to control her emotions, "Is there really no possibility for us?"

"No." The voice was very calm, as if it was just stating a fact.

Shu Yixin smiled wryly, "Yeah, how could you let us have a chance, how could I forget it, you would rather die than love me." That night, the knife stuck in the chest was So decisive, so determined to cut off everything between her and her.

"If you were half as decisive as you are now when we met again in high school, I might have given up on you long ago. It was your perseverance, your tenderness and consideration that made me have feelings for you again, but you just thought I'm taking revenge on you."

Wei Zhi raised his head in surprise, the suspicion in his eyes gradually turned into more intense guilt, Shu Yixin seemed unable to bear the emotion in her eyes, she turned her eyes away and looked out the window, "You don't know how much I love you, even if you use The most tender way has done the most ruthless things to me, I still love you irresistibly, even though it seems crazy, even though everyone thinks you are the one who is tormented."

"I was driven crazy by you, and I was forced to die by you."

"I'm sorry, I... I don't know." Wei Zhi's eyes were full of tears, and there was deep regret in the depths of his eyes. It turned out that all the compensation she thought were more cruel injuries. The innocent girl was tortured into what she is now, and she ridiculously thought that she had redeemed her sins.

"Has anyone ever told you that the so-called sorry is also a kind of injury, knowing that it is unforgivable, but still saying these three words is plainly painful."

Wei Zhi felt as if someone had stabbed her in the heart. Someone had indeed said to her, "I never want to hear these three words." She looked at Shu Yixin's pale and exaggerated cheeks. It's very similar, if it weren't for the grudge in her heart, she and Shu Yixin should have had a good marriage, but it was too late, she understood too late, if there is no Yu Xinxin, she might reconsider the relationship between the two, Trying to let go of the burden in her heart and really understand her, but without Yu Xinxin, she would still be the same woman who was trapped in darkness and unable to extricate herself, how could she be willing to let go of everything.

There are no ifs in this world, only endless regrets.

"Wei Zhi, I hate you and love you. What's even more ridiculous is that I still don't want to give up on you. If you break up with Yu Xinxin, will you accept me?"

Wei Zhi curled his fingers tightly, and his eyes became firm, "I have missed it once, and I don't want to miss it a second time. I will not give up on her."

"So are you going to give up on me again? They are also girls. I am prettier than her, have a better family background than her, and love you more than her. Why can you accept her but not me? We have known each other for longer Isn't it?" There was a trace of expectation on her face, trying to see a little flaw in Wei Zhi's face, but she was disappointed.

Her emotions became more and more agitated, her fair cheeks were replaced by ferocity, but her eyes were very painful.

"Do you think I came all the way back to hear your apology? If you really want to make up, stay by my side for the rest of your life. If I suffer a little, you will follow me. If I suffer a lot, you will follow me." I am in great pain, this is called redemption.”

"What I can do now is to leave you. Only by leaving you can you truly come out." Wei Zhi endured the pain in his heart and said cruelly.

Xinxin is right, she was wrong in the past, she used the wrong way to try to atone for her sins, but it hurt her even more deeply, this time she doesn't want to miss it again, the chance of meeting someone she really likes in one's life is very small, she gives up After doing it once, I don’t want to give up the second time. There are some hurts and some mistakes. They need to end. Only when they end can they gain a new life.

"Hahaha..." Shu Yixin's mood became more and more unstable, she let go of her voice and started laughing, tears kept streaming from the corners of her eyes, "Why am I always the one who is abandoned, why can't you hold on to me just once , why is it always me that you can't ask for? Am I just annoying you like that? If so, why did you approach me in the first place? Don't forget that you provoked me first. After so many years of torture, I think I am enough It's inexplicable, but what's even more inexplicable is that you, who obviously like it but want to push it away, and who obviously don't like it, but still want to stay by my side, are you who made me like this, you are a bastard."

Wei Zhi just quietly watched her getting more and more crazy. Every word she said was like a sharp knife hitting her heart over and over again. A person who was once such a beautiful person, because she fell into the abyss of pain, If she had known this earlier, when her mother passed away, she would have hugged her desperately and given her the most tender thing in the world.

"Yeah, I'm a bastard. For you, I will feel guilty for the rest of my life." Tears glistened in her eyes, and endless regret stirred up huge waves in her heart.

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