I am not a good person

Zhao Zenian turned around, not wanting to be seen with red eyes and tears in the corners of his eyes: "If you took me away, I would never be what I am today! When I was a child, I always envied that Mei Siyuan was accompanied by his mother, and although I have my father But my father is closer to my aunt and younger brother, and I will always be alone!"

Those long past events have never been forgotten, but were deliberately buried in the bottom of my heart, and today they are finally brought up again.

"No matter what I do, Mei Siyuan has his mother, but for me, my father only cares about the results. I practice calligraphy under the lamp until late at night, and practice swords in the courtyard, rain or shine. Only the servant girl takes care of me according to my father's order, heh!" Zhao Ze Nian Leng snorted.

"Whenever there is a banquet, Wen Jia will bring Mei Siyuan to attend. The three of them are more like a family. People inside and outside the castle will discuss whether the young master of the castle will be replaced at this time?"

Zhao Zenian crossed his arms and said jokingly: "I never cared about the position of castle master, I just thought that I don't have a mother anymore, if even my father doesn't like me, can I still stay in Meijiabao?"

"Lin Shen!" Zhao Qingying approached, mustering up the courage to raise her hand.

The sleeve was grabbed, and Zhao Zenian trembled uncontrollably. For the first time in more than 20 years, he knew what his mother looked like.

"Lin Shen, I know I was wrong! Now I can't go back to the past, and my mother will make it up to you in the future!"

Zhao Zenian choked with sobs, and pulled her hand down: "The person I've paid homage to for more than ten years is still alive, to me it's not something to be happy about!"

Without waiting for Zhao Qingying to say more, he asked again: "Then what about you and the old pavilion master?"

"I left Meijiabao in feigned death, the poison on my face flared up, and I passed out on the side of the road again, husband..." Zhao Qingying quickly changed her words: "I was picked up by the old pavilion master and brought into the Valley of Medicine Kings. Only then can I recover my appearance by the magical hand of Su Miracle Physician. "

"Then you fell in love with each other, and you became the wife of the pavilion master?"

"Yes." Zhao Qingying felt embarrassed talking about this kind of thing with her son.

Zhao Zenian thought of another thing: "Even Mei Shuhao thinks I'm dead, why do you think I'm alive?"

"Do you still remember the heart method that Jin'er gave you?" Zhao Qingying said: "That is the third book. It is a cheat book that only saintesses can practice that I brought out from Hongyue Island. There are three books in total. The third book I I accidentally lost it while wandering, and I later handed over the first two volumes to He Bianzhou."

Sure enough, there is a connection!

Zhao Zenian really wanted to punch himself: there was a flaw long ago, and he never noticed it until today!

"He Bianzhou put the first two parts in the wall hole under his sister's memorial tablet. I thought you were buried in the fire in the Moon Tower... It took me three years to relieve the pain. When I went back to find He Bianzhou, I found that the house had been empty for a long time. Wait, the cheats are gone, I guess you must still be alive!"

The more Zhao Qingying said, the more excited she became: "I went to open the coffin for an autopsy again, and found that there was no family heirloom from the Zhao family that I left for you. With all these coincidences, I am even more sure that you are not dead!"

"That's it!" Zhao Zenian closed his eyes: "Then what do you want now?"

Zhao Qingying froze suddenly, Shi Jin took a step forward: "What about it, we are relatives!"

Zhao Zenian was expressionless: "I used to be able to live alone, and it will be the same in the future. I have burned incense and worshiped for more than ten years, and I can't do it in vain." He turned and left.

"Lin Shen, Lin Shen!" Zhao Qingying yelled in panic, not expecting him to leave just like that.

Shi Jin was very anxious and called out for brother.

Zhao Zenian walked quickly, wanting to leave everything behind him.

"Zenian!" Feng Yueyi trotted to catch up: "You wait for me!"

Zhao Zenian acted as if he had never heard of walking like flying, and spent half the time he came back to the Jingxu Pavilion. Unexpectedly, the door opened, and he was faced with Shi Feishi's face.

"Pavilion Master?" Zhao Zenian was stunned.

Shi Feishi raised his eyebrows: "Acquaintance?"

Just as Zhao Zenian was about to shake his head, Shi Feishi said again: "I said, once you recognize each other, you can no longer stay, and you don't have to enter this door again!"

Zhao Zenian was stunned, if it wasn't for being a man who is used to forbearance, tears would flow down almost immediately - he hadn't recovered from the blow that his father didn't love his mother and didn't love him, his best friend wanted to drive him away again.

"Then I thank the Pavilion Master." Zhao Zenian knelt down on his knees and kowtowed in a trance: "This subordinate is grateful for the life-saving grace of the Pavilion Master, and thanks for taking care of the Pavilion Master these years. Please take care of the Pavilion Master."

Shi Feishi pursed his lips, and said in a cold voice: "Concerned about the past, I will not announce that you were from Jingxu Pavilion. But let me know what you did outside with your identity in Jingxu Pavilion, I will definitely I will personally kill you!"

"Yes, this subordinate remembers it." Zhao Zenian stood up and turned around.

Feng Yueyi was out of breath and chased to the gate. Although he didn't know what happened, seeing Zhao Zenian was about to leave, he spontaneously followed.

"Zenian, walk slowly!" Feng Yueyi was out of breath after catching up: "Qingshi Pond is wet and humid, and the snow is so heavy, you slip into the water carefully, it will be bad for you to be invaded by the cold air! "

Snow?

Zhao Zenian stopped in his tracks and looked up at the sky in a dazed manner. The snow fell at some point, and it fell very heavily. There was a thick layer of sediment on the trees, on the ground, and on the river bank.

He stretched out his hand unconsciously, and let the snowflakes fall on his palm, but the snowflakes melted too fast, and he didn't see its appearance clearly.

Feng Yueyi wrapped his hands with his hands: "I know you are suffering now, but don't hurt yourself, shall we go back first?"

"Go back, where should I go?"

Under layers of goose feather snow, the sky was gloomy, and the tears on Zhao Zenian's face were blurred: "Father is not just my son, I am dispensable to him, and my mother abandoned me from the beginning of her life. Even the pavilion master...heh!"

"Huh?" Feng Yueyi was surprised: "Pavilion Master just now..." He finally understood why Shi Feishi was standing at the door, and Zhao Zenian left as soon as he arrived.

For a moment Feng Yueyi didn't know what to say, he wanted to apologize, if it wasn't for him, Shi Jin or Zhao Qingying, Zhao Zenian wouldn't have such a sad moment.

"It's okay." Feng Yueyi hugged Zhao Zenian from the side: "No matter where you go in the future, I will accompany you!"

Zhao Zenian shook his head and pulled his hand away: "I'm a little tired, I want to be alone for a while."

Feng Yueyi panicked: "I know I was wrong, I shouldn't hide it from you, but can you not be alone now, let me stay with you Ze Nian!"

Zhao Zenian shook his head.

Feng Yueyi has never been so panicked: "Have you forgotten our promise? We agreed that no matter what happens, we will never leave! You can blame me, but you can't break your promise!"

Zhao Zenian just felt tired: "It doesn't matter if there is a thunderbolt, or there is no place to die. I don't want to worry about it."

Feng Yueyi was sad and wronged: "Are you really going to abandon me?"

The heavy pressure made Zhao Zenian unable to speak, and he walked forward step by step, and his steps became deeper and deeper with the heavy snow.

Finally, he passed out in the woods three miles away from Qingshitang.

Half a month later, Zhao Zenian and Feng Yueyi met again, and the latter said, "Are you still blaming me?"

Zhao Zenian's tone was flat: "What right do I have to blame? You are doing it for your aunt and adoptive father."

"Thenian, shall we get married?"

Zhao Zenian was stunned.

Feng Yueyi: "Since you have abandoned everything in the past, I am willing to make a clean break with the past. From now on, only the two of us will walk together through thick and thin! You only have me, and I only have you!"

After wandering for half a month, Zhao Zenian was so depressed that he couldn't explain it, and he suddenly felt relieved when he heard this sentence: "It's really just the two of us?"

Feng Yueyi nodded firmly.

"Okay." After all, it was the one he loved, what else could Zhao Zenian do but forgive.

Soon they met Qin Pei, Qin Pei learned of Zhao Zenian's life experience and current situation, and decided to wander the world with the two.

Feng Yueyi actually liked threesomes very much, and pretended to be unhappy: "The two of us are just right, why are you joining in the fun?"

Zhao Zenian also said: "That's right, your parents are still alive, do you have the heart to travel far?"

Qin Pei misses his parents but is even more fascinated by the current Hele traveler: "I can go back to see them at any time, they also know that I am a person who cannot stay."

Zhao Zenian shrugged: "As you wish!"

Speaking of which, among the three, Qin Pei and Zhao Zenian were the ones who were really well-informed. Feng Yueyi felt bored after listening to it for a while, and went to the street to buy food.

Zhao Zenian and Qin Pei discussed for half an hour to determine the general route, and Feng Yueyi didn't come back until dinner in the evening: "Zenian, I just learned something, so I have to tell you."

The two agreed before that they would not hide anything from each other from now on.

"what's up?"

"Shi Jin took her aunt's handwritten letter and went to Hongyue Island."

Zhao Zenian was very displeased: "Who did you go to see this afternoon?"

Feng Yueyi felt guilty: "Auntie..."

Zhao Zenian was a little angry.

Qin Pei asked: "Did she come to you just to talk about this?"

Feng Yueyi nodded: "My aunt suddenly wanted to go back to Hongyue Island to plead guilty. Shi Jin was worried that she would not come back after this trip, so she went for aunt. The pavilion master wanted to go with Shi Jin, but Shi Jin insisted on going alone. on the road."

Qin Pei understood: "She is worried, so she came to you and hoped that you would go too?"

"That's not true. She only asked me about the situation on the island, and wanted Shi Jin to prepare."

"She didn't say it clearly, but actually she still hopes." Qin Pei smiled bitterly: "Zenian, what your mother means is that it's okay for you to resent her, but I just ask you to help your brother because of your family relationship."

Zhao Zeqing scoffed: "She is always so calculating."

Qin Pei scratched the back of his head: "Zenian, why don't we go to Hongyue Island first? I always hear Yueyi mention it, but I haven't been there once!"

Zhao Zenian glanced at him without any objection.

Seeing them, Shi Jin's eyes were full of joy, and his appearance was haughty: "You guys are too late, aren't you?"

Qin Pei raised his eyebrows subconsciously: "Did you know we would come?"

"I don't know about you, but I know, brother will definitely come!" Shi Jin said, looking at Zhao Zenian who was at the back.

Zhao Zenian said indifferently: "For me, my mother is long gone. How could she give birth to my brother? Jingxu Pavilion and I have also drawn a clear line, so don't shout."

"You don't recognize me, I understand very well." Shi Jin approached: "From the day I accidentally sprinkled the potion and saw the red moon pattern on your back, I have believed from the bottom of my heart that you are my brother, even if you refuse to dislike me , I'm still your real brother!"

Zhao Zenian snorted coldly: "Will you go or not?"

"Go, of course!" Shi Jin showed joy unabashedly: "With my elder brother accompanying me, I will never be alone on this journey again!"