Goodbye, Mr. Mu

The blackout curtains in the ward were so thick that Mu Huaizhang couldn't see Chai Fei's tearful face clearly on the supposedly sunny afternoon.

He stubbornly straightened his back, trying to express his thoughts clearly, not as if he wanted to persuade Mu Huaizhang, but himself.

Mu Huaizhang felt that he had shed enough tears today, and was afraid that he would be tired, so after he finished speaking, he hugged him in his arms.

Mu Huaizhang also had a lot to say, some precious and important words, but he wanted Chai Fei to lie down and relax.

This hospital bed is not as comfortable as the big bed at home.In fact, it is quite difficult to accommodate two tall and long-legged men in such a narrow piece of land.

Even though he was curled up, Mu Huaizhang still acted very relaxed, hoping to make Chaifei relax with his emotions.

"Mr. Mu, I'm quite scared. It's not a little bit, but very scared."

Mu Huaizhang felt that Chai Fei was a perfect speaker, because what he said was truer than anyone else, so true that even Mu Huaizhang felt pain and fear in his bones following him.

But what are you afraid of?fear death?Or are you afraid that after you die, you will never find another person like him?

wrong.

Mu Huaizhang couldn't give an answer, so he wanted to hear Chai Fei's answer.

"Huh?" Mu Huaizhang pinched Chai Fei's little finger and rubbed the plump finger belly, "What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid a lot," Chai Fei paused, "The little prince was afraid of the dark, bugs, and injections when he was a child, but when he grows up, he's afraid of gaining and losing." Zhang's cheek, "Now Chai Fei, I am afraid that one day, I will say goodbye to Mr. Mu. Maybe I will never see you again..."

Mu Huaizhang looked at him with his head down, trying his best not to let tears flow from his hot eyes.

never see you again...

Saying this once is more unforgettable than Mu Huaizhang saying "I love you forever" [-] times.

He vaguely saw that Chai Fei raised the corners of his mouth, pretending to smile indifferently in his eyes, and briefly turned Mu Huaizhang's lonely courage into two people's selflessness, and continued: "However, after being with you , I learned a truth from you, whether you are afraid or not, you can't stop the result from coming, what we can do is to work hard."

Mu Huaizhang opened his mouth to say something, but Chai Fei bit his lips: "Listen to me."

"You are braver than me. You have always been. So, if the day comes to say goodbye, Mr. Mu, I allow you to be sad and cry, but I only give you half a month. After half a month, promise I, continue to be the invincible Mu Huaizhang."

Chai Fei seemed to be extremely tired, and wanted to unpack Mu Huaizhang's Guyong and return it back. He even wanted to just fall asleep like this, but he still managed to open his eyes and finished what he wanted to say: "Forget me or not, it doesn't matter. You just need to know that when the wind blows, the rain falls, and the flowers bloom, that's me."

Spring and autumn are here again, as long as everything in the world remains the same, I will come to see you.

This is probably the reason why Chai Fei hangs wind chimes in the alley and buys new flowers. Everything in the world will leave its traces, and these traces are said by Chai Fei as a symbol of guarding him...

His little prince is always like this, making people want to hold his face and give him a good kiss to repay his tenderness between the lines.

After all, Mu Huaizhang still couldn't stop the tears from falling. The teardrops rolled down the corners of his tired eyes, landed on the white bedding, and soon disappeared.He saw that Chai Fei's eyes loosened, his voice weakened, and he fell into a misty sleep again.

Mu Huaizhang stroked Chai Fei's hair and cheeks very lightly along the outline of Chai Fei, trying to get as close as possible to him, stopping at a distance where he could feel his breath, for fear that it would take away what should have been breathed by him. Oxygen-like, but he held his breath.

Mu Huaizhang thought to himself mockingly, could it be that he has been too high-minded all his life and grabbed everything he could get his hands on, and God thought it was enough for him, so he didn't give it to him anymore?But Mu Huaizhang didn't want anything else, just a chaifei.

It's really a hard life.

Chai Fei didn't sleep for a long time, it seemed that he was just confused for a while, and woke up soon.When he woke up, Mu Huaizhang was still lying down with him, and the two kept facing each other with their foreheads touching.

"Are you awake?" Mu Huaizhang didn't sleep, he didn't sleep much recently, mostly because he was extremely sleepy and tired, so he could sleep for a while after Chai Fei fell asleep.

"Well, I'm awake, shouldn't it be time to get up?"

"It's all right. If you want to be brighter, I'll turn on the lights or draw the curtains."

"No, that's fine."

"Okay, that's it." Mu Huaizhang reached out for the thermos to let Chai Fei drink.

Chai Fei took two sips with his hand and said that he didn't want to drink anymore, and he had to go to the toilet later, which is troublesome.

Mu Huaizhang didn't urge him, he just remembered to remind him a few times.

"Chai Fei, are you awake?" Mu Huaizhang asked knowingly, just to give himself a start. Although he had decided to talk to Chai Fei long ago, when the matter came to an end, his mouth that relied on eating was not as good as before. Spirited.

"Ah."

"I have something to say to you, too."

In fact, if Chai Fei hadn't fallen asleep just now, Mu Huaizhang would have shed tears during the conversation with him.But now, Mu Huaizhang has sorted out those pessimistic and helpless feelings in a short interval, just like Chai Fei said, he must be the invincible Mu Huaizhang now.

"Perhaps you think I have to sit up too, to tell you solemnly?" Mu Huaizhang made a joke, and gently kissed Chai Fei on the forehead.

"Ha, no need, as long as you are comfortable." Chai Fei felt itchy, and rubbed his soft hair against Mu Huaizhang's chin, just like he always did in the past.

"Well, Chai Fei, although I am not a strong-willed person, please believe me, I am ready to accept the sufferings that will inevitably be encountered in life. It doesn't matter if you can't ask for it, or you can't love it. What is in me, what I cannot escape, I will definitely be able to accept. So, don't worry about me, and don't shed tears for me, this is my choice and my life, right?"

Chai Fei opened his mouth, "But..." You can obviously choose to leave, but Chai Fei didn't say the last half of the sentence, because they had already discussed the issue of "leaving".Mu Huaizhang will not leave.

"correct."

"Good boy," Mu Huaizhang kissed Chai Fei's cheek again, looked at his reddened eyes and continued, "Then there is the problem that you always feel sorry for me."

Mu Huaizhang chuckled, "Although you always love me, it makes me very relieved and happy. It really makes me very happy that you can love me like this."

"But I still want to say, do you feel sorry for me too much because you underestimated my ability?"

Chai Fei suddenly understood what Mu Huaizhang meant. He had tolerance for all kinds of suffering in the world based on clear cognition.

"Aren't I the invincible Mu Huaizhang?" Mu Huaizhang still sat up, facing Chai Fei, "I have to say, it's really difficult now, and the pain you are suffering can make me empathize with you Sad. But I did not give up hope, because, both medically and my shallow premonition, I have a very positive attitude towards your illness."

Chai Fei shook his head, looked over his shoulder to the pale corner of the ward, as if he didn't dare to meet his scorching gaze.

Mu Huaizhang was not discouraged, nor did he force him to immediately accept his overly optimistic view in his eyes. He curled the corners of his mouth, not forcing a smile, "Chai Fei, finally, it's time for me to confess to you again. You Have you noticed that I always have a lot of problems to confess to you? It seems that I am a bit unreliable, but believe me, I am a trustworthy person for everything about you. "

Chai Fei, who was wandering around the corner of the ward, trying not to let the tears overflow his eyes, was finally infected by Mu Huaizhang's emotions, and turned his eyes to meet him, "Then who is Mr. Mu going to confess to fighting with me this time?"

"Ha, from what you said, it seems that I'm even more unreliable. I'm over 30 and I always fight with others. Fortunately, I win every battle." Mu Huaizhang lowered his eyes, originally cold and serious His face softened in his smile, "But this time there is no fight, but we are already on the battlefield, and the name of the enemy is just a disease."

"I'm sorry, I've been hiding it from you for a few days, and I really want to keep it going. It doesn't matter what kind of risk I take. If it's good for you not to let you know, I will definitely keep it." Mu Huaizhang's eyes were still gentle, as if he had never had this exaggerated thought that was extremely risky to himself, "But now, I figured it out, you are a brave little prince, you can know, you should know, And I'm not afraid to know."

Although Mu Huaizhang said with certainty, he was still uneasy, so after saying this sentence, he stopped and carefully observed the expression on Chai Fei's face.

Chai Fei was still looking at him, bent his eyes like him, and even raised the corners of his mouth, showing a light smile like a butterfly flapping its wings, "Well, I don't feel scared now."

"The name of this disease is multiple myeloma." Mu Huaizhang paused, and his tone was still calm, just like his seriousness in every trial scene, "I asked the doctor and invited experts to consult. All the means found to understand the disease and your current situation, all the conclusions are optimistic."

Under Chai Fei's shining eyes, he continued, "It is true that the treatment process is hard, but with the right treatment method, the cure rate is very high. So, I..." Obviously those Mu Huaizhangs expressed it very well But at this point, Mu Huaizhang found that he didn't know how to explain these to Chai Fei so that Chai Fei could believe it.

So his tone became urgent, "I don't know how to express those medical terms accurately, but, Chai Fei, believe me, you will be fine, you will be fine! I will never give up hope, and I beg you, Don’t give up, okay? Even if the illness makes you feel uncomfortable, and the treatment will be very hard, you have to promise me, don’t give up. Don’t shrink back, no matter what the reason is, don’t shrink back, okay?” He couldn’t help it like he was used to the pain Like the doctor who talked about the cure rate and survival time with Chai Fei, it seems that a person with flesh and blood is used as a container to measure, so he can only show his whole heart to Chai Fei, "Chai Fei, don't say goodbye, Mu Huai Zhang will always love Chai Fei and will do anything for Chai Fei."

The author says:

Was emotionally unstable yesterday and brought real life stuff here.Feel sorry.Thank you for your blessings, she has received them all, and she will be fine!There is a sentence in the article that I wrote like this, "As long as everything in this world remains the same, I will come to see you."I don’t remember where I saw a similar sentence. I wanted to mark the source and searched for a long time but couldn’t find it, because I really couldn’t remember how the original sentence was said, and even began to wonder if I hadn’t read it. It was all a fantasy. .But let me put it this way, if anyone has seen it, remember to leave a message and let me know.