What a pity to miss the rebirth

Two months later-

"Dong dong dong" came three polite knocks on the door, Liu Yingnian looked up from the magazine, saw Xie Fengyong standing at the door smiling at him, and smiled back.

"Why are you here today?" Liu Yingnian asked.

"You will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, and I don't have time to pick you up, so I have to come and see you in advance." Xie Feng was holding a bouquet of flowers, smiling lazily.

"Didn't I tell you not to bring flowers?" Liu Yingnian smiled helplessly.

Xie Feng shrugged, "I brought everything with me, you are so long-winded, just like my mother."

He took out the flower bouquet that was in full bloom in the vase, threw it into the trash can, changed the water, and inserted the fresh bouquet he brought into it.

"Is everything ready? Is the itinerary fixed?"

"With Meiwei here, don't worry, my family's Tie Mi is so capable and has already taken care of everything."

"Secret?"

"Personal secretary. Does it sound better than private?"

"...you just scream."

Xiefeng smiled casually, pulled the chair next to him and sat down, "Are you really okay? Is it too hasty to leave the hospital tomorrow? Do you want to stay for a few more days and let the doctor observe more?"

Liu Yingnian rejected his proposal: "Where is the rush, I've lived here for almost a month. If I stay any longer, my body will probably get moldy. The doctor also said that I can be discharged from the hospital, it's fine."

Xie Fengyou stretched his long legs, looked at him with slanted eyebrows: "Are you sure?"

Liu Yingnian nodded.

Xie Fengyou stared at him again and asked, "Really can't remember anything?"

Liu Yingnian was startled, "...um."

……

Three months of memory, if you say no, it will be gone.

That day, when he woke up, he found himself lying in the hospital with an IV on his wrist. He couldn't remember anything, and he didn't even know how he was in the hospital.

The doctor said that this is a normal phenomenon. His brain has been severely stimulated, and he has a previous history of amnesia. Unclear or blurred memory, memory faults, resulting in permanent loss of memory for part of the time period.

Like what the doctor said, he really slowly remembered many things, from his previous life, from this life, from Li Xianghua, from Lin Shu...he remembered them all bit by bit.

But something always seems to be missing.

Li Xianghua never appeared again, and the trajectory of his previous life changed after all. Liu Yingnian thought it was probably because he had been sleeping during the time when Li Xianghua broke up with him in his previous life. Even if Li Xianghua wanted to say goodbye, no one would listen.

The last memory that Liu Yingnian vaguely recalled was that Luo Yu called him. He took Xiao Linshu to Luo Yu's house, saw the seriously injured young man surnamed Yue, and found out that the neighbor who lived next door to Luo Yu's house actually drew The room was full of portraits of Xiao Jingliu. Surprised, he canceled his original plan to call Xiao Jingliu for help, and instead called Xie Fengyong, asking him to introduce a reliable private doctor and hang up the phone. After the phone call, he felt something was wrong, and when he looked up, he found that the child who had been silent was actually talking to him in dumb words, and then he couldn't remember anything.

Liu Yingnian thought about what happened after that countless times, but every time he thought about it, his head would explode, and the nerves in his brain seemed to be broken one by one, but he still couldn't remember anything.

Once when Xie Fengyou saw him like that, he almost scared half his life. He called the doctor and the nurse, and it was the doctor who gave him a sedative before he calmed down.

Xie Feng scolded him angrily, and said, "Do you think amnesia is just for fun? The doctors say you can't force it, you have to let it be. What the hell are you trying to do? Is it interesting to roll around on the bed with your head in your arms? It hurts so much that your face is deformed, if I didn’t come by coincidence, your mother would die of pain here today!”

He leaned on the hospital bed and said to Xie Feng, "I'm sorry."

After unblocking him, he said angrily, "If an apology is useful, why do you need the famous quote from Daoming Temple! What's the use of saying sorry to me? The person you are sorry for is yourself! Your life is yours. If you don't want it, who will you?" I can't save you! If I knew you were so anxious to find death, you might as well not have come back and just died in the old city!"

Liu Yingnian's expression froze.

After Xie Fengyou finished speaking, he regretted it, "No, Niannian, I didn't mean that..."

Liu Yingnian said, "I know, it's fine."

But he was in a daze.

old town.

The largest part of his lost memory is the time he spent in the old city.All he knew was that he was taken captive to the old city, and he spent three months there, but how he lived these three months, what happened, who he met, he forgot everything, forgot. It's spotless.

Why was he taken captive to the old city?

He couldn't remember either.

Even the fact that he was taken captive was only told to him by Xie Feng, so he knew.

When I asked Xie Fengyong, Xie Fengyong didn't know the reason, and was afraid that what he said would affect his condition if he said too many mistakes. Knowing that he really couldn't remember, Xie Fengyong was even more reluctant to mention it.

He didn't care about revisiting the old place to restore his memory, he only knew that Liu Yingnian must have suffered a lot in the old city, otherwise he wouldn't end up with brain stimulation and amnesia.He hated the old city to death, and wished that Liu Yingnian would never remember anything about the old city for the rest of his life.

Whatever it is, if you can't remember it, it doesn't mean it's not important enough.

If it is really important, no matter how long it takes, what should be remembered will always be remembered.

What is he wasting his mind on?Don't worry about it!

Liu Yingnian also asked Xie Fengyong, "Where's Li Xianghua?"

Xie Fengyou said, "After he brought you back from the old city, he handed over the work, handed in his resignation letter, and then disappeared without knowing where he went."

Liu Yingnian asked him, "What else?"

Xie Feng raised his eyebrows.

Liu Yingnian said, "Didn't he say anything else?"

Unsealing said no.

Liu Yingnian said, "Feng Yao, we grew up together, just like I can't lie to you, you can't lie to me either. If he wants to leave, how can he not leave me a message?"

Xie Feng didn't speak anymore.

Liu Yingnian asked, "Did he say he wants to break up with me?"

……

In the end, they still broke up.

Unsealed and handed over to him the audio tape left by Li Xianghua, a very short recording, still those few sentences——

"Liu Yingnian, let's break up, I fell in love with someone else."

Pause, rewind, play, pause, rewind, play...

Li Xianghua's extremely calm voice played back over and over again on the cold radio.

Liu Yingnian stared at the radio, repeating meaningless movements in a daze.

He thought that his rebirth might have failed, otherwise how could he not avoid the fate of his previous life?The more he doesn't want to repeat history, the more shockingly similar the history is, but the process is slightly different. In the previous life, he broke up face to face, and in this life, he broke up by leaving a message, and the result is the same.

In the end, he did nothing.He neither got rid of Li Xianghua in turn, nor succeeded in keeping Li Xianghua, even this time was worse than the last time, he didn't even see how Li Xianghua left with his own eyes.

Perhaps, Li Xianghua has some difficulties...

In his previous life, he held on to such a belief for half his life, and persisted so painfully. As long as he thought of even a little hope that Li Xianghua might come back to find him, and thought that Li Xianghua must have had other reasons for leaving him, he would not dare to accept Lin Shu. He accepts Lin Shu here, and Li Xianghua will appear in front of him on the other side. In that case, what will they do?

He also thought that in this life, he has such a great advantage with the memory of the future, so he will definitely be able to find out the past and carefully investigate the events of the past...

At the very least, the fate between Li Xianghua and him must be changed, and at worst, let him get rid of Li Xianghua, absolutely not let Li Xianghua get rid of him for the second time...

But in the end, after eight months of rebirth, he did nothing and changed nothing.

The time on the desk calendar has already passed half a year, and Li Xianghua has left long ago.Two months, Li Xianghua has been away for two months, and two months have passed since they broke up in the previous life, but in these two months, he slept for a month, recuperated for a month, and missed everything.

Liu Yingnian was stunned for a long time, then suddenly laughed.

What is this rebirth?

It's better not to be born again!

He smashed the radio and everything in the ward, screaming ahh...

……

"Yingnian?" The voice of Xie Fengyou brought Liu Yingnian back from his memories.

"Am I in a daze again?" Liu Yingnian asked him.

Xie Feng gave him a look of "you know it yourself", and said lazily: "I'm used to it. Now you are always wandering away, either in a daze or in a daze. If you don't go abroad to see, the foreign The level of medical treatment is more developed than in China, and there may be a way to cure your amnesia."

Liu Yingnian smiled and said: "Let's forget it, no need, it's not like I can't remember anything, it's only been three months, like you said, how many important things can I have? I will always remember what I should remember." , maybe I can remember it tomorrow.”

"I hope you are as lucky as you said." Xie Feng said dispensable.

"Well, my luck is actually pretty good." Liu Yingnian smiled.

He's serious.

You have to compare everything to know.

Compared with others, in a sense, he should be content.Li Xianghua was with him for ten years when he was young, and Lin Shu was with him for the next 30 years. In his whole life, there are two people who can recall and miss him. He is already luckier than too many people.

What's more, there was always Xie Feng by his side.

He has both friendship and love.

It's just that he couldn't reconcile Xie Feng with these words.

……

Liu Yingnian was discharged from the hospital and went abroad after the lockdown was lifted. The sound of taxis speeding on the road and the roar of planes taking off intertwined became the background of time.

Another month passed in a blink of an eye.

Liu Yingnian still couldn't remember what happened in those three months, and occasionally he would still be in a daze involuntarily, always feeling that something was missing and became incomplete.

But I don't know what is missing.

Maybe it doesn't matter at all, maybe it matters.

He and Li Xianghua were away from the company for a few months, Xiefeng Xing took care of it very well, and the three secretaries also had a lot of credit. In order to fulfill the foreword, he took half a month's paid leave for several people as soon as he came back.Because the company couldn't lack too many people at once, he also promised that next year the three senior secretaries would take turns to take long vacations, each for three months, and he also gave all three of them a salary increase, double the monthly salary.

He has also seen the new employees in the company. After training in the personnel department, a few good ones were left behind, and they were distributed to various departments to replenish blood. Following Li Xianghua, it's not easy to assign his position right now, it's not appropriate to transfer him here or transfer him to Xie Feng. Liu Yingnian thought about it, and simply asked him to temporarily take Li Xianghua's position, which is regarded as a promotion Anyway, these three senior secretaries in the previous life have been with them all their lives, and they are the company's veterans. Tang Meiwei and Ye Langchen will be promoted sooner or later. After the company expands in the future, there will be room for them to play.

As for Luo Yu and Lei Xing, he also went to meet them once to thank them, because Xie Fengyou said that Luo Yu and Lei Xing were also responsible for the reason why he came back safely, although he couldn't remember Yes, but such a great favor must be thanked in person.

It’s okay for Lei Xing to talk about it, please have a meal, eat, drink and talk, and it’s over, but for Luo Yu’s, he doesn’t know why, maybe Li Xianghua left again or it brought a blow, and he is not in the mood to submit to Luo Yu for the time being Something happened and he was a little frustrated, so when he and Luo Yu went out for dinner, he briefly expressed his thoughts and told Luo Yu that no matter what he did, he would support him and be his backing.

Some things, the trajectory remains the same, and some things, in fact, have new changes.

He thought that he and Luo Yu probably couldn't be lovers in this life, they could only be friends.

This change should be in a good direction.

……

On weekends, he went to the supermarket alone to buy vegetables, and pushed the cart around in the fresh food area. When he got a box of fresh vegetables wrapped in plastic wrap, a strange voice suddenly appeared in his mind——

I love your meals..your meals are the best..

Liu Yingnian suddenly raised his head and looked around. There were only strangers shopping for vegetables. They were either already married or passed by. No one spoke to him.

He rubbed his temples. Maybe it's because he's been under too much work lately, he's under a little stress, and he's suffering from memory loss, so he's having auditory hallucinations?

It is better to ask the doctor in charge the next time you go for a follow-up visit.

In fact, it doesn't matter too much, he remembers everyone who should be remembered in the previous life, and there is no one missing, so it doesn't matter.

After walking around, there wasn't much in the cart.

When he got home, Liu Yingnian sorted out the vegetables he bought, checked the time, and started preparing lunch.

The chopped peppers and shredded pork were neatly stacked on the plate, the stove was turned on, the hot pan was poured with oil, and just as the dishes were about to be served, the doorbell rang.

Liu Yingnian turned off the fire, and when he went out to ring the phone, he realized that he forgot to wipe his hands. His hands were all wet with water. He pressed the door open button and then went to get a tissue to wipe his hands. There was a knock on the door, and he went to open the door. Outside the door stood a pale and beautiful woman in an orange coat, and a small child stood beside her.

"Excuse me, is this Mr. Liu Yingnian's home?"

Liu Yingnian stared in astonishment at the familiar yet unfamiliar mother and son, and nodded blankly.

It turned out that before he knew it, the day when he met Lin Shu again had arrived, at the same time as in his previous life, November 27th.

In a trance, Liu Yingnian was still immersed in an indescribable feeling until Mei Xiao finished explaining his intentions, as if his life for the next 30 years was just a dream.

Of course, Mei Xiao came this time not to hand over her son to him, but to find her missing husband through him. Lin Mao has been out of contact for three months, and this time coincides with Liu Yingnian being hospitalized for two months and being discharged for one month. Added up to the same amount of time.

The letter he had seen before was still on the coffee table, and the content was verbatim——

"Smile:

Seeing a letter is like a face.

When you read this letter, it will be the day when you and I will end as husband and wife in this life.

don't read. "

At the end of the letter was written "If you have any doubts, you can go to this address to find this person, he can be trusted." Liu Yingnian's home address and Liu Yingnian's name were attached.

The other piece of paper in the envelope was a signed divorce agreement, and the man's name was filled in the signature column with Lin Mao.

The two big and one small in the room were silent, and no one spoke.

This kind of thing, no matter what, is embarrassing.

Liu Yingnian and Mei Xiao were strangers at all, and they had only met each other twice in their previous lives. Mei Xiao was desperate, but after receiving this letter suddenly, she had no choice but to find her. I hope, I want to get news about her husband from Liu Yingnian.

But what could Liu Yingnian tell her?Said your husband eloped with my man?Looking at the woman and child sitting across from him, he couldn't say it, he couldn't say it in his previous life, and he couldn't say it this time either.Not to mention whether there is an inside story in it, just because she is a woman and a mother, he can't tell the whole story, and add a knife to her wound alive.

"I heard that both Lin Mao and Baobao mentioned Mr. Liu, and I know that their father and son trust Mr. Liu." The woman's eyes were full of sadness, "Since my husband trusts Mr. Liu so much, I wonder if he has told you where he is going?" , how to contact him? We have been married for so many years, even if he wants to divorce me, he has to make it clear in person. Just a few words for no reason, and the person disappeared without knowing why. What is going on? I I’m really worried, and I’m really not reconciled.”

Yes.

One or two.

Leaving a few words unilaterally ended the relationship between the two parties, but they never thought about what they would do, what would the people who were left think, and how could they get out of this shadow?

Who is really strong and never gets hurt?

Nobody.

He used to be angry, angry, and resentful because of this, but now he only has a deep sense of irresistibility.

If he had never met Lin Mao, he might still not be able to let it go, but he has only come back in this life and has met this person. Several encounters have given him a certain understanding of Lin Mao. Such a man would not Those who easily abandon their wives and children, no matter what they think, there are problems in it, but they can't know it.

……

With the first meeting, there will be the second meeting, and the third meeting...

Maybe the plot really changed.

He and Mei Xiao didn't meet each other only twice in the previous life, and Mei Xiao didn't commit suicide in the hospital after meeting twice. They would occasionally contact each other to have dinner outside on weekends or something.In his previous life, he never took the initiative to look for Mei Xiao, because at that time he had a big knot in his heart, and he didn't know anything about it.This time he took the initiative to ask her out a few times, and asked some doubts that had been stuck in his heart, such as Lin Mao Mingming has such a big family, and no one in the Lin family in the old city dared to underestimate him, why did he behave like an orphan? I also found out Mei Xiao's life experience, she is indeed an orphan, but she has adoptive parents...

Mei laughed and said that Lin Mao himself didn't want to go back to the Lin family, and Lin Shu didn't like the Lin family either, and the Lin family wasn't suitable for Lin Shu's life...

She also said the same thing as Lin Mao, saying that Lin Shu seldom treats others like Liu Yingnian, and she doesn't have such a strong sense of rejection, which surprised her...

But Mei Xiao died in the end.

……

Two years later—

Liu Yingnian attended Mei Xiao's funeral. Mei Xiao's name was engraved on the stone tablet in the cemetery. Most of the people who came were her colleagues. Mei Xiao died in the line of duty, saving a passerby while on a mission.

Lei Xing came over and patted Liu Yingnian on the shoulder.

Now, Liu Yingnian is Mei Xiao's friend, he has good friendship with Lei Xing and Mei Xiao.

In the past two years, he has persuaded Mei Xiao a lot, from intentionally persuading her to go for a physical examination, to finding out that she has advanced gastric cancer, he persuaded her to open up more, cherish her own life, and think more about Lin Shu, The child is too young and needs his mother so much. Ask her if she is willing to let Lin Shu be a child without a mother?

I don't know if what he said had some effect, anyway, Mei Xiao didn't commit suicide, but just refused to receive treatment. Every time she mentioned the medical treatment to her, she just smiled and avoided the topic.

Everyone has their own persistence in their hearts.

She lived for two more years for Lin Shu, but she still couldn't escape the trajectory of death.

Liu Yingnian pulled Xiao Linshu, looked at Mei Xiao's tombstone, and stood there without moving for a long time.

Rebirth may really change some things. Although the change is small, it is still a change, even a little change. Compared with the previous life, it is changing in a better direction, isn't it?

At least Mei Xiao lived for two more years, Lin Shu also got two more years of mother's care, and he will have more memories with his mother. In the future, when reminiscing and missing, he can have more warmth.

Six-year-old Lin Shu has grown taller, cuter and more beautiful, but still doesn't like to show emotions in front of outsiders, doesn't talk much, has no eyes for others, looks well-behaved, but is actually very stubborn.

The school was on summer vacation, Liu Yingnian brought Lin Shu to the company, and let the little doll do homework or read books in his office, Lin Shu hardly read cartoons, all he read were cartoons that Liu Yingnian didn’t even want to read. book of.

Liu Yingnian bought him a Xinhua dictionary. Lin Shu had already learned how to use the dictionary. When he encountered a word he didn't know or didn't understand when reading, he would ask Liu Yingnian and flip through the dictionary. I don't know if he can understand it or not, but if a child doesn't cry or fuss, is quiet, and can play by himself, that's already good, and we really can't ask too much.

Of course, Lin Shu also acted like a baby, pretended to be weak, and even got into trouble with him. Liu Yingnian was too familiar with him, and whenever this happened, he would miss Lin Shu in his previous life, sighing in a state of absence, While smoothing the child's hair proficiently, he can be distracted and do other things at the same time.

In the future, there are still a long few decades, and there are some things that don't need to be rushed to make decisions now.

Let it be, he thought.

……

There are good and bad things in the company, some go well and some stumble.

Naturally, he doesn't need to worry too much about the project developed in cooperation with Xiao's. Holding such thick thighs, it is impossible to capsize the boat.However, after all, Nianhua Shengsheng is mainly based on venture capital. Sometimes it is wrong to see it, and it is inevitable that it will suffer a big loss. Jiefeng is so busy that he complains to him every day.

At this time, he remembered that such a thing happened in his previous life, but it was too long ago, if the same thing didn't happen again, he really couldn't remember it.

When the company was in the most difficult time, Xie Fengyong almost broke his own oath, and prepared to use the resources of the Xie family to fill the gap in the heyday of his youth. It seemed that at that time, a foreign-funded enterprise extended an olive branch to them, almost free of charge. helped them.

Liu Yingnian still remembered that at that time, he and Xie Fengyou didn't know how much they were grateful to this foreign-funded enterprise, and they joked that it was a pie that fell from the sky and hit them on their heads, allowing them to pick up such a big bargain.

It's just that this foreign capital quickly faded out of people's sight. It came and went in a hurry, and no one knew the reason.

short-lived.

This time the foreign company also arrived as scheduled.

Xie Fengyao came to tell him the good news with a smile, and Liu Yingnian was also very happy. This way, he didn't have to think about asking Xiao Jingliu for help.

It is better not to owe debts of favor.

Maybe that foreign company is his fairy godmother, and it might just show up to help him.

Sometimes, there is no way to be good.

His life is on such a repetitive and somewhat changing track, day after day.

Until one day, he received an unknown phone call, and a completely different story from his previous life happened——

"Hello, is this Mr. Liu Yingnian?"

"I am, who is it?"

"This is the old city private sanatorium. It's like this. There is a patient who has been treated here for two years. His guardian has to leave the old city and can't continue to take care of him, so he transferred the guardianship. In the column of the new guardian Filled in your contact information, our nursing home would like to confirm whether you are really a relative of this patient, and are you willing to accept this guardianship transfer?"

"Patient? Who...? What's his name, please?"

"The patient's name is Li Xianghua."

On the way Liu Yingnian was driving to the old city, he kept thinking about what the staff said——

"The patient was sent to our nursing home two years ago. When he was sent, he had lost his cognitive ability and was completely in a coma...in a persistent vegetative state...so far he has not regained consciousness..."

vegetable...

Liu Yingnian took a deep breath, and his hands holding the steering wheel tightened and tightened.

He didn't wait until his death, and there was no news of the people waiting...

at last……

With news...

……

There was a confidentiality agreement in the nursing home, Liu Yingnian didn't ask anything, the only thing he was allowed was that he could bring the patients back to Xincheng.

The old city is too far away, and it is too inconvenient for him to run back and forth to take care of him.

Liu Yingnian had to go to work, and Lin Shu had to take care of him at home, so he couldn't take Li Xianghua home directly. After several considerations, he placed Li Xianghua in the nursing home closest to his community, so that it would be convenient for him to see Li Xianghua at any time .

The probability of vegetative people's brain awakening is very low. Liu Yingnian specially went to learn relevant knowledge, followed by nurses and also learned how to take care of Li Xianghua and precautions. Knowing that vegetative people respond to auditory stimuli, the nursing home suggested that he can chat more with patients , Talk about some memories, play music for him, and get in touch with the patient more, all of which can effectively help the patient get better.

Liu Yingnian didn't know if these were useful or not. He didn't dare to hold much hope based on the probability. He just did what he was supposed to do. Usually, he didn't have time to go to work, so he thought of a lazy way and recorded A tape recounted everything that happened between them in those ten years, and put it in Li Xianghua's ward and played it to him on a loop.

He would take Li Xianghua home when he was on weekend vacation. The house specially arranged a room suitable for Li Xianghua's recuperation. He also bought a household oxygen inhaler and a high-end wheelchair, all for Li Xianghua's use.

After Xie Fengyou knew what he had done, he had an expression on his face that wanted to scold him but could bear it. What kind of mood is hating iron but not steel, and what kind of mood is Xie Fengyong.

Lin Shu didn't say much about it.

Liu Yingnian thought it strange at first, how could a child be so quiet and talkative, but later he realized that Lin Shu didn't have any objections, he was simply too angry to bother, Lin Shu had a great sense of rejection towards Li Xianghua, but due to Liu Ying's Nian is his current benefactor, who provided him with all food, clothing and housing, so he simply ignored Li Xianghua completely, as long as Liu Yingnian didn't do too much, Lin Shu wouldn't even make a fuss.

Anyway, where there is Li Xianghua, there is no Lin Shu.

Liu Yingnian was so busy that he didn't have time to think about the three months when he lost his memory. After a long time, he even forgot what he had lost his memory.