What a pity to miss the rebirth

Is death terrible?

terrible.

But many times, death comes before it is too late to fear.It is silent and crisp, which makes people feel that it is over before it begins.

……

Someone yelled something in his ear, Liu Yingnian felt a familiar touch and smell, like Li Xianghua, but he wasn't sure if it was his hallucination before he died.

The last image in the pupils was Shuang's unbelievably frightened and angry expression...

How come in the end, he still couldn't escape death?

Obviously reborn...

But in just half a year, no, less than half a year, so short...

……

Li Xianghua was stunned for a while, thinking that he was dreaming.

Like a movie playing in his mind, clips related to Liu Yingnian were played back scene by scene.

At the age of three, he was abandoned by his biological parents——

"Mom, there's a younger sister there!" "Is it cold?" "Wrapping this around you won't be cold." "Why don't you wear a scarf or gloves?"

"……I do not have."

"It's so cold, come on, I'll give you this too."

"are not you cold?"

"I'm not cold, I'm a man, I have to protect my sister!" "If you're cold, just like me, put your hands next to your mouth, take a breath, and you'll be warm."

"Niannian! This child runs around without looking at him. Niannian, it's time for us to go home and say goodbye to our little sister."

"Goodbye sister!"

"……goodbye."

When he was ten years old, he performed a mission, and a certain elementary school——

"Niannian!" "Why are you walking so fast, the next period is physical education, and you will be there in just two steps."

"You are walking too slowly."

"How about going to your house for dinner after school today, I want to eat the dishes cooked by Liu's mother."

"I also want to eat the dishes made by Xie's mother. Why don't you say to go to your house for dinner?"

"Really? Then I'll call back right away and ask my mother to cook!"

"Idiot, it's still early for school."

"What's the matter? Prepare first, it's a deal, go to my house for dinner after school, don't play tricks!"

"whatever."

14 years old, middle school library——

"I……"

"...Look, I'll borrow it next time."

"Wait a moment!"

"Ok?"

"I... I've met you. You're from Class Four, right? What's your name? I'll give you this book after I've finished reading it."

"...Liu Yingnian. What about you?"

"I'm in Class Two, and my name is Li Xianghua."

one year later--

"Liu Yingnian, I have liked you for a long time." "Let's date."

After the relationship was established, Liu Yingnian took him home for dinner, that summer——

"Li Xianghua!"

"what's up?"

"I took the wrong clothes! Go and get me a clean vest!"

"Oh! Come on!"

"Why look at me, if you want to wash it, you can wash it yourself, you can use my clothes..."

"Summer is coming to an end, Liu Yingnian, let's do something to commemorate this summer..." "I love you, Liu Yingnian."

"Me too."

The sound of porcelain, screams, applause...

"Nie Zi! There is no shameless thing like you in the Liu family! Get lost!"

……

Sirius' private clinic, the operating room is lit with red lights, Sirius, Liushang, and Shuilian, the best medical and healing masters in the mercenary city's sky group are all in it, and the three are worth hundreds of millions together with those with different abilities to save Liu Yingnian's life.

Ten hours ago, Li Xianghua was covered in blood, crying until he knelt down in front of the three of them, begging them to save Liu Yingnian.

In fact, if it weren't for Li Xianghua's mental power explosion, he would have immediately caught Liu Yingnian who had been shot and fallen, brought him here with a teleportation, and sent all his thoughts and spiritual powers to Liu Yingnian to maintain With his last breath, Liu Yingnian died long ago.

In this situation, it is impossible for any one of the three Sirius to rescue people.Even if the three of them work together to treat Liu Yingnian, it will take a lot of effort and exhaustion of mental energy, and it may not be possible to save Liu Yingnian.

Li Xianghua sat motionless outside the operating room, looking down at the PVC floor in a daze, his face was covered with dried tears.

He thought of many things, good and bad, all related to Liu Yingnian, and those things he lied to and concealed, those things he deliberately ignored, those things he thought he would never think about, after the long wait During the time of surgery, he remembered it all.

That summer, at Liu Yingnian's house, with his ability, it was impossible for Liu's mother and Liu's father to find out about them. Even at the beginning, he never thought of doing forbidden things in Liu Yingnian's room.

But when the summer vacation was coming to an end, that day, when they came back from the bookstore, Liu Yingnian went upstairs and got into the bathroom to take a shower. Outside the bedroom, he placed the books he bought on the bookshelf one by one.Liu Yingnian asked him to help with clothes, but he accidentally took away a few books.A photo fell out of one of the books. There was a very outstanding boy in the photo, and he knew that person.That person was Liu Yingnian's good friend Xie Fengyong.

He pretended nothing happened, took his clothes and put them on the hanger at the door of the bathroom, greeted Liu Yingnian and came back, staring at the photo for a while.

He couldn't bear Liu Yingnian's eyes for other people besides him, not even his parents and friends.

He wants to be the only one, not one of them.

When Liu Yingnian came out of the shower, he was sitting on Liu Yingnian's bed, looking straight at Liu Yingnian...

He lured Liu Yingnian and him to taste the forbidden fruit, and he also unlocked the door. He was sure that Liu's mother would come up and give them fruit soon...

He deliberately let Liu's father and Liu mother see their affairs, so that Liu's father would drive Liu Yingnian out of the house in a rage, because Liu Yingnian was too emotional, and with Liu Yingnian's character, the only way to make the Liu family give up completely Liu Yingnian, Liu Yingnian can't be tolerated in school, everyone hates Liu Yingnian, it's better that Liu Yingnian doesn't have any friends, in that case, Liu Yingnian will be completely dependent on him, completely belongs to him.

He even used bitter tricks, he found a random place to fight, came back with a full body, and appeared in front of Liu Yingnian——

"what happened to you?"

"I was kicked out by my family too. From now on, I only have you, Liu Yingnian, how about we live together?

"Ying Nian, don't give up, you still have me, I will always protect you, we will never be separated."

……

That was the most sorry thing he ever did to Liu Yingnian, and it was also a secret he had buried in his heart for many years.

He would never tell Liu Yingnian.

This is the secret that he will bring to the coffin when he dies.

Liu Yingnian always thought that there was only ten years between them, but in his heart, it was far more than that.From the time he met Liu Yingnian at the age of three to the age of 25 this year, that person has existed in his heart for 22 years.

Twenty-two years later, this man has become bigger than himself.

He doesn't want anything now, he doesn't fight for anything, whatever is fine, as long as Liu Yingnian can survive.

As long as Liu Yingnian can survive, even if he is no longer the only one in his eyes...

or……

He chose Frost in the end...

Li Xianghua's shoulders twitched, his head was buried lower, and a bean-sized tear fell on the floor.

……

A month later-

In the dead of night, a black shadow appeared out of thin air in Liu Yingnian's ward.

Shuang was much thinner than when she and Liu Yingnian were separated last time, she was still wearing a special Tang suit, her long hair was scattered around her side, and her coquettish eyebrows and eyes showed a cold frost that could not be disassembled.

"Liu Yingnian..."

Shuang stood in front of the hospital bed, looking at the man quietly.

He came today to tell the man that they are about to travel far to perform a mission, and the return date is unknown.

"If we are really married, I mean if you are responsible for me, of course I am too. Your life will not only belong to you alone, but also mine, and everything about you will be mine. of."

"You have to know one thing. If you are just a lover, you can have your persistence and your completely independent personal space. I will never interfere or make trouble for no reason. But if our relationship is based on the following On the basis of the purpose of marriage, you have to tell me about some things, and I will definitely intervene."

"I don't want to see the end before it starts. Maybe you are used to seeing life and death and think that everything doesn't matter. You can live with the situation and live and die. Anyway, you are used to dangerous things. But I think differently from you. I think it does matter. I don't want my boyfriend to talk about marriage with me, and at the same time, he may die somewhere I don't know without even claiming the title of fiancé, and never hear from him for the rest of his life."

The words Liu Yingnian said are still in my ears, but the person who spoke is lying here, sleeping all the time.

Shuang bent down, knelt down in front of the hospital bed, touched Liu Yingnian's face with one hand, and said with cold lips: "Didn't you say that you want to know where I am going and what I am going to do? I will tell you everything you want to know." Wake up, Liu Yingnian, as long as you can wake up, I will tell you everything about me and everything about Mercenary City..."

Liu Yingnian, who was covered with tubes all over his body on the bed, didn't respond at all.

What happened that day, Shuang will never forget for the rest of his life, watching the man fall from mid-air, he seemed to be frozen all over, he was beyond frightened and angry, his blood flowed backwards, but his mind went blank——

Liu Yingnian...

He had never noticed such a long distance before, and he could pass it with a small teleportation, but after his mental power was exhausted, it was farther than the Milky Way.

He stared blankly at Liu Yingnian's body spurting a pile of blood, Li Xianghua caught Liu Yingnian, and the two of them disappeared before his eyes in the blink of an eye, empty and empty.

He just woke up with a start, calling Liu Yingnian's name like crazy, struggling hard to break through the obstruction of the four elders of the Ji family——

"Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian——!!!"

He never knew that he, too, could be as rude as a lunatic.

Ji Shuang also lost her mind one day.

"Ahhhhhhhh!!! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian——!!!"

Seeing that he looked crazy, the four clans stopped at the same time.

He staggered and ran towards the direction Liu Yingnian was leaving, but he was trapped in a solid barrier, and he couldn't break through no matter how hard he bumped.

He slapped the barrier wall hard, causing scars, and two tears of blood rolled out of his eyes.

"Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian——!!!"

"Let me go!"

"Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian! Liu Yingnian——!!!"

The elders of the four clans sighed.

He was taken back to the Ji family's old house, and what was waiting for him was the strict family law of the Ji family.

Ji Boyang didn't let him go, no one dared to let him go privately, so Ji Xingyuan could only tell him about Liu Yingnian's illness every now and then.

He slowly calmed down.

Liu Yingnian is not dead.

That's it.

As long as the man is alive, he doesn't care about anything.

The mission of Mercenary City is of great importance, and it is impossible for Ji Boyang to shut him down for the rest of his life.

He always had a chance to meet Liu Yingnian.

This opportunity came faster than he thought. This morning, Yu came to see him and brought all the members of the mercenary city regiment who were about to carry out the order to go "over there".

"Liu Yingnian." Shuang held Liu Yingnian's hand and kissed her on the lips, "I'm leaving tomorrow, I'm afraid I can't do what I promised you this time..."

It wasn't that he was pessimistic and discouraged and didn't want to come back, but that according to the latest news, the group of companions who went to explore the road had all died, and even if they went, it would probably be bad luck.

He also wanted to come back safely, but...

Shuang looked at Liu Yingnian who seemed to never open her eyes again, as if she wanted to remember him forever.

He still remembers the first time he saw Liu Yingnian at Xiang's house——

A very ordinary person, Xiang clicked a sleeping hole, lying on the sofa, Xiang covered him with a quilt, and protected him behind him

"Is he the reason why you don't want to come back?" "For such an ordinary man, defy my recall order, Xiang, I'm very angry."

"No next time, Frost."

"It seems that what Teng said is right, you really care about him." "The 'Xiang' of the Tianhu Legion actually made me have such a big weakness. Should I say that you are too confident or too naive?"

"Our business has nothing to do with him."

"It has nothing to do with him? It's too late to say it has nothing to do with him. From the moment you defy my recall order, you should know what the consequences will be."

That time, he almost killed this man.

At that time, how did he think that the parallel lines between them had already intersected...

Later, he took the man back to the mercenary city, and made a deal with Xiang, agreeing to protect the man from Yu's discovery for him during Xiang's mission...

Nifeng's son lost his sanity with a high fever, and the man begged him to take the baby to the hospital——

"I promise, I will never take the opportunity to escape!"

"Two hours."

"Well, I'll be back in two hours!"

How can there be such a fool, who is not his son, who cares so much... At that time, he still had a bad impression of men.

That night in Shenying High School changed the relationship between them.

Drunk, the two of them were in a classroom, waiting for dawn.

The man talked a lot after he was drunk, his usual cautiousness and indifference disappeared, and suddenly he became a chatterbox, he said everything, dared to say anything——

"Why don't you talk?" "Why don't you smile? Do you know that you are good-looking? There is only one man I have ever met who is more beautiful than you." "Let me tell you a few secrets Bar?"

"you're drunk."

"No, I haven't fallen asleep yet, how could I be drunk?"

"Let me tell you a few secrets."

"..."

"Men are not good things."

"You're a man too."

"Then I'm not a good thing."

"..."

"Do you like men?"

"..."

The man talked a lot, talking endlessly, as if he wanted to pour out all the bitterness that had been suppressed in his heart in one breath, and said a lot of things that he couldn't understand.

He was also drunk at that time, sitting under the podium, watching the man standing on the podium, writing various topics over and over again, one blackboard after another, densely written.How much do you have to like school to remember the middle school courses so clearly in your mind?But the man didn't even go to college...

He also didn't understand what he was thinking at the time, when he got drunk, he felt that the man's earnest appearance was pitiful, and he really wanted to comfort him...

So I called the man's name, and when he looked back happily and surprised, he lowered his head and kissed him.

That night, he forgot everything, only that man in his eyes...

……

The east is dawning, and the sun is rising.

Sirius was the first to come over to make the ward rounds, unscrewed the door lock of the ward, and pushed it open. The scene in front of him gave him a pause.

Shuang fell asleep lying on Liu Yingnian's bed, still holding Liu Yingnian's hand.

Sirius sighed inwardly, and went over to look at Liu Yingnian's data.

He was just about to turn around and leave when Shuang woke up and stood up.

"how is he?"

"What else can he do? He almost met Hades. He is lucky enough to save his life. But you don't have to worry too much. He is just recovering slowly and is slowly adjusting. In a few days , should be able to wake up."

Shuang looked at Liu Yingnian with drooping eyes, and asked, "Is Liu Shang here?"

Sirius looked up at him: "What do you want to do?"

"Let Liushang come and seal his memories of the past few months."

"Frost……"

"I didn't give him anything, just treat it as my last parting gift to him."

Whether it is the matter of Mercenary City or his matter, they are just episodes in Liu Yingnian's long life, they are not considered good things, so it is better to forget them all.

Forget about these things that should have nothing to do with him.

After waking up, Liu Yingnian was still the same Liu Yingnian.