What a pity to miss the rebirth

Human jealousy is terrible.

Although I know that I have no right to be jealous anymore, and I also know that Li Xianghua and Yu are innocent, but I don't know the same thing. After knowing the relationship between Yu and Li Xianghua, I heard Li Xianghua say that Yu is the person he respects the most. , Liu Yingnian still felt a little uncomfortable.

He used to be very nervous about Li Xianghua, worried that Li Xianghua would be attracted by this kind of man and woman, he was suspicious, made troubles unreasonably, and once asked his secretary to keep an eye on Li Xianghua's interpersonal relationships, he was very strict with Li Xianghua, Li Xianghua Also happy to be nervous by him.

But none of those people had ever received Li Xianghua's direct attention. Li Xianghua mentioned that they all spoke in a nonchalant tone. years within an acceptable range.

No one has ever held such an important position in Li Xianghua's heart like Yu.

"How many things are you hiding from me?" Liu Yingnian took a step back to put a distance between Li Xianghua and his hands.

"Jealous?" Li Xianghua put down his hands, he could see the concern in Liu Yingnian's eyes, which made his heart beat twice faster, he liked to see Liu Yingnian caring about him, his eyes began to light up.

"He brought you to the Mercenary City?" Liu Yingnian remembered what Shuang had said to him.

"Yes, I was less than three years old that year. Yu picked me up from the freezing point and gave me a second life. No one is more important than him. I always believed in this until I was 14 years old." Li Xianghua looked at him fixedly, and answered his question slowly.

Liu Yingnian shook his head and said, "Do you want me to believe that in your heart, I am more important than him?"

Li Xianghua was silent for a long time, "I can't tell which of you two is more important. Yu is special, and you are also special. I never thought of comparing you two. Ying Nian, this is different."

Liu Yingnian lowered his eyes and thought for a long time as well, there was another wordless silence in the air.

"What about Lian?" He raised his head again, looked at Li Xianghua and asked, "Is he not important? How much is he in your heart, and what is his weight?"

Li Xianghua's pupils shrank, "Ying Nian, I..."

Liu Yingnian stared at him intently, and asked softly, "Is he just someone you respect?"

Li Xianghua's expression changed, and he quickly regained his composure. He sighed, and asked helplessly, "Did he tell you about Lian Lian?"

He, of course, refers to Frost.

Except for Shuang, no one else would tell Liu Yingnian about this.

Liu Yingnian moved his eyelids, nodded, and asked calmly, "If he didn't tell me, would I never know that there was such a person?"

Li Xianghua hesitated for a moment, but still said: "Yes."

"The reason? I want to hear your reason." Liu Yingnian asked calmly.

"I don't want you to hate me."

"Is this the reason?"

Li Xianghua frowned slightly, and said reluctantly: "I don't want to lie to you, but you don't like to hear the truth."

Liu Yingnian insisted, he said: "You don't have to worry about this. You have lied to me for many years, and if you don't like to hear it, I want to hear it too. As long as you are telling the truth."

Li Xianghua touched his eyebrows, and then pressed his temples along the way. It was not so easy for him to say something. He kept some things in his heart for too long, so long that he didn't want to think about them. .

"Liao... well, he likes me."

Liu Yingnian glanced at him and asked coldly, "What about you? Do you like him?"

Li Xianghua said: "I like it, but only to the extent of relatives and friends."

Liu Yingnian: "..."

"You are a heartthrob, everyone likes you." Liu Yingnian's eyes flashed.

"I can't control this kind of thing." Li Xianghua was a little wronged, he looks good and has many people he likes, isn't that normal, it's a problem if no one likes him, right? "You're not the only one who likes you."

Liu Yingnian raised his eyebrows and looked at him coldly.

Li Xianghua coughed, "Pretend I didn't say anything. If you have anything else you want to ask, just ask together."

"Look at me, Li Xianghua." Liu Yingnian said seriously.

"Huh?" Li Xianghua raised his eyes, his eyes met Liu Yingnian's.

"I want to know about you and him."

"..."

"Whatever it is, I want to hear it from you."

Li Xianghua looked at him for a while and knew that he was serious, so he sighed twice, opened his mouth slowly, and said something.

"I used to like Lian very much, so much that I thought about changing my surname, taking his surname, and becoming his brother." He said, "Lian, besides Yu, is the second most important person in my heart. He is my The teacher is my friend again. All the knowledge I know is taught by Lian. He is a very warm person and treats me very well. He is more like a father than a mother, like a brother and like a sister. In short, he is a member of the family. That warmth."

When Li Xianghua said this, he glanced at Liu Yingnian and said, "I was abandoned by my biological parents."

Liu Yingnian was stunned when he heard this, and opened his eyes wide, looking at him in surprise.

Li Xianghua smiled faintly, "A child that no one wants, it is fatal to encounter that kind of warmth. I wrapped Lian around, made him gradually alienated from Shuang, and took Shuang's place in his heart. But I was young at that time. Little, I don’t know anything about emotions, like or not, in my eyes, there are only family and friendship. But, later, Lian probably fell in love with me, and when I was 12 years old, Lian confessed to me.”

"You refused?" Liu Yingnian guessed by looking at his expression.

"I was very surprised. I didn't think about this kind of thing at all. It was almost frightened. I started to avoid Lian, stopped pestering him, and went to play with Nifeng and Liushang. Slowly, I alienated Lian. I thought that as long as he My attitude is clear. After a long time, Lian will give up. Lian is indeed what I thought, and will not come to me again. Until I was 14 years old, we accepted a mission, which was very difficult. It's all gone. Lian stood in front of me and saved me when I was in the most danger. He was hit by a particle beam cannon and died on the spot. So I don't want to mention him too much, because I didn't like him until he died .”

After he finished speaking, he fell silent.

Liu Yingnian was also silent.

Neither of them spoke for a long time.

"What about now?" Liu Yingnian lowered his head, unable to see his expression, "You didn't fall in love with him when he was alive. After he died, did you fall in love with him?"

Li Xianghua stood quietly, unable to utter a word.

"Walk……"

Liu Yingnian still lowered his head and said calmly, "You go."

Li Xianghua's feet didn't move, but his mouth moved, but he didn't know what to say about this kind of thing, because he didn't know, so he never said it, he was afraid that Liu Yingnian would have such a reaction.

He called out in a low voice: "Ying Nian..."

Liu Yingnian suddenly raised his head, pointed in the direction of the gate, and raised his voice: "Go! You go! I tell you to go, do you hear me! Go! I don't want to see you!"

Li Xianghua stretched out his hand to pull his arm, "Ying Nian..."

His hand was caught and stopped by the other hand in mid-air, a blue shadow flashed, Shuang appeared beside them coldly, shook off Li Xianghua's hand, stared at him with a sullen face, and had no emotion Said, "He let you go."

Being dumped, Li Xianghua took a small step back. After standing still, he glanced coldly at Shuang, then looked at Liu Yingnian's angry face, and said in a low voice, "I love you."

……

"He's gone," said Frost.

"How much did you hear?" Liu Yingnian asked after calming down.

"It started when he said that Lian liked him." Shuang's eyes fell on his lips, "Why did you get angry? Because he is dying, he can't be indifferent to Lian anymore."

Liu Yingnian said: "You won't understand. Because you haven't been in love with anyone before."

Shuang still asked lightly: "Do you get angry when you fall in love?"

Liu Yingnian glanced at him, "Yes."

The more you like a person, the easier it is to get angry because of little things, even if he looks at others more or praises others more, it won't work.

Love is selfish.

Shuang said lightly: "I am also very angry."

Liu Yingnian raised his eyebrows in doubt.

"Kissed?" Shuang asked.

After being startled for a moment, Liu Yingnian looked away, and answered his question silently.

Shuang raised her hand and wiped his lips, "I don't like you kissing him, don't let him kiss you in this room next time."

After finishing speaking, he turned and went back to the study, and did not come out until dinner.

……

"Why are you here?"

Shuang stayed in the study until almost ten o'clock in the evening, and there was a clear sense of hunger in her stomach. These days, Liu Yingnian was responsible for almost all three meals a day. He didn't feel hungry until [-]:[-], and it was also because he was in a particularly bad mood today, so he turned off all his work and played online fighting games all afternoon.

Following his breath, he found Liu Yingnian squatting there in a daze in the corner of the kitchen.

There was no food or vegetables on the table, nothing.

Liu Yingnian didn't cook dinner.

"Why don't you turn on the light?" Shuang asked again without waiting for his answer.

"I want to be alone for a while, calm down and calm my mind." Liu Yingnian raised his hand to cover the dazzling light that suddenly turned on.

"It's easier to calm down when you're sitting in the dark."

"So are you calm?"

"Maybe. At least I don't really want to throw things or kill people."

"..."

"Don't you also like Lian?" Liu Yingnian suddenly looked at Shuang and said, "Haven't you ever been jealous?"

Shuang calmly reminded him: "Ten years have passed."

Liu Yingnian seemed to be entangled with him, and continued to ask: "What about that year? Didn't you ever feel jealous back then?"

"..." Shuang paused for a moment, "Jealous."

"How jealous, would you want to kill Li Xianghua?" Liu Yingnian asked.

"..." Shuang said, "You're overthinking. It's one thing to be jealous, but another thing to like. The one who makes the choice is Lian, and the one who makes the choice is him, not me."

"Don't you hate Lian?"

"Why do you hate him? I am the one who wants to like him, and he didn't ask me to like him."

"..." Liu Yingnian looked at him enviously and said, "I wish I could be as open-minded as you are."

Shuang doesn't know how to comfort people. After thinking for a long time, she still said: "Ten years have passed."

Then, looking at Liu Yingnian's slightly puzzled face, he added: "Liao is dead."

Liu Yingnian nodded, "It's because he's dead that he's even more hateful. No matter how much the living can fight, they can't fight the dead. If he's alive, I can fight him openly and drive him away from Li Xianghua's heart. .But he is dead, and I don't even have a chance to fight."