What a pity to miss the rebirth

Liu Yingnian had many thoughts in his life, but in the end, all these thoughts came to nothing.

He used to think that he and Li Xianghua had gone through so much ups and downs together, passed through one test after another, finally got the approval of their relatives, and had their own company, finally they could endure all hardships to watch happiness and be happy Spend this life hand in hand with Hemeimei——

But the result?

A gay man who has been in love for ten years finds another lover, and lives and flies with another man.

He once thought that he would get rid of Li Xianghua's betrayal gracefully, and find a good man to fall in love with again——

But the result?

No matter how many lovers he changed, they still couldn't heal the wound in his heart.

He had thought he would be childless all his life—

But the result?

He has a son who descended from the sky, who has no blood relationship, and is also the biological son of Li Xianghua's concubine.

He once thought that raising this cheap son to adulthood would be a fulfillment of his kindness and his responsibility as an adoptive father——

But the result?

He not only brought his cheap son to adulthood, but also watched him graduate from college, enter the company, become an excellent heir, and carry forward the company.

He once thought that since he had a son, he would naturally have a grandson——

But the result?

His son told him that he would never get married in his life, which made him die of the idea of ​​having a grandson.

He used to think that until he died, he could only hold the photo of the person he liked, read the other person's name desolately, and swallow his last breath amidst infinite regret and longing. Existing in comics and imagination—

But the result?

In order to save a young man during a mountaineering expedition, he fell off a cliff and was hung on a branch as thick as an arm in midair. When he knew that his life was hopeless, all he could do was take out his mobile phone and look at the pictures in the photo album. A photo of a person, with one last glance, dares to reveal the true feelings in the eyes, and the only thing that can be read in the mouth is the name of the person on the photo...

If I had known that the ending would be like this, I wish I could have cherished the child's feelings more and responded to the other party well...

Close your eyes and open them again.

Re, reborn!

……

Liu Yingnian had been in a daze all morning, no matter what the doctors and nurses asked him, he was speechless.

The doctor made a decisive decision and took a brain CT scan to see what was going on.

Although a high fever of forty-five degrees is not to be underestimated, it is not to the point where it will burn out the brain and burn the idiot. What's the matter with the patient's dumbfounded reaction?

As a result, after the CT scan, everything was normal and nothing happened.

The doctor's face turned green.

After hearing the news, Li Xianghua, who rushed back from other places, asked the attending doctor about Liu Yingnian's condition, and then stood beside his lover's hospital bed with worried eyes.

"Yingnian, I'm Xianghua, talk to me, don't scare me."

Hearing the voice of his former lover, Liu Yingnian suddenly woke up like a dream, and when he regained consciousness, he saw Li Xianghua's magnified face in front of him, and his heartbeat stopped for a second.

I can't tell what I feel.

The lover who used to be so unforgettable, thought that he would love to the bone, that he would never forget this face even if he died, but in the end he realized that it was just a dream, and his "thoughts" could not resist the erosion of time at all.

What is cruel is not only youth, but also reality.

How long has it been since he thought of this person's face?

Liu Yingnian couldn't remember clearly.

Maybe he still thinks of Li Xianghua occasionally, but the image of this person in his heart has become more and more blurred and thinner, like fog, which is gradually dissipating and getting shallower under the sun's first appearance.

The memory card of memory, now full, is another person.

Thinking of that person, Liu Yingnian gave up silence.

It took him half a day to get used to it, and he managed to sort out the general situation. If he didn't understand wrongly, it might be because of some supernatural event. After he fell off the cliff and died, his soul went back in time. Back in the old body.

To use an easy-to-understand word, he was reborn.

This idea is very mysterious, it sounds incredible, and it is somewhat difficult to accept.

He thought he needed to get used to it for a while.

"I'm fine. I'm just too tired. I feel dizzy from burning in my head. I don't want to talk." He said lightly.

"You, can you talk? I, I'll call the doctor!" Li Xianghua became visibly excited.

The doctor in charge asked a few words after being called, Liu Yingnian was very cooperative with the questions and answers, the doctor ordered the nurse to take the temperature again, and it had dropped to 38 degrees.

"Go back and drink plenty of water, get a good night's sleep, and come back for an IV drip tomorrow, and you'll be fine in about three days."

"Thank you doctor."

Liu Yingnian glanced at the medical record in the nurse's hand indiscriminately. The time was neither too early nor too late, and it happened to go back to the year Li Xianghua broke up with him 30 years ago.

It was also the year he met the kid.

Why is he reborn after death?

Why is he?

During the period of silence after Liu Yingnian woke up, he had thought about all these questions, but he couldn't think of an answer even if he tried his best.

Some questions may be inherently unsolvable and have no answer.

Looking out of the car window, his eyes were deep, and his thoughts that he couldn't tell others gradually piled up.

If that person knew the news that he fell off the cliff and died, what kind of expression would he have?That face that has been indifferent and cold for many years, probably, will collapse a little because of the news of his death...

With that person's paranoid personality, he will definitely feel painful and remorseful for the last separation quarrel...

"Ying Nian?" A familiar voice from the old days came from his ear, calling him back from his daze again, "Is the fever still uncomfortable? Your complexion is very bad, why don't we turn around and stay here today?" Are you in the hospital?"

The right hand placed in the middle of the back seat was held by Li Xianghua who was sitting on the right, and Liu Yingnian realized that he had already clenched his fist tightly.

Unconsciously, he sighed deeply, and slowly loosened his fist again: "No, I don't like the hospital, let's go home."

It must be a habit. After 30 years of getting along and relying on each other for 30 years, the weight of that person in his life has surpassed that of any other person, so he will always subconsciously think about what will happen to that person.

That was the child he raised with his own hands, and he was always reluctant to let him be hurt.

As a result, it seemed that he had hurt him again.

"You really scared me this time. You actually passed out from the burn. I understand that the company has just started, the work is heavy, and there are few people. It is time to employ people and work hard, but you can't work hard enough My life is at stake, I..."

Li Xianghua sighed softly, turned his head and looked out the window on the other side.

He didn't say the following words clearly, but Liu Yingnian knew how worried he was.

They are no longer naive teenagers who are ignorant of the world. Over the years they have gone through together, they have experienced many setbacks and suffered all kinds of contempt. They have already learned how to protect themselves. Some emotions, some words, they no longer know easily revealed in public.

The eyes of the world are not as forgiving as they once thought.

No one can never care about other people's eyes, and no one can never be hurt by others' eyes.

Not all love must be exposed to the sun for everyone to see.

The frivolity of youth, after going through the thorns and bruises, is gone forever.

Liu Yingnian also looked out the window. After thinking for a while, he turned his hand up and held Li Xianghua's hand instead.

"sorry that I had you worried."

After a lapse of 30 years, the exact same sentence as that year was uttered from the mouth of the same person again.

It's just that the state of mind is different, and the feelings are no longer there.

Covered with water, it cannot be closed, and a broken mirror cannot be rounded again.