far and near

Life is a rushing river. Many people know where the mouth of the sea is, but they don't know at which bend the next shoal suddenly appears.When walking to the shoal, I complained a few words to God and scolded others twice, but I didn't want to think that the sediment all over the river bed was accumulated by my thoughts and actions over the years.

Yu Ren investigated the water conservancy treatment of the tributaries of the Baijiang River in Songyang, but left an old water conservancy saying in his mind, "According to the standards of 1000 years ago, these sediments would have to accumulate for thousands of years to form, but modern people are in a hurry. Pollution and deforestation are in full swing."

Yu Ren smiled on his face, but felt infinitely sad in his heart.

It's getting colder, and I want to eat something warm after staying outdoors for a long time.The group went back to the hostel and drank Songyang local tea and waited for dinner. Starting from the tea, the topic started, "Many villages in Songyang that produce tea are engaged in industrial planting. To the tea farmers.” I’m afraid that a swarm of swarms will come, and there will be some market risks at that time, and the company will not be able to pay the rent. Who will support it?Isn't it the government?

People who engage in technology do not speak like those who write materials. After talking happily, the atmosphere becomes lively.Yu Ren is one of the few young women present. The men asked Yu Ren when they were chatting, "Does Yu Ke have a boyfriend?"

"Old Hong, look, when we talked about water conservancy and tea, we neglected Yu Ke, but he was so active in digging Yu Ke's private life." Yu Ren's colleague Lao Li teased the person he was close to, "Our Yu Ke is still a flower in the city government. A bunch of people lined up."

Yu Ren looked at Lao Li who had made up his own mind, his eyes were cold, but his tone was almost teasing, "Li Ke, if I were a flower, what are you? A bald pen that has lost its hair?"

This is going to be placed on Yu Xiaomin's previous drinking table. People who can make a little color about everything will say "bald is more durable", but Lao Li smiled awkwardly, "Yes, I am a pen for writing bald." , I said something wrong, Yu Ke is the pen of our research laboratory in its prime."

The atmosphere in the lounge was a little bit colder, and the receptionist finally waited for the dinner notification, and warmly greeted the group to eat.Lao Li went to the bathroom first, and was with an acquaintance of his. The horse pissed a little, and finally cursed out of his mouth, "What is she? Isn't she relying on his own strength?"

Over the years, people in the research office have gradually become familiar with Yu Ren's character, and know that working and eating with her must be measured. Don't look at the girl's young age and play side-by-side.It wasn't long before Lao Li was seconded, but today he hit a wall again.

Regarding the relationship between Yu Ren and Ren Songhong, some people also speculated a little different way: the girl doesn't have her father's surname, so it doesn't mean that Ren Songhong will do more for the child.

So the attitudes of the people around Yu Ren are a bit polarized: some are close to please and want to borrow some strength, and some are secretly disdainful.

It was already nine o'clock in the evening when Yu Ren finished today's research and returned to Baizhou by car. Today's work is not in a good mood.

If the shallow context and psychology in the workplace are also regarded as a shoal, the sediment has indeed accumulated for thousands of years, and the dredging in recent decades has achieved results, but it cannot be done at one stroke.Habits don't mean you feel comfortable. If you talk to Ren Songhong about such a topic, the father will say, "You lesbians, this little thought is really too sensitive. He just wants to liven up the atmosphere. This is a compliment to you."

Tell the mother, Yu Xiaomin can understand, but her silent eyes wrote the answer: "Who made you not have a partner? Who made you not get married?"

Yu Ren went to the supermarket and bought two bottles of beer. She didn't want to drink tea tonight, so she digested and swallowed it lonely in front of the TV.The mobile phone beeped shortly, and Yu Ren smiled. When he opened it, he saw that it belonged to Yuan Liu. The little girl sent a street dance video, "See how I dance?"

If there are any happy things, Yu Ren can count a few: Grandma Hu Zefen's rheumatism has improved a little recently, saying that she found the right doctor; To realize the dream of youth, travel all over the country.Yu Ren said, "Didn't you agree to go to a private hospital to re-employ me to earn a house?" Yu Xiaomin said to her, "Why should I work so hard for you? Why don't you earn it yourself?"

Another good thing is that Yuan Liu's life has become much richer after making new friends. This child's previous world was a small facade in a village in the city, and Yu Ren helped her to develop the reading habit. There are very few travels and interests. .Yu Ren once asked her what do you like to do?Did the little girl say to read a book?Ask again, and she replied that when making braised pork, she likes to see pork belly that is red and shiny after dark soy sauce.Yu Renxiao, is there more?There was something wrong with this question, the little girl glanced at her, Yu Ren understood, so Yuan Liu didn't repeat it.

When Yu Ren was studying in Shanghai, he heard some local students talk about the training methods in Shanghai: contact, re-contact, and more contact with different fields, and finally help children determine the areas of interest for intensive training.Aircraft model AI tennis golf painting Lego musical instruments, etc., the banknotes open the way, just to catch the flash of inspiration in the child's interest, and more likely, it will not flash.

Yuan Liu has not seen these colorful worlds, she only has a few things in front of her eyes, and she will hold on to those things.After Zhao Jiaqi appeared, the two girls had a lot of fun: she taught Yuan Liu how to play the saxophone, and the little girl puffed up her cheeks. After learning more than ten times, she was finally able to play the first "flymetothemoon", intermittently, but it was always a small achievement , Naturally send a video to Yu Ren for praise.

She was also drawn into the women's football club of the No. [-] Middle School as a substitute central defender.Yu Ren asked the tanned little girl, how do you kick?Yuan Liu said the ball had reached his own half, so he spotted it and kicked it away!As for where to play to see luck, Yuan Liu did not forget to ask for a reward when he scored an own goal, "Sister, I scored a goal, inside my own team."

Then I lifted up my school uniform and patted my stomach, sister, I think my vest line is coming out.Yu Ren zoomed in for a long time, his eyes were always glued to the slightly sunken and knotted belly button, "Is there any?" Yu Ren asked.She said that the vest line should not be forced, and the soft belly is also very cute.Yu Ren has no demands on the bellies of his ex-lovers.

Now Yuan Liufang has learned to go to Baijiang Square to dance hip-hop with her peers. She is a beginner, and she is at the bottom of the queue and tries her best to follow the moves, but she dances very attentively.She has long hands and feet, and good coordination. After all, she looks decent to Yu Ren.

That's fine.Yu Ren sat cross-legged on the blanket, put the glass on, poured beer, and added a plate of peanuts, just like a retired man.

The river of life crosses the shallows when it is quiet at night, and swirls around the rocky islands in the middle of the river.Yu Ren wanted to separate people six or seven times, and then looked at himself two or three times. He always felt that his life was not up or down, neither painful nor happy, nor tepid.

Qi Yiguo sent her a message when he set off from Shanghai, "Caicai, if you feel bored, come to the United States to play with me, and I will ask for leave to accompany you."

How did she know that she was bored?Yu Ren once felt that a person like her had nothing to do with being "boring", after all, she had enough books.There were five books on the sofa, and she was the one who flipped through one and the other, but couldn't get into them after hastily reading them.Yu Ren like this slipped into the silt of life prematurely. Apart from work, even if she took time to see others, she couldn't find where she was, and she was even ashamed to tell others about her predicament at this time.

Chewing peanuts, Yu Ren opened the tea specimen collection Yuan Liu had given him and read it countless times page by page. He saw a strong wind blowing outside after drinking half a glass of beer, which was a sign of a shower.Worried about the potted flowers on the balcony, Yu Ren went to close the screen window.

Those potted flowers have entered the so-called "recuperation period" as the saying goes, the leaves are yellow, and they look dying.She didn't know anything about flowers and plants, and she suddenly lost her mind. Is this caused by lack of water?If you need to water, how much do you need to add?

The first reaction was not to search online, but to take photos for the little girl. Yuan Liu said that this should be handled carefully, but don't water it.What kind of service method?The little girl who took advantage of the information gap said you wait for me, I will come in a while.This gave her another chance to come to the door openly.

After Yuan Huifang opened the store, Yuan Liu still often went to help, but he didn't need to deliver food, so he had more time than in previous years.Today, after spending some energy with Zhao Jiaqi, Yuan Liu quickly stepped on the car and came downstairs to Yu Ren. The little girl who appeared in front of her sister was steaming in a trance. The smell of sweat and the raindrops on her body were more obvious than the heat. , Yuan Liu bared his white teeth, "I'll be in charge of after-sales."

She approached the living room, saw the herbarium on the sofa, and slid happily. After stabilizing her body, she faced the three pots of jasmine and put on a research posture. "This must be cut forcefully." She brought the scissors to Yu Ren Explain that the flowers in winter hardly grow anymore, and the yellow leaves and redundant buds of the branches are cut off to reduce consumption, so that the remaining parts can get sufficient nutrients to survive the winter.

"We have to keep the thick ones, these—" Yuan Liu pointed to the small leaf buds at the bottom of the jasmine, "This one has to be cut."

The little girl cut two pots, and let Yu Ren try the remaining one.Yu Ren was as humble as the students, "I didn't keep it here, I cut it here...right?" Yuan Liu squatted opposite her, his big eyes were full of affirmation, "Yes."

After cleaning the branches and leaves, Yuan Liu said not to water them either. She inserted the scissors into the soil and found that the soil was quite moist. If it is dry, pour another third of the usual amount."

The last is the sunshine. The little girl said that in winter, the flowers should be guaranteed to have light. She tried her best to hold the flower pot and moved it to a position further south, "Okay." After clapping her hands, Yuan Liu looked at her sister, but Yu Ren Staring at those pots of jasmine thoughtfully.

She also cut off many of her own yellowing branches and leaves. Love is the strongest branch among them, but it is destined to lose its nourishment and support, so Yu Rencai cut it without hesitation.Her life should not be overwatered. If the roots of plants get too much water in winter, they will easily rot, and so will people.Her roots can't bear too much water from the outside world, so her dissatisfaction accumulates in her heart when she works, and she gets angry easily when interacting with people.

She lacked the comfort of photosynthesis.Photosynthesis in life is not money for a car, at least not for Yu Ren.It is a real sense of existence, a sense of being needed, and the fulfillment of value.Yu Ren looked at Hua and nodded, "Everything has a spirit."

Yuan Liu went to wash his hands, and regardless of the sweat on his body, he sat cross-legged on the carpet, nibbling a few peanuts and chewing slowly.She saw the beer cans and smelled the faint smell of alcohol on Yu Ren's body. After eating for a while, she asked Yu Ren, "Sister, what's wrong with you?"

Yu Ren naturally said no, he just wanted to drink a little so that watching TV would give him an atmosphere.

Yuan Liu talked about her dancing, "I can learn the movements, but I am always told by the team leader." The team leader is a hip-hop master in this city. I heard that he has won some competitions in the top three in East China. "Teacher Locking It is said that locking has high demands on the joints, and it is not easy for girls to jump out of the sense of strength and limpness, so I suggest that we dance Jazz.Yuan Liu said that she was not convinced at the time, "Girls can also have a sense of strength." The team leader said, why don't you dance for me?

"How many times have I learned it now? He just doesn't want to teach us." Yuan Liu squeezed a handful of peanuts again, "Sister, I don't feel well about this. I think many things are wrong."

"What's wrong?" Yu Ren wanted to hear her thoughts.

"Sports are divided into men and women." Yuan Liu said that she had thought about the sports events, most of which were men first and then women.Standards are set through men's competitions, and women's competitions are just to echo this standard.

"The same is true for football. The male students said that our women's team's movement frequency is slow and the confrontation intensity is low. To be honest, I am a little tired of playing. Sister, is there any sport that I can afford to learn without being bound by the men's competition standards? ?" Yuan Liu counted her fingers, "Rythmic gymnastics? Synchronized swimming? Ballet? There's nothing else besides these."

"The problem that bothers me is that I have worked hard to learn and participate in these things, but in the end they dismissed me as 'girls are not suitable for this'." Yuan Liu exhaled dissatisfied, and looked at Yu Ren helplessly, "Yes Is something wrong with me?"

Yu Ren picked up the wine glass and took a sip, she hugged her knees and looked at Yuan Liu, the luster in her eyes was both gratified and distressed, "It's not that you are wrong." It's just that we are born like this, growing up under such rules, but people don't just grow up dull big?We listen, watch and think, and naturally reflect on our surroundings, especially when we hit a wall.

"So, what's wrong is... my gender?" Yuan Liu thought of Yu Kaiming and Hu Muzhi in Yu Zhuang, as well as the blood brother Yu Tianlei, and the blood sister Yu Jin who didn't know what kind of oppression.

The little girl's mind gradually became heavy, "Sister, have you ever encountered such a thing?"

"It's common." Yu Ren said. It can be said that she bought the wine tonight because of a similar experience. After thinking about it, she still joked about "a flower", "I don't like being described as a flower or plant object. At work, I am a living person." What does a flower mean?She asked Yuan Liu, how do you understand it.

"It can be picked, sniffed lightly, and compared with fate." The little girl's literary answer made Yu Ren unable to bear to unfold the deeper details, but Yuan Liu lowered his head and thought for a while, "It can be violated." Yu Ren was stunned , and then nodded, "Yes, it is also weak and has a time limit."

No, there is no deadline for flowers.Yuan Liu pointed to Jasmine who was recuperating on the balcony, "After the winter, they will take out new shoots and then grow green leaves until they bud and bloom next year." My mother is such a person. of.I was unable to move due to illness, so I worked hard for several years to stand up again and opened the store again.Sister, my mother is [-] times stronger than Liu Maosong, and stronger than Yu Zhuangli's parents.

"Then what are you going to do?" Yu Ren asked with a smile.

"I dance what I want to dance, try my best to dance to the best, and be as unbeatable as my mother." Yuan Liu asked Yu Ren, how about you, sister?

I?Yu Ren rubbed his fingers up and down the glass, "I used to want to participate in making the rules, and slowly, I became a part of the rules." If I have the opportunity, I will try my best to write in the future, do what I want to do, a little bit Change your surroundings constantly. I hope that when you reach my age, your heights will improve.

To be honest, Koyanagi, I don't know how much "a little bit" can accumulate, and I don't know whether the effect of "a little bit" is just to shake a tree.Moses was helped by miracles when he left, and he was instructed by the Ten Commandments on Mount Sinai.And I was confused, not knowing where to put my strength.

"Sister, you're so smart, you've read so much, and you're still confused?" Yuan Liu did see the powerlessness on Yu Ren's face, "Then... what if I also do 'a little bit' with you? And Sister Fengnian , she also reads a lot. Oh, Xiaohai can fight with great strength. Sister Yinxiu can do business, and Bai Maosheng... she just forgets, it's useless."

Yu Ren was amused by her, "Haha, okay." She poured a few drops of beer into Yuan Liu's water glass, "This may not be a qualitative change, it's just a meaning, cheers."

half cup.Yuan Liu drank the water, and could hardly taste the beer.But there was something in her sister's smile, and the little girl turned her head to look at her sister, "When I get older, I will drink with you every day."

Yu Ren's eyebrows twitched almost imperceptibly, as if he found a shining little sun sitting in front of him.It's nice to be young.