far and near

Facing Yuan Liu's devotion, Yu Ren, who successively adopted the tactics of dragging words and pretending to be deaf and dumb, couldn't continue. She looked at the moonlight, listened to the praise, and finally smiled slightly. The clarity in her eyes made Yuan Liu speechless for a moment. Finally, Yu Ren Ren said, "Xiaohai and Fengnian went to eat ice cream, and I want to eat it too."

Like Yu Xiaomin, when the heart is surging, it must rely on ice to cool it down quickly.After eating the cones while walking, they arrived at the gate of Yuanliu's house. Yu Ren said that he would be here today, and see Xiaoliu again.

Yuan Liu was obedient, "Goodbye, sister." He hesitated before leaving, and Yu Ren asked if there was any gift?

"No, I just hope I didn't make my sister unhappy today. When I talk...sometimes my emotions come faster than my mind." Yuan Liu carefully defended.Yu Ren helped her tidy up her collar, "I'm not unhappy, let's go home." Her smile showed that there was no malice, Yuan Liu waved her hand, walked and looked back, and finally disappeared from Yu Ren's sight.

When I went home to see if Yu Xiaomin was sober, it turned out that her mother was not only sober, she also cooked porridge and made side dishes and had a good time watching TV.Seeing Yu Ren coming home, "Get the bowl yourself."

Yu Ren sat beside his mother silently drinking porridge, talked about Ren Songhong's money, and brought up the idea of ​​resigning.Yu Xiaomin said that you should accept the money, but I disagree with resignation.To put it bluntly, you have no skills other than writing materials, let alone business experience, and your little social experience is far inferior to that kid Xiaoyin.Let me talk about the key point, "capital." Taking 30 to [-] to start a business is not enough for you to spend.

These are all questions that Yu Ren has considered. She said, Mom, what you said makes sense, and I will give myself more time to prepare.

"Are you annoyed by being urged to get married at work?" Yu Xiaomin said, you can live with it, as long as you don't want to get married and have children.She cleared her throat, "What happened to Xiao Liu?"

what happened?Yu Ren's expression was sincere even when he was pretending to be stupid, and there was no trace of excessive force.

Yu Xiaomin curled her lips, "I see that child is very fond of you."

She has been fond of me since she was a child.Yu Ren held the spoon and concentrated on eating, Yu Xiaomin was silent for a while, "You just need to know."

It is precisely because of the number that Yu Ren must give an appropriate response after Yuan Liu's fiery output, and he must respond instead of acting stupid.Yu Ren, who has read a lot of poetry and books, found that her language did not have the upper hand between the two.But to face a heart with words, the tenon and tenon are wrong.Yu Ren could only express her gratitude with actions, showing that she understood the child's enthusiasm.She was making another silent gamble, betting that Yuan Liu understood her own difficulties, betting that she could face her relatively passive and conservative attitude with a relatively peaceful mind.

Fortunately, after her birthday, Yuan Liu did not press her every step of the way. She still rode her bicycle to pick up Yu Ren once a day, and stopped to buy some snacks when passing by the street.Yu Ren said that she contacted the teacher of the driving school and took four or 10 minutes to learn how to drive at noon every day. Yuan Liu said while riding, "It will be much more comfortable when the weather is cold or rainy. Sister, you should have learned earlier."

In September, Yuan Liu returned to the eighth Chinese class, Feng Nian returned to Beijing under the vague entanglement with Sister Song, Su Hai continued to guard Mao Xinxia's barber shop and had a cold war with half of her boyfriend, and Yu Ren's unit blew up a variety of gossip, ranging from the adjustment of the two teams of staff to the resignation of the deputy director of the department.Yu Ren didn't get involved, but was involved as one of the protagonists of the novel.

Some people said that Ren Songhong would not let her daughter sit in the research room and work overtime with grievances. Vice Mayor He was promoted, Ren Songhong would take the top position, and Yu Ren would definitely be promoted.

No matter how tight the mouth of the person involved in some matters, they will blow them all over the surrounding circle within a few years.I don't know if it was because he refused the leader's coordinated blind date, or because he avoided suspicion of Ren Songhong, Yu Ren's part-time secretary was replaced full-time by another girl.Yu Ren felt a lot more relaxed for a while, and even felt like he had been thrown into limbo.The important tasks in her hands are also assigned to colleagues, and she is only responsible for some relatively unimportant research.

Those who couldn't hold back went to ask their father to ask for a guarantee, but Yu Ren would not do this. Thinking carefully about the 10 yuan sponsorship given by his father, it might have been a consolation paid in advance.It is rare that there are fewer things. Yu Ren adheres to the principle of loosening the outside and tightening the inside, and maintains the habit of being tight-lipped about business affairs and relaxed and peaceful about other affairs.

She learned to drive smoothly, passed every test once, and got her driver's license in two months. On the first trip, she drove Yu Xiaomin to Yuzhuang, and then brought back tea and souvenirs. I stuffed two for the mother and daughter.The second trip took advantage of the rare time to get off work on time, and went to No. [-] Middle School to pick up Yuan Liu from school.

Yu Xiaomin's "uncountable" has an extra layer of content in Yu Ren's heart - she is not a grass, and her heart and affection for the little girl are also "countable".But Yu Ren didn't know what it meant to wait for Yuan Liu on purpose?Yu Ren told herself that it was a routine visit, but she rejected this idea in her heart, because seeing Yuan Liu now felt a little different.

The car was parked in a temporary parking space on the street outside No. [-] Middle School. Yu Ren sent a message to Yuan Liu in advance. The little girl estimated that she would not turn on the car until after school, so she drank tea and waited in peace in the car.

As soon as the bell rang in the campus, many day students walked out of the gate one after another. After waiting for a while, they saw Yuan Liu riding a bicycle, and a girl sitting behind was chatting and laughing with her.The two little girls were youthful and carefree, and the girl behind even reached out and hit Yuan Liu on the head, causing the dragon head in Yuan Liu's hand to swing wildly.

Yu Ren pinched his phone and thought for a while, but in the end he didn't call Yuan Liu, but drove back home.Just after he parked the car with great effort, Yu Ren was still worried about getting out of the car to see if he was not skilled enough to scratch him. Yiguo.

Xiao Qi stopped curling her hair a long time ago, her straight hair fell below her shoulders, and only half of it was tied at the back, looking relaxed and young.Her face has hardly changed from the past, only because of her weight loss, the nasolabial folds at the corners of her mouth have become deeper, "I only found out your address after asking Xiao Hai." Xiao Qi smiled, "Cai Cai, congratulations on the housewarming, I came here specially to see Look." Xiao Qi is now more like a doctor than before, with a soft and serious conversation, and he doesn't know where the unruly youthfulness slipped away.

Yu Ren's eyes were surprised at first, and then he also smiled, "You can call me directly, and now my family is not prepared at all." After speaking, she heard the relaxed breathing of her heart, and she was calm and composed.Facing Xiao Qi, he neither complained nor loved, which was somewhat unexpected.

"I heard from my mother that you bought a house and moved out. I dare not ask your mother, so I asked the children." Xiao Qi was waiting for Yu Ren's invitation. Yu Ren made a gesture, and she nodded in gratitude .

Yu Ren washed the tea set carefully, while Xiao Qi looked at the house politely and in a mannered manner. After the two sat down, she first took a sip of tea and said it was delicious.

"How long will you be back this time?" Yu Ren asked her.

"Help Yiyi complete the study abroad procedures and go back." Seeing Yu Renren, Xiao Qi was stunned, and she explained that he was Cao Yun's son, "Cao Yun... our troubles should have been known to many people, she has been in college for a long time. Resigned, and transferred the child to other places.” Xiao Qi said that Cao Yun has basically accommodated herself in the past few years, she ran between China and the United States, brought Yiyi to accompany her during the winter and summer vacations, and the child returned to China when school started.

It's all right now, you don't have to work so hard when the child passes by.What about at home?Yu Ren asked.

"Her parents were very firm in the past few years and forbade us to have any contact. In my family, it's so strange that my mother let go first." Qi Yiguo shrugged, "If the paper on the window is broken, let's stay." Easy, the complex flash in her eyes showed that it was not easy.

No wonder Lao He has faded out of Yu Xiaomin's social circle, and Lao Qi is often depressed at home and unwilling to go out.They made a compromise, but they couldn't get over the test in their hearts. They were "shame" and lost a lot of money, so they closed the door and lived their retirement days.

"When the situation on my side gets better, buy a bigger house and consider taking them all over for the elderly." Xiao Qi said that the responsibility is heavy, and the four old people will count on her and Cao Yun in the future, "Cao Yun After resigning, I worked several jobs, but it didn’t last long.” The teacher in the system was a bit out of touch with society, and she had a child with her. “Later, I asked her to stop working and concentrate on spending time with the child.”

Yu Ren looked at Xiao Qi, feeling a sense of sadness in the vicissitudes of life, she nodded, "Life is ultimately a balance between responsibility and freedom."

They sat for a while, and Yu Ren asked Xiao Qi if he had any plans to go out for dinner at night. She said embarrassedly, "Although I live alone now, my cooking skills are still unbearable."

"I just came here to ask you for a meal." Xiao Qi said that among the people I know in Baizhou, I guess there is no one except you who can talk about the present and the past in peace.

safely?Yu Ren's heart was still sour. She said that she went to Wenyuan Street. Aunt Yuan's shop has recently opened again and hired people.Would you like to try it?

Yu Ren's cell phone rang at this moment, and it was Yuan Liu who was in a hurry, "It's okay, my sister is already home, and I will go to your mother's shop with my doctor's sister in a while." Yu Ren's gentle tone made Xiao Qi look sideways, and she said that Xiao Liu is still so clingy to you .Yu Ren didn't explain, just smiled.

Yuan Huifang's new store rented two fronts, and also set up a box area upstairs. Each booth is not big, and it is only suitable for gatherings of three or four old friends.She said that she doesn't consider making private rooms now, because the table turnover rate is too low.She was very happy to see Xiao Qi, and repeatedly introduced to the clerk that this is a great doctor who works in the United States.

There was no need for Xiao Qi and the others to order, and Yuan Huifang, who was still a little limping, knew how to arrange it. When Yuan Liu arrived at the door of the store, she pointed upstairs, "Go and say hello."

Yuan Liu, who was in the third step, poured tea for Xiao Qi and Yu Ren. She glanced at Yu Ren uneasily, and then at Xiao Qi. She accidentally poured too much tea, and the tea overflowed onto the table.Yu Ren said, are you hot?Yuan Liu smiled, "No." She wiped the table, sat next to Yu Ren, and looked at Qi Yiguo as if they were being judged.

"Should I recruit?" Xiao Qi noticed the nervousness and seriousness on the little girl's face, and asked jokingly.Yu Ren patted Yuan Liu's hand and said it's all right, sister will see you after dinner.Only then was Yuan Liu relieved, and before leaving, he glanced at Yu Ren.

Xiao Qi sat up straight, and she didn't speak after withdrawing her eyes, she just looked at Yu Ren.

"Children grow up too." Yu Ren said, the corners of her mouth curled up, "Yiguo, you said that An Ran talked about the past and the present. Compared with the past, where is the conscious change?"

After drinking a cup of tea, Qi Yiguo shook his head, "I have become more obedient."

In the past, I used to face life with a turbulent and confrontational attitude, but now my temper has softened, and I have seen a lot, such as the stubbornness of the elders, the helplessness and dissatisfaction in life, and more of them half-pushed and half-way to the road paved with responsibility.She said that Cao Yun, Yiyi, and even her parents have become her responsibility.

"She accommodated me too much." This is the second time she said this today.

I admit it.Qi Yiguo looked at Yu Ren with scorching eyes, "My life is destined to be burdened, and I can't escape anywhere. I even thought, since there is such a big trouble, what is the difference between China and the United States? My current colleagues also Knowing my orientation, to be honest, I don’t feel very relaxed.” Everywhere there are people who magnify their differences, and there are also people who are open-minded and tolerant.

After sitting for a while, Xiao Qi said Cai Cai, and you also changed, you became less talkative, and you asked more questions and listened.

"Maybe it's a habit developed at work." When Yu Ren said, Yuan Huifang personally greeted the dishes and delivered them one by one. They were still bold and generous pieces of steamed pork, as well as Xiao Qi's favorite pickled pork with dried plums and braised fish. Qi tasted the taste and said that it is difficult to eat the taste of his hometown in LA, and Cao Yun's cooking is becoming more and more American, "We can do it as simple as possible."

At the end of the meal, we talked about culture and society, and after talking about society and economy, Xiao Qi finally said, Caicai, I feel ashamed of you, and I have always wanted to contact you, but I don't know what to say.

"Yiguo, you don't need to feel ashamed of me. The relationship is over now, let's see each other as friends, we agreed." Yu Ren raised his glass, she hesitated, and said that I wanted to ask you a question, purely out of curiosity, "We used to ... You said I was a prefix, and I was a little hesitant, what did you think of our age difference at that time?"

Xiao Qi put down his chopsticks, the crow's feet at the corners of his eyes smiled, "I don't know where the future is, so I'm a little scared."

At that time, I didn’t think about how far I could go with you, and I liked it with all my heart. When I really thought about the "future", I didn’t know what to do. I was worried that I would get too deep into you, and I was also worried that you were just a momentary fever... After all, Chinese girls, There are somewhat heavy burdens in my mind, and intimate contact seems to remove these burdens and add new ones at the same time.Qi Yiguo said that you were just a child in my heart at that time, which seemed immoral to me.

"All in all, I felt that you were so young at the time, and subconsciously felt that you should deserve better." Xiao Qi pursed his lips for a moment, and fell into the quiet of thinking with Yu Ren.

For a person who is much younger than himself, the future of two people and her future seem to be derailed, and more likely to be contradictory. "Practicing one possibility means killing her other." I don't know if the teacher's thinking is at work.Xiao Qi looked at Yuan Liu who was busy downstairs through the screen, "This child... If I guess correctly, I think she treats you unusually."

Yu Ren was helpless, "Why do you all guess like this, her face can't hide her words like this?"

Not just the face, but the feeling.People who have been with each other for a long time have a unique aura when they sit together.Qi Yiguo said that when Xiao Liu sat next to you, he opened a little distance, but the intimacy lingered around you.There are words in her eyes, many, many, only for you.She has no interest in me, only wariness.

Yu Ren didn't speak, she also looked at Yuan Liu, the little girl had a good understanding, she raised her eyes and met Yu Ren, she smiled brightly, and pointed to the guests beside her to signal that she was busy.

Yu Ren withdrew his eyes, took off his glasses and lowered his head to wipe them. After putting them back on, his eyes were bright, and he seemed to have some calculations in his heart.

"I trust her." Yu Ren said softly.The little girl who can prepare a gift for herself in a few months, and the Yuan Liu who can't help but say the moonlight outside the crowd on the viewing platform, are romantic in their bones and rational enough in their minds.In this regard, she could not forcibly cut it off, nor could she accept it with peace of mind.She can only continue to watch in her own way, help Yuan Liu grow up, and give a restrained and reasonable response.

"But for you, it may be a kind of torture." Qi Yiguo said that Cao Yun also had such an experience.

"It's not torture. After all, I'm old, and I've seen a different youth." Yu Ren smiled, "In our line of work, we basically have three faces in the end."

The first one, Maitreya Buddha, always smiles when he sees everyone, but he can't see through his big belly.The second one is bitter and dissatisfied, because I have been soaking in words for a long time, and my ambition cannot be displayed.The third one, the faceless technique, can be switched between intimacy, slickness, seriousness and kindness.Yu Ren asked Xiao Qi, which face do you think I have repaired?

Sitting in front of Qi Yiguo was no longer the 19-year-old girl, weak but strong, who said she would "piss them off" and then held her head up proudly to hide her nervousness and timidity.She is smooth and transparent now, but this transparency is only outward rather than inward.She is still tenacious, in fact, that strength has long been deeply rooted in the depths of her body and soul, and now Yu Ren just uses this strength to hold her face more stable.Her eyes couldn't see the immature emotional fluctuations, but she was teasing herself with a smile.

Xiao Qi said that I saw a face other than three faces, you are too strong, I feel ashamed.I don't want to see your poker face, I want to see Cai Cai.

"Cai Cai is just little Yu Ren." Yu Ren finally hugged Xiao Qi, "It may be difficult to meet in the future, so take care."

Qi Yiguo was saying goodbye in his heart, and he could no longer see Caicai from the past.