far and near

Yinxiu finished her studies at Yu Ren's grandparents' house, and returned to Baizhou to continue studying the tea business.The old man was very reluctant to part with her, and had been very happy with her in the past few months, but it was strange that such a good girl like Yinxiu was almost 30 years old and still not married.The topic extended to the girl who often drove to see Yinxiu, "Wang Li's student? No wonder she looks different from ordinary people, isn't she married?" Thinking of Yu Ren again, "My granddaughter is too. "

I don't understand girls nowadays, so I don't worry at all.After worrying about the children, the old couple went to Chashan when they should go to Chashan, and they had to take care of their own lives.

Yinxiu asked Yin Xiaochang to move to the new house, and the old house was put up for sale. The mother and daughter lived together, and in many cases there was a baby.Of course Yin Xiaochang couldn't wait to live in the new house, "I'm proud of myself, I don't want to live there anymore after the No. [-] Textile Factory is broken." But Yinxiu gave her three prohibitions, "You are not allowed to bring people home to play cards, You are not allowed to bring people back to live, and you are not allowed to brag outside."What can Yin Xiaochang do if she doesn't want to show off?Our mothers have not been angry enough these years?

"Our family used to be like that, no wonder others look down on it." Yinxiu has been in prison for several years, and she has already let go of the idea of ​​"raising her eyebrows".

Although the facial features of the mother and daughter are quite similar, the difference in temperament is getting bigger and bigger. Yin Xiaochang's demeanor seems to be ready to accept the scrutiny of others at any time. She wants to be beautiful, to be proud, and to cast a glance at others to relieve her anger after she is proud of herself. Disdain, she wants to live as an astonishingly gorgeous cosmos in her whole life.

Different from the rich and gorgeous that her mother pursues, Yinxiu's style is restrained and elegant. Whether it is rapeseed or winter jasmine, she no longer cares about what others think of her. "I only know how hard it is to put my eyes on myself." Yin Xiuru told Uosheng that in the past, those who boasted and praised were just a play on the spot, even if there was two points of true feelings, it still had to fall on the numbers of the calculator in the end.

She sometimes rests at home and makes clothes by herself. She has never left behind the craftsmanship of making patterns and stepping on the sewing machine. She makes a short-sleeved dress with ties and a small T-shirt with horizontal stripes for Xiaoxiao.The lively and lovely Xiaoxiao was asked by other parents, "Where do you buy your child's clothes and what brand?" She made a simple and elegant linen V-neck dress for Yin Xiaochang. Today she is still happy to wear it and go out to meet the mahjong player.

She is very particular about what she makes for Uno. From high-waisted wide-leg pants to embroidered jeans, they must have a sense of texture and design. In her words, "You are a corner in Baizhou, so you can't be shabby."

Seeing that Yinxiu still likes making clothes so much, Uosheng encouraged her to reopen the online shop.Mr. Yin Xiu always said, let’s have a look first, and talk about it in a few years.

After asking Yu Ren, Mao Sheng found out the whole story. It turned out that Yin Xiu could not be a corporate legal person within three years after he came out.She took out her ID card, "I'm going to register as a legal person, and you can just be a shareholder." Yin Xiu didn't want it, "It's not good for people to know."

There are many ways to make money, but you can't take risks for Uosheng.Yinxiu also feels that her attachment to money has faded a lot. She wants to start a business again to prove that she can make money in an upright manner, and that she will not rely on heresy and make trouble for her family.

Maosheng took Yinxiu's change into his heart, turned his head and praised Zhao Lan, "My family's Yinxiu is really down-to-earth and generous." Zhao Lan said yes, your family, you go back to your house to accompany your mother-in-law and sister-in-law, why come to my house?After all, there is no shortage of dishes for my daughter.

"Yu Ren, I don't make much money now, and Yinxiu has no source of income. She just relies on the money left over from selling the house, but we are more stable than before." Maosheng chatted with Yu Ren on the way to Yuzhuang, "In When I was in Ningbo, I made a lot of money from singing, and Yinxiu’s combined assets were close to eight figures at that time, but the two of us seemed to be thrown into a fire, bouncing, jumping, and rolling, and we couldn’t hold our hearts. "

Yu Ren just laughed, "Because we know each other better now, and know what the other party really cares about."

Yes, before I only cared about being with her, she cared about me, and more about money.Uno was wearing a shirt sewn by Yinxiu and drove steadily, "Now it's time to live."

There are not many things that need to be cared about in life, money is also the key, and more importantly, you have found a place in each other's hearts and can see clearly.Yu Ren thinks that Maosheng is a fool, and that Maosheng's transformation towards Yinxiu has only stopped at "living in a down-to-earth way", but she has not seen the deeper corners of Yinxiu's heart.

Yin Xiu mentioned it when drinking tea with Yu Ren in private, "She doesn't know how many real detours I have taken. I always feel that I am not worthy of such a good person. Ordinary bits and pieces are so precious. I used to only know how to climb to higher places and wanted to lift myself higher. In fact, I can see myself clearly even in lower places. The bullying and blind eyes I suffered when I was young, and the inferiority complex brought about by poverty, I can see myself in lower places. You can let it go."

"It's good that she can't see it. She has a shallow mind, and she just knows how to live in an opera. The twists and turns are all my own, so I don't need to let her understand." Yinxiu said that she used to complain why Uosheng didn't understand herself, " How can she understand everything? It's not fair to force her to understand." Yu Ren, no matter whether he is high or low, a person has to put himself on a level before he is able to accept and give.

Yu Ren, who "does not guarantee a rest on Sunday", has a rare full day off. She is going to the countryside to visit her grandparents and pick up some tea for her colleagues.Smoking is not allowed in the department now, a group of smokers have become tea addicts, Yu Ren's tea has long been divided up.

"I've always wanted to learn how to drive, but I don't have time." Yu Ren didn't want to bother Uno, but Uo, who lives in a community, met Yu Ren who was going out earlier, and drove his old friend off without saying a word.

"I thought you were going to find Xiao Liu when you were free." Uosheng, who was stuffed with fried dough sticks in his mouth, had a smile in his eyes, "It seems that you didn't make it."

"How can a 15-year-old child succeed?" Yu Ren said, "Just worry about it, she's doing fine by herself now.

"I think you are very tired." Uosheng said that you are the only girl in your office, and those male colleagues will have a hot meal when they go home, and their wives will do the laundry, and they will go to battle after being served.You are different, you live alone now, no one takes care of you, and you will come to our house if you are too lazy to cook.

Yu Ren rubbed his right finger that had already suffered from tenosynovitis, "Okay. You are now... the mother-in-law won't be uncomfortable, right?"

She is at ease, Yinxiu gives her some pocket money every month, and she does not need to pay for other expenses, that is, cleaning, picking up and dropping off the children.I really don't know if Xiaoxiao was born to her or Yin Xiu and I.No matter how old the child is, I don't know how to control her studies. Uosheng stuck out his tongue in embarrassment, "Yinxiu and I, you are the only one who gets higher scores in the high school entrance examination."

Others, "Just close the door." Uogi touched his face, "Occasionally I go to the hotel to stay, she is shy, and I am thin-skinned."

"Oh, will Koyanagi still bring you soup?" Uosheng said that this kid is really amazing, he knows how to chase you at such a young age.She was blinded by Yu Ren, "It's not chasing, it's my sister who loves her, she said it herself." Xiao Liu still sent it off as usual, but didn't mention anything else, Yu Ren took it, "I can't refuse her heart. Not too cruel."

It's also difficult for her. Uosheng said that she is a child and can't work and study with you. The age gap between you is not a big deal, but her neck is not right. "She looks like a child when she looks up at you, but she can't see you when she looks down, and you push her away when she looks up."

Yu Ren said "hmm" and didn't continue on this topic.She took off her glasses and rubbed her eyes, "I feel that the prescription has deepened."

Move your eyes more, don't keep staring at the paper screen, look outside, look at the distance, Uo said that she didn't want Yinxiu to make clothes by hand, and it would take a lot of eyes, but she likes it.The stitches are dense and so small, "I am very careful when I put it on, and I am reluctant."

"Both of you have two-way eyes, and you can see through your own heart consciously or unconsciously." Yu Ren said that traveling thousands of miles is good, and reading thousands of books is always separated by fonts and other people's consciousness.

"Sometimes I can't understand what you say." Uosheng laughed, "Haha", "My eyesight is average, but my hearing is good." I can hear Yinxiu's emotions, and there is always something that works.

Yu Ren's eyesight is poor, and his hearing seems to be deteriorating.People say that she has "hearing and eyesight", but she lost both of her abilities all of a sudden, and her heart seemed to be quite dull.Feng Nian said that it was caused by work. Once a person has been immersed in routine things for too long, and has no other hobbies to nourish the mind and body, he will wither and become numb, and even work will become boring.Another note, "Song Yueqiong's original words."

That year, the high-spirited girl stepped into work with a transparent and fiery heart, determined to "reach a position where she can exert influence" and do more for the society.She has never tasted the hardships of life like Yinxiu and Yuanliu. She doesn't pay attention to daily necessities, and doesn't long for money and material things, but she has some feelings floating in her soul.

Feelings are a luxury, and those who can always cherish them have great love.But the hardest part of feeling is landing. Yu Ren has been working for several years and found that it is rare to land.No matter how big and beautiful the feelings were, they turned into a few chats among colleagues after dinner, and then everyone was silent for a while, and continued to immerse themselves in Wenshan.

The original words of Sister Song quoted by Fengnian made Yu Ren more and more agreeable, and she could clearly understand that she was slowly "drying".The body is worn down at work, feelings are squeezed into rational statements, emotions are barren, and even life is a mess, and the character is disciplined by the self and the environment to be more cautious. "Disaster comes from the mouth", Ren Songhong always taught her daughter, "Don't try to find other people's approval from the words of your mouth." You have to think, "Do they have meaning?"

Yu Ren, who was shrunk on the co-pilot, was extremely tired, and even Uno could tell, "Why don't I take you home to rest, and I'll pick up your things?"

"You can fetch tea for me, but you can't watch grandparents for me." Yu Ren said Uo, don't you feel bored singing?Famous playbooks come and go.

Not boring.There are hundreds of thousands of old books, and I am afraid that I will not be able to learn them, and new books must be published every year.Not only singing and acting, but also who you sing with.My senior sister and Miao Yuan have the most partners, the same play, but different sentiments.

When Uosheng talked about drama, he had a bright eye, "Singing with my senior sister, I wish I could get into the drama and not come out, and just go on like this." Of course, I am just describing it, and there is no other meaning.Usheng also said about the scene with Miao Yuan, "She has better basic skills than me, and she is also careful in thinking. I can learn her handling details and get a lot of inspiration."

In fact, to get down to business, you still like it.Play is a thing that covers everything.Playing and singing, singing, reciting and beating, wearing clothes and boots, there are many tricks, and you won't get tired.What about your job?Will you get tired?Maosheng asked Yu Ren.

"I'm not tired of it yet." Yu Ren said, he has already experienced the feeling of being hollowed out. No matter how much I eat and write materials, and no matter how much I am recognized by the leaders, I feel that my heart is being hollowed out more and more. many.

Got it, because it's just work, no fun.Yu Sheng's words shocked Yu Ren for a moment, then he bowed his head powerlessly, "Yes."

Seeing Yu Renlei, Maosheng accompanied her to Yu Zhuang for lunch and then walked around.Uno said that you were so kind when you were young, you could study here.Yu Ren said that people still have to go through the experience, and the return to the basics after the experience is different from the simple numbness from birth to adulthood.

Standing on the tea mountain, she looked at the land, which was full of fertile green clumps, coiling up from the nearby roadside to the top of the hill in the distance. "At that time, Qi Yiguo said that I was still a native of the country. I was surprised." Yu Ren smiled. There is a realization of the past, "She is right, so I am not willing to leave. Of course, I have no money to study abroad."

I don't like Yu Zhuang, and I don't want to be here.It is simple and cunning, warm and sinister.I wanted to use my work to change the world around me, but even Yu Zhuang didn't change.Yu Ren pointed to the back mountain, "The burials there will be removed, I don't know how much brains the grassroots will spend." Then he pointed to the three large archways in Qianzhuang, "But there should be preserved, saying that it is an important point for the development of small tourist villages. Attractions.” It’s so practical that it doesn’t talk about principles, and it’s closer to self-contradiction.

"What do you want to do?" Uosheng looked at the tea garden where Yin Xiu had worked, trying to identify which one was taken care of by his lover.

Yu Ren shook his head, "It doesn't matter what I think, the problem is what the people who live here think."

She sat cross-legged on the grass, and I wanted to understand myself, and understand a little bit now.

No matter how satisfied the starting point is, there will be unexpected things haunting you later, and even devouring you.Does life look like swimming in rivers and seas?The water in Chuanping is so slow that people think that the time is quiet and you can grasp it. When the waves are rushing, you realize that you are just a small fish fry inside.

"Since they are all fish, you can swim by yourself or with someone you like." Uosheng said it's okay, Yu Ren, you just swim by yourself, there are us by your side, love is not that important.

Yu Ren kicked her, "Fart." Love is not important. Who has been waiting for it for several years?You hold a bowl to eat and laugh at me with an empty hand.

"I really thought about it, what if I'm the only one?" Usheng said, I still want to live happily.It was not easy for my mother to give birth to me. Your mother was stabbed twice in the stomach. I have to live a good life, for myself and for the people who love me, "Yu Ren, if you are not happy, take time off and go for a walk, why don't you try to fall in love." Small willows can't do it, so you just get out, and there are medium willows, big willows, and chicken willows.

Yu Ren grabbed the grass and threw it at Maosheng again, "Nonsense—" Yu Ren frowned, but she didn't say it to death, it didn't mean she would do it.If the little girl is seven or eight years older, it may not be impossible.Yu Ren thought about the little girl's recent lackluster communication with him. She said, let's go to the entrance of the village to pick watermelons, and I'll send them to Xiaoliu Xiaohai and the others when I get back.

After all, it still hurts Xiaoliu.Uosheng pulled her to stand up, "If Xiao Liu doesn't turn to you anymore, how about dating someone else now?" Uosheng said Yu Ren, you are so stupid, how do you know that Xiao Liu will be hanged from a tree?Take another look when it is cheaper, hey, I want to see you in a hurry.

"Bai Maosheng, you are such a mother-in-law." Yu Ren said, "I'm not in a hurry, she can talk if she wants to talk, and I won't interfere." Yu Ren thought of this possibility but felt uncomfortable, the treasure in his heart was stolen away, Probably in the mood of marrying a daughter, she curled her lips, "I don't understand too much, Xiao Liu is also one."