far and near

Yu Ren had a fever and a cold on the second day in Shanghai, Uosheng drove her back to Baizhou, and Feng Nian took care of her carefully in the back of the car.Arriving home in the afternoon of the second day of the Lunar New Year, Yu Xiaomin, who had just come back from hiding, felt distressed seeing her daughter's listless appearance. She looked at Uosheng dissatisfied, and after putting Yu Ren to bed, she thanked Fengnian, "Xiaohuai, so you also Going on a trip? Please send the lottery home, and have dinner at aunt's house at noon."

Maosheng took out the medicine for Yu Ren, "Finally, the body temperature has come down, and I drank some porridge in the morning, what else do you want to eat?"

Yu Ren smiled and said that he was not hungry, since the Chinese New Year is coming, you should go home and rest quickly.

"No need, my mother went back to Baizhou for the New Year, and Xiaoxiao is now with her." Maosheng said that Zhao Lan was cruel and soft-hearted, knowing that he was embarrassed, so he celebrated the Spring Festival in Baizhou.In addition to helping Wang Li and Maosheng buy new clothes, they also bought two sets for Xiao Xiao.As soon as we met, he said that Usheng didn’t know how to take care of children at all, and his little braids were tied up in a mess, “You think she’s not afraid of the cold like you? There are only woolen sweaters and small autumn clothes in the down jacket, and I need to add another one.” The vest protects the back and chest, you know?"

Fengnian brought the hot tea made by Dean Yu into the room and winked at Uosheng, "Auntie asked you to go out to drink water."

Uosheng's face immediately turned red, she said "Oh", and looked at Yu Ren helplessly, "This... Yu Ren, I can bear it for you, and you will invite me to have a hot pot with Xiao Snacks some other day."

Fengnian glanced at Uosheng like watching a good show, and when she went out, she sat down on the floor beside Yu Ren's bed, "Your house is really warm." In the old dormitory building of her house, the water pipes were the coldest day ever encountered. They will all freeze, and it is a bit painful to live in a good year when I am used to heating in the north for the winter.

"Actually, Maosheng is a very nice person." Yu Ren had three pillows under her head, no matter how uncomfortable she was, she could see that Fengnian and Maosheng were not getting along.

"What's the matter?" Fengnian said that this person took advantage of his good appearance and sticky temper, and teased one after another.My sister Xiaoying was working so hard in Cixi, what was she doing?He must be entangled with some sister or sister.My sister Xiaoying was tired of running around when she started her business in Ningbo, so she knew that she would knock on the door in the middle of the night for a date.Well now, my sister Xiaoying has gone in, and it will be more than two years before she comes out, but she is happy every day as if nothing happened, eating, drinking, joking and laughing.

Yu Ren looked at Fengnian and smiled, "She may not be comfortable now. Apart from work, Uosheng has to take care of Yinxiu's younger sister by herself, and she has to worry about food, clothing, housing and transportation to go to kindergarten. Her mother has not been there for a few months. Li Maosheng."

Fengnian stopped ringing when she heard this, she held the cup and looked at Yu Ren curiously, "I think you are really generous."

Yu Ren didn't make a sound, and finally sighed, "It's not the time to reach the maximum."

Outside, Yu Xiaomin asked Uosheng to sit opposite her, and asked carefully about the reason for Yu Ren's illness, Uosheng stammered, "It seems... a cool breeze blows."

Oh, your two big ears are white?Can't you feel the wind so strong?Don’t know to remind Caicai to add some clothes or where to go to shelter from the wind?Seeing Yu Xiaomin's able-bodied expression made Uosheng's heart skip a beat, she said yes, she blamed me for not taking good care of Yu Ren.

On the [-]th day of Caicai, I had a meal at my grandparents' house, and took a relative's car back to Baizhou at four o'clock the next morning.You have your own car, why don't you pick up the lottery, but let her go early?Let me tell you, Caicai must have been frozen yesterday morning, Bai Maosheng, do you know that you are responsible?

Uno said yes, yes, I am responsible aunt.

"No matter what happens in the future, I hope that when two people are together, they will understand each other and take care of each other more." Yu Xiaomin looked at Uno's limp appearance, and finally said, "I'm going to cook, you go play."

Uosheng's face became even redder from the training, and he took a deep breath after entering Yu Ren's room, "Yu Ren, I've changed my mind, and I'll have to pay twice."

It was rare for Yu Ren to laugh. She looked Uosheng in the eyes and said thank you, then patted Fengnian on the shoulder. I am very happy to have you two good sisters.

Yu Ren's medicine was effective, seeing that she was a little sleepy, Uosheng took off the pillow and covered her nose for her, she glanced at Fengnian, and her rival followed her out of the room knowingly.The two chatted awkwardly on the balcony of Yu Ren's house looking at the scenery outside. In fact, Maosheng asked Fengnian for something. She found a letter from her carry-on bag and said, "Yinxiu asked me to hand over the letter to you."

Yinxiu finally wrote back, one or two letters, one was for Uosheng to forward to Fengnian.

"Have you read it?" Fengnian closed the envelope when he saw that the envelope was intact, recited Uosheng and opened the letter, and Miss Xiaoying wrote a full page for her.Uosu peeked at Fengnian's expression while drinking tea, and after a while, he saw Fengnian's tears dripping away.

"What...what's wrong?" Uzumaki asked.

"It's okay. Miss Xiaoying is so kind, she still misses me inside." Fengnian quickly wiped away his tears, folded the letter and hid it in his coat pocket.

The two froze, "Have you seen her?" Fengnian asked.

Uno smiled, "No." She looked at the sky outside in a blink of an eye, but she still couldn't hide the sadness on her face.

"Can distance really change people's hearts?" Fengnian asked again, she said that you fell in love with Miss Xiaoying before you broke up with Yu Ren, right?Is it because you can't see Yu Ren, so you feel different?Now Yu Ren has caught up with the second crop again, I guess it is also because of the distance.

Uosheng's expression became uncomfortable, "Yu Ren and I... I couldn't tell at that time."

"Heh, it's a good excuse to not be able to tell." Fengnian followed closely, "Did you find someone else after you separated from Miss Xiaoying?"

Uosheng, who was stabbed in the nerve, touched his red ears, "This... is hard to say."

"Hehe, it's really a good conclusion to say nothing." Feng Nian rolled his eyes at Uo, "What experience do you have after talking for a few times?"

Uosheng grabbed the skirt of his shirt, "Well... I have grown a lot, I know a little about life, and I also understand that I can't go against my heart and force some people and things... Also, in my heart, I can't let go of Yinxiu."

"Hehehe, you can say you have not obtained it, and you can call it a certificate without obtaining it." Feng Nian left a sentence that made Maosheng stupid there, and turned back to the kitchen to help Yu Xiaomin choose dishes. The sound of conversation.

Maosheng suddenly felt a sense of loneliness in Yu Ren's house, and remembered Yinxiu's letter that she had read more than ten times. It must be the data of the loan style of goods, so you should feel at ease."

"But it's like absorbing water. It dives for a while and spins for a while. I just concentrate on making clothes and find a book to read. It's more comfortable this way, and I won't feel empty and lonely."

Uosheng also asked the master, "Before you and my mother were not together, did you ever feel lonely?" Wang Li said yes, but you can't just find some light and light to come together when you feel lonely, your heart To decide.

Uosheng felt that among the people he knew, besides the master, Yu Ren was the one he was sure of, and maybe there was also the current Yin Xiu.

She passed the door of Yu Ren's bedroom, and found that there was a crack in the door that was not closed tightly, and Yu Ren, who should be at ease, was not asleep at all. Her body was heaving and falling under the quilt, and she might be crying.Uosheng closed the door quietly and did not bother her.In fact, Yu Ren had been trying not to cry when her friends were present, no matter how determined she was, she needed a small space to vent, not to mention her strong self-esteem.

Yu Ren stepped out of the house on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year. She was still so rational and calm when she appeared outside. When she was not talking, she was like a full moon in spring. She was not so hot that it was dazzling, and it made people couldn't help but take a second look and want to get closer. But Yu Ren There was no one else in front of Ren, she hid in a place that no one knew and quietly accommodated her mood and dealt with her feelings.

She sat in the coffee shop and wrote the sentence of breaking up with Xiao Qi. The Chinese student actually revised the sentence more than a dozen times, "Yiguo, I thought about it for a few days, and I think we should break up. I wish you good luck in the future." Life can be as easy as you want.”

Do you want to give a reason?This is where Yu Ren hesitated.Before the door, Yu Rencai realized that this simple love ceremony required her to get to the bottom of it all the way to the deepest part of her subconscious mind. Discussing right and wrong seemed like liquidation, and talking about right and wrong was too grievous.

Yu Ren suffered from insomnia for three nights, and decided to give a decent reason to stop, so he added a paragraph to the message: I think we don't need to talk too much about the software, based on our mutual understanding Understanding and respect, based on our previous tacit understanding and love, and based on the feeling that may still remain, I want you to give me a formal answer after thinking about a question, "Your wavering and painful entanglement is because you need to use morality to instruct us I can be sure of the relationship between the two of you. I want to know if there are options that are closer to your ideal life in reality?"

Yu Ren said that if there is, I will still bless you.Yiguo, at this point, stop deceiving yourself to paralyze yourself.I have always said, don't treat me like a child, I deserve to be treated fairly and honestly by you.

After sending the message, Yu Ren felt that her eyes were swollen and she wanted to cry, so she just drank the coffee and held back her tears.She also knew that Yiguo might be on the return flight now, and it would be half a day before she saw the news.The bitter taste evaporated in the mouth, and it was unclear whether it came from the heart or from the eyes and nose.

"Take care" and "let go" are the necessary basic abilities to bear a relationship.Yu Ren asked himself that when he was in charge of the relationship with Uosheng, neither the right time, the right place, nor the right people had the slightest advantage.They used the hormones of puberty and the end of the child's psychology to draw a picture scroll with simple lines and blurred colors: love, love, no turning back, helpless breakup, and the rest is Yu Ren's own business.Yu Sheng left his name on one side of the scroll, and Yu Renzhao continued to paint for a few years, and naturally put it down when his hands were so sore that he couldn't pick up the pen at the other end.

The relationship with Qi Yiguo came so naturally and swiftly, and the colors of the painting are dazzling. The original monotonous brush has added a lot of paint because of the addition of a knowledgeable lover: the rose color is like Xiao Qi’s romance, and the scarlet is like her maturity. , navy blue is like her depth, and orange is like her sunshine.It's just that Yu Ren didn't realize that the half of Xiao Qi's background color was darker, as deep as a waterfall entering the pool under the cliff, because the splash of water and the coolness hit, people stopped in front of the cliff.

Yu Ren thought, what should I do if I take a step forward?What if she was as bold and aggressive as she was when she was a young girl, daring to make an oath and even more daring to keep it?Why here at Qi Yiguo, she didn't have the courage to stare at the vortex of the water below the cliff?When a person grows up, his courage will disappear, right?

After traveling for half a hundred miles, she and Qi Yiguo used their natural and mutual attraction to walk comfortably for ninety miles, before falling down in front of the natural barrier in the last ten miles.This is a relationship that has hardly experienced a severe test. It was only really tested once before it surrendered.

Yu Ren had to think deeply whether he was the kind of person who wanted to be warm, happy, and excited, but only wanted to make money by sitting on the ground and didn't want to work hard.Did she subconsciously use her passionate love with Qi Yiguo to make up for the regret of her first relationship?

She added another paragraph to Xiao Qi's message, "Fate is not just about meeting, it also depends on whether two lonely hearts will release stronger power after meeting, which requires timing, energy, determination... No. Yiguo, we lacked a lot, the fate at that time seemed deep, but in fact it was weak and shallow inside. I want to understand."

It's not that she doesn't love, or that she doesn't love deeply enough, it's that when this love appeared, she and Qi Yiguo were no longer who they were before.

Can a person's heart really go back?