far and near

After many years of fighting wits and courage with Lao He, Qi Yiguo's chess skills have become more and more superb.When Lao He said what happened, she would not deny it, "It's nothing." Instead, she sat in the room and looked at Lao He, "Everyone seems to have something wrong."

Old He really seemed to be stepped on his tail. He closed the door and was still training his daughter at twelve o'clock at night. Are you sick?I told you a long time ago not to try other people's ideas, that is, other people's children are still young and don't mix with you. You will buy me clothes for me to go on a blind date the day after tomorrow, etc.

Qi Yiguo said that Lao He is a lunatic, and that everything is correct according to her habits and cognition, from as small as the TV remote control at home to be placed in a fixed position, as big as her daughter's lifelong event.She forced Qi Yiguo to ask about Yu Ren for an hour. The rhythm was a few blind date sentences, and then she turned around and asked, "Why were Caicai's eyes red at that time?"

Xiao Qi said that you should go and ask yourself.Her red eyes must have something to do with me, don't you think so?

She was so dizzy, Xiao Qi lay on the bed and closed her eyes, "I suggest you order a banner, 'Qi Yiguo is a perverted homosexual' and hang it outside our balcony, so that everyone will keep a respectful distance from me, don't you Just save trouble?"

Old He's brain circuits began to diverge, "Did you come back to find Cao Yun?"

Qi Yiguo ignored her, and when he was about to fall asleep, Lao He pulled up his collar, "Say it!" Fortunately, Lao He didn't have disheveled hair, and his red eyes were like an angry she-wolf.Xiao Qi gritted his teeth, and finally said hoarsely, "What are you trying to do with me? It's been so hard."

Lao He cried so much that she had a headache, Xiao Qi didn't say "I'll go the day after tomorrow" to coax her as usual, but left the house at three o'clock in the morning and returned to the hotel.As soon as she finished sending the message to Yu Ren, she received a hysterical call from Old He, "Qi Yiguo, you just want me to die, don't you? You just want to drive me crazy!" During the phone call, there was still father Lao Qi's scolding, "Why are you crazy in the middle of the night? You want to make people laugh!"

Lao Qi answered the phone, "Guoguo, where are you? I can't get home, come back and persuade your mother."

Qi Yiguo grabbed his arms tightly, "Dad, I'm tired, I'll go back to Shanghai early in the morning."

She thought that with the vigor of fighting chess to deal with Lao He, one day she would be worn down and let go. After all, Lao He was aging, and she hadn't yet entered the prime of life.After all these years of enduring, the knife in Lao He's hand and mouth never stopped, and she stabbed Qi Yiguo's heart full of holes.After the detour, it was Lao He who made progress, and after the resistance, she pressed her every step of the way. After the silence, there was her space invasion.Qi Yiguo, who was only able to catch his breath at Yu Ren's place tonight, was physically and mentally exhausted, and his nerves were about to break.

Xiao Qi checked out at [-] o'clock the next morning and drove. As soon as he opened the car door, he saw Yu Ren walking quickly dragging his suitcase.Suddenly, endless grievances welled up in her heart, she opened the car door and looked at her little girlfriend, "Will your mother say you?"

"I said the internship is ahead of schedule, so I have to hurry back." Yu Ren didn't sleep well either, his eyes were as red and swollen as Xiao Qi's.

Xiao Qi helped her put the suitcase, and when she was about to go back to the driver's seat, she was pulled back by Yu Ren, "Go to the back seat." Yu Ren said that it is fine to turn on the air conditioner, and you squint on my lap for a while.

Xiao Qi's eyes moved, and after nodding, he lay down on Yu Ren's lap. When his face was facing outward, Yu Ren turned to him, "I have to watch you." Yu Ren lowered his head and kissed her lips, and his fingertips were stained Xiao Qi's warm tears.

"My mother may come to you, don't recognize anything." Xiao Qi said, his hair was gently stroked by Yu Ren, "Yeah."

"She may go to Shanghai again, either today or tomorrow, so..." Xiao Qi didn't finish, Yu Ren followed up, "I'm going back to the school dormitory."

After a while, Xiao Qi stopped crying, and Yu Ren kissed the corner of her eyes, but his heart became numb.Do you really want to hide and avoid denial for the rest of your life?Xiao Qi's previous suggestion came to mind again—you should apply to schools in your junior year, and let's go abroad together.Hiding to the ends of the earth to live my own little life, pulling out all the blood stakes in my body, life ends at the "beautiful" point in my imagination.

The two of them had deep thoughts and didn't talk much on the road.Qi Yiguo finally encouraged Yu Ren, "My mentor has something to do with me, and I have passed the exam. After the screening results of the residents over there, I will go directly to the hospital for an internship. In two years, at most two and a half years, I will be able to practice medicine independently. Cai, I won’t let you suffer. When I stabilize, we can live together.” It’s just that Yu Ren has to be wronged in the choice of school and major, Xiao Qi said, we have to stay in the same city.Because her choices are limited, it will directly limit Yu Ren's foothold.

The question that Yu Ren wanted to avoid intentionally or not was pushed in front of her again, and she said that I would seriously consider Yiguo.Xiao Qi knew the weight of this sentence, so he didn't mention it anymore.

Sure enough, as Qi Yiguo said, Lao He arrived in Shanghai the second day after she returned.She cleaned her daughter's place upside down as if nothing had happened.I worked hard to cook five or six dishes, and even sent them to the hospital for Xiaoqi's lunch.

Colleagues and patients were amazed by the relationship between the mother and daughter. Xiao Qi kept his eyelids up and did not pick up his lunch.After an hour, Xiao Qi still didn't move his chopsticks, and Lao He didn't move his butt even in the waiting room.

In the end, Qi Yiguo took the lunch box from Lao He's hand, "I'll eat it later." Then Lao He raised a smile and glanced at his daughter, "What time do you get off work at night?"

Xiao Qi said he didn't know, and Lao He said it was fine, I will wait for you to go home for dinner.After turning around, I thought of something and turned my head, "I told your dad about early retirement. If you get less money, you will get less money. Our family has no shortage. From today, I will stay in Shanghai to take care of your life." Still loving Patted Qi Yiguo's face gently, "Look at you, you're skinny."

The frightened daughter froze in place, Qi Yiguo took the lunch box, suddenly turned and walked towards the stairway, found the trash can and smashed the box in.

Lao He didn't care, she cooked three meals for her daughter in different ways every day, and Xiao Qi was on duty at night and had a supper delivered to her.Colleagues gradually became familiar with each other, and persuaded Xiao Qi that your mother is really kind, so don't be angry.People guessed that there was a quarrel between the mother and daughter, but they didn't guess that it was a disguised imprisonment.

Xiao Qi could only call Yu Ren when he had time in the hospital, "I'm sorry Cai Cai, she's been watching her closely lately, let's meet outside your school."

Lao He also checked Xiao Qi's schedule clearly, and Xiao Qi could only find time to meet his little girlfriend by changing shifts.With a stone in their hearts, the young couple couldn't even let go of shopping and eating.In the hotel, Xiao Qi, who likes to cheer, couldn't cheer up after Lao He went to the hospital for a surprise attack today. She lay beside Yu Ren and said sorry Cai Cai, I have no energy today.

Yu Ren watched as Qi Yiguo was drained of water little by little, and withered little by little.She said Yiguo, let's make it public together.I'll go back and talk to my mom, and I'll talk to your mom too.We are at home, so what if we go all out?The big deal is that I won’t be selected in the future, and I can be with you even if I find a job in Shanghai.I don't believe you will lose your job because of this.

Xiao Qi was silent for a long time, "I can't." She said Cai Cai, you are still so young, I don't want you to bear such great pressure.You don't understand my mother, she will make trouble in your school.

After thinking about it again, "You don't want to go abroad?"

Yu Ren has been thinking about this for more than a month, but she still hasn't made up her mind, saying that I don't know how to live there.My family, friends, and my hobbies are all in China. I want to be with you, but I haven't the courage to leave everything around me.Yu Ren and Qi Yiguo are very sincere, even if there is a slight hesitation, she will express it clearly to her lover.

"I understand." Qi Yiguo said.

Yu Ren's life is not only about love, she also has ambitions, parents, grandparents, Yuan Liu from a village in the city, Huaifengnian who is near Beijing, and Bai Maosheng who doesn't know where... Qi Yiguo wants to get it, but she says she is not in a hurry , I will give you enough time to think clearly, and now I will start my own application first.

She didn't go home that night, and didn't stay with Yu Ren. She bought a few bottles of wine and a pack of cigarettes and locked herself in the car overnight.This night seemed familiar, Xiao Qi was also puzzled the day Cao Yun rejected his proposal.She dialed Cao Yun's phone number late at night, and the phone was answered quickly, "Guoguo?"

Qi Yiguo had a heavy nasal voice after crying, "Yunyun, I have a question to ask you." She said, why can't love make people firm?What would have happened if you hadn't been threatened by my mother back then?

Cao Yun said where are you?I will look for you.

"Don't come." Xiao Qi said that she just wanted to hear Cao Yun's views at that time and her current thinking.No one can solve this problem, and no one can pull Lao He away from him.

"The function of love varies from person to person." Cao Yun said that some love is a flower in a person's boring life. She has a fragrance and a beautiful shape, but she still depends on the sun and moisture around her.Some love is the source of courage in the heart. She herself is the fertility and nutrition, and she can become a sharp sword in the hands of people and split the surrounding thorns.Some loves are like the extra sixth finger on our body, people can live if they cut off her, but it is a habit to have more of her.

Cao Yun returned the question to Qi Yiguo, "Guoguo, what is your love?"

When Qi Yiguo was thinking, Cao Yun said softly, "If your mother hadn't threatened me, my house would have been a mess, and my father's temper might have locked me in the house." She smiled. , "Now I know that my dad is a paper tiger. As long as I want to run, I will find a way." That's the same thing, really separated at the two ends of the earth, my parents will still continue their lives, I may work part-time Halfway through there to get a degree...

"I'm not sure how I'll live there? Are you happy? Can you feel at ease? I'm not even sure if we're going to be together forever, whether love will stay fresh." Cao Yun said with a wry smile, "If So, what kind of life do you want? In your life, what is love?"

Life and love can run side by side, can blend together, can complement each other, or can oppose and repel each other.

"But Guoguo, life is not equal to love." Many people can live numbly without love, many people can not live for love, and many people can forget love and pretend to devote themselves to life.Cao Yun said that now she is just pretending to go into life peacefully, buying her son a set of clothes that fit her, teaching him to sing two English songs, and eating her mother's cooking by herself, feeling very appetizing, as if she doesn't want to leave for the rest of her life.

"I just think of you with difficulty." Cao Yun's voice was a little ethereal, "How difficult it is, it can only beat in my heart."

You have Go, you have a career, and you want a fulfilling love life, you can work hard on these.When everything you have is mixed together, Guoguo, will you be eroded and assimilated by them, or can you be alone?

"What kind of life do you want?" Cao Yun asked Qi Yiguo again.

The other side drank half a bottle of red wine, lay on the steering wheel and cried uncontrollably, "I want to leave my mother, stay away from her."

Lao He contacted Yu Ren on a Friday in early November, and she asked Cai Cai, have you contacted Sister Guoguo recently?Yu Ren is in contact with Qi Yiguo every day, just from the excitement at the beginning to the daily communication.She is busy with her studies, and Xiao Qi has no complete personal freedom except for her busy work.Their sweet date every weekend turned into a hotel meeting at irregular times twice a week.

Regarding Lao He's question, Yu Ren has been vaccinated repeatedly by Xiao Qi: he doesn't admit it, he doesn't contact him, he doesn't know.

Yu Ren said that she has not been in touch recently, and she must be very busy.Lao He probably didn't think about it, he said a few polite words and then hung up.But Yu Ren started to suffer from insomnia because of Qi Yiguo. Under the direct and high-pressure stalking of Lao He every day, his lover ate, slept, went to work and played chess.Life seems simple, but it is not simple self-convergence everywhere.

"Are you tired?" There is no need to ask such words, Xiao Qi is very tired.She fell asleep many times after meeting Yu Ren in the hotel, and her hands were always clutching her skirt tightly.Qi Yiguo didn't ask Yu Ren about going abroad again, just said not to worry.

Why is Yu Ren in no hurry?One is the beloved lover, and the other is the fact that I forced myself to accept studying abroad.She searched for information and asked people everywhere, and was surprised by her classmates, "Yu Ren, I always thought you were the most professional person in our class. Are you also starting to get confused?"

Let's go out, so that Yiguo and himself can accompany me all day long, and I won't be caught by the strange eyes around me all the time, and I won't be disturbed by someone's hand stretching out my rhythm of life.Yu Ren said to himself.

In the days when she finally made up her mind, Xiao Qi apologized and postponed several meetings.Yu Ren asked her what happened?

Qi Yiguo said that she actually asked for leave for a week, and went to other places to relax by herself.It is very difficult to ask for leave in the hospital, how many female doctors and nurses are still working while pregnant, Yu Ren doubts that Xiao Qi can ask for leave.Thinking of Lao He's hesitant phone call, "Yiguo, what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, I asked the doctor to issue some necessary certificates, and the unit promised to let me go home and rest for a while." The price may be that I can't be on the operating table for a long time.Qi Yiguo said that I don't think I'm sick, but my leader is afraid that something will happen to me.

If this step has been reached, Xiao Qi's condition in the hospital must have reached a serious level that cannot be ignored. Yu Ren said, where are you?Is it in Shipu?

There seemed to be the sound of the sea breeze on the other end of the phone, and Xiao Qi smiled unrestrainedly, "Cai Cai, you really understand me." She rejected Yu Ren's suggestion to come to her right away, "I want to understand something."

I have lived too carefully these years, I hope everyone around me is happy, but I can't.Qi Yiguo sighed, "I really can't change my mother, Caicai, I've decided to go to America first, and if everything goes well, I'll leave in April next year."

I can't let go of love, but Cai Cai, I have to survive first.Xiao Qi finally said.