Chase the train

Midday on the moon.

The rumbling sound of the train was isolated from his thoughts. In Song Shi's hand was the lipstick stuffed by Lin Yousheng forcefully. The metal shell had been warmed by his body, and he was playing with it with nimble fingers.

"This color suits you very well, it looks much better."

"Send it to you, just as a thank you for protecting me for so long."

The smiling eyes of the man seemed to appear in front of his eyes, bent like a bridge, revealing the cunning that can only be seen in front of her.

She rolled over, threw her lipstick beside the pillow, and covered her eyes with her hand.

After an unknown amount of time, she got up, turned on the light, and walked to the table next to her.

Lin Yousheng got up very early, and the sun hadn't come over yet, so she wanted to finish washing her clothes before noon.When I went out, I habitually glanced to the side, but saw that the window next door was lit.

Through the window, she saw the person sitting in front of the table in a daze. She raised her hand and knocked on the glass. She just wanted to smile, but she didn't expect Song Shi to get up and walk over. It was hard for her to leave.

"Good morning!"

Song Shi hummed, took out a piece of paper from his pocket and handed it to her.

"what is this?"

"Pick one."

Lin Yousheng opened the paper in doubt.There are two patterns drawn on it, a brilliant flower with intertwined vines, and a bunch of flowers that look lively when gathered together. They are also flowers. Others may not be able to understand them, but she knows that Song Shidiao , You can tell at a glance that it is a type.

"What do you want to carve?" She looked at Song Shi, she was not the type to ask other people's opinions.

"Pick one."

Lin Yousheng smiled, "Although I guessed it, I still want to ask a question." She moved closer and looked into Song Shi's eyes: "You can't be, you want to return the gift to me."

Song Shi frowned, obviously impatient: "Why are you talking so much?"

"If it's a gift in return, I don't want it." Lin Yousheng stuffed the paper back to her and said.

"Who said I would send you off..." Song Shi paused, his tone somewhat helpless, "Why?"

"It feels like you're separating yourself from me. After all, we're still friends, so we need to be so polite?"

That's exactly what it means.Song Shi thought.She felt that her relationship with Lin Yousheng was too close, which gave her an unprecedented sense of crisis.That strong anxiety reminded her that Lin Yousheng was dangerous and she had to keep a distance.

"I don't want to owe you anything," she said.

Hearing what she said, Lin Yousheng didn't speak, but just looked at her, his big eyes were full of grievances, and he wanted to cry.

Even though Song Shi had long been used to her various expressive expressions, she couldn't help feeling sour, "What are you doing?"

"We've known each other for so long, Song Shi, in your heart, I'm still an outsider who must draw a clear line?"

After she finished speaking, she went upstairs with her clothes in her arms, her back determined.

Song Shi stood where he was, with mixed feelings in his heart.Why, obviously said what I wanted to say, did what I should do, and even got the desired result, but I didn't feel happy at all?

She looked at the paper in her hand, feeling helpless.

Although the trouble was unpleasant, Lin Yousheng arrived at Jizhai before noon, bowed his head to do his homework, and didn't even look at Song Shi.

Song Shi was carving the previous customer list, and he couldn't feel the surroundings when he was paying attention, and the atmosphere was harmonious for a while.

At noon, Nan Jing came with the papers as promised.

"These are the information sheet set by our school, as well as the papers of our exam. These are the questions and materials compiled by our school teachers themselves. They are not allowed to be circulated. You must keep them secret."

"Okay, thank you." Lin Yousheng put the things in the schoolbag, "How about I treat you to dinner."

"No." Nan Jing looked at Song Shi who didn't look up, and sighed, "My dad is waiting for me at home after cooking a meal, and he will be sanctioned if he comes home late."

"Alright then, bye."

"Let's add a contact method." Nan Jing said, "We can communicate when we have time."

Song Shi finally raised his head and glanced at Lin Yousheng.

"Okay." Lin Yousheng readily took out the phone.

Nan Jing left, Lin Yousheng packed his things and prepared to leave.

"where to?"

"Back to school."

She bent down to hug the stack of books, but Song Shi held her hand down.

"what?"

"I'm sorry." Song Shi said.

Lin Yousheng straightened up and looked at her: "What did you say?"

Song Shi tilted his head, avoiding her gaze: "...I'll see you off."

"Wait." Lin Yousheng grabbed her wrist, as if he must ask one, two, three: "Why are you apologizing?"

Song Shi stared at her silently for a while, then said: "Don't go too far."

"I don't, how can I forgive you if I say I'm sorry? Am I angry just to hear you say I'm sorry?"

Song Shi: "..." Absurd.She finally understood that Lin Yousheng was not angry at all, all losing his temper and being wronged were all for her to admit that she was wrong, and they were all disguised means to achieve her goal. "Will you go?"

"Is it that difficult for you to say that we are friends?"

Lin Yousheng followed behind Song Shi, and there was no indifference and forbearance on his face in the morning, "Then do you want to return the things you gave me?"

Song Shi walked forward with the book in his arms, without looking at her: "Don't you want it?"

"As long as you admit that I am your friend, I will."

Song Shi was speechless: "Dare I rush to beg you to accept it?"

"Why are you unwilling? Just a word..."

Song Shi stopped.

They stood in the aisle between the two shops. It was quiet and narrow, and the sun could not come in. But in fact, just a few steps ahead, there is a lively market. At this moment, the noisy voices seem to be separated from another world. , has nothing to do with the person in front of you.

If before Lin Yousheng only thought Song Shi was indifferent, now, she finally felt the oppressive feeling on her body that made people dare not approach her. Those eyes were like a lone wolf in the dark, desperate and cold, and her face was less bloody. Presents a sickly white.

"Why?" Intuition told her that if she spoke now, she would get a real answer.

"How long are you staying here?" Song Shi asked.

"More than a year, by June next year, the college entrance examination will be over."

"and then?"

"Of course it is to go to school." Lin Yousheng got a glimpse of the truth from this question, but he was not sure.

"Next year in June..." Song Shi repeated it in a low voice, and then said: "Lin Yousheng, you are not from here, and you will not belong here after all. There are more and better people waiting for you. But I am not, I was born here, I grew up here, and I have to die here... You know what? We are different. I don't want to make friends, and if I do, I can't be you."

Song Shi left her and walked out of the aisle. The moment her back walked into the sunlight, Lin Yousheng's tears finally lost their restraint and fell uncontrollably.

She is not a good person, she does not have such a flood of kindness, and she has no interest in being someone's salvation. She is just too lonely and wants to find a temporary place to stay during this journey so that she will not be too depressed.Song Shi is too suitable, they are obviously two of the same kind, they should snuggle up for warmth, comfort each other and lick their wounds in all the lonely moments that are difficult to spend alone.

But she forgot that she has always been a selfish person, so she must ignore some important things.For example, I just passed by here, and I will leave eventually, and Song Shi will be the one she left behind without hesitation; for example, Song Shi has been alone for 19 years, and he urgently needs a piece of driftwood after being suddenly left behind. Different, she has drifted alone in this kind of life for a long, long time, so long that she doesn't need another person's comfort at all.

Song Shi didn't want her, and didn't need her at all.

They separated at the school gate. There were a lot of people returning to school on Sundays. Almost everyone who passed by would look at them more. Lin Yousheng took the book and said, "Let's go."

But Song Shi suddenly raised his hand to touch her face, she raised her head, and saw that the dangerous emotions in those eyes had dissipated, I don't know if it was her illusion, the eyes were even a little gentle, making her want to cry again .

Song Shi just rubbed the tears on her face with his thumb, "Go in."

Within a day, Lin Yousheng watched Song Shi walk away with his back turned to her for the second time.

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, but it didn't work at all. She hadn't felt this way in 17 years. The demon living in her heart went to nowhere, and guilt and anxiety kept pouring out. She knelt down and hugged her knees. The books were scattered all over the place.

After an unknown amount of time, she felt someone approaching, raised her head, and saw Long Ye.

Holding the book in one hand, he stood opposite and stretched out his hand to her: "Go."

Song Shi didn't go back to Ji Zhai, but took the bus to the hospital.

"Xiao Song?" Dr. Lin was a little surprised when he saw the people in the corridor, "Why are you here today? Are you feeling unwell? Have you registered? I'll take you for a checkup...

"No." Song Shi gave her a weary smile, "Do you have time? I just want to chat with you."

"...Okay, I've been busy all afternoon, and I just want to go down to get some air."

"Why, what happened?" Lin Ting has always had a good impression of this beautiful and cold girl, but at the same time... she was also very helpless.

"I... You said before that I can actually be cured?"

Lin Ting's eyes lit up, "Yes. As long as you cooperate actively, modern medicine can make you healthy again. Even if this place can't do it, other bigger cities can definitely do it. Xiao Song, I've told you many times, you got it It's not an incurable disease..."

"But what's the point?" Song Shi looked at the clouds in the distance, "Put yourself in the hospital to cure a disease that you don't know if it can be cured, and then live a life that is not expected or needed by anyone. "

Lin Ting has been in the hospital for many years and has seen a lot of helplessness, but she still doesn't know how to advise her.She can keep emphasizing the importance of life to her, or let her spend a day in the emergency room to see the suffering in the world, but she can't erase the girl's past, and she can't heal the trauma caused by her past experience.Song Shi is not one of those second-year teenagers whose cognition has been weakened by the modern Internet and who yells that life is meaningless every day. On the contrary, the things she has experienced are too heavy. When Lin Ting faces her, she often feels unable to speak.

"As far as I know, there are many people who like you, such as my son." Lin Ting answered her words with a little joke.

"You can persuade him." Song Shi said helplessly, "It's almost the third year of high school."

"I can't persuade you, young people's minds are poetry..."

After chatting with Lin Ting for a while, Song Shi felt better. When she walked out of the hospital, she received a call.

"what?"

"Okay... I'll come here now."

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