Please don't be so hard on me!

"Luo Minghan," Mother Luo pretended to be stern, "Stop hugging everyone!"

Only then did Luo Minghan let go of his embrace, turned to his mother, and asked without changing his face: "Why such a coincidence?"

He looked at his younger brother Luo Yuanhe with deep warning eyes.

"What a coincidence, it's not you—" Mother Luo saw his face and forgot everything at once, "What's wrong with your face? What's wrong with your hands? There was a fight? Why are the injuries so ugly?" Just thinking Going up to meet him, he saw Miao Cun again: "Hey? Why are you crying so well?"

"Brother Luo, listen to me—" Miao Cun casually wiped away his tears with the back of his hand, and took a step forward to try to explain.

Mother Luo looked suspiciously at the faces of the two of them.

Luo Yuanhe smiled: "You are already in college, you don't need to report to the teacher when you are in love."

Miao Cun's voice stopped abruptly, and his footsteps also stopped abruptly, staying where he was.His eyes were full of bewilderment and puzzlement, mixed with the sadness of being abandoned, but he was so obedient that he didn't say a word, just looked at Luo Yuanhe quietly and dependently.

Maybe it's just because Aunt Luo is here, so it's inconvenient.

Mother Luo walked up to Miao Cun, and gently wiped his tears with a tissue, blocking Luo Yuanhe's view of Miao Cun.

"Stop crying, Miao Miao, did Luo Minghan bully you? You tell auntie, he is a person who sometimes is not disciplined." Luo's mother pretended to be angry and glared at Luo Minghan, "Aren't you coaxing your own wife?"

Luo Minghan smiled and took the tissue from her hand.

Luo Yuanhe, who was like an outsider, finally said, "Don't stand still, go upstairs first."

Passing by the three of them, they pushed open the glass door of the downstairs lobby.He walked quickly, the door swayed, reflecting his back alone.

Luo Minghan took Miao Cun's hand, and Miao Cun broke free calmly, without looking at him again.

The elevator stopped on the first floor, and the car opened and closed, bringing the four people together.Although Luo's mother has not gone out to work, she has a delicate and keen mind, and has long been aware of the lingering embarrassment and unfamiliarity.She cleared her throat: "Luo Minghan, why did you ask me to come here all the way? Is there anything you can't talk about at home?"

"Miss you?" Luo Minghan put his hands in his trouser pockets, as if nothing happened.

"Miss me and let me come to Luo Yuanhe? You see, you are too smart to do anything unnecessary!"

"It just so happens that I'm free, so let's have a meal together. By the way, Miaomiao also wants to hear his teacher say that he has a good relationship for a hundred years." Luo Minghan glanced at Luo Yuanhe, "Mr. Luo, your opinions and attitudes towards your students are just like this. important, you know?"

Every sentence clearly contained warnings and subtext, and everyone except Luo Mu could hear it.

"—Auntie," Miao Cun said calmly, "I'm sorry, I asked Luo Minghan to find you today."

When he made a sound suddenly, Luo Minghan was taken aback for a moment, and immediately looked at him vigilantly. Luo Yuanhe's pupils moved, and finally restrained himself from looking at Miao Cun from a distance.

"Then you are..." Mother Luo still didn't know what to do, and asked happily.

"I broke up with Luo Minghan. I just wanted to tell you about it today. Why I made an appointment with Mr. Luo is because I have been living with him during this time, so—"

"Miao Cun."

"Miao Cun!"

The two brothers spoke at the same time, Luo Yuanhe's tone was very light but stern, but Luo Minghan lost his senses in an instant: "Do you know what you are talking about?" He lowered his voice, gritted his teeth, and pulled Miao Cun's arm.

With a ding, the elevator arrived at the floor, interrupting this abrupt and weird conversation.

"Miao Miao..." Mother Luo smiled awkwardly, trying to persuade him: "If Luo Minghan offends you, you should punish him. Quarrels between lovers are inevitable, and he is too busy..."

Miao Cun's smile is cute, but his words are firm: "Auntie, what I said is true, Luo Minghan and I broke up a long time ago." He raised his eyes and glanced at Luo Minghan, saving his last face: "Brother Luo was afraid of You are sad, so I have been hiding it from you."

"Then..." Luo's mother suddenly fell into confusion: "Then we can't try again, can we make up again?"

Luo Yuanhe brushed open the door, "Come in first."

He was the calmest person in the whole process, and Miao Cun's most trusted teacher. Luo's mother's thoughts suddenly changed: "Luo Yuanhe, didn't you already know it?!"

I thought it was wrong, but I asked the right question.When Luo Yuanhe was asked, Miao Cun looked at him nervously, his eyes full of hope.

This is the best time, as long as you take advantage of the chaos and confess, then any problems in the future can be solved slowly, discussed and discussed slowly... Miao Cun stood upright, only Luo Yuanhe could be seen in his eyes.He didn't even realize that Luo Minghan's breath was so cold and his face was ashen.

Luo Yuanhe's gaze stayed on Miao Cun's face for a long time, so long that he hadn't looked at it enough, but Luo's mother already felt strange.

"Luo Yuanhe?"

Luo Yuanhe finally looked back at his mother without a trace.

His mother was in poor health. She suffered from the root cause of the disease when she was pregnant with twins in her early years, and she never brought it back.She was tolerant, charitable, and thoughtful all her life, but not without pain.No one knows better than Luo Yuanhe that after Luo Minghan came out, although his mother tried her best to appear open and indifferent, she couldn't sleep all night long.Luo Yuanhe always slept very late because of his painting, and in the middle of the night he could always hear her tossing and turning, pouring himself a glass of warm water after getting up, and then sighing for a long time while holding the desk.

That summer, his mother often got up in the middle of the night and put on a coat for a walk by the river outside the community. Luo Yuanhe put down his brush to accompany her, and she held his hand: "Don't make any more problems, mom can't take it anymore." .”

In fact, Luo Yuanhe has never understood what love is or what it feels like in his heart, so he doesn't know whether he likes men or women.The only person who made him have a clear yearning, possession, wanting to be together, and wanting to care is Miao Cun.This is indeed "like", but whether it is "love", Luo Yuanhe is still observing.If it is really "love", whether it is a "deep love" that can make him subvert everything and accept it like a storm, he still doesn't know.

He will not act rashly until he has figured out his determination - Luo Yuanhe is such a person.If he hastily confessed without understanding the situation, if he is tired, gives up halfway, or awakens other ideas, isn't that just adding trouble and pain to the other party?In essence, Luo Yuanhe doesn't like the feeling of being indebted to others, and the bond formed by indebtedness.

Originally, he had a lot of time to go to France, to slowly figure it out in such a strange environment where all domestic interpersonal affairs were suspended, and to slowly get in touch with Miao Cun to understand.If the feeling is wrong, it is not true love, and he can still take care of Miao Cun, watch him start a family and start a business, and the two of them will be a teacher and friend for the rest of their lives.

But neither fate nor Luo Minghan gave him this chance.

Even Miao Cun didn't give him this chance.

Knowing that Miao Cun also likes me that night, the long-term restlessness in France finally came to fruition, but was thrown to a higher and more dangerous place.He spent the whole night in the studio, trying to force himself not to look back at the light in the living room.

"I don't know." Luo Yuanhe looked at his mother and finally said calmly.

"Brother Luo?" Miao Cun was stunned, smiled shortly, and asked: "Why?" He tried to hint: "I heard your phone call that day, and I was right next to—"

"Miao Miao," Luo Yuanhe looked at him deeply, concealing the surprise in his heart: "Don't say any more."

"I don't understand." The eye circles that had just cried were red and difficult, and after a slight blink, tears came out again and melted on his already wet eyelashes.But his face is very calm, just like Luo Yuanhe, he is indeed the best student who has inherited his mantle.

"Don't bring your private emotional life into business affairs." Luo Yuanhe gently reminded his students, "If you have any problems, you can solve them in private, come in first."

He even said the word "exit" in such a subtle and appropriate manner, not to embarrass anyone on the scene, and even more so, he quickly extinguished the little doubt in his mother's heart.

Luo Minghan got the situation he wanted, but he was not as happy as he expected.He designed everyone, including himself, to make a gamble with fate, and now he won the bet, but all the joy of victory fell apart the moment he saw Miao Cun's swaying figure.

Miao Cun supported the wall, curled his fingers, his phalanges turned pale: "...I see," he took a last look at Luo Yuanhe, and pursed his lips obediently: "Teacher."

"Miao Cun?"

The hand trying to help him was pushed away, and Miao Cun walked up to Mother Luo with a straight back, and apologized for the last time: "I'm sorry, Auntie, I really have no future with Luo Minghan, thank you and uncle for taking care of me in the past, please Give my uncle my regards and apologies."

"Oh Miaomiao—"

Miao Cun walked towards the guest room that once belonged to him for a short time, and when he heard Mother Luo calling him behind him, he smiled at her again, then went in and closed the door.

When he was very young, the New Year's Eve was lively, he stayed in the attic, and he thought about what brother Luo's house was like?If one day he meets his parents, how should he greet them obediently and please them?Before Brother Luo went to college, he had a one-month training camp. Before he left, he would leave him the key to the studio and assign a lot of homework. Miao Cun was left alone, so he just laid the floor in the studio every day. He thought it was really good there. , like heaven, you can paint as you like, once you close your eyes, there are Luo Yuanhe's shadows everywhere.

Every time he went to see Luo Yuanhe, he used to run.

Luo Yuanhe bought a house here in the university town, and did not invite a warm house banquet, but only invited Miao Cun to visit.At night, Miao Cun took the initiative to bid farewell, not daring to stay here overnight.There are a lot of fantasies in his mind, and here he can't help but fantasize about the future with Luo Yuanhe.

Miao Cun now knows that it is a kind of distance that is beyond reach, and it is clearly in front of him, but no matter how he walks or reaches, he can't go or reach it.Just like the Monet bridge in school, they walked on it countless times, but never knew it was a bridge of confession.When he knew it, the sentence that should have been said on the bridge, but no matter what, there was no chance to say it.

Actually, that bridge is very ordinary, isn't it?

Miao Cun bid farewell to everything in the guest bedroom with his eyes.

When he came out, he only carried a backpack, which contained his simple change of clothes, painting utensils, and ipad. His eyes were no longer wet, and only a faint red remained at the end of the raised eyes. He nodded to Mother Luo, and to Luo Minghan. Smiling, he finally stood still and said to Luo Yuanhe, "Teacher, I'm leaving."

Before Luo Yuanhe could speak, Luo Minghan said firmly, "I'll see you off."

Miao Cun did not refuse.When he walked out of the room, an uncontrollable sourness rushed to the tip of his nose, and then hot from his eyes.He restrained himself abruptly, took a deep breath, looked back at Luo Yuanhe again, and pursed his lips very hard, both aggrieved and smiling.

He could understand that Mr. Luo was not alone like him, so no one cared about it, and he didn't take it to heart.Although Mr. Luo looks deserted and looks like he is about to become a fairy, but he has parents to take care of him, he is restrained by being a teacher, and he has the gaze of common sense. Unlike Miao Cun himself, he is really lonely like a fairy.

He finally learned that the adult world is complicated.Adults don't necessarily need to respond to their liking, and even if they like each other, it doesn't necessarily have a happy ending like in the story.

Miao Cun's look seemed to be simply telling Luo Yuanhe that he already understood this truth, so there was no need to worry.

He looked back and walked out of the door.

In the elevator, Luo Minghan finally realized how abnormal his calmness was.

"Miao Cun..."

It's strange that there are times when he can't speak.Obviously already a winner.

"Brother Luo, why do I know you?"

"because I--"

"I don't want to know you anymore."

Luo Minghan's heart hurts badly. Although he has been in pain for many days, he can't get used to this kind of pain anyway, and he can't get numb.

"Don't say that," he cleared the biggest obstacle, and finally he could say something fair: "Let's start over, shall we?"

The elevator door opened, and the body sensor automatically unlocked it. Luo Minghan opened the car door for him, and repeated again: "I'll take you back, let's get to know each other again, and start over."

Miao Cun was noncommittal, but obediently got into the car: "Take me back to the villa, I'm going back to prepare for the make-up exam."

The final week is almost over, many students have gone back, and Miao Cun also received a WeChat message from Matt, telling him that he has finished the exam and returned to China for vacation.The department arranged for Miao Cun to take the make-up exam, and all the assignments were postponed, which would not affect his graduation.Luo Minghan started the car: "When you finish your exams and go on summer vacation, shall we go abroad for a walk? Or go back to the beach and live for a while." Then he remembered something: "It's okay to go to Xishuangbanna again."

Miao Cunhe smiled softly: "Aren't you going to work?"

"You don't have to go to the company, and it doesn't affect making money."

Miao Cun smiled more heartily, looking very childish.

Luo Minghan also laughed, but his heart was still hanging.He knew that something seemed different.

The more calm and calm he was, the more uneasy he was.Rather than laughing, he would rather Miao Cun get angry at him now, lose his temper at him, punch and kick him and swear at him, so that Luo Minghan would feel more confident and feel better.

Although Miao Cun was sitting beside him, he seemed to be watching Miao Cun walk into a distant and unknown place, a closed desert, alone.

"Miaomiao, you can scold me." Luo Minghan started scolding, then paused: "You can also fight with me, I won't fight back."

"No need, it's impossible for me and Mr. Luo." Miao Cun lowered his head and picked at his fingers: "It has nothing to do with you. I shouldn't use you as a substitute. Now I'm just reaping the consequences."

Luo Minghan became anxious in a rare way. He wanted to catch Miao Cun in a hazy way, but he was unprecedentedly unsure: "Where do you want to go in summer vacation?" He changed the subject abruptly.

"seaside."

Luo Minghan's eyes lit up, and he curled his lips into a silent smile: "Okay, then go to the beach."

Soon arrived at Miao Cun's residence, Miao Cun hugged his schoolbag with one hand, pushed the door of the car with the other, and said to Luo Minghan, "Brother Luo, goodbye."

Luo Minghan had already unbuckled his seat belt, and wanted to get out of the car, but Miao Cun stopped him: "No need to send it off, just come here."

"When shall we meet again?"

Miao Cun thought for a while: "When I am happy."

"do you hate me?"

"I hate it. I wanted to tell you that there is nothing I like about you except this face. Every minute I spend with you, I treat you as Teacher Luo. I have never loved you." , not at all. You better be so angry with me that you vomit blood."

Luo Minghan's face was not ugly, "Actually, I have always known."

"You know, do you still insist on being with me?"

"I will try to make you fall in love with me."

Miao Cun looked into Luo Minghan's eyes, curled his lips, and said inexplicably, with a little teasing: "You are as confident as before."

With force on his wrist, the moment the car door was about to close, Luo Minghan didn't know why, but suddenly subconsciously and recklessly blocked the door from closing, "Miaomiao—"

Miao Cun held the schoolbag, hesitated, and looked back at him: "When I am happy."

Luo Minghan watched him swipe his card to enter the door, and then closed the door.

The once-rich district is full of decay that no one cares about and no one takes care of.

He thought he would coax Miao Cun well until the day when Miao Cun was happy and willing to see him.They will spend an intimate summer vacation, and in this long, upcoming summer vacation, they will get to know each other and get to know each other again, without calculations, without substitutions, without strategies and casual play, only honest two hearts.

When he drove out of this villa area, he didn't know that this was the last time he saw Miao Cun here.On a whim, when he drove to the downstairs of the library of the Academy of Fine Arts, he sat quietly and smoked for a while, not knowing that he would not be able to see Miao Cun here again.

The counselor, who was finishing the work at the end of the semester, raised his head from behind the computer when he heard the knock on the door, and saw Miao Cun standing against the light.

"You've been hurt for a hundred days, but you can go to the ground so soon?" He was overjoyed, pushed away the chair and stood up, congratulating Miao Cun.

Miao Cun didn't say anything, and submitted an application for suspension of school to him.