not brilliant

After that day, He Pingyi didn't go to school, Wang Xiaowei brought him books and papers, and he and Jing Can stayed in the room most of the time.Song Yinan and Jing Zaixing also stayed in Huihe. To He Pingyi's surprise, apart from the surprised expression when he saw him pour the porridge that Jing Can couldn't drink into his bowl for the first time, They didn't raise any objection that he and Jing Can were inseparable.

Of course, the two of them still kept their sense of proportion, and only in Jingcan's room, or on the rooftop where there was no one, would they reveal their emotions unabashedly.Jing Can was very clingy in those few days, He Pingyi was doing the questions at the desk, and when he turned around, he could see Jing Can sitting on the bed.He was holding a book in his hand, but he wasn't reading it at all, his eyes were fixed on He Pingyi.

Jing Can has become more coquettish than before, and she is not so shy anymore. When He Pingyi is lying on the bed, Jing Can will put her head on his chest, breathe with the frequency of his chest rising and falling, and wait for the two people to come back together. When the breathing rate of each other is perfectly matched, Jing Can will raise her head and kiss him.

He Pingyi enjoyed Jing Can's proactive approach, but every time after kissing, he would feel uncontrollably distressed when he saw Jing Can's eyes.Jing Can's eyes always seemed to be glowing indistinctly, or in other words, like a gemstone covered with a thin layer of mist, the gemstone was full of affection, but affection was always shrouded in a layer of fear.

Everything seems to be repeating Jing Can's sentence that night, "I'm afraid I will lose it".

He Pingyi knew that Jing Can was afraid, but he didn't know how to make him not afraid.He can't be a superman, and he can't make Jing Can recover overnight, so he can only comfort him slowly.

At a loss, intimacy seemed to be the only effective tranquilizer.He Pingyi pressed Jing Can under him and kissed, and when he couldn't see any emotions other than longing in his eyes, he would kiss his eyes and call out: "Xiao Can."

In fact, He Pingyi never called Jing Can that way before.Even though the two had already been intimately in love, and even though he had already changed the notes on WeChat to such nicknames, boys were always a little shy when faced with intimate names, whether it was him or Jing Can.

When he called out Jing Can's name like this for the first time, Jing Can was obviously taken aback—the same name called by different people really has different effects.Obviously He Pingyi's voice was much lower than Song Yinan's, but Jing Can felt that the voice was as provocative as a wagging tail.

He didn't answer, so He Pingyi hugged him and called again, and again... like an echo in the valley, repeating his persistent love.

After many voices, Jing Can finally folded her arms together, hugged He Pingyi's neck and responded with a low voice.

"Ah."

Jing Can couldn't tell what kind of state of mind he spent those few days. It was more like he was escaping from reality driven by fear, not thinking about He Pingyi's college entrance examination, not thinking about the future, not thinking about reality, and just coveting the temporary stability.

Lu Qiu called several times. At first, he just worriedly asked He Pingyi what happened, why he didn't go to school or go home, and He Pingyi didn't want to tell Lu Qiu more, so he always returned vaguely.Lu Qiu once or twice is nothing, but after more times, Lu Qiu's tone became a bit unpleasant.He Pingyi deliberately avoided Jing Can to answer the phone every time, but Jing Can followed him too closely, so it was inevitable to hear Lu Qiu's dissatisfaction and worry.

"Pingyi, although we don't ask you anything, you have to take the college entrance examination."

"No, Mom, it's not that I don't want to take the college entrance examination. I'm reviewing and doing papers every day." He Pingyi caught a glimpse of Jing Can's eyelids slowly drooping, and hurriedly ended the conversation with Lu Qiu, "Mom, don't worry. , I'm really fine, and I won't leave behind my studies, I still have something to do, I'll call you later."

After hanging up the phone, He Pingyi threw the phone on the table, and stretched out a hand to the person who was sitting on the bed watching him in a daze.

Receiving his signal, Jing Can got up and walked towards him.He Pingyi used his other hand to wrap his arms around his waist, then pressed Jing Can and sat sideways on his lap.

They had never hugged in this posture before, and Jing Can didn't even know where to put her hands for a while.He Pingyi didn't give him time to adapt, he hugged the person sitting on his lap tightly with both hands, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Is your mother worried?"

"Well," seeing that Jing Can's body was extremely stiff, He Pingyi squeezed his neck, trying to make him relax, "I'll go home at night? I'll come back after a while."

"Okay," Jing Can loosened her tense shoulders, thought about it, felt that something was wrong, and quickly added, "You should sleep at home and don't come back."

He Pingyi stared at his flickering eyes for a while, then suddenly smiled.

"Do you really want me to go home and sleep?"

Jing Can didn't speak at first, he moved his body to make himself sit more comfortably, then tilted his head, and rested his head on He Pingyi's shoulder.His gaze fell somewhere in the empty room, and after his eyelashes fluttered twice, he looked away and shrank his neck on He Pingyi's shoulder.

"No." He said honestly.

"That's it." He Pingyi retracted his arms and hugged him even tighter, "I'll come back to sleep with you at night, don't think so much."

The sky was a bit bleak that night, after He Pingyi left, Jing Can lay on the window the whole time, looking up at the crescent moon that had no light.He didn't know how long he looked at it, but gradually he could feel the soreness from his neck, and his eyes were swollen.He slowly pressed his forehead against the edge of the window, closed his eyes and calmed down, but suddenly heard the sound of the wooden door being pushed open.

The approaching footsteps were soft and familiar.

Jing Can didn't know what was wrong, these days, even though He Pingyi was by his side, his hallucinations didn't seem to fade away at all.Xu Hewei came to him more frequently, sometimes standing in the room watching him, sometimes talking to him.Even, sometimes even though He Pingyi was still in the room, Xu Hewei would still stand aside and persistently call his name.

Jing Can slowly turned her head and looked over, sure enough, she saw Xu Heyi holding the New Year, sitting on the chair that He Pingyi often sat on.

"Aren't you going to touch it?" Under the bright light, Xu Hewei smiled and asked.

Jing Can still had reason, he knew that he shouldn't answer Xu Heyi's words, and shouldn't have any interaction with him, but New Year just lay there innocently looking at him, so he got up anyway.

New Year is still very good, Jing Can put her hands on its little head, and it closed its eyes, as if enjoying the long-lost intimacy.Jing Can squatted for a while, then suddenly raised her head and asked Xu Hewei, "Can you take care of it?"

Although still holding a gentle smile, Xu Hewei shook his head with some firmness: "No, I can't take care of it, it belongs to you."

it's yours.

Jing Can didn't speak, she pressed her chin into the crook of her arm, and then stroked New Year's head.

Saying goodbye is always difficult, one counts as saying goodbye to Xu Heyi, and one counts as saying goodbye to the New Year.Jing Can thought a little sadly, as if he had been experiencing one-sided farewells for so many years, and found out that those people or things he was nostalgic for were just fragments of illness, and closed his opened mouth again and again.The days like this have passed for a long time, the words I want to say have become less and less, and the blood in my heart seems to have become colder and colder.

For another world, he has always been afraid and nostalgic. He always feels that that world is actually himself, a portrayal of all his longings and desires, and a behemoth he has entangled with emotions and thoughts bit by bit.He knew that he needed to cut himself off from that world, and he tried again and again, but finally found that it was really too difficult.

Sometimes he wonders in a daze, if that world is his own, then what is it that he cut off?Can he really cut it off?

New Year seemed to sense something, the moment Jing Can withdrew his hand, it suddenly jumped off Xu Heyou's body, wagging its tail and barking at Jing Can non-stop.Jing Can was startled, and quickly raised her finger to her lips: "Shh, don't bark."

After finishing speaking, Jing Can was stunned.

No, I made a mistake, he corrected himself in his heart, the New Year is a fake, its cries cannot be heard by others.

New Year began to circle around him, and kept pawing at his legs, looking anxious and scared.

"What about him? Has he gone home?" Jing Can froze and didn't move, Xu Hewei suddenly spoke, interrupting his train of thought.

"Hmm." Jing Can unconsciously responded, distracted by the New Year.

"He stays with you at home every day, and he will delay his studies." Xu Hewei didn't seem to care about Jing Can's avoidance this time, but said calmly, "There are not many days left before the college entrance examination, you should let him go to school."

"I know." When she came back to her senses, Jing Can raised her head calmly and said to Xu Heyi, "I plan to let him go back to school."

By the time Xu Hewei left, fine cold sweat was already breaking out on Jing Can's forehead.He supported the chair with his hands and wanted to stand up, but after squatting for too long, his legs became numb, and after getting up, the darkness of the brain appeared in front of his eyes after lack of oxygen. For some reason, Jing Can suddenly fell to the ground. on the ground.

When I fell, I supported the edge of the bed, but it didn't make too much noise.The dizziness intensified as his head touched the hard wooden floor.Jing Can was lying on the ground, flustered by the bright lights.He raised a hand to cover his eyes, and at the same time he heard the sound of New Year's "Wow".

Jing Can propped herself up and got up, looked at New Year for a while, and finally reached out and hugged it.

He Pingyi hurried back, opened the door, and saw that Jing Can was lying on the bed and fell asleep.He was not covered with a quilt, and his loose short sleeves were slanted to one side irregularly. Even in his sleep, there were still a few eyebrows standing stubbornly on his forehead.

After gently closing the door behind him, He Pingyi put his arms on the bed and bent over Jing Can's face.

He kissed Jing Can lightly, but the sleeping person followed the kiss and turned his head to face him.

He Pingyi smiled, and whispered, "Go to sleep."

"new year……"

Jing Can grunted, retracted her arms, and the gesture of embracing something became more obvious.

He Pingyi was stunned for a moment, then stood at the head of the bed, looking at Jing Can's arms.

After an unknown amount of time, he leaned forward, stretched out his hand, and touched the air in the crook of Jing Can's arm.

It's finally... the New Year's Eve.

"He Pingyi..."

The person on the bed didn't know when he opened his eyes, He Pingyi's hand trembled, and then fell on the thin quilt beside him.

"Huh?" He pulled off the quilt to cover Jing Can, and said, "Go on to sleep, I'll take a shower."

Jing Can put her arms by her side, nodded, and said "yes".

At this time, he promised him to be fine, but when he came out of the shower, Jing Can hugged a pillow and leaned against the bedside, waiting for him.He Pingyi's hair was still dripping, Jing Can got up and rubbed against the bed, and pulled the towel in his hand with one hand.

"what?"

Jing Can didn't speak, she took his arm with one hand and let him sit on the bed, knelt behind him and wiped his hair.

"Hey," He Pingyi laughed and teased him, "What kind of treatment am I getting today?"

Usually, after Jing Can took a shower, he wiped Jing Can's hair.

Jing Can didn't answer, and let him tease her.After drying her hair, she took the hair dryer by the bed and dried He Pingyi's hair.

The warm wind was blowing, and Jing Can was stroking He Pingyi's hair at a leisurely pace, just as if she was touching New Year's head just now.

After doing all this, He Pingyi turned to look at him, as if he wanted to see some abnormal marks on his face.Jing Can didn't give him too many chances, he put the hair dryer aside, moved to He Pingyi's mouth when He Pingyi turned around, and kissed him proactively.

Before He Pingyi had time to put on his shirt, he just put on a pair of trousers. The kiss brought a natural hug. When touching He Pingyi's skin, Jing Can flinched from the heat, but quickly moved her body. Get closer to He Pingyi.

He Pingyi quickly took the initiative to change his posture. He pressed Jing Can on the bed and kissed his white and soft neck from his mouth. Jing Can was still very sensitive to the touch on the neck, so he couldn't help but snorted. He Pingyi's panting became louder.The white short sleeves were lifted from below, and when they embraced affectionately, Jing Can opened her eyes next to He Pingyi's ear, and once again saw the white lantern above her head.

But unlike when he fell, it was a sudden spin, but this time he slowly lost his sobriety.

"Xiao Can." He Pingyi kissed his ear and called him in his ear.Jing Can turned her head to the side, deliberately rubbing her hot cheek against He Pingyi.

The faces of young people were stacked together, burning up the young and ignorant nerves.

"He Pingyi," the boiling emotion made her voice hoarse, and Jing Can's breathing was heavy.He put his lips against He Pingyi's temples, and swore in a place where no one touched: "I like you."

Beads of sweat slid down from He Pingyi's forehead at this moment and landed on Jing Can's forehead.He Pingyi wiped it off for him with his fingers, propped himself up, looked into Jing Can's serious eyes, and asked him in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

Sudden confession, sudden enthusiasm, there must be a reason.

Jing Can didn't speak, but he stretched out his hand to pull He Pingyi's body down, forcing him to kiss him, with such passion as if he had changed his soul.He Pingyi couldn't help it, and lightly touched Jing Can's neck with his teeth, trying to wake him up.

Sensitive and soft places were threatened, Jing Can couldn't help but tilted her head back, arched her whole body, and pressed He Pingyi even tighter.

"Um……"

It's dying.

This groan made He Pingyi's eyes go dark, and he turned over and lay down next to Jing Can, his chest heaved more violently than ever before.Covering his eyes with one arm, he let out a long sigh of relief when the feeling in his body was less turbulent, and moved his hand away.Turning his head to the side, he saw Jing Can staring at him with open eyes, he turned over to face Jing Can, and touched his face with one hand.

"Tell me, what happened?"