not brilliant

Jing Can left in a hurry, he didn't wait for He Pingyi's explanation, and he didn't have time to say goodbye to him, so he just sent He Pingyi a message on the way back to Beijing, telling him that he had something to do at home and would go back to Beijing with his father for a few days.

He Pingyi quickly replied and asked him what happened.

Jing Can didn't lie, she told the truth about her going to visit her biological mother's grave.

He Pingyi returned a hugging expression, and said, "Then, next week's mock test, can you still take it?"

Jing Can counted the time and replied, "I won't participate."

When Jing Can and Jing arrived home, the room was empty.

"Your mother accompanied Xiaowei to other places to sketch, I will cook for you these two days, let's make do with it."

Jing Zaixing's culinary skills are actually not bad. In the past, he brought Jing Can by himself, and he developed all kinds of abilities.For example, his specialty dish is sauce-flavored chicken wings, because Jing Can loved it the most when he was a child, and even Song Yinan praised this dish repeatedly, saying that his cooking was not as good as Jing Can's.

"By the way, you can order flowers this year."

Jing Can nodded, saying yes.

Speaking of which, Jing Can really has no memory of his mother. He was only one year old when her mother died, and he hadn't had time to retain any memories of her.Jing Zaixing told Jing Can some things about his mother, for example, she likes the biggest bouquet of flowers, white roses, and picnics on the grass in spring. What Jing Zaixing told him the most was that his mother had great knowledge of mathematics. Almost obsessive love.

It is also because of her that Jing Can has indeed inherited an extraordinary IQ.He still remembers the surprise on Jing Zaixing's expression in the teacher's office when he was a child, when he easily solved the math problems in the senior grades. It was the first time he saw such a revealing expression on Jing Zaixing's face.At that time, he knew that his praised intelligence could make a difference to his serious father, so he accepted all Jing Zaixing's training and worked harder than anyone else.And at the beginning, he didn't encounter any difficulties in learning mathematics. He never experienced the pain of others who couldn't solve the problem no matter what. He could get No.1 in any competition.Everyone said that he was a genius, and that he would have great potential in the future. At that time, he really thought that he would definitely achieve something in the future.

After Jing Can left Huihe, for some reason, He Pingyi was always restless.He was bored in the room for a long time, pressing the twitching left eyelid, and decided to take advantage of this holiday to build the dog house by himself.

Nothing can be delayed.Long nights and many dreams are too prone to accidents.

He went to the market, bought some usable wood, and asked He Li for help after returning home.It's been a long time since he and his son did handicrafts together. He Li was very excited and brought out his little experience in sawing wood.

"You can't do this, put the board on the chair and step on it with your feet."

He Pingyi followed He Li's instructions: "Is this so?"

"That's right." He Li saw that He Pingyi was looking good soon, and said with a smile, "You kid, you can learn everything quickly. Eh? I haven't asked you why you are making a kennel?"

He Pingyi didn't stop moving, and said, "Do it for my classmates."

He Li was stunned for a moment: "Make a kennel for a classmate?"

He Pingyi was very helpless with his father's ability to understand: "My classmate's dog..."

"Oh, hahahaha, I said so."

After the two of them finished their work, He Li stood aside, lit a cigarette for himself, and watched He Pingyi write on the roof.

"New Year's home," He Li read those words again, "is the puppy called 'New Year'?"

"Well," He Pingyi puffed his cheeks, blew a few breaths on those words, and turned around to ask He Li, "Does it sound good?"

He Li took a puff of cigarette and said, "Not bad."

Seeing He Pingyi squatting there motionless, He Li called He Pingyi and asked him, "What are you thinking?"

He Pingyi looked at the four characters and smiled: "I want to smoke a cigarette."

"Do you dare?" He Li stared and asked him, "You don't smoke secretly, do you?"

"No, just teasing you."

"It's fine if you don't have one. Young people are not allowed to smoke, it's bad for your health."

Adults are always like this, knowing that it is not good, but they are still doing it, and they have to warn children not to do it.

He Li took two steps, pulled He Pingyi's arm and pulled him up: "Stop squatting, your feet will be numb later, let's go, it will take a long time to paint, come with me for a walk around there .”

Hearing this, He Pingyi knew that He Li was going to teach him a lesson.Sure enough, within a few steps, He Li asked him, "Are you in a bad mood recently?"

"Yeah." He Pingyi didn't hide anything, and said directly, "Yes, but I'm fine, so don't worry about it."

He Li didn't say a word, he smoked the remaining cigarette silently, pressed it to the trash can and crushed it out.

It was noon, and many people in the yard took their children out to play while it was warm.The fitness equipment gathered several children, talking and laughing, playing on the seesaw.

He Pingyi looked at the seesaw over there in a daze, He Li raised his head and said, "Take you to play for a while?"

"Heh," He Pingyi laughed, "Are you coaxing the children here?"

He Li also laughed, and after laughing, he said: "I hope you will always be children. When you were young, you always played with this. Your brother is older than you, heavier than you, and he always puts you on top. Let you down, you cry several times."

"Really? Why am I so cowardly? I don't even remember."

"How old were you back then?" He Li turned his gaze around, and then he let out a long sigh of relief as he looked at the courtyard filled with bright sunshine and laughter, "I used to think that if you It's really not easy to bring up the two boys. It's not easy, but they were brought up, but in the end they were raised... and one was lost."

He rubbed his eye sockets with his dry and skinned hands, and rubbed them twice vigorously.

"Dad." He Pingyi patted He Li's shoulder, "Don't say that."

He Pingyi is very familiar with this feeling of self-blame. He has thought about "what if" many times, but unfortunately no one will give him another chance.

"Hey, I know, it's useless to say anything, I just want to tell you, don't worry about it, if you have something uncomfortable in your heart, don't dare to tell your mother, tell me, I look better than your mother It's okay, if I don't even want to talk about it, you can tell Dr. Wen, she asked how you were doing a while ago. "

He Pingyi smiled this time: "I can see it too, you forgot, Doctor Wen said that I was the fastest recovering patient she had ever seen."

"Come on, you." He Li took a deep look, "You're not recovering quickly, you're pushing yourself to the point of nowhere."

Being exposed, He Pingyi didn't speak, but just twitched his mouth.

Before the father and son left, He Pingyi turned his head and looked in the direction of the gate.He didn't know why he turned back this way, and he didn't understand why after such a long time, he felt that he was slowly letting go, but he still looked forward to seeing the man dragging the suitcase at the gate, calling He is a "flat-minded" person.

Three days later, Jing Zaixing drove Jing Can to the cemetery. Jing Can followed Jing Zaixing and walked slowly to the place where his mother rested.

The cemetery was extraordinarily quiet, and the footsteps of the two came one by one.

Jing Can put the bunch of flowers she was holding in front of the tombstone, while Jing Zaixing stood aside and stared at the tombstone with special concentration.

"Jing Can, I always thought that you were very similar to your mother."

As Jing Zaixing said, he took out a cigarette from his pocket, but he just pinched it on his fingertips and did not light it.Jing Can lowered her eyes, and her eyes fell on the tombstone.

"Before she died, she said that there are two things that are very regrettable. One is that she cannot watch you grow up, and the other is that she has not found a perfect answer to the math problem she studied. I always thought that you are like her, Both gifted and passionate about mathematics. But now I have doubts about my judgment..."

Jing Zaixing frowned slightly, as before, there was a slight reproach in his eyes.

"So, can you tell me in front of your mother, do you still want to go on the road of mathematics?"

Listening to Jing Can's words, a sour feeling could not stop rushing in her eye sockets.

After a long silence, he said softly, "Yes."

How could he not want to.Although he was pushed on this road by Jing Zaixing, he could clearly remember the joy of answering every question along the way.For a long time, it seemed that mathematics was the only thing in his world. When walking on the road, he thought about formulas, and when eating, he thought about whether there was a better solution.During that time, his self-confidence and sense of accomplishment were all given by mathematics. He even felt that he was born for mathematics, and that was his kingdom.

No one can understand the meaning of mathematics to him, just like no one can understand the meaning of He Pingyi to him.

He never thought of stopping, but as he was walking on this road, his surroundings suddenly changed...

Jing Can bit her lip, not wanting to let herself fall into painful thoughts.

"Since you want to, why stop?" Jing Zaixing repeated what he once said, "I don't want you to waste time."

Jing Can didn't want to cry in front of Jing Zaixing, nor in front of her own mother.So he kept his face down all the time, suppressing the surging emotions in his heart.

"Yi Nan persuaded me not to put too much pressure on you, so I only talked to you today. What I want to say is, if you don't plan to give up, start today, cheer up, go back to school, and continue studying. If you If you decide to give up, tell me today, and I will never say anything about you again."

Jing Zaixing's last words hurt Jing Can's heart, and he suddenly remembered a movie where a man wrote "IQUIT" on the wall.

"I don't want to give up." When Jing Can spoke, he realized that his lips were trembling. He clenched his fists and said, "I just need time."

"Time?" Jing Zaixing seemed to have suppressed it for a long time. He tried his best to restrain his emotions and didn't want to yell at Jing Can, but he really couldn't understand why Jing Can gave up on himself like this. time!"

The time when the mind is sharpest.

Jing Can recited these words over and over again in her heart, and then felt a severe pain in her head.He really wanted to squat down with his head in his arms, but he had long been used to concealing his abnormality, so he just stood numbly at this moment, listening to Jing Zaixing's reprimand.

"I didn't ask you to have any achievements now, but you can't interrupt your studies like this. If it's because you don't get along well with your classmates, then I can go to study with you and teach you how to behave. If it's because you have encountered a bottleneck, then You just find a way to break through, no matter what problem you encounter, what you should do is to solve it, instead of hiding here and wasting time in a high school."

From Jing Zaixing's point of view, all problems can be solved. If the school is not good, you can change it. If you don't do well in research, you can continue to work hard. They, he wants to suspend school.

This made him really unacceptable.

Jing Can resembles his mother in some ways, but in many places, Jing Can can't figure out who he resembles.In his memory, Jing Can's mother was very cheerful and enthusiastic. She would invite him to drink and celebrate when she solved a difficult math problem, and would tell him how wonderful the world of mathematics is. She was never afraid of any difficulties and difficulties. problem.But it is obvious that Jing Can is far behind her in this regard.

The word "disappointment" seemed to be engraved on Jing Zaixing's face.Jing Can didn't even dare to look him directly, because every time she looked into his eyes, Jing Can could see a useless version of herself in his eyes.

"Dad," in a quiet environment, Jing Can endured a severe headache and begged, "Let me think about it, okay?"

After holding the cigarette in his hand for long enough, Jing Zaixing looked at Jing Can silently for a while, and finally raised his hand and lit the cigarette with a lighter.

After Jing Can came back from the cemetery, he went into the house, he didn't come out for dinner, and Jing Zaixing didn't come to call him.Jing Can lay on the bed alone, and he still didn't fall asleep until the sun was about to rise outside.

He sat down at the desk, turned on the button on the desk lamp, and took out his childhood notes from the drawer.

When I was writing when I was young, I always liked to stretch the strokes that could be stretched, so that it looked chic and free.From these notes, Jing Can can still see her confident self from before.

Someone was calling him outside the window, Jing Can recognized the voice, he didn't dare to go to the window, he was afraid to face Xu Hewei.But this time Xu Hewei seemed to have decided on something, Jing Can ignored him, and he kept calling him loudly.

The next day, Song Yinan came to wake Jing Can up and found that Jing Can was sitting on a stool with her legs hugged.

"Xiao Can?"

Song Yinan was taken aback by his pale face, and panicked when he saw his red eyes.

"Xiao Can? What's wrong with you? Is there something wrong?"

Song Yinan squatted beside Jing Can, shaking his arm, and asked him.She touched Jing Can's forehead, confirmed that he didn't have a fever, and breathed a sigh of relief.But Jing Can never responded to her, Song Yinan became more and more anxious, kept shaking Jing Can's body, asking again and again.

"I...have a headache." Jing Can's breathing became short, as if her oxygen supply was insufficient.

Jing Can's appearance was really frightening, Song Yinan was a little flustered for a while, and hurriedly said: "Then why don't you go and rest for a while? Did you not sleep all night?"

Song Yinan knew that Jing Zaixing took Jing Can to the cemetery the day before, and Song Yinan would not disturb them on this day in previous years, so she did not see Jing Can yesterday.Seeing Jing Can like this now, I know what Jing Zaixing must have said to Jing Can yesterday

She helped Jing Can up, feeling the heavy weight on her arms.Jing Can took two steps towards the bed, and suddenly, for some reason, her knees gave way and she knelt on the ground.

"Xiao Can!" Song Yinan quickly grabbed his shoulders, she wanted to help Jing Can up, but when she raised her eyes, she saw Jing Can staring at the head of the bed.

Song Yinan followed Jing Can's line of sight, and there was nothing there except a desk lamp and an alarm clock.