Let me have a drunken dream

Chen Nianbei chose a quiet coffee shop, and she deliberately chose a corner location.She asked for a cup of boiled water, and Cui Shengxian asked for a cup of coffee.

"Tell me, should you explain it first or I will explain it first." Chen Nianbei said straight to the point.

Cui Shengxian half leaned on the sofa, "Don't you think you should explain first?" He half-closed his eyes and looked lazy and domineering, as if this was a matter of course.

Chen Nianbei's hand that had just picked up the glass had to be put down by his words, and she almost slammed it down heavily on the table.She raised the corner of her mouth, "Oh, why should I explain it first? What about you? You have lived as clean as if you have never lived in the past three years?"

"Okay, let me tell you first. I served in the military for two years, and in the last five months, I made movies. The group came back, promoted the movie, and went everywhere." Cui Shengxian explained roughly. "And you?"

"What you said is too succinct. You can find this kind of thing in any few entertainment newspapers. This is what you said. I think it's better not to say it." Chen Nianbei said, taking a sip of water.

"Then have you looked for these entertainment newspapers? How much do you really know?" Cui Shengxian was aroused by Chen Nianbei's attitude. He didn't believe that if she read everything, if she really cared about him, she would still be so calm Sit here and talk to him.

"How much do I know? Yes, I don't know anything. I only know that I have been waiting for you for two years, and I have been wronged for two years. Finally, you are discharged from the army. I thought my grievances could finally be relieved. I have endured long enough." .I called you the day you left the army and your 'old friend' your silence, your unfamiliarity, your strangeness made me angry, confused, and sad. I always thought you were different, I don't understand why It will suddenly become like this! But one thing is, I never think that I did something wrong, or that I have a problem. Instead, you should touch your conscience and tell me what you think. Some things even end There must be a decent excuse." After that, she glanced at Cui Shengxian and continued: "Don't believe me, I will give you the same sentence. How much do you really know about me in the past three years? How much do you really know about me? Why are you accusing me of being a teacher!"

"Because I'm your husband!" Cui Shengxian almost blurted out this sentence.Chen Nianbei provoked his anger again and again, he did not expect Chen Nianbei to say such words that questioned their relationship.My heart instantly cooled down.

Cui Shengxian was the 'husband' she once believed in. "It's a pity that we don't have a certificate." When she said this, Chen Nianbei's eyes became hot. A certificate is not just a marriage certificate for her. And a marriage relationship, and more importantly, him.She wanted a real marriage, and she wanted him to give her stability, give her a title, and give her everything a husband could give her.But it's been almost three years, and there is nothing, and it has created a situation where it's almost the end of the song.

Cui Shengxian seemed a little irritable. He took out a cigarette from his pocket, and just after he lit it, before he smoked it, Chen Nianbei reminded him, "Smoking is prohibited indoors." to the side.Rubbing his temples, "Chen Nianbei, you don't understand me. I didn't know how much you don't understand me until today." He closed his eyes and leaned on the sofa.

"I don't understand you? How do you understand me?" Chen Nianbei looked at Cui Shengxian's frown, feeling a little bit reluctant, "I always thought you kept your promise, so I kept waiting. But the wait came It's all kinds of gossip about you. If you play with those women, you should let me know if you care about me. I'm an ordinary white-collar worker, and I don't walk around in your circle. I don't understand that. It's right and wrong." After that, she turned her face away and looked out the window.There were too many grievances to express, but when she really wanted to speak out, she realized that only one was enough to make her choke.

Chen Nianbei's words and choking made Cui Shengxian uncomfortable, he sighed and rubbed his temples again.What Chen Nianbei said was right, how could he force her, an outsider, to understand those things inside the circle, it was unfair. "Nianbei, where's the child?" The child has always been on his mind, but he still believes that she will take the child away.

"Stay with me, my mother will take care of her." Chen Nianbei answered truthfully.After all, Cui Shengxian is the father of the child, and he has the right to know the whereabouts of the child. "However, I registered my child's registered permanent residence in City S, and my surname follows."

Hearing this sentence, Cui Shengxian, who had finally adjusted his emotions, was almost furious again, "Chen Nianbei, you are too stubborn, the child's father is not dead yet! You should at least discuss it with me. Just such a hasty decision?" He suddenly realized that he couldn't see the woman in front of him clearly, at least he couldn't understand.In her memory, she was always sensible, and she discussed things with him, but all the decisions now, whether it was about her own affairs or about her children, were almost all what she said alone.What position did he think she put him in?

Chen Nianbei glanced at Cui Shengxian, and then said calmly: "All the decisions I made were forced to do so. If you feel wronged and neglected, then I have to say, I am wronged too. I also feel neglected when I’m isolated and helpless.” She paused, and then said: “You are a father, and you feel like a father. As a mother of a child, I ask you to understand the difficulties of a single mother.”

Cui Shengxian couldn't understand more and more, his initial arrangement was nothing more than asking Chen Nianbei to wait for him at his original residence and take good care of the children.His original plan was to wait until he was discharged from the army before arranging the marriage between them.In his opinion, everything should come naturally, where is the difficulty?He intuitively felt that there was something in Chen Nianbei's words, but he cared more about the child. "Nianbei, the child was born between you and me. As a father, I have the right and need to participate in his life. Although she has half Chinese blood, her father is Korean, so she must be Korean. Stirring the coffee in his hand, he said, "Let the child return to Korean nationality, and everything between you and me will be wiped out. I will pretend it never happened. You and the child will go back with me."

She has no objection to Xiao Yujing's return to Korean nationality, but Cui Shengxian's statement makes her unhappy.She asked him inexplicably: "What do you mean you pretend it never happened? Could it be that I have done something wrong in the past three years?"

Cui Shengxian smiled, "Are you right? Is it right for you to leave Korea with your child without saying a word? Nianbei, I didn't abandon you, and I didn't cheat on you. What's the reason for you to leave me? No matter you It doesn't matter whether it's right or wrong for the reason for leaving, at least remember to give me a reason and explanation afterwards. There is also the matter of the child, you are too hasty." He said every sentence with plausibility.But Chen Nianbei felt more wronged the more he listened, "Cui Shengxian, why are you always so confident, confident that everything is under your control. No matter how much I rely on and love you, I still can't accept your words. You are too self-righteous!" She took out her wallet, took out two one-hundred-dollar bills and put them on the table, attracting the waiter to ask for the bill. "The child is too young, I can't let the child go with you. I want to take her, I can take care of her, but you can't. If you are sensible, think about the child's appearance in your current situation What's the benefit? I know your situation. If I'm not wrong, you're almost starting from scratch now. If you're a star, it doesn't matter if you have privacy or not. For yourself. As for me, going to Korea is more than enough for me, but not enough for me.”

Cui Shengxian didn't understand her "more than enough heart, but not enough strength", he looked at her without saying a word for a long time.Chen Nianbei pulled the corner of his mouth and forced a smile, "If you want to know why I came back suddenly, you can check the files of the immigration management department. Based on your background, I believe you can know everything about it. I don't want to tell you about it myself. something." She picked up the cold boiled water and took a sip.The water stayed in her mouth for a while, then swallowed, "I didn't want to mention this matter again, it made me feel warm and cold." It has been a long time since I thought of this matter again, and since that day she has always chosen to go to it deliberately. Forgotten, she felt that this incident caused her the greatest embarrassment both psychologically and physically.She felt that it would take a lot of effort to bring up such a thing, she didn't like it, and she didn't want to.Really want to talk about, really as she thought.

"Here is the change." The waiter handed her both the change and the bill, and she picked it up and thanked her.

Since she said that she wanted him to find out about Chen Nianbei, it was inconvenient for Cui Shengxian to say more.But although the child was not conceived by him in October, it still has his blood.He is extremely concerned about the child, "I can always see the child, I have never seen her since she was born. I am a father, and I love children. I understand that you are a mother, and you must also understand me as a father. Mood."

"Forget it, it's too late, the child is already asleep, and my parents are also resting, so it's not convenient for me to take you to my house. Next time." Chen Nianbei looked at his watch and it was already 23:30 in the evening. She didn't hesitate refused.No matter how much reason Cui Shengxian had, he had to swallow it back, and no matter how much he missed, he had to hold it back in his heart.He nodded and smiled helplessly, "Let's go, the coffee shop is also closing."

On the way Chen Nianbei sent Cui Shengxian back to the hotel, both of them had a feeling that something really had passed with time after all, but if it was really what it was, it was hard to say, it was just a feeling.But can it be said that there is no love between them?Obviously not.Even if the love is deep, there is no time.

As soon as he got home, Chen Nianbei found that there was no one at home.She found it very strange that she just received a call from Father Chen at this time.

"Hey, Dad. Where are you? Where's Yu Jing?" She asked anxiously.

Father Chen stood in the corridor of the hospital and said softly, "Don't worry. Yujing has a high fever. Your mother and I took her to the hospital to see a doctor. She is now in the drip room. Come to Hospital A, don't worry."

When Chen Nianbei rushed to the IV room of Hospital A and saw Xiao Yujing with a needle inserted into her body, she felt very distressed.Hurry up to take her out of Wu Meifeng's arms, her red face still had the residual heat of a high fever, but her little face, which was always silly and happy before, was full of sickness.She hugged the child tightly, thinking that Xiao Yujing always called her father, and if she got better, she would take her to see Cui Shengxian.Show her the father she's always wanted to see but never met.

Chen Nianbei hugged the child and looked up at his parents, "Mom and Dad, it's late now, you go home and sleep quickly. I'll be guarding Yujing today." Wu Meifeng was a little worried. She always felt that Chen Nianbei was inexperienced. Not good for children, especially children who are still sick.After seeing Wu Meifeng's expression, Chen Nianbei quickly said, "Tomorrow I will ask for leave to take care of her, you guys go to rest."

"I..." Wu Meifeng was still worried, and when she wanted to say something, Father Chen interrupted her. "Just let Nianbei watch over your granddaughter, and I'll go back to rest with you." Father Chen's words made it hard for her to argue, so she had to go home with her.

Chen Nianbei hugged Xiao Yujing, and Xiao Yujing felt a difference in her embrace, and opened her closed eyes again.Seeing that it was Chen Nianbei, she called out 'Mom' in a numb voice, and fell asleep again.This "Mom" yelled into Chen Nianbei's bones.Just this one let her give everything without complaint or regret.

The person in her arms was asleep, but she really didn't feel sleepy.Looking at the patients and their family members coming and going, she suddenly saw Zhang Chen, who was probably taking medicine for the family members, with a hurried expression.Zhang Chen also saw her, nodded and said hello, and left.Chen Nianbei didn't like this person, he was too scheming and not an aboveboard gentleman.Zhang Chen was taken aback when he saw Chen Nianbei, and felt familiar with the eyes of the child in her arms, but he didn't think too much about it, after all, it had nothing to do with him.

Hastily passing by, the wind and clouds of time have fallen too much, and people have no chance to catch it.Until the end I had to sigh a word of helplessness.