Let me have a drunken dream

After bigbang's last domestic tour, it finally came to an end.After the celebration banquet, Cui Shengxian stumbled up the stairs of the Daegu Hotel because he drank a little too much.After finally reaching the room, he immediately threw himself on the bed.

As soon as he lay down and squinted his eyes, he heard the doorbell ringing. He instinctively chose to cover his head with the quilt, so as not to hear it.But he couldn't bear the doorbell that kept ringing, so he had to get up from the bed to open the door.The moment he opened the door, the alcohol in his fright evaporated completely in his body, and he sobered up instantly.

"Nian... Nianbei, why are you here?" He stared blankly at Chen Nianbei who was standing at the door tightly wrapped up.

"What are you doing standing there, I'm freezing. Let me in quickly." Chen Nianbei was at the door, clapping his hands and stamping his feet, his ears and nose were red from the cold.It looked like he had been standing at the door for a long time.

Seeing Chen Nianbei like this, Cui Shengxian felt warm and distressed, and he immediately took Chen Nianbei into the room in his arms.He put Chen Nianbei's hands in his clothes, covered her ears and cheeks with his hands, and kissed her nose. "How long have you been standing outside? I'm going home tomorrow, is it worth it for you to freeze yourself like this just to see me?"

Chen Nianbei leaned on Cui Shengxian's chest, and said with a smirk, "You are a fan of the concert, and you haven't let go of your idol burden. Why do I have to meet you? I don't admire you. Besides, You think I'm happy on a cold day, I have a cooperation project to discuss in this hotel in Daegu, so I'll take a look at you by the way."

"Chen Nianbei, don't you worship me? Would you like to come and see me?" Although Cui Shengxian knew that Chen Nianbei was doing something bad on purpose, he still felt unspeakably depressed and lost in his heart.Although he is a man, he also likes the necessary sweet talk, and it can even be said that he needs it.

Chen Nianbei knew that Cui Shengxian was sometimes narrow-minded, so she didn't bother him, she just wanted to see him, but she was in the same place but had to wait for the reunion the next day, she couldn't do it and couldn't help it. "Fool, I lied to you. I miss you, I want to see you. As soon as I arrived in Daegu this afternoon, I wanted to quickly finish the cooperation and come to you. Seunghyun, I sleep on that big bed that smells like you every day I am very disappointed because you are not by my side. I am used to sleeping with you in my arms. I haven’t slept well for more than a month after you left home. At the beginning, I couldn’t fall asleep at all, and then I couldn’t sleep anymore. It can only be a light sleep. When I get up in the morning and rub against your arms habitually, I suddenly find that my surroundings are cold, empty and indescribably lost."

Cui Shengxian's heart tightened when he heard that, he hugged Chen Nianbei even harder, put his chin on her forehead and said, "Okay, I'm by your side now. Don't worry that you won't be able to sleep, I'll be with you."

Chen Nianbei nodded and agreed.

"Nianbei, you go take a shower first. I have something to go out to find Zhilong and the others. Go to bed when you are tired, don't wait for me." Cui Shengxian remembered that the next comeback album is about to be devoted, and he has to communicate with other members.

Chen Nianbei immediately took his hand out of Cui Shengxian's clothes, touched his face, and shook his head, "Don't be too late, I'll wait for you."

Cui Shengxian lowered his head, then held the hand on his cheek, and said with a smile: "Okay, I will come back early. Don't worry, I will be by your side tonight." After that, Cui Shengxian picked up the coat on the bed and went out room.

Chen Nianbei was also bored in the room for a while, either watching TV or reading newspapers, finally couldn't stand the sleepiness and went to take a shower.

Cui Shengxian knocked on the door of Quan Zhilong's room.Immediately a voice came from inside the door, "Who is it?" Cui Shengxian whispered in his characteristic deep voice, "It's me."

"Brother, you sobered up so quickly, we thought you wouldn't be able to come today." It was Li Shengli who opened the door, and he was always the same.

Cui Shengxian smiled, thinking that if Shengli knew that Nianbei was in his room, even if he died, he would be able to cheat the corpse instantly. "I fell asleep for a while, and woke up when I suddenly remembered that we were going to prepare for the new album. I can be regarded as dedicated, and I definitely have professional ethics." He closed the door while talking, walked to the table and picked up He poured himself a glass of red wine and took a sip. "It's pretty good. I thought you guys were almost done drinking, but it seems that you still have more to say."

Quan Zhilong got up from the floor in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, walked to Cui Shengxian, and took the wine glass from his hand. "Brother, don't drink. It's hard for you to come here today to discuss the new album. Be serious and don't drink."

"You are the leader, but I am your brother. Zhilong, you are not polite." Cui Shengxian took back the wine glass that was taken away by Quan Zhilong and took a big sip.

Quan Zhilong couldn't laugh or cry, this was for the sake of the overall situation, but Cui Shengxian's "small-mindedness" made him feel a little bit awkward. "Brother, I know you like to drink, let's discuss the album now, this wine can be drunk anytime, if you like it, I will give you a new bottle."

Cui Shengxian looked at Quan Zhilong's appearance, serious and childish, he chuckled, "I'm kidding you. How could I not put the overall situation first? Let's get started." After finishing speaking, he put down his wine glass and sat by the sun.

The five men gathered together to seriously discuss their next album.Just as the discussion was over, the doorbell rang again.This time it was Quan Zhilong who opened the door.

"I just bought the meat nearby, do you want it?" The manager Xiaopang was at the door carrying two large boxes of kimchi fried meat.

"Okay, everyone is hungry anyway. It's time to console him for working so late." Jiang Dacheng couldn't bear it as soon as he heard Xiaopang say that he had brought a meal in the room.He shouted loudly from the room.

"Everyone is really hardworking. It turns out that you are still working at this time. Take all of these." Xiaopang sometimes feels sorry for the five boys. They are only 24 and [-], but they have to bear a burden that their peers cannot bear.

"It's so embarrassing. You should take it. Out of the five of us, Taeyang and I have to maintain our weight." Quan Zhilong has always been thin-skinned, and he was embarrassed to take these.

"What's so polite, I came back after eating, I just thought it tasted good and brought it to everyone. It's for you guys, what are you saying? Take it, take it all." Xiaopang vigorously stir-fried the kimchi with meat. Throwing it to Quan Zhilong, he left immediately after speaking.

Cui Shengxian leaned over and smelled it, "It smells really good, you said you and Taiyang control your weight?"

"Yeah, I ate too much a while ago, and I'm afraid of getting fat."

"Brother, are you afraid of gaining weight?! I can still believe what the sun said, but I really can't believe what you said! You should gain weight. You are too thin." Shengli leaned over to open the lunch box, a strong smell The spicy aroma of fried meat with kimchi rushed to the nose immediately, and the saliva also increased immediately.

"Brother Zhilong, are you sure you don't want to eat it? And Brother Yongpei?" Jiang Dacheng put a piece of fried meat in his mouth and said vaguely. "It tastes really good."

Cui Shengxian laughed when he saw Jiang Dacheng's satisfied face, Jiang Dacheng's expression was indirectly saying, "Brother, if you don't eat it, I will eat it for you." '.He also picked up a piece of fried meat and put it in his mouth, "It's really good. Dacheng, eat less, this amount is enough to make up all the meat you lost a while ago." In fact, he was just thinking of Chen Nianbei He also likes fried pork with kimchi, but Chen Nianbei can't eat spicy food. Every time he takes a bite, his whole body trembles, looking very cute.

"Okay, Yong Pei and I leave it to Brother Top. Dacheng, you just listen to Brother Top, eat less, have you forgotten the pain of losing weight last time?" Quan Zhilong knew that Cui Shengxian was a foodie, so he deliberately put meat Leave it all to Choi Seung Hyun.As for Jiang Dacheng, he just hoped that he would not go through the experience of being so hungry that he couldn't eat with stomach cramps again.

Dong Yongpei looked at this brother who grew up with him, how could he not understand his comprehensiveness.The pain of being a leader is often swallowed in the stomach. Others think it is the most fair, but in fact the most wronged things are invisible.He was distressed but helpless, so he just sat and looked at him without saying a word.

"Then I'll take it away, you guys can continue to play." After finishing speaking, Cui Shengxian picked up a box of fried pork with kimchi and left.When he came to the door of the room, he turned his head to look at Quan Zhilong, "Thank you this time, please drink next time." After finishing speaking, he opened the door and went out.

When he returned to the room, Cui Shengxian found that Chen Nianbei had fallen asleep on the bed, and was only wearing a nightgown.Although the temperature of the room's air conditioner was set to high, Cui Shengxian still worried that she was catching a cold, so he walked lightly to the bedside and covered Chen Nianbei with a quilt.Chen Nianbei, who was already in a light sleep, also woke up because of the sudden "oppressive feeling" on her body. She rubbed her eyes and muttered, "You are back, I have fallen asleep." Cui Shengxian's heart was itchy because of his cute and naive attitude.He helped Chen Nianbei who was about to get up, rubbed the hair on the back of Chen Nianbei's head, and smiled, "What's more, you're not afraid of catching a cold when you fall asleep like this? You should lie down in bed after taking a shower." sleep tight."

Because Chen Nianbei didn't wake up, his expression was very innocent, "Well... I'm afraid I'll fall asleep when I lie in bed, and then I won't be able to wait for you, even if I do, I won't feel it anymore." Lie on Cui Shengxian's chest and rub it. "Look, how nice it is that I can wake up when you come back and see you when I open my eyes." She wrapped her arms around Cui Shengxian's neck and said, "It's good to have you." In fact, she It's not just that she is afraid of not being able to see her, but she herself has the attitude towards this relationship that she only wants today and not tomorrow.Because she herself doesn't even know where tomorrow is, nor does she know how to plan for tomorrow.Everything has long been beyond the scope of her control, and now she has no choice but to take whatever step she feels.

Cui Shengxian didn't know what to say, Chen Nianbei like this made him feel happy, but his heart was full of distress.He couldn't understand Chen Nianbei's incisiveness. Although this relationship is important to him, if it is about harm, Chen Nianbei must be hurt even more.He was reluctant, but he didn't know what to do, maybe he could treat her as well as possible, and using everything he could to give to love Chen Nianbei was the only thing he could do. "Nianbei, you are so stupid, so stupid." He nodded Chen Nianbei's nose, which was leaning on his chest.

Chen Nianbei didn't take it seriously, instead he kissed Cui Shengxian, and said with a smile like a hooligan who stole the fragrance: "You just like me stupid, in order to make you love me more, I tried my best to be so stupid .”

Facing such a childish Chen Nianbei, Cui Shengxian could only smile and shook his head, "Are you hungry? I brought back your favorite fried pork with kimchi."

"Yo, Young Master Cui, you're so lucky. You can get a box of fried meat with kimchi after communicating with each other. Which fan gave it to you? Is it good-looking? Is it taller or shorter than me? Is it graceful? ... "Chen Nianbei got up from the bed and put on slippers.

"It was sent by Xiaopang, where do you want to go? Even the fans are jealous." Cui Shengxian immediately interrupted Chen Nianbei's words.

"Yeah, I'll be jealous. I'm your girlfriend, and I'm very careful. Every time I see those girls look at you with bright eyes, I start to feel jealous." Chen Nianbei said. He said resentfully: "In the past there were only women, but now with the footsteps of the great harmony of the world, even men have begun to drool over you and have unreasonable thoughts. Do you think I can take it easy? Men and women in this world I have to block it, I'm really upset."

Chen Nianbei sat at the table and opened the food box that Cui Shengxian brought back, and a strong spicy aroma of kimchi overflowed.Chen Nianbei, who used to like stir-fried meat, felt sick and wanted to vomit.Subconsciously covered his mouth and rushed to the toilet, holding the toilet and retching.Cui Shengxian was startled by her like this, and he followed into the bathroom.He patted Chen Nianbei's back lightly, and handed her a glass of water to rinse her mouth.He is an adult man, he knows some common sense, and he seems to have guessed something vaguely. "Nianbei, how long has it been since you've been here?"

Chen Nianbei wiped her mouth with a tissue, sat on the ground and thought about it for a while, she also seemed to have vaguely guessed something, but instead of being happy as she should have been, she was terrified.She stared wide-eyed and looked at Cui Shengxian with a pale face, "Three months."

Chen Nianbei didn't know what to do, her mind was in chaos.Cui Shengxian squatted down and helped Chen Nianbei who was sitting on the ground helpless, "It's cold on the ground, get up quickly." He put his arms around Chen Nianbei, and whispered comfortingly in her ear: "Don't be afraid, I'm here. If it's true If you get pregnant, then get married. Don't worry, I won't want you, let alone the baby. The little guy in your belly is also my flesh and blood, and I don't want to part with it." Cui Shengxian didn't panic, and he didn't know how to face it. Yes, but he knew what to do as a man.

Child, this is a result that Chen Nianbei never thought about.If you really want to count it, maybe it is the first crystallization.If it was really a shot, is it because she is in good health or because Choi Seung Hyun is too strong?How should she face her parents?It is said that she went to Korea and got pregnant after getting well with a Korean star, then she can imagine her father forcing her to have an abortion, and her mother crying secretly by herself.She looked at Cui Shengxian who was frowning but trying to create an insecure sense of security, she thought, how should she face his newly booming career?Let him tell his female fans that he is getting married in the best [-] years?And the wife is pregnant?One can imagine how terrifying such a result would be.She also suddenly understood why Jin Yuling left him so resolutely.I remember at that time she still said that it was her and she would just hang on, but when something happened to her, she realized how difficult it was. Maybe she needed to give up a little bit and experience a little pain to minimize the damage to each other. Bar.

"Brother, are you there?" Li Shengli's sudden knock on the door woke up the man and woman in the bathroom from each other's thoughts.

Cui Shengxian looked at Chen Nianbei in a panic, and hugged her, "Shh, don't make any noise. You stay here, I'll go out and deal with it. Don't worry, he won't come in." After that, he went out of the bathroom and took his door to the bathroom.Chen Nianbei even locked the door because of panic.She leaned against the door with an indescribable feeling in her heart. She felt like a thief who entered a door she shouldn't have entered, touched an area that shouldn't be touched, and then greedily stole things that shouldn't be stolen. Undesirable result.She suddenly regretted it, but this kind of regret was particularly heart-wrenching, and she couldn't breathe from the pain.

Cui Shengxian opened the door, he didn't intend to let Li Shengli in, he stood at the door of the room, "What's the matter with Shengli?"

"Brother, you forgot your phone in brother Zhilong's room, I brought it for you." Shengli returned the phone to Cui Shengxian.

After taking the phone, Cui Shengxian said thank you, and was going to close the door early, but Shengli pushed against the door panel, "Brother, what are you in a hurry for? I'll give you the phone, shouldn't you invite me in?" Li Shengli was curious. His gaze took the opportunity to aim into the room.Originally in a playful mood, he suddenly saw a necklace that only Chen Nianbei could have, and that necklace was lying on Cui Shengxian's bedside.He knew how much Chen Nianbei treasured that necklace, which was a gift from her father on Chen Nianbei's birthday.He was a witness at that time, and he blessed her, but now when he saw her again, there was a fire in his heart.He was not angry with Chen Nianbei, he was angry with Cui Shengxian.He asked himself what is this!Now what the hell is this?

"Brother, tell me the truth, is Nianbei in your room?" Li Shengli tried to get Cui Shengxian to confess.

"What nonsense are you talking about, go back to sleep." After that, he pushed Li Shengli outward.

Li Shengli took Cui Shengxian's hand away, he smiled bitterly, then pushed Cui Shengxian who was blocking the door, went into the room and picked up the necklace, "Brother, do you think you can still hide it? This necklace only reads Only in the north."

"There are so many of the same necklace in the world, how can you be sure that it is Nian Bei's?" Cui Shengxian told himself that he couldn't admit it.The original relationship is already messy enough, so don't make trouble out of it.

"I can't read it wrong, because I helped her bring it up. It was her birthday that year, and it was a birthday present from her father. How could I forget! How could I not be sure! I remember everything about Nianbei, and I will never forget it, and I will never forget it in my life!"

"But you just forgot your promise to Nianbei." Cui Shengxian said looking at the emotional Li Shengli.

Li Shengli smiled suddenly, with a sour smile, "Brother, you don't understand what I have experienced with Nianbei, and you don't know either. If I said I was wrong, it would be that I broke my promise, but I never I have never forgotten! Who knows my helplessness! Every decision I make, whether it is right or wrong, is for Nianbei."

Cui Shengxian was not affected by Li Shengli's emotions. He didn't intend to tell Li Shengli what happened between them. He knew, "Yes, all your starting points are for Nianbei. But no matter how it started or the process What is it, the result is that you hurt Nianbei, and again and again. Nianbei is a girl, she can't endure three years of waiting because you said that your starting point is for her, her youth can't wait .Do you want her to wait to be with you when she is white-haired and chicken-skinned? This is not love, but punishment!"

"Even if this is the case, can you calmly say that you didn't intervene between me and Nianbei? Not at all?" Li Shengli complained about Cui Shengxian. Since the last time he saw him and Chen Nianbei together, he had a feeling in his heart. Bad luck.It's not that he didn't think about it, but he always felt that even if Nian Bei left, he wouldn't be with Cui Shengxian, because people wouldn't fall twice in the same place.But the reality told him that the most impossible became possible.

Cui Shengxian has asked himself the same question countless times, but there is always no answer.Because he knew that without his so-called "enlightenment", even if Chen Nianbei was given another three years, she would still not be able to get out of the shadow of Li Shengli.He feels guilty, but he doesn't regret doing so. Instead of three people suffering each other, it is better to make two people happy. "I admit that I intervened."

"Shengli, it's none of his business." Chen Nianbei came out of the bathroom and stood opposite Li Shengli across the bed. "If I don't want to intervene in a hundred of him, I won't be shaken by saying a thousand good words. But if I am willing, then I will go without him. So it is my decision, it is my decision to leave you , I decided not to let myself suffer from now on, don’t blame the wrong person.”

Li Shengli actually told himself in his heart that if Chen Nianbei didn't show up in this room, even if the necklace was real, he could forgive Cui Shengxian.But Chen Nianbei just appeared, wearing a bathrobe with the hotel's logo on it, he didn't know what to say for a moment, he just watched Chen Nianbei approaching him in a daze.

"Shengli, listen to my explanation. Things are not as bad as you think." Cui Shengxian knew that there was no way to clean up some things the moment he saw Chen Nianbei coming out, and he thought he could only minimize the consequences.

"No need to explain, brother, I understand." Li Shengli took away Cui Shengxian's hand from holding him, and he finally knew what it meant to be helpless.He stared at Chen Nianbei who was walking in front of him and said in Chinese: "Nianbei, whether you admit it or not, you are taking revenge on me. I never thought that you and I would come to this point. You are in a hurry to come out to help my brother." It seems that you really care about him. But don’t forget that you are going back to the old road. Whether it’s me or brother, we can’t give you the security you want. Maybe you will say that I am jealous, then I will Don’t deny it. I hope you can take care of yourself and don’t be sad again.”

"I don't want to retaliate against you. You have your life and I have mine. We have already walked two ways. I don't want to go the way I should go for you and my past. I can't say From now on, we will never communicate with each other until death, because that is impossible. Victory, I hope that next time we meet, we will still be friends, and it’s fine if we can’t be friends and classmates. Let’s give each other a good memory.” Chen Nianbei replied in Chinese.

Li Shengli put the necklace in Chen Nianbei's hands, "Which time do you say that I will not agree, and I also hope that we can get together and break up well. Put this necklace away, and don't misplace it next time." After finishing speaking, he I want to leave.He had imagined countless times that there would be another result with Chen Nianbei, and he had told himself countless times that Cui Shengxian and Chen Nianbei were just good friends, but people are always like this, the more he emphasizes, the more he will fail.In the final analysis, he was the one who held onto it tightly, and he also knew that it was the end of fate.He can forgive Chen Nianbei for everything, even if he kills him or does anything bad to him, he can forgive him, but he can't forgive Cui Shengxian. Unable to be safe but insisting on giving it, Chen Nianbei was dragged back to the old road.

"Shengli, I remember that the sycamore flowers of S City University of Finance and Economics are now defeated, but the zinnias at the entrance of the school cafeteria are now growing vigorously." Chen Nianbei looked at Li Shengli's back and said suddenly.She had an intuition of what to leave behind, maybe just a word or a half.

Li Shengli paused, "I remember it too. I missed the sycamore blossoms for four years, and I won't go to see them in the future. That zinnia is a good one to feed. If you like it, I'll give you a pot next time. "

"Okay, I'm waiting for your zinnia."

Then, Chen Nianbei watched Li Shengli walk out of the room, and closed the door gently.

Everything seemed like a thunderstorm. I thought it would be a shocking one, but in the end it was nothing more than thunder and rain.Although Cui Shengxian didn't understand the conversation between Chen Nianbei and Li Shengli, he knew that things were not as bad as he thought. Maybe there was only one difference between Chen Nianbei and Li Shengli.Everything before was just a confession, what they gave Li Shengli today is called understanding.

"Shengxian, I think we all blamed him wrongly. He was persistent, but in the wrong way." Sitting on the edge of the bed, Chen Nianbei looked up at Cui Shengxian.

Cui Shengxian took out a change of clothes from the suitcase, walked to the bathroom and said, "I think you should understand best. As for me, I never blamed him, I just think he shouldn't be like this." He entered the bathroom and closed the door .

Chen Nianbei thought about it for a while and felt right, it doesn't matter who blames who, what matters is whether they can understand each other in the end.Just like she blamed him before, but it was useless at all, the matter could not be resolved, and only when she understood it did she realize that no one was at fault, but after thinking about it, everyone was at fault, so it is impossible to say who is to blame.