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, the eyelashes are slowly flying in the sultry summer wind, flying up and down, closing and opening, revealing the dark pupils, without a little light.

"Tell me when you're gone."

"Or, you want me to live here all the time."

For a moment, Shi Fangman felt that Yan Zheng was going to pounce on him. In the parking lot where the vehicles drove in and out, the poles were raised up and down, and the noise was constant, the lights hanging above the head continued to cast cold white and bright light from above. Perseveringly casting dark shadows of fine hair on the face, he stared at the beautiful face in front of him, as if he could hear the pulling of the muscles and bones from the graceful lines drawn apart and the delicate turnings between the bones, ready to go sound.

"Yan Zheng", he had to call out this name to confirm that he was still standing in front of a familiar person, and it was Yan Zheng who raised his chin and closed his long eyelashes in response.

The young man closed his eyes, harmless and pitiful, but he stood there, casting a human-shaped shadow from a height, and was completely wrapped in the darkness of the body, and could only look up at him.

"If you really know that you are wrong, then I will tell you to leave, and you should be able to do it."

21:12:38

full time thoughts

Laying down on the hotel bed with a tired body, the 22:[-] mark on the screen of the mobile phone flashed in my mind, and the next moment I woke up, there was no light outside the window.Neon signs, street lights, and even the stars were all burned out, and there was deathly silence and darkness around.

Shi Fangman walked barefoot on the floor, groping towards the door in the dark, bumped into the corner of the bed on the way, kicked away the randomly placed slippers, stumbled to the door, and inserted the key card into the power outlet.

There was a soft hum and the lights were bright. He turned back and touched the phone on the bed. The time displayed on the screen was almost one o'clock at night.Only then did Shi Fangman realize that he had slept for three hours. Although he was not sleepy at the moment, his brain was stagnant, as if he had no ability to process information. Looking at the dark sky outside the window, he sat there for a long time thinking Not knowing what else to do, he decided to lie back on the bed.

But before that, he had to take a shower first.

At one o'clock in the middle of the night, there are fewer people using water, and the water flow is obviously larger than usual. When the nozzle is turned on, hot water rushes out violently.He took a slow shower, and the flushing water vaguely took away the soreness and fatigue between his limbs and bones, until his fingertips began to turn white, when he turned off the shower head, his body was full of water vapor, quietly Stand still.

He didn't know how long he hesitated, looking through the bathroom glass and looking at the mirror facing him outside, the water stains were hazy, his eyes were blurred, and he squeezed his eyes hard, but he could only see a pale figure.Surrounded by light blue glass, silver alloy nozzles, grid-shaped beige tiles, and several colorful toilet utensils on the wall, the scenery he saw before taking off his clothes and glasses hovered in his memory, but at this moment , it seems that there is a special color filter lens passing through this space, in front of you is an out-of-focus picture, blurred and shifted objects and colors that melt together.The strong sense of unreality made him feel dizzy, and the flesh-white body among all the blurred objects was more like a piece of melted white wax, shaking and winding down to drip liquid.

The only good thing about the disgusting picture is that the blurred details can make people ignore the tooth marks and bruises on the body. Only when the traces left by Yan Zheng cannot be seen in the field of vision can Shi Fangman After thinking for a long time, he plucked up his courage, lowered his arms, and put his spread fingers into the secret cave.

The lower body was trembling uncontrollably, and the muscles on the inner thighs instantly tightened. As soon as the fingertips touched the soft folds in the tight passage, they were pushed out by a sudden force.He and that organ must have been enemies in the previous life. More than 20 hours ago, his enemy accepted and wrapped a man, but now he refuses his intervention. Shi Fangman's cheeks were burning hot, and he closed his eyes and pushed in hard. Breaking in, when the tip of the sharp nail slid across the inner wall and caused sharp pain, he experienced the pleasure and comfort of successful revenge in addition to the pain.

He took off the shower head, pointed the nozzle at that place, and the water started to flow again to wash the dirtiest part of his body. The hot water continued to flow down the floor drain with his disgust, and Shi Fangman tried hard to clean it , while helplessly recalling the memory of last night.After he lost consciousness in an evasive way and then woke up, the sticky white liquid was gone, and his body was dry and clean, as if nothing had happened.When Yan Zheng shot in, he didn't feel sick to his stomach, which meant that Yan Zheng did clean well...

However, thinking that Yan Zheng had really shot something in, Shi Fangman couldn't suppress his anger, he took several quick breaths, and managed to regain his sanity.

There has always been a well-known experiment in psychology called the Lochins experiment. When a person is described with the same material, different perceptions of the person can be obtained by combining the materials in order.This proves the primacy effect, that is, the influence of first impressions on cognition.The first impression formed by both parties will affect the future for a long time. Although these first impressions may not be correct, they are clear and firm, and they can easily occupy a dominant position and direct the judgment of the other party.Shi Fangman's care and indulgence for Yan Zheng are related to Yan Zheng's young age, and his professional instinct as a teacher, but more importantly, it is because when we first met, the boy was sitting alone in the park at night, crying The scene of asking for help has always affected Shi Fangman's judgment.He watched the boy grow up, from looking for the other person's eyes with his head down, to looking up to look at each other, no matter what changes happened to Yan Zheng, no matter what he did, that harmless figure in need of help continued to work, Firmly occupy all of Shi Fangman's thoughts.

Yiye could not see Mount Tai, but once the wind blew away the leaves, he would immediately become terrified of the person who had been with him for two years but suddenly became a stranger.

The time bomb will always explode with a "boom" at any time and in any way, and no matter how tragic the consequences are, that bomb was brought by Shi Fangman himself from his mother's womb.Yan Zheng lit the fuse. He looked at the other party angrily, wanted to question and fight back, but the fear of another explosion overwhelmed other emotions at this time, and finally swallowed the complaints and endured them all, so that his body was scarred and his seven orifices were bleeding. The bomb he could never drop fled in panic.

Those sparks of love and confession caused the first explosion, and before Yan Zheng gave up those feelings that he could not respond to, Shi Fangman had no energy to communicate with him, he wanted Yan Zheng's apology more than Yan Zheng's apology. Make that person disappear from your side immediately.

He can only stay further away from the person who pulls the lead.

After cleaning his body, Shi Fangman lay down on the bed again. This time he fell asleep after a long time of brewing. Not long after, he was awakened by the nightmare again. While struggling with his heartbeat, he heard the cheerful sound of the sprinkler truck working outside. The sound of music, a beam of sunshine hits the body, and the sky is bright.

The summer in this city is always bright and bright, but occasionally there will be thunder and rain showers, and there will be a few bouts of rain.The rainstorm came and went quickly, but it left a rare coolness for the sweltering days. Before the raindrops fell, Shi Fangman ran to a milk tea shop facing the street to hide from the rain, but was delighted to find that the shop had raised The three kittens were only two months old, and the little hair balls that could not reach half of the forearm were directed by the owner to run around the ground with a cat teasing stick, until a big chubby cat emerged, These kittens gave up the temptation of the shaking toys and surrounded them one by one meowing.

"Do you drink milk?"

"This is their mother?"

Shi Fangman went up to have a look, and chatted with the owner with a smile.

"No, it's Dad. The kittens will be weaned for more than a month. They don't come around to drink milk, but they are habitually clinging to their parents."

There were quite a few people in the store, but everyone ordered drinks and went about their own business.When Shi Fangman took the initiative to talk, the owner talked to him about various trivial matters about raising cats with great interest. Cat lovers got out of hand when they talked about topics they like and are good at. However, Shi Fangman has never kept pets. He had a lot of questions, but also heard a lot of fun that cats had never thought of. At the end of the chat, for the first time, he had the idea of ​​having a pet.

"Hair shedding... Well, that's what I find annoying..."

"You raise a German roll. It doesn't shed much hair. It looks good and has a good personality."

"It's just a bit expensive. If you buy it through regular channels, it will cost upwards of [-] yuan. Anyway, there are not many breeds in China, so it's too expensive. But my friend's house has one. It's really cute, and it's cuter than my meat pie."

He picked up the chubby big cat from the ground, hugged it fondly in his arms, but deliberately disliked it in his mouth: "Routian, I sold you, how much is a catty of meat?"

"Say, will you sell it or not?"

Shi Fangman's most emotional moment in the past two days is now. He packed a box of Xuemei Niang, a box of Dafu, packed three or four kinds of drinks in the store, and walked to the hotel on the dripping water. People passed by. The vehicle shuttled not far away, the air was fresh with mud, and the body was wet and cool. Such a good mood seemed to be able to dispel any haze on the body.

Until Shi Fangman was across the road and saw a tall and straight figure on the steps of the hotel on the other side, illuminated by the advertising lights in the evening.Among the crowd passing by, he stood out like a chicken, and that person was walking up with his back to him.Within a few seconds of seeing Yan Zheng and being dazed, the young man had already stepped over the steps and walked into the gate. The focus of Shi Fangman's eyes met him for a very short time, and then stopped for a long time.