Because I'm too afraid of pain, it's worth all the looks

After reading this book, strange feelings surged out all of a sudden, making Ming Qiu speechless for a while.

Is this how she came into this world?From book to "book", being watched by the same person in different ways grows up.

Ming Qiu closed the book titled "Dazai Osamu", raised his head slightly, and after a while looked at the books placed all over the place and Dazai Osamu who was also reading a book not far away, and said, "So That's right..."

Osamu Dazai put the book in his hand aside and said, "It is like this."

He had already read that book, or rather read the entire life of his other self.

Ming Qiu came to a conclusion like this, saying: "You are really strange, your gentleness is always different from others."

Osamu Dazai seemed very helpless, he spread his hands and said, "Probably, didn't Qiu know that I am a weirdo?"

Ming Qiu saw the words "Dazai Zhi" also written on the book in his hand, and then said: "What should we do now? Are we two trapped here after death, Mr. Bandage?"

The biggest problem they have to face now is that there is only one time left for Ming Qiu’s ability to be used. Ming Qiu will not choose to revive himself first, then the person who will be resurrected must be Dazai Osamu, but if Dazai Osamu is allowed to give up Ming Qiu alone Going back, it seems a little unrealistic.

Hearing her sudden change of address, Osamu Dazai was taken aback for a moment, then showed a faint smile, and said, "Strictly speaking, it shouldn't be considered death. After all, the time here is just an instant from the outside."

In other words, outside they still maintain the appearance of dying.

Ming Qiu looked down at the sea water flowing under his feet, and said: "So, Mr. Dazai who helped me to be born in this world has disappeared, and was killed when I revived Xiao Zhichan."

When Oda Sakunosuke was resurrected before, all the branches generated at this time have been destroyed by Ming Qiu. What they are reading now can only be said to be the archives left by the "book" to those worlds. That world disappeared and was merged And digested, so Ming Qiu can't go back.

"He must have died a long time ago. In despair, there is no way to save anyone, because this is the fate that this world bestows on 'Dazai Osamu', a poor guy who struggled hard and failed in the end."

Even though that person was himself from another world, Osamu Dazai's expression didn't change at all when he said those words.

Ming Qiu raised his head to look at Dazai Zhi, watching Dazai Zhi quietly, as if he wanted to read all his emotions.

She can probably understand Dazai's state of mind. The person he most wants to save but can't save should be himself, but fate is extremely cruel, no matter which "Dazai" he is, he can't be saved.

Under the setting sun, such despair was wrapped in a gentle halo.

"You..." Ming Qiu opened his mouth, wanting to comfort him that at least she still has her, but swallowed it down again. In the end, she might disappear soon, and even if it was companionship, she would not be able to give him.

Osamu Dazai noticed her thoughts, and said with a nonchalant smile, "It's not like this now, is it, Qiu?"

Ming Qiu remained silent and did not speak, so Osamu Dazai also fell silent.

I don't know when, a broken stone pillar that was cut off by the middle appeared not far away, and a book was floating on it, emitting a faint light. It should be the "book" that everyone wanted to get.

Ming Qiu tilted his head in doubt, and said, "Why did you suddenly appear? Or do I have the qualifications to realize my own wish...?"

"Autumn." Dazai Osamu's eyes were shining with gentle light, and he suddenly said: "Why don't we just stay here, maybe 'Book' is willing to let the two of us stay with it."

As if to verify what he said, the brilliance of the "book" flickered.

If Ming Qiu chooses to resurrect himself, "Book" will inevitably be in danger again, so it appears at this moment.

Ming Qiu was slightly taken aback, looked at Osamu Dazai and said, "Don't you want to go back? The world where Xiao Zhichan survived to write, the world where everyone exists, the world where you can stand in the light and help others... as long as you use my Ability is fine."

Osamu Dazai looked at her quietly, "But...it is a world without Qiu."

Ming Qiu stared at him with some surprise, and asked softly: "You...know?"

She thought she had tried her best to conceal it, but Dazai Osamu guessed it.

Osamu Dazai showed a faint smile, and said: "I guessed it a long time ago. During the fireworks display, I found that Qiu was already injured, and the 'wall' was disappearing, right? That's why the magic dress really integrated into your body. , but this also means that there is no way to use that ability - without the protection of the 'wall', if I want to 'resurrect', I will have to pay a higher price, maybe even my soul will be swallowed together, the consequences of that are very serious."

Ming Qiu clenched his hands tightly, and said: "Now there is only one world left, if you die here, I will be very troubled."

"If Qiu dies, there will be many branches of different worlds in the future, right? But only you will not exist, because it will disappear completely." Dazai Osamu sat calmly on a stack of books, and said: "So there is no need To change the future of my death, even if such a future does not exist, I have no expectations for this world."

Ming Qiu walked in front of him, knelt down slowly, stared closely at Dazai Osamu's eyes, and asked seriously: "Do you really think so? Or are you saying something dejected to me, so that I give up on my idea?"

No wonder Osamu Dazai looked reluctant when he brought her here. With his way of thinking and speed, he probably expected the current situation long ago.

Osamu Dazai avoids her hand, lest the touch prompt her to use the power.

From just now, he has been avoiding getting in touch with Ming Qiu, obviously worried that Ming Qiu will start using his abilities when he is not paying attention.

Before Dazai could speak, Ming Qiu seemed to have confirmed something. She looked into Dazai's eyes and said firmly: "But I don't think so, don't you want to go down with me in misfortune? At least respect me Do you still care about my thoughts now, as long as you are happy?" She paused when she said this, and then said after a while: "My idea is... I hope You can go back, back to the world where everyone exists, and wait for me."

Seemingly surprised by what she said at this moment, Osamu Dazai looked at her and said softly, "Waiting for you...?"

For the first time, Ming Qiu saw Dazai Zhi showing a dazed expression, as if she was amused, she lowered her eyes, fine tears fell down her cheeks quickly, then she approached Dazai Zhi, pulled his collar, gently Kissed him on the lips.

Osamu Dazai was taken aback for a moment, the hand that was resting on the book moved involuntarily, his fingertips went up a little bit along the tip of her hair, and then slowly passed through her hair.

The remaining sunlight fell on her face, but she took away that beauty, so that his eyes could only be locked on her alone.

I don't know how long it has passed, Ming Qiu opened her eyes, the eyes endowed with sunset light were shining with gentle light, she took his hand and made him stand up, then pointed to the book hanging in the air not far away, and said:

"Let's go over there together."

The two stood in front of the suspended book, Ming Qiu picked up the pen placed on the book, handed it to Dazai Zhi, and said, "Here."

Osamu Dazai already understood what she meant, and said, "Qiu, even if you write down your name in this way, what will appear is not the real you, but just a stranger with the same name and surname, without your past, and without your Feelings, I don't want to see that Mingqiu."

"So please wait patiently for the day when I come back." Ming Qiu rarely showed a mischievous smile on his face, and said, "This is a small prank, guess how I will come back, Zhi."

As she said this, her body had gradually become transparent, exuding a beautiful light under the setting sun, and the breeze was blowing her long hair, fluttering gently in the air, as if to bring her to an unknown world. The place.

It was when he kissed him that he had already used his ability to change the fact that "Osamu Dazai died", so Osamu Dazai didn't have time to stop it at all.

Osamu Dazai raised her hand and quickly wrote his name on her palm with the pen in his hand.

"Eh?" Ming Qiu was stunned, and stared at him with some doubts.

Osamu Dazai gently held her hand, looked at the characters in her hand, and said, "In this way, I can confirm whether it is 'Ming Qiu' or 'Ming Qiu of Dazai Osamu'." He looked up at Ming Qiu said, "This is my tribute to Qiu's prank."

Ming Qiu blinked and showed a tearful smile. She took a few steps back and said, "Then please start. Write down my name again, Mr. Dazai, Mr. Bandage."

With his back turned to her, Osamu Dazai picked up his pen.

——Ming Qiu.

——My Mingqiu.

——Akira of Osamu Dazai.

——Osamu Dazai and Ming Qiu.

She suddenly said, "Before I come back, please struggle a little harder. Okay?"

"……it is good."

There was no more sound from behind.

When he finished writing the last stroke, Osamu Dazai turned his head, and Ming Qiu had completely disappeared. In this world, only the glow like her eyes remained. When he closed his eyes, complete darkness followed.

At a table in a certain tavern, surrounded by noisy crowds, he blinked, and facing him was the chief of the Supernatural Secret Service Section, Naneda Shantou. He handed out an envelope and said, "Congratulations, Dazai-kun, the task is completed. This is a letter of recommendation, and the sun will be with you in the days to come."

Osamu Dazai stared at the envelope, smiled lightly, then took it over, and said, "That would be the best."

He will look forward to the days ahead.