Because I'm too afraid of pain, it's worth all the looks

The green plants placed by the window are full of vitality, but they look a little fragile under the pale sunlight of autumn.

"It is said that there is such a book, which records everything in this world. Similarly, if you write a sentence on the 'book', then this sentence will come true, just like an alien that can fulfill all wishes. It can be the same." Mingqiu held his chin, and with Atsushi Nakajima reflected in his eyes, he said, "If you want to find this 'book', you have to go through the security measures set by the book, that is, 'lock' and 'key' '."

She stared straight at Atsushi Nakajima, and said: "The powerful destructive power of the white tiger just proves the protective function of the 'lock'."

Atsushi Nakajima seemed to understand, and said: "Miss Qiu said that she has a similar situation to me, so Miss Qiu is..."

Putting his hands on his chest, Ming Qiu said with a smile, "I am the 'key'."

Atsushi Nakajima looked at her eagerly, and said, "Did Miss Qiu also get a reward?"

Ming Qiu showed a distressed expression, and said: "Probably, because it is a very special 'existence', all forces have reached out to me or talked to me, such as some 'combinations' abroad, the port mafia in Yokohama, but I am now Secretly working for the Supernatural Secret Service, this must be kept secret... Anyway, it's very complicated."

When mentioning those supernatural organizations that were stalking tigers, Ming Qiu didn't look scared at all. Atsushi Nakajima lowered his head heavily, and said, "Miss Qiu is really brave... I can't do it at all. I've always been that unfortunate one." one, and never did anything right,"

"That's why I said, I will protect Dun." Ming Qiu folded his hands together and said, "Of course, I'm also protecting myself. The group promised to get the white tiger first, and then use me to find the 'book'. According to my past experience, it is very likely to be life-threatening. Moreover, Dun's existence indirectly protects me, and I am very grateful to Dun."

Nakajima Atsushi stared at her blankly, opened his mouth, but couldn't speak for a while.

No one had ever expressed such emotion to him, such pure kindness, it almost moved people to tears.

"I also hope that Don will not feel that I am the unfortunate person, because fate is ultimately up to you to fight for. Although this sentence sounds empty now, I can prove it to you with my past experience." Ming Qiu stretched out He shot, gently stroked his head, and said: "Dun has the power of a white tiger and is stronger than me, so since I can do it, then Dun will definitely do better than me, I firmly believe in this."

Her temperature is constantly passing to him through the palm of her hand.

Nakajima Atsushi asked hesitantly: "Then what should I do..."

Ming Qiu smiled and said: "It's very simple, Dun just needs to live as usual, after all, this kind of thing can still be hidden. I looked at the calendar, and it seems that Dun's transformation happens every month when the moon is full. Time, so that every month when the moon is full, I will go to the orphanage, and this perverted bastard next to me will help Dun to remove his abilities."

Osamu Dazai next to him nodded very cooperatively, not minding how he was called.

"In the future, I will also try to find a suitable way to help Dun control his abilities. This is all the information I can provide to Dun so far, so I want to invite Dun to work with me to solve our two problems." Ming Qiu looked at Atsushi Nakajima, vaguely aware of his hesitation and fear, and continued: "Of course, it's normal for Atsushi not to want to be with me. After all, it is still possible to hide it now. Once you take the initiative to get involved in this matter, it will give you a lot of trouble." I have caused a lot of trouble for myself, and I can understand that."

"I... don't have the courage of Ms. Qiu." Atsushi Nakajima said negatively, "I also don't have strong fighting skills, wisdom and calmness, so I can't be Miss Qiu's partner."

The dean held up the teacup, but did not speak.

"I understand." Ming Qiu lowered his eyelids and said, "I used to think the same way."

"However," Osamu Dazai said suddenly, "I may not be able to help Atsu-kun every time, there will always be times when I can't hide it."

Atsushi Nakajima was slightly taken aback, and looked at the two people opposite.

It was like this again, he opened his mouth to tell the cruel truth...

Ming Qiu just opened his mouth and said in affirmation: "I really can't force him to do this."

Goodwill help is limited, and she cannot help so many people when she is in danger, not to mention that she is unwilling to believe that Osamu Dazai will completely obey her, and the two of them are only temporarily bound together.

Dazai Zhizhi said naturally: "Dun Jun should understand that it is not her inevitable responsibility to save you. If the 'lock' is destroyed, the 'key' can still be used, and you can wait for the next 'lock' to appear. All you need is to wait patiently. But has Dunjun ever heard of someone buying a lock for a key? If there is no 'key', the 'lock' is likely to be forcibly destroyed." His iris-colored eyes watched Looking at Atsushi Nakajima, he said: "If Atsushi is really as weak as I said, I can kill you, so that everyone will be helpless. This is the best ending for me. After all, people and Everything has priority.”

Atsushi Nakajima clenched his hands tightly, cold sweat dripping down his forehead.

That is to say, he may face Ms. Aki and Mr. Dazai who have become enemies anytime and anywhere.

The dean, who didn't seem to care about their conversation at first, turned his gaze to Osamu Dazai, and the atmosphere suddenly stiffened a lot.

This is already the point of persecution, and there is almost no difference between Dun at this moment and her before Sen Ou.

Ming Qiu frowned, and interrupted: "That's it, Dun, you can think about this matter slowly, you don't need to reply to me now."

Osamu Dazai returned to his original smile, and said, "It's just talking now."

The future is hard to say.

Ming Qiu glanced at him coldly, and then said to Nakajima Atsushi: "No matter what choice I make, I hope Atsushi will have no regrets, because my choice is completely different from the choice I was forced to make. The former will make Dun work harder, and the latter will make Dun more miserable."

The dean, who had been silent all this time, said, "That's all for today's conversation."

Ming Qiu tapped the table lightly with his fingertips, and said: "I also think it's almost done, and it's still a dead end if you continue."

Atsushi Nakajima looked at the downcast Ming Qiu, and blinked in confusion.

Even though he was the one threatened by Mr. Dazai, he always felt that Ms. Qiu was even more angry than him.

Ming Qiu tried his best to show a smile at him, and said: "Dun finally came to Tokyo with Mr. Dean, why don't Mr. Dean take him for a stroll. It seems that Dun has never traveled far, so he should be good at this age." play."

"Thank you Oda-san for your suggestion."

After the dean and Atsushi Nakajima left, Ming Qiu's smile completely disappeared, and she said in a low voice, "It's like this again... I'm really angry."

Osamu Dazai paused with the hand holding the coffee cup.

"When will you understand..." Ming Qiu raised his hand to caress the shattered hair on his forehead, showing a pale smile, and said, "I understand my mistake. He said it, I hope you will stand in a warm place Helping others, what are you talking about when you face Dun, what is the difference from before..."

After a while, Osamu Dazai said softly, "I'm sorry."

Ming Qiu stood up abruptly, reached out and grabbed Osamu Dazai by the collar, and spoke in such a fierce tone for the first time, "Are you really sorry? Who are you sorry for? Even if I don't exist in this world , you also have a way to save him who is being targeted by mimic! Why didn't you do that? You were so scared to death, but you still held my hand to achieve some bastard miracle. If you want to sink to the bottom of the sea, you can sink by yourself. What are other people... you coward! Coward!"

Saying everything in one breath like this is unprecedentedly fun, and those hidden negative emotions burst out all at once, without having to perform and pretend as hard as you do in front of other people.

The clerk who was resting at the cashier leaned out, showing a slightly embarrassed expression, as if hesitating whether to persuade them.

Fortunately, there was no one in the store at this time, otherwise the two of them would have been thrown out of the store directly.

The iris-colored eyes flickered, and for the first time a flustered expression appeared on that calm face.

The pleasure of revenge surged up from the bottom of my heart, expanding like a balloon.

Ming Qiu sneered, and said mockingly: "You don't think I wrote that letter to save you, so you felt guilty and uncomfortable, and said something like 'I'm sorry' to me? You just want to Make yourself feel better. What if I told you it was his 'last wish' and I didn't need you by my side at all? You idiot!"

She lies constantly, just for the pleasure of revenge.

Osamu Dazai, who was never guilty, looked away at this moment, as if affirming her answer.

I really hate myself like this, even more useless than before.

This kind of evasion finally made Ming Qiu completely calm down. It is meaningless to say these things now, it will only make him fall into deeper self-loathing.

Although she wanted to ask him many questions.

How do you see me in your heart?

Always treat me as a dispensable thing, play a prank when I remember it, even if I die when I can’t remember it, it doesn’t matter, if it’s just for business, why do you still appear in front of me?Can't I hide somewhere I can't see?

Have you ever looked at me seriously?

Dazai suddenly sighed.

Before Ming Qiu could question why he sighed, Osamu Dazai had already raised his hand, gently wiped away her tears, and said:

"Ming Qiu is a poor actor."

Ming Qiu was a little dazed.

What was he calling her just now...?

This person looks elegant, but he is a cadre of the port Mafia hand-picked by Mori Ogai. He must have done a lot of bad things. There are thin calluses on his fingertips, which may be left by guns or knives, so even if he wipes them off No matter how gentle the tears are, this hand still makes Ming Qiu's reddened lower eyelids tingle a little.

So Osamu Dazai wiped off all the tears for her with a handkerchief, his movements were as gentle as if he was treating some fragile object.