Because I'm too afraid of pain, it's worth all the looks

The first time Ming Qiu went downstairs, she saw that the Poirot Café next door had put up today's menu. She watched the boys cross the road and enter the store, and then walked to Amuro Toru with a smile on her face. He said, "Mr. Anshi, good morning."

Toru Amuro copied the menu, smiled, and said, "Good morning, Miss Oda, would you like a cup of coffee?"

Ming Qiu quickly waved his hands and said, "I'm afraid of suffering, I can't taste coffee anymore."

Toru Amuro invited: "Then come and try the hot cocoa next time. If you can hang Ms. Oda's autographed photo in the store, it will definitely attract many people."

Ming Qiu was a little surprised, pointed at himself and asked, "Eh? Mine?"

"Of course." Amuro smiled and said, "Ms. Oda is an actress known as the 'Flashing Star'. After all, she only made her debut with one work, and then quickly disappeared before everyone's eyes. Fans are not given a chance to be nostalgic."

Ming Qiu scratched his cheek, "That's right... I thought everyone would criticize me."

"There are indeed criticisms, but I think Ms. Oda doesn't care about this." Toru Amuro spread his hands and said, "Ms. Oda likes the lives of ordinary people, so in everyone's eyes, she is 'disappeared'." For everyone' is a kind of happiness for Ms. Oda."

Ming Qiu blinked, and then said: "Thank you Mr. Anshi for your words, I like them very much."

"It would be great if I could help Ms. Oda."

"So next time, I'll invite Mr. Amuro to taste the sandwiches I made. It's a thank you gift. There will be many opportunities for us to meet in the future." Ming Qiu said with a smile as he walked across the road, "After all, we It's a neighbor."

Toru Amuro waved at her, and after her figure disappeared behind the door of the western restaurant, Toru Amuro turned around and entered the store, and began to help the store manager prepare for today's opening, but his thoughts had already jumped to Ming Qiu's body.

If it hadn't been for the task of getting close to Akira Oda from this organization named after liquor, Toru Amuro would never have thought that this girl who looked like a student had just joined the Mafia organization in Yokohama not long ago, and also owned the organization in black The ability coveted by the leader of the...

The previous pervert was just a deliberate arrangement, and Toru Amuro had no intention of embarrassing him. After all, this person is a habitual offender in this area, but the organization directly bypassed him and tried to silence that person.

The task of getting closer to Aki Oda must be completed as soon as possible to discover the true purpose of the organization.

When Ming Qiu entered the store, several children were busy picking vegetables, she tied her hair up, and consciously took over the job of washing vegetables, and said, "Is there anyone in the store making an appointment today? Have you started preparing so early? "

"It's Xiaolan. To be precise, it should be Mr. Maori, because today is the time when his wife is visiting Xiaolan, so Xiaolan came to tell me that she wanted to bring her parents to the store for dinner, so I thought about making preparations in advance. " Sato Shigeru said with a smile: "It's good to close the shop at night, so it's convenient for them to talk, right? Mr. Mori usually takes care of our business."

"Xiao Lan is really sensible." Ming Qiu couldn't help but sigh with emotion: "She lived with her father at such a young age, there must be a lot of inconvenience, and she still wants to improve the relationship between her parents."

"Yes." Shigeru Sato nodded in agreement, and said, "And usually Xiaolan takes care of Kosuke and the others, she is like a big sister."

Xing Jie nodded in agreement, and said, "That's right, Sister Xiaolan is much more reliable than Sister Qiu."

Ming Qiu squeezed Xingsuke's cheek with wet hands, and said: "Xingsuke is not as cute as Xiaolan! If Xingsuke is as cute as Xiaolan, I will definitely work hard to be a good sister!"

Xingjie couldn't help but shouted loudly: "Sister Qiu is getting more and more cunning! This is a language trap!"

"It must be with my boyfriend...ah no, Mr. Dazai has learned badly!"

Ming Qiu: "..."

Sato Shigeru: "..." The atmosphere suddenly changed...

After handling the fish, Oda Sakunosuke came back, lowered his head and said, "It seems that the dishes are going to be unbearable."

Kesi was taken aback, and said, "Sister Qiu, the cauliflower is going to be crushed by you!"

It was terrible, sister Qiu, who was usually weak all over, actually rubbed the vegetables to pieces!

Ming Qiu smiled and said: "Ah, I didn't even notice, really."

"……very scary."

Oda Sakunosuke put the fish on the cooking table and said, "Is the ingredients almost ready? Hurry up and do your homework."

"it is good!"

Ming Qiu still didn't forget to warn: "Don't fight until today's homework is finished."

"I know... Sister Qiu has a strong desire for revenge..."

Ming Qiu leaned against the bar, watching the children sitting by the window and starting their homework in a daze, Oda Sakunosuke sat beside her with two glasses of water, and said, "Qiu-chan is still angry."

"No……"

Oda Sakunosuke stared at her with blue eyes, and asked very seriously: "Is that so? Broccoli..."

Ming Qiu couldn't bear that gaze, so he could only mutter: "No...Of course I'm still angry, anyone would be angry!" Her right hand involuntarily rested on her left arm, and then gently stroked it, As if comforting something, he said, "I just want to understand my own thoughts, what I'm thinking... What's the difference between that guy and others?"

Oda Sakunosuke stared at her with a blank expression, and asked, "Hasn't Qiu-chan thought it through yet?"

"No……"

"Does Qiujiang care about Mr. Mori?"

Ming Qiu immediately denied it: "Of course not!"

"What about Natsume-sensei?"

"Do not."

Oda Sakunosuke looked at Ming Qiu and said, "The original Qiu-chan isn't like this."

"Eh?" Ming Qiu was slightly taken aback, looked at Oda Sakunosuke, and said, "The original me...what was it like?"

"The original Qiu Jiang treats everyone the same, she doesn't hate others, she doesn't get angry for others, so she treats everyone equally and takes every life seriously, so she can't give up anything. Sakunosuke Oda shook the clear water in the glass and said, "But Qiu-chan is different now. Qiu-chan is making choices, isn't it?"

Ming Qiu blinked blankly, and said, "That's right..."

Oda Sakunosuke said: "For Qiu-chan, Dazai is the reason for the change, right? Qiu-chan has been watching Dazai, attracted by him, and unconsciously approaching him, expecting the same response from the other party."

Ming Qiu clenched his hands tightly and remained silent without speaking.

"So there's nothing wrong with Qiu-chan wanting to care about Dazai." Oda Sakunosuke put down the water glass and said, "It's just that we can't let go this time."

Ming Qiu quietly stared at a certain point in the sky, and said in a low voice: "Let's give up..."

"People can't let go of things that are important to them." Oda Sakunosuke hypothesized: "If there is no autumn sauce, mimic will definitely choose Sato and the children to start? Faced with that situation, I will definitely die, but even if I know This point, I will still do it, because it is something that cannot be let go, even if it is death, it doesn't matter. This point is not shameful."

"Is he... important to me?" Ming Qiu looked at Sakunosuke Oda helplessly, and said, "I don't know... I just want to get closer, because looking at him seems a little familiar."

"You two are a little similar." Oda Sakunosuke rubbed her head and said, "Lonely."

"Similar? Lonely?"

"Aki-chan is trying to change, but Dazai is constantly enduring it. This is destined to be contradictory." Oda Sakunosuke explained seriously: "So Dazai's exposing such a bad character to Aki-chan may be the same-sex repulsion. .”

Ming Qiu's hands clenched unconsciously, and she whispered: "So...he hates me, always maintains a nonchalant attitude, and in the end he simply treats me like that directly, maybe because he thinks that I, who is different from him, look hateful Bar……"

Oda Sakunosuke suddenly said: "I don't hate it."

Ming Qiu tilted his head and looked at him, "Huh?"

"It's envy, longing, and fear. I'm worried that I'll be changed if I get too close." When Oda Sakunosuke said this, his expression seemed a little unbearable. In the same way, Dazai is clearly aware of this, and he doesn’t want to be one of them, but a special one.”

"Is that so..." Ming Qiu lowered his eyelids, and said mockingly, "So stand on the side I hate?"

Oda Sakunosuke was silent for a moment, then said: "...Maybe."

Although he knew that the reason for this result was complicated and the main reason was not Osamu Dazai, Ming Qiu couldn't help but say that, if only that guy was there, maybe we could see him showing that kind of expression again. expression……

When seeing that expression, there is always a tinge of revenge, but it is also uncovering one's own scars.

This method of "injuring the enemy one thousand, and self-injury eight hundred" is probably only used by a fool like her.

Xiao Le suddenly ran over and said, "Sister Qiu, let me get the diary, the teacher asked us to write about the most memorable things that happened in the past."

Oda Sakunosuke noticed that Ming Qiu beside him was stunned by a certain word, and then said to Saki Le: "Go back to the past? Sounds interesting, cross the road and be careful."

"Ok!"

Ming Qiu's voice was a little low, and he said: "Yes...Even with that ability, all I can decide is the future, but I can't change the past, so I can start all over again."

"But—" Oda Sakunosuke looked at Ming Qiu and said, "The future is the most important thing."

Ming Qiu looked at him in surprise, "Huh?"

"For example, my current life in Tokyo, my children's life, my novel—" Oda Sakunosuke pointed out the window, and said, "Isn't this the future that Qiu-chan wanted before? Then what Qiu-chan wants now is What kind of future? Whether it's the future with Dazai or other futures, only Qiu-chan can choose."

Ming Qiu blinked, then laughed, and said: "That's right." She clenched her hands tightly, and said: "The thing about the orphanage in Yokohama before was a bit special... Xiao Zhichan should still remember you. that book?"

"Ah."

"It's not an ordinary book, it's the 'book' that supernatural beings want." Ming Qiu explained: "Write down what you want on it and it will come true. About this, I have my own book. idea."

Oda Sakunosuke watched her seriously.

"That book doesn't have my name on it..." Ming Qiu spread her palms, her eyes sparkled beautifully, and she said, "But I want to be a person in this world, no matter what kind of feelings it is, happy or sad, it doesn't matter. This is the future I want."

Finding a way to meet that "book" and then re-"born" her body in this world was the best way she could think of.

Oda Sakunosuke smiled and said, "That future sounds good."