sunny as rain

Ye Shiyu and his surroundings found two items in the east room.

One is the 'suicide note' contained in Ye Zhihui's cigarette box.

One was a package dropped by Jiang Yahui before leaving, which contained 5 yuan.

By now, Ye Shiyu no longer knew how to treat his biological mother.

If she loves this family and her children, she will not go with other men.

If she didn't love this family and her children, she wouldn't leave a sum of money before leaving.

The sadness of youth, the confusion and melancholy of growing up, all follow the ending of one death and one separation, and the dust settles.

Ye Shiyu tremblingly opened the 'suicide note'.

Ye Zhihui has a junior high school education, his handwriting is crooked, and his words don't express his meaning.

Some characters are shrunk into a ball and cannot be seen clearly, and some characters are spaced far apart, which is enough to see the entanglement and reluctance of the writer. A few words are wrongly written, but it does not affect the meaning to be expressed.

Ye Shiyu struggled to read the last message left by his father, speculating that this letter should have been written before the operation.

Surgery was risky, maybe he was just worried that he would die on the operating table, so he left a few words.

Ye Shiyu cried and read: "If I die, please bury part of me under the cherry tree in the yard. Yahui likes to raise kittens and puppies, but she can't keep them alive. Dead cats and dogs They are all buried under the cherry tree, guarding her day and night.

Bury me there too, I'll wait for her where she is, it doesn't matter if she comes back or not, I will wait forever.

Around, Xiaoyu is still young, if something happens to me, please help me take care of him.I don't know whether it was luck or misfortune for you to meet our family. Think of Xiao Yu as your own brother, and he can help you share some of the burden when he grows up.

Xiaoyu, grow up quickly, study hard, and listen to the words around you. "

This 'superfluous' suicide note, written before the operation, should not be seen by anyone, has now truly become a suicide note.

Ye Zhihui died of a blood clot remaining in his body after the car accident. He was too emotional, coupled with sudden and violent exercise, resulting in a pulmonary embolism and died on the spot.

Ye Zhihui's body was sent to the hospital, and the external fixation device on his leg was removed. The doctor planned to take it back, but he bought it with half of the 5 yuan.

The two returned to Guanma Village by car, and buried the external fixation device under the cherry tree overnight.

Delicate fingers shuttled through the wet soil, this was Ye Zhihui's last temperature.

After the funeral, Zhou Zhou and Ye Shiyu sat in the west room in a daze.

The sky was gloomy, the spring rain was damp, and the bean-sized raindrops crackled and splashed on the window panes.

This is the place where Ye Shiyu grew up, but now it is so strange.

In the past, Ye Shiyu was really happy. He often ignored his parents' objections, locked himself in the west room, and then spoke loudly to the outside.

His goal is just to have a room of his own. Parents need to knock on the door and ask his opinion when they come in. Then he will put on an absurd look to prevent them from entering and leaving his room, and continue to play happily.

Now that the whole house is empty, he can choose where he wants to live, but no one can accompany him to perform anymore.

He leaned his head lightly on the surrounding shoulders, and whispered, "Surroundings, what shall we do in the future? We are all adults, will we be sent to the orphanage?"

Before he finished speaking, Ye Shiyu burst into tears suddenly, and pushed the surroundings: "Nearby, you go, leave me alone, I heard them say that the children in the orphanage live together, and if anyone adopts them, they have to go with them .

You will be an adult soon, and you will take all the money you have at home. If you are so smart, you will be able to support yourself, or call your mother and ask her to pick you up.Leave me alone, I don't want to be your drag bottle. "

The surroundings looked at him coldly, and he laughed angrily, and said deliberately: "Are you a showman? It's not that there is no one at home, and you go to an orphanage, and there are uncle and second uncle."

Ye Shiyu stopped crying as soon as he heard it, sniffled his nose, shook his head like a rattle, and looked out of the window in horror: "I won't go, I would rather go to the orphanage than to the house of the uncle and the second uncle, The uncle is a pervert, and the second uncle always beats people."

When he thought of the two women who were bullied away by the uncle, the overheard conversation, and Ye Rufeng hiding in the corn field, he felt horrified.

In his young mind, he had already regarded Ye Zhirong as a pervert and Ye Zhihua as a perpetrator.

Ye Shiyu cried and asked, "around, what should I do? I'm about to start school, are you still leaving?"

I glanced at him around, and teased him like a prank: "Well, I will leave when you start school, anyway, I am so old, I can support myself, but you, let's think about what to do next."

Ye Shiyu really buried his head in thinking for a while, and the more he thought about it, the more something went wrong. Why was the second brother who was finally looking forward to being pushed away by himself?

He had an idea, and cried miserably, "around...you go...I don't want to hurt you."

I tore some toilet paper around and handed it to Ye Shiyu, and said softly: "Come on, wipe it quickly, I didn't say I don't want you, I won't go."

Ye Shiyu sniffled his nose, hugged the surroundings and did not let go, and asked urgently: "Really? Then you can be sure, we can't leave in the future, we must be together forever. You will stay here, You will never be able to leave again.”

They patted him on the back and threatened: "If you cry again, I will leave. How old you are, you cry all the time. It's so annoying."

Ye Shiyu immediately stopped crying, and hung around his body like a sloth, his legs were wrapped around his waist, and his arms were wrapped around his neck, refusing to let go.

He coughed and said: "I have already contacted Ye Rufeng, we will go to the city tomorrow, rent a house near where he lives, and I will be able to complete the transfer procedures for you before the school starts. "

Ye Shiyu happily grabbed the surroundings, raised his head suddenly, and almost bumped into the noses of the surroundings, he asked suspiciously: "What about you? Are you not going to transfer schools?"

Ye Shiyu's eyes were very bright, as if there were two small ice-blue flames hidden inside, jumping up and down.

He pinched his nose and shook it around: "Ye Shiyu, what are you thinking about in your beautiful little head every day? I'm going to take the college entrance examination soon, so I can just study at home. When the time comes, I will directly take the college entrance examination. Why do I need to transfer to another school?" .”

Ye Shiyu was as wilted as an eggplant beaten by frost, and howled: "Why can't I catch up with you? You have passed the college entrance examination, and I haven't yet."

Pulling his hands and feet away, Ye Shiyu entangled him silently like an octopus after a while, he frowned and looked at Ye Shiyu: "What are you going to do after chasing me?

Don't think about something all day long, study hard. "

"Surroundings, why don't I drop out of school? We don't have money to study."

Hitting Ye Shiyu around, he clapped his hands and said seriously: "Come on, what can you do if you don't study? There is one underage child laborer. You don't have to worry about money. I can work part-time while studying in college."

Ye Shiyu talked a lot of nonsense, and was agitated by the surroundings. He obediently climbed off him, closed his eyes and fell asleep slowly.

In fact, it wasn't too cold at night, and Ye Shiyu didn't forget to wear pajamas, but in the middle of the night, he couldn't stop shaking all over his body, as if he was going through a torment in his heart, his throat hurt badly, and he felt like he had a fever.

He slowly got up from the bed, and stepped on the cold tiled floor with his bare feet. It was as if he was stepping on a large piece of solid ice, and the soles of his feet were cold.But he didn't want to give up, grabbed the edge of the bed and tried to stand up, closed his eyes, and waited for the dizziness to pass.

He often wondered what mistake he had made and why he had to endure such torture?

I saw my own mother elope with other men and leave them.

And that time, he was almost stoned to death in his own home, almost burned to death by fire, almost hacked to death by his uncle, almost hurt by a group of wretched men, and then abducted.

He attributed everything to his own uselessness, pretending that nothing happened on the surface, but in reality he was suffering endlessly in his dream.

He could always dream of a snow-white body lying quietly on the bed, and that person opened his eyes and looked at him.

He was startled to realize that that person was himself, and then it was difficult to fall asleep again.

In fact, he was surrounded by a group of men that day, and he saw all those strangely overlapping bodies.

But he didn't dare to open his eyes, and his eyelids kept trembling.

It's hard to imagine, if I didn't pretend to be unconscious that day, if I opened my eyes that day, how I would have been eaten alive by those men.

After a series of changes in the family, Ye Shiyu felt physically and mentally exhausted at first, and was very depressed, but he was soon relieved because he was always around.

It felt like standing under a tall and narrow window, with chains tied to the soles of his feet, and he could only wander around in the dim room.

But he is not afraid, because every time he raises his head, he can see the surroundings.

Surroundings would go out of the window, stare at him with gentle eyes, and keep looking at him.

Like a beam of deformed light, it fell on his bare shoulders and neck.

Ye Shiyu was dizzy for a while, and the world was spinning, and he accidentally touched the sinful secret deep in his heart.

Ye Shiyu knew since she was a child that she liked men.

Not because he chooses a skirt over jeans or a black lace coat with a cropped haircut, or because he doesn't even look at a girl writing him a love letter.

Instead, when I saw the surroundings for the first time, I felt a sense of guilt, like a pure soul rubbed with coarse gravel, arousing a burst of frenzy.

While watching him out of the corner of his eye, he was afraid that he would run away in fright.

The downpour of rain was overwhelming, and the house was filled with a damp and musty smell without warning.

Half asleep and half awake, he felt Ye Shiyu lying down beside him again, his whole body was hot.

Before he could wake up, a random kiss landed on his lips.

To be precise, it was more like a punishment-like kiss, and his lower lip was smashed abruptly.

The surroundings panted silently until Ye Shiyu fell on the pillow next to him and fell asleep again.

The author has something to say: Most of the time when I wrote this article, it was snowing. I especially like rainy days. Do you like it?