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The word meaning itself has an inexplicable meaning.

There is no need to pursue a "meaning" in life. After all, life is the greatest meaning.

Ms. Wen was born in a very ordinary family and grew up following a very ordinary life trajectory. She has endured hardships, enjoyed happiness, lived a stable life, and lived a life where she could see the head at a glance, which was happiness for her.So she wanted her children to be safe and have a "normal" life too.

But she forgot that there are 70 billion people in the world, and there are 70 billion kinds of normal, not that 70 billion people live the same life, which is called normal.

Father Wen cut the fruit, walked out of the kitchen with a plate, and before he left, he did not forget to explain repeatedly: "Speak well, both of you, don't make too much noise, or come out to eat first, at worst, let's have a family meeting together."

Mother Wen frowned, calmed down slowly, waved at Father Wen, sat down on a chair beside her, and remained silent.

"Mom, let me ask you something, do you really think this is pervert?" Without waiting for Wen's mother to answer, Wen Xu shook his head, "No, you just think these are too rare, and you can't see them if they are rare. I'm stuffed into the general crowd, let me follow the crowd. Just like before, you want me to marry that girl, you just want me to marry a wife and have children like a 'normal person', no matter what this marriage brings to me You don't care about what a painful future you bring to that girl, you just want to put me in the shackles of a 'normal person'."

Following the crowd should be the safest way, hiding in the crowd, throwing away all of one's individuality, and naturally not getting hurt if you don't get ahead.

He has lived like this for many years, and he feels that his face is not clear.He happened to be a wild trapped beast, even if he forgot how to resist, every ordinary behavior was trying to break out of the cage.

"I have become what I am today, Xiaoshu has become what I am today, sooner or later I will become what I am today... Have you really regretted not even a moment?"

Mother Wen picked up the apron that was left on the table, covered her face, and wailed silently.

No one wants to see this situation, but it is there.

For a long, long time, Wen Xu could only hear the loud conversations from the TV series playing outside the door from time to time, sensational music permeated the somewhat crowded small house, Father Wen and Chi Chi Chi seemed to be talking about something, mixed with laughter, it was not dull after all topic.

"Mom, I've made you unhappy by saying something wrong. I'm sorry. But I did nothing wrong, and I don't want to change it." Wen Xu looked at her mother's head that was still reluctant to raise her head, and the apron she was holding was also crushed. The tears were wet and turned dark, and my heart was always painful.

Wen Xu, who grew up in this environment, has a somewhat flattering personality. He subconsciously wants to "apologize" to his mother. When he sees others sad, he is always very anxious to find a solution. Tortured him all the time.

Mother Wen wiped her tears, and she could see her red nose even when she lowered her head.She brushed her hair wet with tears by her ears, and said, "You are right, it was mom who was wrong, mom never listened to you well. Xu, I will listen to you, and I will apologize to that kid, you Don't go, okay?"

She was afraid that if the child left, he would refuse to go home for several years.

From the time she gave birth to these two children, she lost her own life, lost her own interests, and later even lost her own career and her own circle of friends. Only the child is pinched in the hand.

Wen Xu felt sad.But he still nodded, and said softly: "I'm back, let's talk about it, there's no need to run away. Mom, you just have one more son in the future, and a full house of children and grandchildren is exactly what you expected."

After saying these words, he also felt light all over.He threw away all the things that had trapped him for so many years. From now on, no matter what, sooner or later he and he would no longer have to hide. He was released after serving his sentence.

"Sooner or later." Wen Xu came out, smoothed the wrinkled corners of his clothes, and slowly sat next to Chi Chi, took out a napkin, pinched Chi Chi's wrist, picked up the sticky man, and carefully used the paper towel He wiped the crevices of his fingertips clean sooner or later.

Father Wen looked uncomfortably at his hand, which was also stained with juice, and felt a little resentful.He coughed loudly on purpose, and said awkwardly: "Then what, I'll serve your mother's meal, you two just wait here."

Sooner or later, watching Dad Wen walk into the kitchen, he straightened his body and asked, "Did you have a conflict with your mother?"

Wen Xu knew that sooner or later he was someone who liked to think wildly, so he directly dragged his clothes and sat down on the dining table, not shying away from this quarrel: "Yes, our ideas are a bit different, but it has been resolved now, and... because You just figured it out."

Sooner or later he gave a puzzled "hmm", his eyes looked quite puzzled.Just now, he and Papa Wen chatted without saying a word, and found that Papa Wen didn't seem to know much about this family. This man is like a marginalized existence that is common in thousands of families. He doesn't understand his wife. , let alone know children, and he just said indifferently about this huge conflict that was about to tear the family apart: "When children lose their temper, they go home less often."

He doesn't have a family, and he doesn't even know what a normal and healthy family atmosphere looks like, but in the few good memories he has left, he deeply remembers the family that Wen Shu told him - warm and beautiful , Parents love each other and are in harmony with each other.

Maybe it's because children can't always see the bad things, hidden under the calm sea, the golden sea illuminated by the rising sun, only the sailboats set sail, and the seagulls swirled low.

"Sooner or later, Auntie didn't know you were coming back in advance, and didn't ask your taste, so I just let your uncle make some of Xiaoxu's favorite food. If you don't like it, let Xiaoxu order another takeaway. You young people like to eat takeaway, so it's okay to eat less." Mama Wen was a little cautious, standing in front of Chi Chi, she couldn't help pinching the edge of her apron, her smile was also stiff.

Her eye circles were slightly swollen, but fortunately they were no longer red. If you didn't pay close attention, you wouldn't be able to tell that it was after crying.But her eyes were still uncomfortable, so she couldn't help rubbing them with her hands, and turned her back unnaturally.

"It's okay, auntie, I have the same taste as Brother Xu." Sooner or later, I was a little nervous to follow, so I quickly stood up from the dining table and chairs.In fact, he met Mama Wen when he was in middle school. Over the years, this woman didn't seem to have changed, but her complexion became more sallow, the corners of her eyes became more obvious, and the gray-brown spots gradually spread out on her face.

It's called, getting old.

Mother Wen hurriedly said, "Sit, sit." She also pulled away the chair next to Chi Chi, sat on it, and observed Chi Chi carefully.

"Son, are you... already working?"

Chi Chi nodded, with a proud expression on his face, subconsciously looked at Wen Xu, then hurriedly glanced away, and replied: "I opened a pancake shop next to Brother Xu's school. A lot of money was put down."

Mother Wen swallowed her saliva, her breathing was a little anxious. Originally, sooner or later, at this age, she should be on campus, busy with the studies that children of this age should be busy with, might skip class, and worry about the upcoming graduation season.

She squeezed her fist, then slowly let go of her hand, and said softly: "Sooner or later, our family will be sorry for you."

Sooner or later, I was taken aback. I didn't expect that mother Wen would say this to herself.He looked at Wen Xu with some embarrassment, his eyes were full of bewilderment and asking for help, but Wen Xu just smiled and nodded to him.

"Xiaoshu didn't understand anything at the time. When he saw me, he just cried and kept crying, saying that he was bullied, and that you helped him. I... I told him not to speak out about these things, and I told him to shut up , What does a child know, I taught him to be what he is now."

But these years, she would often hear Wen Shu crying in his dreams, crying "help" and "sorry".

She knew she was wrong.

"Auntie, I..." Sooner or later he opened his mouth, but he couldn't say "it's okay". He had hatred in his heart, and those hatreds could be offset by a five-year-late "I'm sorry".

Mother Wen took his hand and interrupted him, "Xiao Xu said, you will be my son from now on. I haven't learned how to love children in my whole life, so I will learn to love you slowly from now on. good."

Chi Chi lowered his head, and his eyes fell on mother Wen's rough hands.He nodded and said nothing.But he knew that he had made the right trip this time, perhaps the things that stood before Wen Xu and his family had always carried his own shadow.

"Hey."

Wen Xu connected the phone, walked to the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room, still staring at the direction of Chi Sooner, unwilling to let go of his eyes for a moment.

"It's raining heavily outside!" It was Jiang Xuan's voice, and the girl roared with her throat open, and managed to convey what she wanted to say amidst the strong "whoosh" of the wind.

Wen Xu hurriedly opened the curtains, it was really raining heavily outside, the raindrops were all stuck together, it was like a waterfall rushing out of the gully in the thick fog.The water fell down the glass window in an instant, washing the window extremely clean.

He also imitated Jiang Xuan's voice and shouted: "Don't you have an umbrella? Do you need me to pick you up?"

Jiang Xuan's side was full of wind noises, blowing into Wen Xu's earholes.He listened carefully to the noise in the microphone, and only then did he hear Jiang Xuan's sharp voice: "I'm fine, but didn't Wen Shu go hiking today? Is he—now—something——"

climb mountains.

Wen Xu was taken aback, and looked out the window again at the roof of the iron house that was blown over by the wind, and the green belt next to it turned into a quagmire.He hung up the phone in a hurry, and played it to Wen Shu with trembling hands.

Busy, all busy.In the end, it even turned into a shutdown, leaving only the cold mechanical female voice.

"What's wrong?" Seeing Wen Xu's pale face in an instant, Chi Chi hurriedly stood up from the chair, walked quickly to his side, and held his cold hand.

Wen Xu was a little restless, holding the phone tightly in his hand, and unwillingly called Wen Shu again.He looked at Chi Chi fixedly, and said, "Xiao Shu went to climb the mountain, and he should still be on the mountain now."

Sooner or later, I will see the outside world, the wind and rain, not to mention on the mountain, even in the city streets, I am afraid that accidents will happen.Mudslides, strong winds, landslides, anything that could have killed him, and being trapped in the mountains without enough food was a trivial matter.

"Sooner or later, don't eat. It's too dangerous for you to accompany me to the police station to call the police." Wen Xu held Chi Chi's hand, picked up the thin coat on the sofa, and was about to go out.

The author says:

Wen Shu: Destroy me, I have been out of touch for half a century, but you all only care about eating:-D